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I am sitting here pondering what to write, and my intuition is pointing me in the direction of detailing all about me, or the other side is thinking I will give the basics and let you find out more, as things go if you are so inclined. Favoring the latter, so in that vain, here are some generics and leave the rest for later.


I enjoy good company, laughter, and good times. I have a full time job and work dilligently to be the best at it. I enjoy many things in this world, but mostly I enjoy intelligent company.  I am pretty down to earth, and try to keep my life balanced and even keeled.  I can pretty easily talk with executives to panhandlers, so I think I have an open personality.


A little bit about what type of person I am looking for;

    -Someone honest, open, and can pretty easily hold a conversation.

    -Someone who has a career focus, or can understand that I do, and that means commitments have to be made.

    -Someone who has a pretty decent sense of humor, I am a smidge of a potty mouth, so if your  sensibilities are easily offended,,  we probably  are not a good match :)..

    -Just someone 'Normal'

    -Someone with whom I can hang out with regularly, and pretty consistently (yes,, something real close to dating....:)  LDR's well unless there is just an unbelievable connection,, probably not going to work!
    -If you are good with a flogger, well thats a pure bonus!!!!


If you are interested in knowing more I look forward to speaking/emailing with you. If not, then may the gods of laughter visit you often!

1/21/2009 9:12:31 PM
Been a good day.  The weather is warm and the sun seems to be shining more and more.  It strange to me now, it seems I am at a wierd point these days.  I am thinking rather in deep thoughtful lines about this and that.  Each time I come here I think more and more that I have made some mistakes, some real doosies.   I have had to face myself and think hard on the decisions I am ready to make.   To be a commited slave is not the easiest of decisions or lifestyles.  And for me I had to come to in stages.   I couldnt do it in one glorious step (yesterday I was not, but Yes today I am!!!)   Being ready to accept what you know is true, and embrace the good side as well.  Finding comfort and security in guidance.  Finding the love that exists when you accept completely the person/lifestyle/wisdom with the your domme.   Honestly its foolish to not recognize that you are imprinted with the  values of society.  Accepting that those are not for you, and having peace with moving off into a direction I feel best with.  At the core of it, I am a follower, and its that very truth that speaks to why I think its not easy to change against the current and live in a outside world.  But one that I finally feel certain that is for me.  I guess relief and contentment is probably the best way to describe it.   And maybe why I am so deeply pensive these days.   But on the bright side we have a real leader in the white house, a finally someone we can believe in is a real leader  :)  
1/20/2009 8:19:26 PM
Seems time to add some more, I hadnt been here for a while.  Its odd the directions that life leads you towards.  Many things have happened in these past months.  Many changes and many things that remind me of decisions made and mistakes I would undo.  Like everyone I suppose,,, we all go through life and make mistakes and try our best to make good decisions. 

On less of a deep thoughtful side, I find that like everyone I am waiting anxiously for the new Obama presidency.  He seems to inspire hope with every speech he gives, and hopefully good things await in the coming months.  He reminds me of an early supervisor I knew, and is one of those things that seem to inspire the best in us.
12/18/2007 2:29:28 PM
A few months ago, I had the unglorious experience of disappointing myself greatly, and in reflecting back on it all, I had something of an epiphany.  I had met a very interesting domme here online and began exchanging emails.  She seemed very cool, funny, with a sense of strictness and discipline in her beliefs.  Basically an excellent starting point when meeting a Domme.  When we decided that it might be a good idea to meet, but before we did I had sabotagged that meeting.  After about couple months now I have reflected back on what had happened, and it hit me what really had gone on.  And I really do feel that I did shunt that relationship off, and it has taken me a long time to realize basically I was scared.  Its one of those things, where sometimes admitting truth to yourself is hard understanding it is something that is really hard.  I dont know what it all means, or anything other than I know that I am more confused about where I am going and what I am exactly....
8/13/2007 2:06:47 PM
WHY AM I SO TIRED TODAY?

