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	i have come out of the proverbial D/s closet a few short days ago when i finally hit the "create profile" button. Insanity: repeating the same actions and expecting different results and by this i mean i was trying to find happiness in vanilla relationships and hurting some wonderful people along the way. i could not love them, i tried but couldn’t. D/s has to be a part of the relationship. i don't have to be with someone, i want to be with someone. i want to be a coveted possession, which is protected, guarded and loved beyond imagination. i need guidance and instruction to be molded into the wonderful person that can make a Household proud. i know i can be a better person and be so much happier for it. In return for that amazing privilege, i want to please my Devoted by giving them the pride of owning such a possession. to show them i can work quickly, take guidance and reprimand when i haven't succeeded and strive to try harder. to me that is a relationship. i think that should be the basis for any relationship. i am searching for a Master that can read me, know when i'm lying to myself, when i'm working too hard, when i've had a bad day or when i’m just grouchy and can give me the proper reaction that is appropriate at that time. i am looking for a Master that i aspire to be like in every way. i want someone to know me that deeply that i give my entire resolve to them and i have that freedom of knowing i'm safe. i have read many things, watched what i could and surfed some tame to disgusting sites so i have an inkling and desire but it's not the sexual aspect that lures me, it's the discipline to serve well and the desire to do it. So, here i am with my first revision to my ad. i have found reason to change it b/c it would eliminate me as a choice for many. i will not tolerate an unhealthy lifestyle. i need my Devoted to be athletic, more then i so i can be pushed to better myself as well. i believe in leadership by example. i will not tolerate smokers. i am not interested in being a third in any type of relationship for any length of time. Period. i am a romantic, i am certain my "happily ever after" is out there and i’m finally looking in the right direction to find my Devoted. So, i will take the time to find my Devoted, i do not want to kneel to the wrong Master.

4/17/2013 1:00:08 PM

Going to take a few days off this site. Bad apples have left a rancid taste in my mouth :(

4/17/2013 8:22:43 AM

Can I be this frustrated already with this process. I think this is why most resolve themselves to vanilla relationships, thinking that it might work when we know darn well it isn't going to....yet again.

It is disheartening to get excited to "think" you share the same ideas but then come to find out that they aren't who they portrayed themselves to be.

My personal favourite is to find someone physically attractive and they live far far away or they are passionate about something that is a hard limit for you.

Had to vent, I hope everyone is having better luck!

4/9/2013 6:23:59 PM

Someone was kind enough to point out that I need to update my journal.

I am currently looking for Him and my white picket fence!

5/10/2006 6:57:41 AM

i am now owned by the One that i have been dreaming of, and want to be with Him for ever.

i am only seeking friends at this time upon the approval of my Devoted.

3/19/2006 9:48:59 AM

Hello A/all,

It has been brought to my attention that my picture might not be only in just my profile. There is nothing I can do, but hope that they were not rude in thier facade.

2/4/2006 9:49:55 PM

Thank Y/you all for Y/your responses, but i am taken by the direction and excellent character of another i feel incredibly worthy.

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