No matter if you are near or far, Master or slave, Dom or sub or any other combination, remember it's the little things that matter the most. The little things keep the fire burning inside, without them that fire, that burning desire fades and ultimately so does the relationship. As close as you may be physically you could be miles apart emotionally and mentally from each other.
Ask him/her how their day was, let them speak without interrupting. Engage in conversation, do not over power it as if you have no interest in anything they say.
Kiss her forehead as you hold her
Randomly text or call to let your owner or sub/slave know you are thinking of them
Wear their favorite outfit to surprise them
If you love them, tell them and keep telling them
I've said this before, this lifestyle is more than just kneeling, whips, chains, etc. If you do not have the aching desire, connection, the feel of that fire then what do you have besides just going through the motions like a robot. So don't forget the little things, it means more to your owner or sub/slave then you may know.

Sometimes you love what what seems impossible but it's only impossible if you give up.

This has been a 2 week buildup of emotions and I’ve finally done being nice.  I’m not a piece of meat for you to use when you feel like it, I’m sorry you miss using me but I’m done being used so the few that keep asking for the love of god please stop.  I’m tired of playing and just going through the motions, I have much more to give than that.  If you are not willing to put forth your full effort to build a strong solid relationship, which includes talking on the phone and seeing me in person don’t bother me.  I am willing to put in my entire being and devote it solely and selflessly to one person but only if they are willing to put forth the effort as well.  I have a fork in the road right now as it is I do not need the additional distraction in my mind. Now I have things to do and I hope everyone has a wonderful day.

"The River"

You know a dream is like a river
Ever changin' as it flows
And a dreamer's just a vessel
That must follow where it goes
Trying to learn from what's behind you
And never knowing what's in store
Makes each day a constant battle
Just to stay between the shores...and

I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Like a bird upon the wind
These waters are my sky
I'll never reach my destination
If I never try
So I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry

Too many times we stand aside
And let the waters slip away
'Til what we put off 'til tomorrow
Has now become today
So don't you sit upon the shoreline
And say you're satisfied
Choose to chance the rapids
And dare to dance the tide...yes

There's bound to be rough waters
And I know I'll take some falls
But with the good Lord as my captain
I can make it through them all...yes

I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Like a bird upon the wind
These waters are my sky
I'll never reach my destination
If I never try
So I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry

Love is but the discovery of ourselves in others, and the delight in the recognition. - Alexander Smith

Dark Ryder

The flickering flame of the candle light bounces off the walls as the smell of hyacinths fill the room. He has been absent for far too long but tonight he will come home to her. She pays special attention to every detail as she readies herself for him tonight. Her hair just perfectly curled as he has requested, her make up not too heavy but enough to make her eyes glisten, her body soft, smooth and fragrant. He has told her he loves animal prints so she knows just what to wear. She put on her animal print bra, pulls up her black fishnet stockings over her smooth silky legs, attaches the garter belt, making sure each side is lined up flawlessly, buckles up her black lace high heels and to complete the outfit, a nice brown and black beaded necklace she places around her neck. Waiting for her Dark Ryder to arrive she paces with eagerness and excitement, she lays the pillow on the floor where she will be kneeling when he walks through the door. One last quick look in the mirror than as he has order her with her head down, not to speak or move she kneels at the door waiting for him. She hears the purring of his bike engine as he pulls up, her heart starts to race, her breathing is deeper, the butterflies start to swirl in her stomach, she has anticipated this moment for a long time. She hears him step inside, quietly he places his helmet and bag down, she closes her eyes as she wants to take in all the senses that she can. She feels him approach her, he moves his hand so gently across her head, his touch takes her breath away, he leans in close to her inhaling the scents from her neck moving up slowly and allowing his warm breath to fall upon her ear as she moans softly in response. He moves and kneels behind her, slowly bringing his right arm around the front of her; he forcefully yet softly pushes her back into him, still keeping her head down leaves her no choice but to take in the leather aroma from his jacket as he holds her tightly against him. He lets go and she wants to reach out to him but she dare not move or speak. He gets up and walks away from her, it seems likes minutes of silence, all she can hear is her heart beat, then she begins to hear the snap of his vest as he begins to take it off. Each snap as its pulled apart rings in her ears, eagerness builds in her body as he takes his time with each snap on his vest. He bends down in front of her breathing in her ear once again, softly kissing and biting her neck, she now inhales smelling the masculine scent of his cologne. He cups her face lifting her head up just a little, she opens her eyes and he covers them gently with his hand, he caress her face, elegantly plays with her hair. Her breathing is so loud, moans fill the room, the desire cannot be any greater. With a last lift of her head he gently places his lips upon hers, within seconds they embrace into a deep long passionate kiss, their tongues intertwine with pure ecstasy and hunger for each other. Their lips part, her eyes open and for the first time she looks upon her Dark Ryder and smiles up at him standing before her. He looks down at her and says “good evening little girl” she softly replies “good evening Sir”……

Gone by have the years yet the desire never fell silent.  A journey once begun shall continue the path from where it began.  We shall travel to places further than our soul yet know.  Obstacles and barriers we shall overcome and grow only stronger as we embark upon them as one.  No longer shall we deny what has been burning, only embrace the desire and fuel the flame inside.