What I thought to title todays entry.  Because between staying up late and not sleeping enough.  I havebeen feeling a bit like a caged animal..  Been studying much and not getting out to burn some of my energy off.  We had an AWESOME storm blow through last night, and I was like "There has got to be a tornado with this!"    But no just really strong wings and rain.  I almost went out in it, and ran around with my dogs, but it didnt get to me until almost 1, and I was already in my underwear.  Yeah, I can see how that goes.  The neighbor looks out the window, and sees me in my glorious boxers.  Then Yells to his wife "HONEY,,, call the police.  That f'in neighbor is running around outside in,,,,,  well Fuck I dont know,, but it looks like underwear"   :) :)... 

I envisioned that would end badly!  And I was too tired to get dressed.

I wonder if I am the only person who still runs outside in the rain, to experience it.  Its cold, refreshing, and wild..  Yet nobody in my suburbia even considers it.  They do not know what they are missing :).



8/8/2007 9:08:13 PM
Had one of THOSE days,,, well first work was sooooo boring today.  You know how it is when you dont have enough to do, and your just sort of sitting there.  Trying to feel like you are working,,, when in reality you are just screwing off, and bouncing between waiting for the mysterious very important email to show up, and surfing, to looking at your desktop :)...  Thankfully gets better soon, as my project begin in earnest next week (whew,,, YES :)

I saw today that more Briney talk..  Well off on my celebrity trip.  I gotta figure out how to be one of these people!  I mean seriously..  People who are famous, for.... getting drunk?  SHIT I can do THAT!!!  I tie one on,, I want 75K (if I make a call and some poparazzi happens to show up, boy they always are in the right place at the right time,,,, hmmm)..  Or if I wear some clothes that are a little too skimpy..  OH ABSOLUTELY..  I can wear a speedo,,, for 50G's (again poparazzi call)...  I gotta find a way to enter into this market!!!! 

Went to "Parties in the Park" today, and OMG there was NOBODY there...  OK I felt a little stupid, walking up expecting to see hundreds of people only to hear a few birds and some crickets :)  Ooops.  I am guessing because it has been sooo hot.  I mean the people of hell are like living in AC compared to this crap..    but still I would have felt a little better if I had found out.  A friend was laughing at me, because she declined  "ITS TOO DAMN HOT,, WHAT,, R U NUTS?"  Was her text to me..  I laughed at myself upon seeing nobody there,,,,  I guess so :)..
8/1/2007 4:02:19 PM
I have a few minutes here and would just love to know something..  I get the ads on the side of the web page showing these awesomely HOT chicks, and they all are "looking for sex"  And HOLY SHIT, they all live right around me....  I mean who the hell knew that lil' ole Missouri had all these hot undersexed women????  I Certainly wouldnt have guessed it!!  NO SERIOUSLY!!! :)

OK, all kidding aside for a sec..  So I know that the site is a scam, and that half of them have pictures with the Ocean background,,, but they REALLY live in Missouri.... 

So they are repackaging the pics, and the ad-software is smart enough to have picked off my area..  Does it know I am a GUY too?   Here is my thought,,, that yes it does..  I am guessing that women on this site get to look at pics of HOT guys?  Who want to discuss fashionable clothing, and meet for walks etc????

I am somewhat curious.. 
7/29/2007 7:13:24 AM
OK this is probably bad karma to enter two of these in one day... But some curiously funny shit happened today.. First was my blind date! Well that was not so good. She wasnt a bad person, just OK there wasnt a "connection" I know how that goes.. We both felt it, and it was slightly awkward. But there is something to be said for the person who at least puts forth a little effort to be polite about the whole event... I got a little bored, and I could see she wasnt having much fun either.. So I was like F' it,,,, So I offered we take a ride to downtown on the metro, and hit some better spots.. Well it was a well intentioned plan,, just the trains dont run very fast and she was like blaming me for the trains being slow??????? So yes it was interesting to an extent, that I enjoy doing my little psycho analysis on people and weaknesses, and how they cover it up with attitude. But this was even a little much even for me :).. Thank goodness, most of my friends dont set me up with bad dates :).....

