Okay, since I cannot access my new account, I've updated this one. New photo, updated profile, etc. I got rid of a lot of stuff on the preferences, too, just because I felt it was cluttered.

I am in the process of creating a new profile. This profile is not entirely up-to-date, but I am having technical issues with my second one so I do not want to send people there since I can't access it at all.

The worst thing in the world, to me, is finding someone that makes you feel truly whole and valued and worthwhile and they aren't available in the way you need them to be. It's like being suffocated from the inside out.

This too shall pass.

Do some of you even bother to read my profile before shooting off ridiculous messages? Please read my profile completely, or better yet, save the condemnations, judgment, and unsolicited advice. I truly do not need it. If you persist, however, I'll just reacquaint myself with the block feature. Huzzah!

Okay so I had some issues and took an unexpected but needed break from this site. In the interim I did find an online-only guide/mentor who is giving me commands, rules to follow, punishments etc. This is helping a lot, but I'm now ready to start looking for something in real life again, and it's a part of my goals with him as well. I'll be updating my whole profile soon, and uploading some more photos in the next few days.

I am also now looking for someone to administer spankings only while I continue my search. So, if you have really good references and are interested in giving therapy, maintenance, and the occasional punishment spanking (the punishments will be per my online Dom's discretion), and are in metro Atlanta let me know (prefer north OTP, in Roswell/Alpharetta/Sandy Springs would be great, but will travel for the right person with good references and safety protocol). 

I know I had a few people that I sort of just abandoned in the middle of conversations and I apologize for that. It was not intended or planned at first, but after a few days away I realized this site can become a bit much and I needed a much longer break for my sanity. 

It's funny how much words can hurt. Even seemingly innocuous ones. Even from someone that you barely knew. Regardless, I still am open. Still here; just as I am. I can only be me, no pretenses, and if that gets me hurt or even worse, left alone, then there's nothing I can do. However, I have learned a valuable lesson. I will play my cards close to my chest from now on, and I will not allow anyone to get past the surface until I'm sure.

Hey everyone. My messages have finally slowed! I'm so relieved. If I didn't answer you, please don't take it personally. You probably just have one of my hard limits on your loves or something like that. Also, I realized I may have missed a few good ones in trying to skim over everyone, so there may be a few I might still answer. Thank you everyone for your interest and kind (almost all) messages. I only received a few bad ones, and only one blatant asshole (the message said simply "fat"; I thought of replying with "dickless" but decided to just block).

Please understand: I WILL NOT CHAT ON YAHOO WITH YOU OR GO ON SKYPE. Not yet! If you send me a message that has nothing but you asking me to go on Yahoo, I will probably not respond. I want to take this SLOW. I want something real, to build trust and a good rapport between us. I want to message here for a while, slowly progress to email and photo exchange, then possibly chat, and IF THAT ALL GOES WELL then we can POSSIBLY Skype and VERY FAR IN THE FUTURE meet. I am not stupid; I am not naive (seems like I keep putting this and nobody's paying attention). Here, let me say it again: I AM NOT STUPID; I AM NOT NAIVE. And don't give me that shit about 'if you're serious you'll chat right away' or whatever. Give me a fucking break. 

I got a few more responses done this afternoon. I'm up to I think May 18 but not quite done. I am skipping over many. Sorry. It had to be done. I'm a real person, with a job and other interests and the need to actually sleep. 

Please be aware: just because I don't have D/s relationship experience doesn't mean I'm ignorant of BDSM, nor does it mean I'm naive. In other words, I'm not stupid! I'm not on a bandwagon, either. I had my first BDSM sexual experience probably 15 years ago. A few messages have prompted me to point this out to any future senders. Cheers. :)

Okay. My humblest apologies, but I cannot answer everyone and I give up trying. I'm truly sorry. It's nothing personal. I didn't even post nudes or anything so I'm a little blown away (pun intended) that I'm getting so many messages still... It has died down, but only a little and I feel overwhelmed at trying to respond kindly to each message as I've been doing. So, if I don't respond to you, there was something in your message, profile, likes/loves/etc. that made me think we aren't compatible, it's nothing personal and I'm not stuck-up or rude. I just don't have time to stay here for hours on end. Thank you very much to everyone who has messaged me. I do appreciate it, and again, sorry if I cannot get back to you.

Okay goodness. I thought it would die down a bit, but so far it hasn't. I promise I will try to get caught up tomorrow. Keep in mind, right now I still have at least 60 messages to get to. So please, don't think I won't answer you; I will, it just may take a while. Thank you everyone!

I have gone through and edited my limits and a few things of other interests. I have very specific hard limits; I'm not interested in the extreme. Hopefully this will help everyone figure out if we could really be compatible or not. 

I really have a lot of messages. It's a tad overwhelming. I apologize that it is taking so long to get back to everyone (I have stuff to do in real life, too). I promise to try and message everyone back, and I'm trying to go in time order. Thank you again, I am humbled by the responses (and so far none have been ridiculously inappropriate or scary, so kudos everyone for that). 

Oops, one more thing. I've turned off chat requests. At first, I would prefer to only communicate through messages and/or email. It gives me the comfort of time to think through my responses and edit them before sending. If things progress with someone, I will consider real-time chat, but that's very far in the future. :)

I'm very humbled by the messages I've received, and know that even if I'm not interested, I will try my best to message you each back. Thank you for the kind welcome.