Looking back there are a lot of regrets, a lot of wrong decisions I’ve made and a lot of turning a blind eye to what I really knew or felt in my gut but I’ve had the strength to move on and keep going forward.  I let myself be manipulated into things I may have not wanted or into believing lies.  I’m a stronger person now because of it and I will not be played a fool again.  If you choose to live your life cheating on your wife, husband, girlfriend, boyfriend that is your choice and if you choose to be a hypocrite and say you don’t want that yet you do it on the flip side and you are the “other woman” or “other man” that is your choice but good luck at being happy because guess what, you are always going to be 2^nd best even if you are the perfect sub/slave, but personally I could care less because I’m number one and will not settle for anything less.  Happiness is not being the “other” in someone’s life, it is not sneaking around and having a few hours in a hotel room, it’s someone that you can call in the middle of the night when you had nightmare or someone to kneel beside when you come home after a long days work.  They say everything happens for a reason and maybe I just had to hurt harder than most to finally wake up and see that happiness is not being kept a secret from the world its being free and enjoying each other.  So for those who have been hurt, who lost their trust and happiness, don’t let it get to you, you will be happy again, you will see that you are a stronger and better person.

Lifehouse
Between The Raindrops

Look around
There's no one but you and me
Right here and now
The way it it was meant to be
There's a smile on my face
Knowing that together everything that's in our way
Were better then all right

Walking between the raindrops
Riding the aftershock we stand cool
Off into the sunset
Living like there's nothing left to lose
Chasing after gold mines
Crossing the fine lines we knew
Hold on and take a breath
I'll be here every step walking between the raindrops with you

Take me now
The worlds such a crazy place
When the walls come down
You'll know I'm here to stay
There's nothing I would change
Now were back together
Everything that's in our way
Were better then all right

Walking between the raindrops
Riding the aftershock we stand cool
Off into the sunset
Living like there's nothing left to lose
Chasing after gold mines
Crossing the fine lines we knew
Hold on and take a breath
I'll be here every step walking between the raindrops with you

There's a smile on my face
Knowing that together everything that's in our way
Were better then all right

Walking between the raindrops
Riding the aftershock we stand cool
Off into the sunset
Living like there's nothing left to lose
Chasing after gold mines
Crossing the fine lines we knew
Hold on and take a breath
I'll be here every step walking between the raindrops with you

I let it fall, my heart,
And as it fell, you rose to claim it,
It was dark and I was over,
Until you kissed my lips and you saved me,
My hands, they're strong, but my knees were far too weak,
To stand in your arms without falling to your feet,

Merry Christmas all...

What is Christmas?  It is tenderness for the past, courage for the present, hope for the future.  It is a fervent wish that every cup may overflow with blessings rich and eternal, and that every path may lead to peace.  ~Agnes M. Pahro

Christmas is not as much about opening our presents as opening our hearts.  ~Janice Maeditere

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone.

“We can't be afraid of change. You may feel very secure in the pond that you are in, but if you never venture out of it, you will never know that there is such a thing as an ocean, a sea. Holding onto something that is good for you now, may be the very reason why you don't have something better.”
― C. JoyBell C.

“Incredible change happens in your life when you decide to take control of what you do have power over instead of craving control over what you don't.”
― Steve Maraboli

Oh why can't he see my soul is pure?
Like a dove, loyal and deserving of belonging…
A heart screams out, "I am yours forever more Sir."
Please allow me my heart's desire and walk with me through destiny's door…
I dream of becoming yours for all time,
A privilege and honor,
Will it be mine?
You have the power to make all my dreams come true…
Do you love me enough?
I wish I knew.
Days run into months and my heartstrings tug ever harder…
I vowed not to push, but my heart feels so blue,
Tonight I cried, for if you only knew the sadness I feel,
The feeling of being in limbo, or just being explored…
Never quite knowing what the future will hold,
This ache rips through me, right to my core.
So all I can do is show you my love.
Do my best to give all I have
Which is so easy…my love.
I hope that someday your heart will open up,
That you will fully trust in us,
Drink from devotions cup.
The ones that have hurt you, or you them…
Is this the price I am paying?
When will it end?
This eagles nest is so high,
I wish I were not a little dove,
As to it, I would fly…
With wings so light I would come to rest,
Upon my Eagles heart,
Passing this invisible test.
But not a word has been spoken of dreams that could be so bright…
So this dove waits in darkness, never in light…
A caged little bird who only wants to fly,
To drink of loves promise and soar by his side.
The eagle watches over her and his nest
But what he does not see are the tears on her breast.
Tears of longing that only he can dry,
If only his heart would allow him to fly.

