I just wanted to take this time to make a Public Service Announcement.
As far as I poersonally am concerned. There is only ONE Mistress Hell on our little blue ball and her name is Yasihell.
I am making that statement not in soem stupid vain attempt to gain favor. AFter three years on this site that is what I have been able to decide in my own mind.
SO if you are seeking to be owned by a woman, I can only say I hope you like Germanic peoples.
I repeat, to any who want to be owned by a female, I suggest you toss Yasihell an IM or email or whatever it is that you do.
I am a single Dominant once again and I do NOT attempt to cross the waters into UK/Europe without permission from Yasihell.
I now return you to your regularly scheduled Hilarity.
-Your humble Narrator, Akeem..This message has been brought to you by the letter (Ben) Aleph
Hello again all. Just wanted to clear something up. Ive spent my entire adult career in military, law enforcement, or global level security projects.
Its a little strange that now my job is to be the marilyn manson of bdsm (if i am able to accomplish it) but thats the way the cookie crumbles.
To any law enforcement personnel let me tell you something. I apologize to anyone that may have gotten the wrong idea about me.
I enjoy writing anything, everything. In my line of work thats the only freedom ive ever had, to write my fantasies.
Does that mean im NOT a no limit Dominant? Hmmmmmm I do smoke 420, I do enjoy bdsm a lot and my only real limit is scat.
My drawback, i am always trying hard to make people use their imaginations more to free themselves from an everyday life.
If somebody who is a suicidal slave IMs me, I will pretend to be jack the ripper himself if it will get her to My hands so I can keep her out of the hands of a REAL serial killer.
Almost every minute of my life outside the home is under surveillance.. and every day of my life at home i make sure to document for all concerned.
If i sometimes seem really sad, mad, depressed, or angry, my favorite way to get it out of my system is to watch a good movie and try to figure out how to pretend to be even more evil the next day.
My huge scary bdsm game? My father is a PhD psychologist. My personal theory is that an extremly violent bdsm filled mmorpg is exactly the right medicine for post war soldiers in this coming time of relative peace.
As a victim and survivor of the effects of post traumatic stress disorder, I believe a game where people can do and think ANYTHING will be a great deterrent to future Columbine and other calamities.
Please do thorough background checks on me, please check every single one fo the job references i took the time to post on my site:
http://housenysian.com/ummo and feel free to speak to every single person ive ever met.. i listed most of their names (the consequential ones) on the site.
you will find that i am a fluffy romantic bunny rabbit whose real talent is simply knowing how to paint pictures with words.
sometimes the pictures i paint are terrifying, sometimes they are monstrous, sometimes they are funny. but at the end of the day they are simply that... words...
In my day to day life i admit i was a new york city based robin hood for a long time, but i never stole from the rich to give to the poor and i never initiated violence.
What i do is work for as high a salary as possible or transact as much legitimate business as i can.. and then i give the money to the homeless.. all of it.
I want to make a really great simulation. Because i dont want to be kidnapped, tortured or killed, i am giving it out for free so that everyone can use it.
It is a great simulation for fantasy worlds, awesome for making movies inside of in interactive way.
Useless for any real military purpose. if anybody in your field disagrees let me know.. i LOVE uniform folks since ive been protecting them from harm my whole life. 60 hours a week most weeks and no days off for good behavior.
Its not my fault im this good at what i do, its just because i care enough about saving lives to sacrifice my own life to do it a little better than some corporate monolith.
As far as any sort of metaphysical shenanigans. ummm i dunno if you noticed but this is when the wild styles appear... im doing my part to create a nice virtual playground for the crazies to enjoy
they like me because i AM a crazy and i know even crazier crazies (dead for the most part and one in jail for a while)
details about our latest projects and blog at http://housenysian.com/ummo
his attempt at a typical profile: naimless her attempt at a typical profile: goddess4tpe
We are a poly house, mostly because i have a fetish for homeless outreach and rehabilitation.
The people I force her to take in, as part of our "Dominant training" program, we fix up as best we can and let them leave whenever they are ready to.
We take in all ages, sexes, and types. In order to teach her to Dominate herself, she can learn from all homeless, all disadvantaged, not just BDSM ones.
The goal is to get her to learn the root cause of suffering, weakness, and passive aggressive self destruction by helping others eliminate it from within their own lives.
My best friend and apprentice share an apartment and a BDSM MMORPG project.
We are both also in a race to see which one of us can find and marry the perfect slave first (so we can work together to document and blog the trip to the altar in images, words, and details about exploring the mind and dreams of that perfect slave).
We've been celibate now for over three months (which is not very easy when you have two nympohomaniacs at home like I do... they may have cheated on the celibacy have to ask them)
She has one live in submissive that I hope will be very educational for my apprentice.
