blushes....

didnt realise posted anything on her bday.... went out after work and didnt have a car on saturday.... sooooo guesses was a very bad girl... although she didnt drive home... and woke up alone..... thats gotta count for something.... right????

wants relationship... but doesnt want to play online games or just be a pen pal, will travel but isnt looking for long distance occasional play partner and doesnt have a current passport, or that You have sooo many online players You forget her name...

fyi...

not here soooo much....

wishes to be owned.... but ... doesnt want to be" the wife that is cheated on"...

she knows is not the "be all"

yep... is ... difficult

wishes A/all a prosperous new year... and happy birthday to this one...

ni ni

mmmmmmm......

occoustic Eagles.....

Hotel California.....

on a dark desert highway..... cool wind in my hair....

next Santana...

"You can find it here"....

nite nite.... bring Y/your aliby.....

chargers lost.....

kc lost...

raiders lost....

dallas lost....

steelers won... yaayyyy

romo broke a rib

charles tore acl

wtf is 84 on patriots?

she is not doing well in fantasy football... need she say more?

Vegas was good....

there are lots of rules to craps... lol.  only use one hand... keep track of what your rolling and keep the dice on the table... yep, beaned two bystanders and the guy with the stick...

thinks is gonna stick to black jack!!

why is holiday weekend only 3 days?

how can it be a great weekend if one whole day spent traveling?

laughs... gets excited n cant sleep n then needs a nap :(

hopes Y/your weekend was good

wishes E/everyone a wonder filled holiday !!!!

bbq, lazy days, football, stayin up late and sleepin later...

drinkin coffee early sunday morning... or goin for a ride on sunday afternoon...

and smilin n rollin over when the alarm doesnt go off on monday...

mmmmmmm.....

happy holidays!

'

not sleeping

do You always trust Your first initial feeling

special knowledge bears believing...

turned around and the water was closing all around

like a glove....

she is a magnet..

downloading new music...

eric clapton... layla

eagles.. hotel california

mmmm... and bob segar

first day back to work... can type 25 mins... scheduled for 4 hrs....

is long day...

i wish i had the wings to fly away from away from here....

wants to be more than she is...

wants to be more than she is...

asks.... please dont message her if she hasnt spoken with Y/you

shouldve been listening closer

shouldve understood when was advised **** had been in lifestyle a few years was because Master wanted back in and she was in to keep Him

shouldve been listening when she laughed about the others she ran off

shouldve understood was never gonna be accepeted, and not hoped for friends if not sisters

shouldve understood **** knew the words but had not understanding of them

maybe she shouldve said something to Master, but 1) wasnt trained was His job to referee and 2) it was probably something He was aware of and didnt wish to address or 3) He is oblivious n wouldnt care anyway

maybe she shouldnt have tried to listen n not judge, big mistake so much bitterness wears on the soul

maybe she shouldve just moved on before it got to the point it could cause pain

now

is gonna withdraw, not sleep so much, cry and eat n throw up for a few weeks n then decide how much she needs to be a slave

soooo.... thank Y/you for listening

doesnt wish a hundred messages

happy hunting and wishes well

i look up to the lil bird that glides across the sky...

i wish that i could be that be that bird that that flys away from away from here...

i am just a troubled soul that is waiting to arrive...

give me the strength to lay this burden down.... lay it down...

they always said You knew best....

is callin it a night...

fyi... annie lennox...

ni ni

You wish a journal to know her mind Master,

she will give some here to You, until You may read the journal she writes in reguarly Master

she makes preparations to come to You, not wirhout trepidation Master

You stand with open arms to welcome her.... she is not so much used to that Master

she has learned to look for the "catch"... what might be required of her?... secrecy?... no... Tazslilbabygirl knows of this one and invites her back... maybe even misses her somewhat Master

is she to be a lure for other's You seek?... You have not asked such Master

You say You will correct any learned behaviour You do not wish.... and yet are gentle in the correction Master.... and there have been a few Master

You make clear Your expectactations... but are willing to make sure she understands and accepts them Master

in nearly a year and several visits You do not waver in Your expectations of her... wanting her to improve in herself and her self worth Master

sometimes she is afraid... afraid she is not enough... sometimes thinks its all a sham Master and she will never be enough Master

she wishes the distance was not so far Master

she wishes she did not have scars Master

this one thinks maybe should mention is not looking for a Master or training, she is already in a relationship

she isnt online very much, only sometimes when gets lonley due to time difference with Master... and yeesss gets along well with His collared submissive