By shandy{S}

Copyright 2002

Her body quivers at the sound of his voice, her knees go weak, her heart beats faster, this has all remained unchanged since the first time she heard his voice. She aches for him in ways she may never understand but it doesn't matter to her because he is in control. She longs to feel his touch, to feel the rush as he wraps his hands around her neck,  she breathes in deep and holds it in, a flood of emotions pass through her body, his control and energy consume her as he gently yet forcefully grabs her hair pulls her head back and playfully bites her neck. She's under his control and there is no other place she'd rather be, her cunt is moist for him, always wanting him, wanting to please in everything she does......

I can’t think straight, my heart and mind lost in debate 
It’s like love vs. hate, trying to decide my fate 
Nothing but feelings spew, distorting my view 
Intentions so true, and words misconstrue
All I get is these thoughts of you 

Doubt is a disease, it infects the mind, creating a mistrust of peoples motives and of ones own perceptions.  Doubt has the ability to call into question everything you have ever believed about someone and reinforce the darkest suspicious of our inner circles.

"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead."

I let it fall, my heart,
And as it fell you rose to claim it
It was dark and I was over you
Until you kissed my lips and you saved me

My hands, they're strong
But my knees were far too weak,
To stand in your arms
Without falling to your feet

When I lay with you
I could stay there
Close my eyes
Feel you here forever
You and me together
Nothing is better

Sometimes I wake up by the door,
That heart you caught must be waiting for you
Even now when we're already over
I can't help myself from looking for you.

It has been such a great spring day today, I'm loving this weather.  Looking around after a major top to bottom cleaning sure makes you feel like you have accomplished a great deal.  Enjoy the weather and the rest of the weekend everyone!!

Being a slave means a lot, if not all decisions are made for me by my Master and this I embrace very much and I'm proud to have a Master that I can trust to be able to make my life's decisions.  However somethings no one can decide but yourself and I'm at a crossroads right now and I need to make a decision and this time it really sucks that my Master cannot make it for me.  With his support and his point of view communicated it will help tremendously.  I've always believed a good Master listens but a great Master supports and guides and when the support and communication dies so does the meaning.

New year, new outlook, changes ahead.....

For last year's words belong to last year's language
And next year's words await another voice.
And to make an end is to make a beginning.
~T.S. Eliot~

I smile when I think of you

You're always on my mind

My heart burns with desire

to feel your touch

I will be happiest with you

and in pain when we are apart

We share hopes and dreams

fears and doubts

You have turned my life around

when I was not looking

gray skies are now the brightest blue

I was lost in all the confusion

I was looking for answers

to all those questions

And now here you are

My questions have been answered

I’m on my knees at your feet

I have now been found

Please take my hand and

hold me tight

Lets walk this unknown path together

One day she’s his love the next day she’s just her, the day after that she’s his little girl and today she is not sure.  He whispered the sweet words for hours that day that she again placed her hand back in his, yet today his words are silent.  She shows him desire over and over in all different ways yet it seems to be too much, how one would not want to feel she wonders as she takes a step back.  What does this all mean, where are they going, is this really the path of mystical pleasure or it is the path of broken dreams?  The cycle needs to be broken but only he has the power to make that happen.

Communication and trust is most important and ultimately go hand and hand.  Without communication you cannot have the trust.  The slave will be pushed and tested, this goes without saying, and however as stated below the slave may test or be rebellious with him/her as well.  When you test or rebel (however you wish to describe it), of course you are doing it for a reason but when you do not get anything in response to what you have clearly disobeyed it leaves to question trust, respect and the relationship in a whole.  Silence is not the key; you cannot ignore things, situations, or especially ignore each other and hope that tomorrow is a better day.  I think with most it is because we are trying to reach out to our owners because there is lack of attention and a possible communication breakdown.  It’s a cry for an owner’s acceptance and feeling of being wanted, needed and desired.  There is a reason slaves may act out and no it’s not to make their owners life difficult, more than likely it goes back to communication, or lack thereof.  True Master’s I feel have a huge responsibility and for that I respect them immensely not because I’m a slave but because I’m a person.  Master’s need to be alert and realize there is a problem and open the lines of communication for their slave and figure out what is wrong.  It is a lot of responsibility however a great Master does not run from any part of it, including the hard and trying times, he does not give up, ignore or turn his head away.

