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	About newchapters A drowning woman pulled from the depths Learning to breathe Someone asked me what I hope to find in my new chapters First and foremost I hope to find myself I hope to find I am living boldly, without fear, true to myself I hope to find a partner, a lover, a teacher, a Dom, a Master Carefully choosing those who will help author the chapters I know to my core I am submissive, it's not a game, not an act, not a costume. I am not inexperienced, I've had Dom men in my life The first was a mentor, a teacher and a friend The second was the love of my life, a liar and a coward The third woke me up to new possibilities, my new reality I'm grateful for each of them Learning is not an "option", it is the only way forward.

How simple is this?

I want to give everything I am to a man who would come between me and all that would cause me harm.

I want to be able to trust and submit so completely that I forget who I was without him

I read this today:

I want the parts that you've tried to throw away.
The parts that you were convinced no one could ever love.

It made me cry, but maybe this is why I don't know how to let my submissive nature out. Every part of "normal" society tells us what we crave is wrong. I tried for too many years to be what I thought I was supposed to be.

I know better now, but I have so much to learn.

My understanding in the differences between a Top and a Dom:

A Top is merely a play partner. A part time friend who may share your interests and fulfill some of your needs but will never know you to your core. There is a level of trust that will allow for “scenes or sessions” but the connection may never go deeper.

A Dom is someone who will know his submissive to her core, every nuance of her being. Their time together will not be divided into “play time” and “vanilla” time. Every breath she takes will belong to him, every decision his to make. The level of trust so complete that she can truly let go of everything and simply exist for his pleasure.

I am a submissive, I want a Dom.

I am however, 50 years old and my past is very much a part of who I am today. My ex-husband is insecure, domineering and a bully. To survive more than 20 years with him I had to learn to manipulate, and control my world. This went completely against my nature and broke me. I have built walls to protect myself, I don’t trust my ability to see the difference between dominant and domineering. I ache to have a man in my life that I can trust with everything that I am. I want to let go of the control and learn to just be, to exist for the pleasure and purpose of a man who sees me as I am. I’m working to unlearn bad habits and to be everything I am meant to be.

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