A true dominant is one that learns to Master themselves, and the only way to learn that is to experience a true 24/7 journey from vanilla life to BDSM lifestyle.
It is not an easy journey, to dedicate every waking moment to explore and manifest the dreams and desires of someone as complicated as a TRUE sub or slave.
As someone who "came out" to his parents as a 24/7 TPE BDSM Dominant at a young age (19)
Constantly bombarded by fakes who promise forever but cannot be trusted to even show up on time, even to save your life.
As an Owner interested in exploring and documenting the full range of intellectual, sensual, and spiritual BDSM (aren't they all one and the same).. it is hard to get people to understand I am NOT fake, not "too good to be true" simply feel ...
Somebody should be a true no limit 24/7 Dominant after one thing and one thing only: Exploring the truest limits of the terms Love, Focus, Devotion, Lifetime, Oath, Vow, Discipline, Sadism (multiple levels), Masochism (multiple levels) and Global Consciousness in all it's forms.
I'm from New York and have been a Lifestyler here for about 17 years, fulltime, 24/7 (I am a Project Manager in my day to day job, a Professional Dominant for hire by large corporations for big bucks.. and I always finish the job. A survivor's code you see.)
My actual work resume has been posted in many paces on the net, including our House Site.
I love all of the people I have had a chance to meet here, but I am seriously determined at this point to find a slave whose dreams are more than 2 dimensional, and whose depth can provide me an eternity to explore and help her become her OWN fantasy with each passing moment.
That's my skill, my art. I can care enough to transform anyone into their own dreams. But i haven't met anyone anywhere .. ever.. who truly wanted me to do that.
I suppose it's because in some ways I AM too good to be true. I know, I have almost died countless times just to gain insight into true devotion. I have saved countless lives to do the same thing.
But now I simply want to focus on ONE person with all my might. A person willing to do the same thing to me. Even though I am much more complex than the average guy.
I am available 24/7 at pan_gaia@yahoo.com
Homeless outreach is almost impossible if people all know who you are. really. So I hope I find the slave for me (or my apprentice does for herself) so we can go back to what we do bet:
Writing about BDSM in freestyle spoken word: www.postpoems.com/members/heru
and doing images of the people we possess from our mind's eye (like) http://baphomeh.deviantart.com
My own personal dream? Journey to The West mixed with Story of O and The Truman Show.. starring a camera and a perfect slave and a whole lot of imagination.. and perfect sets..
Haven't made that one happen yet.. But I am hoping one day soon.
P.S. - I hate men so much more than anybody could ever imagine. But it is not my destiny to be bisexual OR transgendered.
I try to educate with the soul of a poet, the heart of a warrior, and a thirst to drink and pour out every drop of love, lust, pleasure, pain, light, and dark.. infinitely more and more each day...
as much as I humanly possibly can to someone.. I seek to inject new life unending life into the void so many of us feel.
Why? Because I CAN.. no real reason.
Remember, no matter where you go, there you are. Hard limits: Diapers, Lying, People Afraid of commitment for LIFETIME. People afraid to say yes to wedding rings before visitation.
I do not mind if others have fear, doubt, lack of ability to trust. I have those things too, I overcome them by giving 110 percent of my soul FIRST..
before I even WRITE the email to you I have already sworn myself for LIFETIME.. Why? cause I CAN.
I am that way, please everyone stop getting me to change, i have been that way for decades and I started training myself to Master lifetime Oaths around age 6.
i had a little help from my Dad, ya know, the one with the PhD that runs the Psychiatric Drug and Alcohol Abuse Treatment center at a Major Buffalo Hospital.
yeah.. that Dad.. He started around age 4 teaching me the Bushido code and every religion known to man.
I had one order from him in my whole life. Obey your own awareness, and bow to nothing else.
I am AWARE of larger than myself. I am AWARE of how to make a Vow. I am aware of Eternity.
Why and how would I know how to give anything less? How, really? How would I?
I know that everyone on this site is used to being certain way, taking a certain amount of time to do things.
i apologize, I only know how to save lives utterly and with my last breath, and how to give of myself utterly and to my last breath.
Please everyone stop trying to force me to become a stupid jerk off guy like everybody else. It doesn't work, I have no training or experience with LIARS.
I will lie often.. I will sometimes pretend I want your body or looks or face. When in reality I simply want your mind, soul, and hunger.
For a lifetime only.. and I have ten fingers full of ring wearing goodness for those that doubt me.
I seek to bind my soul for life to that of Others. I seek to bind my curiosity and hunger to explore sensuality to the same soul.
No more, no less. And infinitely so.
Is that such a crime? Is it? Really? If so, call me Robin Hood, Prince of Thieves then!
