painlover50

I'm new here at Collar me and I want to introduce myself. My interest here is about S & M as in sadomasochism. I am a masochist in search of a very special, truly sadistic, woman. Just so, we are clear; I have heard that saying about the masochist walking up to the sadist and asking "hurt me" and the sadist saying "no" and walking away. I understand the principle behind this. However, it is not what I'm looking for!!! The woman I am looking for derives her pleasure from inflicting physical pain, so she is not going to want to say no. Instead, this request will bring a cruel smile to her face, as she strings me up and brings out her favorite instrument of torture to begin a long evening of pain, and pleasure.

Now, I suppose that if I did discover myself to be a submissive, and I displease my Mistress than my punishment would be that she would say no. This I understand fully.

I discovered, back in high school that pain turns me on. Actually, it goes back much further, and I would be happy to share that story with a special person who responds to this profile. I had a girlfriend who I coaxed into using her fingernails on my cock scratching and digging at it until it was bloody. It took a lot of coaxing, though. Then with another girlfriend in high school, I felt compelled to be dominant with her and introduce her to her pleasure in receiving pain.

Since then, in some of my relationships with women, I have been the sadistic one and in others, I have been able to convince them to do things to me. What I have not been able to do is meet a woman who by her nature wants to hurt me. I have grown to believe my masochistic side is my dominant side. One of the reasons I say this is because there is much that I have done to myself, by way of self-inflicted torture. Now, I just want to meet that incredible woman, and I know you must be out there somewhere, who would enjoy doing it to me, to help me push my limits and explore the deeper and darker places of my masochistic desires.

What she will not need or want me to do, is behave like a worm or a sissy. I have been online since 2000, and I have read quite a few profiles posted by dominant women describing what they are expecting from men who choose to submit to them and most of it is not going to happen with me. I am not generally submissive to all women; I do have very twisted, nasty desires for us to explore. I'm also not into money submission or slavery. I have a strong will and can be quite opinionated. Please do not get me wrong, when I find this very special, sadistic woman, and please let me reinforce, when I say sadistic, I mean, REAL physical pain, not mental or emotional pain, I will treat her with the utmost respect and lavish her with loving attention!!! I know that I'm being particular, but that is because I do not fit the typical model that I have found on the Internet, and I do not want anyone wasting their time or mine, contacting me and telling me to lick 's their boots and send them tributes etc..

I have said on this profile that I'm a submissive, but after reading the above, I am sure you have been able to gleam that this is not, the most accurate classification of my personality. I know I am a switch, because I have been the sadistic one in most relationships and been able to let out my masochistic side in others.