After 5 beautiful years of ElySiuM, the club closed down last week. I don't regret anything, and i'm glad i met a couple of great friends over the years. Now i have time to go to parties myself, time for my baby boy, time to follow my dreams... It's all good!

Today, as i was browsing around, i saw a couple of profiles of very very pretty woman, so my first thought is: damned fakers! But what if she happens to be that one woman that is for real... i almost feel sorry for her! So if you're a pretty woman, try to put up your worst picture if you want to gain credibility. It's an odd world!  lol

What i've learned last night...
Last night i was talking online with a mistress that said she was interested in me. She wanted me to turn on my cam, so i asked her to turn on hers too. What i saw made me blink my eyes: there was a girl typing, looking up and so on... but not a smile when i said something funny. It did look like a bad movie. So i was looking at a video of a chatting girl, not the person i was talking to. i asked her to show me her hands... had to ask it four times! Then the movie stopped, started again and the girl got up and showed me her underwear (well, and a moving hand). She knew i was testing, and then she said: i don't like that, bye... and went offline.
So a warning to all out there: there is something called Video2webcam...

 I’m serious, so ...I guess I don’t belong here…  
and i'm no fun for fakers either, i'm boring as hell...

It's against my nature, but for CM i'll make an exception: ALL are fakers, untill proven different!

The longer i walk around in the bdsm circle, the better i know what i long for. The past years my list of things i’m not looking for, became longer, none of these are techniques, more attitudes or feelings. Recently i met this couple of woman that made my lists of things-i-need alive again. I feel good about finally getting to the point of knowing who i am, what i need and what i have to offer, the downside is that the chances to find Miss Right, are reducing by every item added to my ‘lists’. Guess most Mistresses are not waiting for a demanding girl, although she might have lots to offer in return…

i think i've been very patient for the past 14 months... Maybe it was naive to think that men would understand that ‘lesbian’ means: not for You! I’ve politely answered every mail that came from ignorant men, told them to read profiles before sending messages.

But… they keep sending me standard messages and kisses.

From now on, all blue mail will be deleted automatically. As they say: “Wat baten kaars en bril als de uil niet zienen wil….”

OMG... i got blocked by someone!
i had send her a friendly email that i liked her down to earth profile... and ended up being named an online player, although my profile (she didn't read) proves that i seek real, nothing but real, real, real...
I know this sounds stupid, but this hurts cause it's so unfair!
And yes, it's only internet... but i hate being misjudged!

Veritatis simplex oratio: The truth is simple...
But the effect of the truth is what makes it complex. That’s why we find it hard to tell the truth all the time: in our own benefit, and sometimes as an altruistic act… covering up the truth!
But i’m wondering if things would be more easy if everybody could only speak the truth, just like the magical sitar, in Moulin Rouge…!?

I try to stick as close to the truth as possible… is that a good deal?

i’m not the bargain of the week, i’m a once in a lifetime opportunity ;-). Lots of beautiful and notable words, are making me good company on the way. i’ll dance in front of You, follow You hesitating, hurry up to keep up with You and come sit at Your feet when You rest on a bench. i have a rich and complex inner world; i’m a brain teaser.

i expect a sophisticated Woman, with sense of humour and finesse in Her fingers. A couple of eyes to melt for and a lap to cuddle in to. A balanced, realistic and intelligent person with a sense of spirituality. A powerful reincarnation of the Goddess, hidden in a person made of flesh and blood. 

First of al i hope for a firm understanding, i believe this is the richest ground to start from to get to the more physical aspects of a D/s.

i tend to challenge people and bring some dynamics in a relationship. i’m a ‘good girl’ and i’m not looking for trouble, i aim for that precious (and rewarding) smile on Your face. i certainly am not an apathetic and programmable doll. But once You’ve touched the right buttons… i’ll be a very dedicated sub! i’m a sweet but enigmatic human being: a real woman!

i’m not looking for couples, and i don’t wish to serve a Mistress who collects subs. i’m looking for a one-on-one relationship. i don’t like people with delusions of grandeur, that would take away my aim to put you on a pedestal!

i'm not desperately seeking a Domme, but i'm open to get to know You...
i'm a loving person, who wants to be loved under the wings of a strict, mystic, warm & energetic Woman.. as Her little girl...!

i'm into the lifestyle for about 8 years now, so i kind of know what i 'need', and most of all, what i don't want! This may sound like i'm a demanding submissive, but, if You go through the trouble, You'll find that i'm worth it, double!