Second was I got a curious note from a person here online.. And it was for a proxy setup (ie I have a friend in your area,,, and you might make a good candidate)... One of those :)... OK it smelled bogus,,, I mean for most folks after 30, you kinda hit the WFC, and you just go talk to people... So I was like F' it.. Look I am probably one of the most approachable people, and even have a decent sense of humor so I sent her a note back and said,, “just write me”... 99% chance that was a faker, but it fit with my weekend.. Like strike one on the blind date, does it not follow intuitively that the blanket note would also be a ruse?

Somehow I often feel like I should document some of this crap, as it seems slightly funny.... And with a little effort could be put into a really funny skit.

I often wonder if there arent BIG stages to life.. Like 20's was all about being/looking cool.. Fashion, and other such trivialities seem to dominate your life. 30's seem to be about a letting go of that crap, and embracing F'it attitude, and looking for people who just "FIT" to your personality.. Does 40's mean I will give up entirely on all that and just take anyone who comes along? (I mean I did the resume dating, then the personality dating.... What is next, the "do you have a pulse?" I am guessing :) :)....

OK I have had a few, and should probably shut this off before I get type more crap than I should.... But its cathartic... Lets all face it.. A failed date sucks,,, even if it was completely mutual.. Like you are reminded that you are getting older, and that whole story...

:)... You know its times when you feel down, that remind you of when times are good,,,, you appreciate it more :)....

7/28/2007 10:48:51 AM
Havent entered one of these for awhile.  Been pretty busy..  New Job :)..  Which I like, everyone seems very nice, and things are pretty good! 

Thinking about buying a horse sometime soon.  But I may put that on hold till later,, kinda depends on many different factors!

Been dating some, seeing old friends, and doing various different things...  I have some friends from vanilla sites that we got along so well we just became friends, and I think I want to give that a go here...  But here is complicated.  Fake people, fake pretenses, and this a quasi porn site I think makes some very real barriers there :)...  Yeah some BARRIERS  :)..  But still, could be worthwhile.  Women tend to be leary of guys in a porn (light) context..  So will see where that goes!

Have been toying with a new joke/story I have been working on...  I saw that Dick Cheney is wanting to declare war on Iran..  OK this shit is just funny to me!  He reminds me of a fat evil little buddha.  I mean he has the huge head, the pot belly,,, I mean it fits,, right.  And I am sure the latest war wish was followed with the generals trying to tell him, we have no troops for that..  But I know his communication is ALL one way,, so my vision of this is;  

-you have generals telling him "Um we cant do that   SIR!!"

-And Dick Cheney with viens bulging, turning red, slamming the desk,,,, in an evil tyraid,,, "Didnt you hear me,, I SAID ATTACK",,,, "ATTACK",,, "ATTACK....."

Its a work in progress :),,,,  gotta make it all fit in a funny way :)...

Well good song on, and I need to get my lazy Saturday morning MOVING  :)......



 
4/7/2007 5:36:31 AM
So many things going on at the moment.   The job situation is developing quite slowly.  I have interest from groups in San Jose, Seattle, NY, Nashville, and Tampa Bay...  HOLY SH*T...  Now just figure which group interests me??  SHOCKER,,,  I was really surprised to see the level of interest I got!!!  I have accepted I need a change.  For many reasons, but the career chance here is way too good to pass up!!  'Sides,  I am F'in tired of dealing of big company bureacracy of my current situation.  Being on the other side of that will be really a nice change of pace.   I am expecting to get a salary boost that is going to be nice...  It feels good to be wanted,, I gotta be honest. 

