peccavi

Confiteor [...] quia peccavi nimis cogitatione, verbo, et opere: mea culpa, mea culpa, mea maxima culpa.

I [...] confess that I have sinned exceedingly in thought, word and deed: through my fault, through my fault, through my most grievous fault.

Dark thoughts, and guilt, and humiliation, and submission, and shame, and arousal at the shame and shame at the arousal in a perpetual loop feeding on itself and gaining ever more power like an infernal dynamo of libido running continually in my mind...

Give me a child and I will mould the man, said Ignatius Loyola. Or in this case, give me the little girl and I will mould the submissive.