What do i think about all the time. That is such an easy question. 50 percent of my thoughts is http://housenysian.com/ummo and 49 percent is http://www.postpoems.com/members/heru
the remaining one percent is here or at http://baphomeh.deviantart.com
4/23/2009 2:17:34 AM
I am currently applying for a job in Austin TX that pays my normal 6 figures. It is either that or partnering with Investors. ANd I prefer doing that AFTER there is a prototype.
If that is not successful, I will be moving back to Buffalo New York to help my Father create his own Jazz Cafe (with internet and live on many nights).
If I get the job in austin, I will fly up to Buffalo no less than once a month. If I dont get the job, I am moving to Buffalo to run the Cafe for a little while.
What am I gonna do in Austin? Prepare for the action movie stuff that will be starting in a few years.
4/23/2009 2:13:37 AM
After years of saying that people at their Mom's are morons. Here I am getting a reeducation as to WHO I am/who I was/Who I can be.
Staying at my Mom's House. It is a bit refreshing to once again not be the ultimate controller of reality around me.
I am sort of remembering race, culture, and the fact that I am a Little Fuzzy Bunny Rabbit. More Bugs Bunny, Rudolph the Reign Dear sort.
I am currently watching "Dreamgirls"
3/28/2009 8:43:42 AM
ow ya know.. so many peopel get uspet when i say im the best.. and ya know.. if peopel were always afraid to call themselves the BEST thenw e would have no Chairman Mao.. we would have no Obama.. heck we would never even have Grorge Bush or Jackie Chan.
Everyuon on earth is teh best at something. And the suicide rate lets me know that many peopel need to become BETTER at .... not LOVING themselves, but believing that they ARE part of the universal plan.
suicide rarely benefits anyone.. that doesnt mean you are wrong per se if you do it. it suimply means ... isnt your life worth MORE.
LL COOl J taught me that many of life's problems can be solved, even temporarily, byt giving off the IMAGE (even subconsiously and only to yourself) of believing you were chosen by your world.. even for an instant.. to survive.
In any event... Now that I ya know... let folks know I was undercover brother for like 10-15 years.. for real.. doin Neos job in the copmpanies of our planet while also spying on the Man for us underdogs..
Maybe peopel will forgive me for hbgein so defensive.
Ina ny event, the game and website are comin along well and I successfullly designed it to compliment Collarme rather than compete with it.
And for all the peopel that hate fakes. Y aknow what... i have yet to meet that many peopel capabl;e of keepign vows withotu outside force.. even vows to themselves to find a specifc type of dominant.
i dunno who if anybody reads this tuff.. but its been very uplifiting to be pushed down by everyoen on this site over and over and pover and over..
im startign to get the hang of the gettign back up part.. wish it resulted in somethign besides me losign time and money id rather spend providing homes and jobs to the homless..
im JUSSSTTTT sayin
3/27/2009 4:47:26 PM
ive decided to put my own life where i put my apprentice'
now that the whole YES she is my WE ARE CELIBATE apprentice. Yes, malicious is my WE ARE CELIBATE in home slave.. thing is done.
You gusy all knwo im real. you know i know thgow to keep somebbody and why im so secretive.. its NOt cause i chop folks up.. its cause im literally a justice crusader every day.. so there. my past exploits have been documented 9when not top secret) so i just sorta undid that last part on the thing i was doing for most fo the time i was on this site.
yes it was surreal visiting this site every day from lockheed martin. yes it was surreal visiting this site from department of corrections whiel goign deep cover to help make the worlds largest jail a safer place for the rest of my life.
and here i am again on this site.. with an ultimatum: will the hottest girl that wants to REALLY be a perfect example of insanely intense and slowly evolving intellectuall;yt stimulating sensually sadistic lifetime only BDSM
please just toss me an email asking to be my wife and slave.. and be real and show up.. thanks that would really help a lot.
marriage.. eh.. you can legally get a divorce in most countries.. so marriage means so very little to me.. lifetime commitments meana lot to me though... and since i know for a fact that im good at keeping them.. i hope somebody might maybe could have interest in a Dominant as insanely creative but honest as i am.
im stuck here til that happens and i hope iot doesnt take forever.. btu in the meantime i am working on my video game.. so its not that big of a deal.
i have another two years of boredom til the game si done. yeah it woudl be a lot less boring with some company.. but whatevs.
im getting the hang fo this celibacy thing.. very fascinating.. what do you do when you can have anyone you can see but you dont know how to find who wants YOU?
3/2/2009 12:03:46 AM
new site is done.. http://housenysian.com/ummo/
will be working on a lot of code for a while. thanks for putting up with me and will visit back often.