Interviewing..  Well something I still do not do very well at!  Like I am a f'in idiot..  I know these guys are just dying to get me...  I KNOW IT (I have inside info,,, from spies :) :)...  But none the less during these conversations I am so nervous I can hardly talk,,,, its pitiful!  But I am getting better at it...  We are now getting into the technical components to the interviews, so things are getting slightly better..  I can shine better because there aint many people who know it as good as me...   Its like when God handed out the public speaking skills....  I must have been taking a wiss,, or something cause I just missed that skill altogether!!!  :) :)

Damn, sam..  I got my tax refund check yesterday..   6G's  Now just to figure out where to spend the damn thing!!!  So many possibilities here :)..  I think the first destination is for a nice shirt, and a few drinks tonight at an elegant Bar..   I really want to tie one on tonight..


3/17/2007 7:14:51 PM
Taking a break from studying,, Had an interesting experience. I get this call from the dreaded 'Telemarketer'.. OK,, I am sitting there briefly pondering should I toment this poor person. As she butchers my name (dead givaway..) The she starts her shpiel, about something.. And I debating away,, and then I realize I CANT UNDERSTAND ONE GOD-DAMN WORD SHE IS SAYING!!!!

Then I think back to the one I got last week, and very simular situation..

I mean holy crap,, it isnt bad enough I the occasional call, but now they can barely speak the language.. Its like a double scourge has decended upon me :) :-0 :)..

And if it werent bad enough, I cant even have any fun with this at all.. The ole,, "Can you hang on for a minute" (then wait 10).. Or the classic,,, "Can I call YOU back?" Yeah,, good luck to the person trying to communicate that!! I guess there always is the Call-forward to the Porno line.. but no real feedback for it,, its just not the same!!!!

Damn Sam,, whatever is the world coming to?????
3/6/2007 8:57:26 PM
Good grief what a day!!  Just busy from the moment I got in this morning, until almost 10:00pm..  The last was a large outage that HAD to be fixed...  I am just wore out..

So I decided to have a few martini's (heh,,, heh,,, heh,,,)  Good lord now I am on the vergre of being drunk :)..  Verge,,, did I say Verge :) :) :)   But hey,, after a hard day, what is life if you cant sit back and enjoy some of it..

I have noticed there are some people on this planet who think of litttle else but work, and I often think how sad for them!  Granted most of the ones I know are wildly successful.  But it seems they miss the point.  I think when I am 65, I will be 65 and not in the same "lets go have some fun" frame of mind.. Its like my dogs.  One is young and full of vigor and wildness.  One is old, and sleeps most of the time...  Who leads the more interesting life?  One conserves everything, one expends everything?  I think it is a waste to conserve all your youth until you are old, when time catches up to you!   I suppose time is the ultimate arbitor of whose philosophy is most correct..

Ever notice when you have had a few, you tend to talk about the most innane things??  Is it just me?  :)  :)

Must be,, and certainly a clue that I need to hit the hay!!!
3/1/2007 8:33:41 PM
Still stressing over what to do here...  But dont want to fill this crazy thing with goodside/badside crap.. 

So many directions to take this tonight..  Curious things that make you wonder, crazy profiles that crack me up, latest impressions about the the new political presidential field, my latest economic theories, what to do this summer?   Hmmmmm,,, OK, something that has puzzled me for a long time now.  Housing, I bought a house about a year ago, and I almost pissed my pants when I finally got down to the brass tax of which I will stake at MINE..  Now I know that inflation rates have languished around 4% a year for just about the past decade..  But yet, housing has, by my estimation doubled in the past 5 years.  So issues of how aside.  WTF am I missing here?  I mean I make decent cash, but JEEZ, is this some of kind of secret that some people know that I dont?  Is it the generation of small business owners making gobs of cash that is the engine for this?  I just gotta know!  I mean if you cant beat'em,, join'em..  RIGHT?   Ha Ha.....
2/28/2007 5:13:27 PM
I had an good and bad day today.  A colleague I particularly like is being let go.  Which made me feel very awkward talking to her.  There is a distinct sadness that you feel when your in those spots.  I know because their life will no doubt get hard.  The usually funny bantering we do was totally stiffled, and I felt like a total DOLT as I tried to think of something good to say that was offtopic. 