In ‘real’ life, i have a full time job and run my own lifestyle club in Belgium, named ElySiuM. That is wy i am not relocatable, i run my own business! Please feel free to contact me... 

And for the men out there: You do know what ‘lesbian’ means, don’t you? ... smart boy!

Yesterday i went to the bank to pick up the dollars i ordered. The girl gave me the envelope with the money. So i took out the money… frowned… and checked the envelope a second time to see if there was a pawn and a dice in it too… LOL…. It’s like i’m going to play Monopoly! I mean, how about giving the notes different sizes and colours?

i'm just giving a ten days warning to all of you in the States... only ten days left of peace and quit, before i get there...
Muahahahaaaa

What is it with all those Dommes who want ‘no limits’-slaves?  Would they be thrilled to receive this message?

“Hi Mistress, i’m slave x. Let me introduce myself: i’m perfectly left-handed, cause i don’t have any fingers left on my right hand, my former Mistress cut them off, one by one,  so i couldn’t masturbate any more. As this didn’t help, she cut away my clit and burned my vagina. This is a good thing, since i got HIV+ when i worked for my Mistress as a no-limits prostitute. You can torture my nipples as you please, cause they got numb after this ten-neeldes-in-one nipple session. If you want to meet me, you’ll have to come to my place, cause i have never been out of the city alone and i lost all contact with my family, Mistress told me to do so. I truly believe you’ll find the perfect no-limits slave in me.” …

Ok, maybe a little bit over the Top, but i think i’ve made my point…!  *wink*

PS: no offence to the no-limits slaves… but deep down there, don’t we all have limits?

One thing i’ve learned from a ProDomme-friend is, when slaves come and say: “Do whatever you please”, Her answer is:”Wow, finally someone who can meet up to my castration fantasies!”… The look on their face is priceless! And hopefully they’ve learned something!

Me? i do have some limits... so there’s lots to explore and stretch! Woehoew....!

Today She said the most romantic thing i’ve heard in months…  “If anyone is going to shave your head. . that'll be me !” (after talking about my new hair style)… Hmm, She stole my heart!

Now, how’s that for romance? *thinking* 

This girl is going to the States Aug 21st – Sept 16th, all by herself . I am starting out in Edison to visit the Floating World and then see what comes my way… i do want to ‘drop by’ in Montana, visiting some friends, during my 26 days stay.

If anyone has ideas what to see, what to do… or what i shouldn’t do as a (kinky) girl travelling alone… i’d love to hear! It’s my first time travelling alone, and my first visit to the States, so…

I also would love to hear from other people who are visiting the Floating world… maybe i'll buy you a drink.

 Little nervous about it all…

i've been watching 'Tipping the velvet' last Sunday and am totally washed over by Ms Diana Lethaby… Do these kind of delightful Woman really exist? …

Hey, is that a coach i see in Your garage… and are those black horses?

Woo hoo, i own a bodybag since this weekend. So Today, at the club, a Mistress i secretly liked (but didn't dare to approach) had put me in this bodybag. And as a surplus She did some facesitting on me... Let's say, just a first taste of it... oh my ... that was awesome! 
Oh and as a finishing touch, She kissed me and said i was a pretty girl!

i''ll be on Crete for a week. See if it can get any hotter then here in Belgium. This afternoon i had 45°C (113F or 319K) in my backyard! And it's only the end of April! We haven't had any rain for more then a month. So, Mistresses all over the world, not only are the subbies delicious here, the weather is great too.
I would be honoured to find a couple of lovely messages in my mailbox when i get back! (i'll be back on Sunday May 6th, late at night)

Aaaarrrrgggg…. i’ve had it with fakers! Men pretending to be a lesbian D or s, should be put in a chastity belt with nasty spikes on the inside and fed Viagra twice a day! And.. if they so badly want to be a woman, we should make them bleed 6 days a month! Ow, and of course we will fill the lock of the CB with super glue. (okay, maybe i’m getting carried away here…)

For those who are serious and true, please be patient and understand that i’m just being careful when i don’t send You a dozen of pictures or put on my webcam.  

i recently met a couple of wonderful People here on CM! Some of those contacts will possibly become good Friends. So for Those Who didn’t get the answers They expected… i truly apologise. i want to be true in my contacts and can only focus on x People at the same time.

Can i have a teleporter?