As I sit here thinking about what my life has become, I wonder where it's going as well. The tears start falling freely, but I'm still not feeling how I should. Depression sets in and I feel like crawling into a hole in the ground to disappear. I want and need something I'm not getting from home but I'm not sure what it is. Is it just sexual contact or is it more? Is it the closeness of another or is it the raw lust of two people. My sensations are longing for something, but my mind is closed for repairs. My body responds and feels and longs for a touch, any touch. I just wish my mind would catch up with the rest of me. |