Submission the give and take 

Submission the give and take... It has been said by many that submission is a gift and that may very well be...but it is no more a gift than that of Dominance. The submissive NEEDS someone to submit to just as a Dominant NEEDS to Dominate. While the gift of submission has to be given is true...it cannot be totally given for if it is the same amount of respect would not be given. Therefore a certain amount of submission must be taken from the right and strong Dominant. This is why you sub or potential submissive will test You as a Dom/Master to see if they can get away with things as she would in a normal vanilla relationship...if they can the level of respect for You as a Dom begins to diminish and more test are waiting in the wings. If the sub does not get away with these things and is punished and corrected then you will be better accepted and her level of respect increases. Along with that a healthy fear of reprisal is now present and you have successfully TAKEN her submission by MAKING her suffer repercussions’ from her bad actions. She want this from you..she NEEDS this from you as her Dom/Master..She as a sub needs to know she can look up to and admire You..so let her give her submission then when needed you must take it..she will want you more for it

THE TOUCH OF HER MASTER"S HAND

His presence
brings a happiness and joy
into her life
unlike any other
His voice
commands her body to do
what no other can command her to do
speaks the kind of love
that only he can give
His scent
lingers upon her memory
keeping him with her always
the sparkle in his eyes
when his slave is allowed
the pleasure of gazing into them
lingers in her memory like
the twinkling of the stars in the heavens
His smile
touches her within
letting her know his pleasure, his pride
his joy, his love
oh but his touch
the touch of her Master's hand
sends a thrill throughout her soul
a tremble throughout her body
a quickening within her heart
a stirring within her innermost being
that only the touch of her Master can do
it stirs within her the fires of slavery
of wanting to please and serve
it stirs within her that ancient desire
to give of her all
to the One who owns all

Most things can hurt or help its up to you....

Its sad when you are in love with someone that doesn't love you but what's worse is to see the one you love in love with someone that doesn't love them.

Same journey, new state, new place, new path, different light, fingers crossed, only time will tell......

I can't wait to get out of this cold weather for good.

How does a master center a slave? Being centered is a Zen term that means a person is balanced, calm, healthy, peaceful, grounded, nourished. Some might see it as a relaxed state, one of calm, creative, full of the realization of being well-off, in communion with one's self and one's environment… How does a master center a slave? He does it by creating, with his slave, a right relationship, that is, one in which each is free to be him or herself; one with openness, honesty, and clarity of purpose. Centering comes from having a clear focus, mutual support, encouragement, and purpose. -- Jack Rinella

The greatest weapon anyone can use against us is our own mind, by preying on the doubts and uncertainties that already lurk there.  Are we true to ourselves or do we live for the expectations of others and if we are open and honest can we ever truly be loved.  Can we find the courage to release our deepest secrets or in the end are we all unknowable even to ourselves.  

Life is a mystery,
a great and powerful thing.
One moment can seem small and unimportant
but, too often, that one moment can change your whole life.
You may never know what that moment is,
when it will be in the past.

So you'll keep going where were headed
down that dark and even dangerous path,
not knowing where it leads,
where and when it will stop,
or even if you'll stop at all.

You won't know where you'll end up,
but you have to keep going,
keep trying and keep hoping.

You may not like who you are and what you've done,
but that moment is over.
It can't be changed, not now or ever.

One day you may wake and ask,
Where did my life go?
It is then that you'll realize,
as many people do,
life is a whirlwind
and if you aren't careful
it'll pass you right by.

It will be just a memory,
you can never go back.
You just have to get going forward,
never look back.
Once this small fact is learn,
life can't pass you by,
you'll be hanging on to tight
and no one can make you let go.

by Amanda Jean

Ahhh I spread my wings and fly, I will become who I am as your wing takes me a flight. Only your words are music to my soul and I sing my song of service to you.

Does there come a time when you stop dreaming, wishing, and hoping?  Do you give up or give into what may or may not be?  When do you know waiting and wishing upon that star is the right thing to do?  I wish I could answer these questions but his words are what I find comfort in.  I will not stop dreaming wishing or hoping, I will not give up and I will wait and wish upon that star.  The Knight has unfinished dreams that I will continue to fulfill as I will not waiver from our own desires no matter how much may at times cloud our skies.

The Dom's Dungeon by Cherise Sinclair is a very good book.  It really made me look at things in a different light and understand more about what I feel.

I cannot just hand over my control in a day.  The passion, desire, love, respect, caring etc., is how and why I submit.  I need to feel safe in ones arms, trust him with my life, know I can run to him and I will be protected.  He will know what I am thinking, feeling, and in need of just by looking at me and how my body responds to different situations.  He will hold a firm hand and punish when needed, but the punishment will be explained and will not be given under an angry hand.  I do not see any of this as a weakness but only the strongest of Doms.  I see it as a huge responsibility to be a Dom, the need to be able to read body language, understand unspoken words, know just how far one can be pushed without pushing his sub too far and ending up 10 steps back as she regresses.  Thank you to the ones who understand this and to the ones that don't agree with me I don't need to hear it.  Everyone sees this life differently and whatever you are looking for I wish you the best.