Nic4Kink

I want to hear your pain

to know the sound of your fear

I want to see the hope in your eyes

when you look up and me and cry

I want to feel your helplessness

when you submit to my desire

"The Wine Bottle"

I look over and see it lying there;
right where I placed it the night before,
waiting to be enjoyed
in that cozy spot by the fire,
or perhaps in a Jacuzzi under the stars.
Its fate remains unknown.

I look over and see it lying there;
resigned to the mystery of it’s fate.
I wonder, will it go to whom it was betrothed
or has it found its final resting place?



I look over and see it lying there;
right where I placed it a lifetime ago,
forgotten.
The coals have grown cold.
The clouds of winter veil the stars.

I look over and see it lying there;
a lonesome reminder of mistakes
born in the follies of hiding behind a mask
weaved with the fibers of a painful past.

I look over and see it lying there;
looking somewhat plain and bored
as it waits for someone to take the time
to pop the cork and realize
all the wondrous flavor
hidden away inside.



I look over and see it lying there;
Cast aside, empty, alone;
Its fine flavor lost on the oblivious
who never really wanted it,
but hoped to satiate some want or need.

I look over and see it lying there;
shedding blood red tears
in a black despondency
its existence ended.

I was informed yesterday that I seem too normal to be on this site. Well, I'm not tattooed or pierced. I've never done the 24/7 thing and am only recently exploring public communities in the lifestyle. I would categorize myself so far as a Bedroom only Dom/Sadist. I'm open to pretty much everything. That includes exploring the 24/7 aspect, but not in front of vanilla friends and family.

Underestimating me would be a mistake. The fact that designing myself an appropriate lifestyle costume isn't a priority for me doesn't mean I don't belong here. :)

I'm looking forward to meeting new people in the lifestyle. It's refreshing not to have to have that conversation with a new interest to see how they feel about this part of my life. So far no one has turned around and run away after that conversation though. I've been flattered concerning certain talents and asked for more, but then at other times had to deal with doubt. I've been told that something must have happened to me as a kid to make me who I am. They just didn't really understand that I'm not some sexual predator in disguise. Then again, they had no idea how mild our play was either so... I'm looking forward to meeting people with interests I know more about that won't judge.