But shortly afterward, I was talking with one of the vendors we deal with.  And he point blank offered me a job.  I have no clue as to details, but it sounds like they have many opportunities and I could have my pick.  Big change like this is hard for me, as I have only worked in one place (big companies do have their advantages).  I guess I have a decision to make over the course of the next few weeks as to what to do.  Now I am stressing over if the downside/upside to what I have now will be made better,,, or worse?

Today, while considering both sides to this little issue,,, I thought back to my friend, and it strikes me the ironies of life.  I can get up and move to any part of the country I like, and her fate is in direct contrast.  It makes me wonder about a couple things...  But for another time I guess.
1/13/2007 9:30:16 PM

I guess the downside to having a car that is not good in all weather, is that when the weather gets bad,  being out in it is NOT FUN :(....   My tires have an NA rating for snow and ice :)...  Which is kinda funny, given that I live in Missouri.  But it normally only snows once or twice a year, I figured that I would make do :).

 

I was actually going to go to the boat tonight for some much deserved night out with some buds.   But when I walked out on my drive I fell flat on my ass.  One of those that hurts like a mother,,, but the first thing you do is try and get up and play it off..  Then look to see if anyone actually saw it :)…  Thankfully nobody had, so I got up, and walked back inside and figured there was NO WAY I am going out in this crap :).  Now my butt just hurts LOL..

 

Idle Ramblings,,,,,

I was reading an article yesterday, and the author was theorizing that the heads of the Republican Party are going to try and force Bush to begin drawing the Iraq war down by the 08 election.  The idea is that if not the R’ will take another pounding in 08 due to policy association.   I find it curious that nobody seems to ever question why we went in at all?  I mean the bait-n-switch tactic that GWB gave use.  Of WMD, then OH,,, NO,, No,,,  Saddam was a bad man,,, everyone is glad he is gone…  Okie-Dokie then,,  I have always really believed that deep down in secret meetings Bush, Scowcroft, Rumsfeld, and Cheney all thought it would be easy to deliver democracy to the Iraqi’s and in the bigger picture a serious push could be made in the Mid-East peace policy having removed one of the legs of the Hamas triumvirate.  But since nobody bothers to question this, Sadly I guess we will never know????

 

Speaking of Bush,,, something that has always puzzled me.  I often wonder if he sits up at night in his bed, and

A:  Sits with his head in his hands and wonders aloud, “I cant believe I goofed that statement up like that”  or “I cant believe I said that”

Or

B:  Sits looking admiringly at the TV and thinks aloud,,,  “Oooh,, I look good in that tie”

 

Hmmmm which one :)…….

 

 

 

 

Well a joke is always good to end on, so here is one (Its about a C rating :0)

 

A man went over to his girl's place for a little bit of nookie between the sheets. He presented her with three choices of condom -- gold, silver, or bronze.

"Silver," she said.

 

"Why not gold?"

 

"Because I want you to come second for once!"

10/28/2006 3:27:45 PM
CARDS WIN,, CARDS WIN
THEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE CARDS WIN!!!!

:)
10/27/2006 6:12:00 PM
Ran into a a girl at happy hour, I briefly dated for awhile today.  I was amazed at how funny I felt.  I think everyone has had THAT experience when you just really fall for a person, and they just arent into you..   I suppose its a universal experience, but what suprised me today was that I felt more embarrassed seeing her.  Like even after 2 years later, I hadnt really gotten over it.  Gotten over it isnt the right word, I am not really sure what word I would attach to it.  Just a sinking feeling.  I guess this probably doesnt make any sense what-so-ever!! 

She was with some friends, and I bumped into her and we talked briefly for a minute then I just had to get outta there!  So I am gonna watch the game from home and drink a few... 
Why does dating suck?  Well days like today remind you!!!!!
10/26/2006 8:35:56 PM
Had one of those days when all things seem to go well.  No matter the issues, no matter what seemed to transpire it just seems to go well!

