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Before you read further, I am not relocatable. I can travel some, but because of my work I can't go very far.
Not much to say here, I'm an ambivalent sexual submissive with a streak of masochism. I love bondage and gags. I consider myself straight, but at my age I think it's time to try a little more than rough sex and spankings, so I'm trying to be open minded to new experiences. I'm seriously trying to test my limits to point where there are none any longer.
Anyone out there interested in showing me the way?
I have a picture and I've actually met one or two of you out there under the name seoulborn. Obviously if we've lost touch it was probably meant to be that way and I don't wish to waste your time. Everyone else, please ask I'll be glad to share my photo (strictly - rated G) privately.
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I've been told my profile is very confusing. Hmm, well as far as not relocatable. This means I am not moving anywhere. I have a home, it's one I've worked very very hard for and I see no reason to sell it. Travelling - I can travel to different places for a weekend or I can take a vacation. Because I commute to my work and it's a two hour drive one, I obviously can't go very very far without some planning ahead. Ambivalence. I'm older, at one time I would have done anything to live this interest as a lifestyle. As I've grown older and more set in my ways. I know longer want a lifestyle in bdsm.
That doesn't mean I don't want the experiences, it just means that I no longer have the attention span, desire, fortitude, dedication...whatever you want to call it, to live like this 24/7.
So many people say this all about more than just sex. But, in the end that's what it boils down to...sex...whether it's traditional intercourse...or just stimulation of the mind, you end up with a satisfaction of a need.
I find bondage, gags blindfolds, vibrators, clamps and nearly all the toys of bdsm to be stimulating and exciting to think about if not use (I haven't tried everything, somethings are just fun to think about).
Does this make me just kinky and not a true sub? Probably. I don't feel submissive 24/7, but I frequently desire to give up control for a weekend or three. But once that's desire is satisfied then I'm back to being me and that's anything but submissive.
Am I successful in finding what I'm looking for? No, and that's ok too. If I don't ever find it, it won't be because I haven't tried. |
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