One can't escape is true nature ... Trying to be vanilla is irrelevant for one who has known the lifestyle and one must live its true position. i have realized my being sub during my teenage years and want to live this lifestyle fully after my failing in converting a vanilla girl to bdsm. i am a 39 y/o male, fully aware of my slave position eager to serve full time as well as to be of assistance in recruitment and training of slaves. As this is a lifestyle, my goal is to serve as a live in in time. i believe all can be done with determination and that's the reason why i would consider seriously a relocation for the right Owner(s). i am opened to become part of a Poly household if necessary. i am experienced in servicing but not as a live in it yet ... i have hope to find the right person to own me and will take time to find my soulmate. i see a spiritual dimension in bdsm and am interested in the Darkest aspects of life. i am looking for an Owner, be a woman or a couple to train me and take me as his/her pet. i like a Woman who has that control over me,i can please women ,which i can't explain but its like a gift and i can't controll it,i get more and more submissive to him/her for some reason. this is more than pain in a relationship, its about respect and being able to obey and and please my Owner, i know how to do both and mosttly i would be proud to wear my Owner collar. i m a maso slave;