Cards seem to be hanging on and making things at least competitive (Thank Goodness, no sweep this time! :)

Not too much to write today,,,,,, a good case of writers block.  I guess better to leave things than to force something!

Go CARDS!!!
10/25/2006 7:29:40 PM
Funny thing, why is that when you send an email in an emotional moment you always seem to regret it?  Its like a memory lapse of epic proportion occurs and you fail to remember that this is a BAD idea and sending tomorrow will be just as effective.

One of those mysteries of life that when you are fired up, sound judgement leaves you for a more irrational thought train...  Maybe a small reminder in life that no matter how old you are, you still have much to learn!
10/22/2006 6:06:01 PM
Many interesting people here on Collarme.  I have met several and found it to be very interesting!  Though could stand to have a few more Domme's  :)!

I have taken notice that as this election season wears on, most of the talked about  are issues surrounding the elderly.  I guess that is a demographic that votes in greater percentages??  With the economy in such good shape its easy to understand the mood of indifference. 

I caught an interesting shift in tone on CNN.  They were definitely playing the doom and gloom card.  Honest statistical measures are certainly hard to come by that is true, but it does make me wonder if they are playing a card that just isnt there.  Or at least by all outward measures do not appear to be there??? 

One of those puzzling things I guess that makes you really wonder if civic journalism is really alive and well in greater depths than anyone suspects

New joke of the day!!
 A guy in a mask bursts into a sperm bank with a shotgun. "Open the fucking safe!" he yells at the woman behind the counter.

"But we're not a real bank," she replies, "we don't have any money, this is a sperm bank."

"Don't fucking argue, open the fucking safe or I'll blow your head off!" says the guy with the gun. She obliges and once she's opened the safe door the guy says, "Take out one of the bottles and drink it."

"But it's full of sperm!' she replies nervously.

"Don't argue, just drink it' he says. She pries the cap off and gulps it down."

"Take out another one and drink it, too!" he demands. She takes out another and drinks it as well. Suddenly the guy pulls off the mask and to the woman's amazement it's her husband!

"There!" he says, "it's not that fucking difficult is it?!"


10/16/2006 7:36:46 PM

Thought filling this out might be kinda fun.  Not totally sure what is good to put in here?  Though admittedly I do not think many people actually read these things, so I dont think it matters.  

Well alas, election season is upon us once again.  Time for each politician to strut their "can-do, leader" stuff.  Each subtly implying the other unqualified and unfit for the job.  I like to measure the tone and message-within-the-message.  I see it as a reverse reflection of how the politicians see us (the voters).  Its also a good litmus on what most Americans see as the most important issues of the day.  So far mostly drab same-ole.  It is interesting that one of the heavier messages is on integrity and honesty (well not totally surprising)!  Neither party seems quite know how to campaign on Iraq, or Oil, or even Terrorism.  Interesting that events of the day arent hardly whimpered in stump-ads.


Not to Tarry on too long about just babble, A Joke of the day seems appropriate so.  HERE IS ONE (ITS NOT ME!!!)





I recently picked a new primary care physician. After two visits and
exhaustive lab tests, he said I was doing "fairly well" for my age. A
little concerned about that comment, I couldn't resist asking him, "Do
you think I'll live to be 80?"

He asked, "Well, do you smoke tobacco or drink beer/wine?"

"Oh no," I replied. "I've never done either."

Then he asked, "Do you eat rib-eye steaks and barbecued ribs?"

I said "No, I've heard that all red meat is very unhealthy!"

"Do you spend a lot of time in the sun, like playing golf, sailing,
ballooning, or rock climbing ?"

"No, I don't," I said.

He said, "Do you gamble, drive fast cars, or sexually fool around?"

"No," I said. "I've never done any of those things."

He looked at me and said, "Then why do you give a shit if you live to be
80?"


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