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Female Submissive, 32, youngstown, Ohio
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Female Dominant, 20, Palm Harbor, Florida
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About naughtyandnew
I have taken a lover. ?He is vanilla but is kinky. We are currently seeking another couple to swing with or a single to have a 3some with. We enjoy public play. We are d&d free and expect the same. He is 56 but in good shape and incredible stamina. ?
I?have been in the lifestyle for just over 6 years now.? Through that time?I have had little experience. ?I am a submissive that was looking for a master to train with and eventually maybe collared to.? If I was still looking, I would have wanted the following things. I would like my master to be assertive, strict, understanding and patient with me.?? My master will have to remember that?I am still fairly new to a lot of things and that?I will need some coaxing as well as teachings.? Even though?I do not have a lot of experience being a sub,?I have been told that?I am very pleasing and that?I know where my place is.
i?seek a master who will be my master, but?does not require to be a strict 24/7.? As much as?I am submissive, I have found that?I also need to have the vanilla life time.?I want to be able to talk to?one another when we have to, and be that "normal" couple when it is called for.?
?In my vanilla life?I am a very controlling individual.??I like to have and need that control.? My job as well as my life require that control.??I want to give up some of that control.?
Maybe what?I am really asking for is a 24/7 thing with relaxed times of submission.
I?am not looking for someone?more than 100 miles away from me.??I am looking for a man only that is between the ages of 30-50.? I am looking for real time, not online.? If you do not have a pic with your e-mail I will NOT respond to you.??
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A lot has happened since my last entry. The dom that I was dealing with has since moved away. It took my a while to be able to get over him. Every time I started to something happened that caused me to miss him all over again. It wound up being a rough time. I was at least smart enough to know that I wasn't ready to be with another dom. When I did get over things I still wanted more time to think about what I really wanted and needed. I had decided that until I figured things out I wanted a male slave. I still had needs that I needed to take care of. During the time of finding a slave, a friendship that I had with a vanilla man developed into something more. He wound up being kinky and we are now in a relationship. He makes me happy and care tremendously for me. He wants to find a couple to play with. Hopefully we find one. |
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It has been a few weeks since my last post. I decided that an update was in order. After my last entry, Sir contacted me and wanted to talk about getting back together. He came over and decided that he didn't want to talk about things,but wanted to get back together. I agreed. I missed him so much. Not too long after,he was supposed to come over. He canceled not quite at the last minute. I had canceled my workout for the night. I am a workout partner so when either of us cancels,the other doesn't workout either. The next day Sir tried to get in touch with me. When I go to lunch I shut off the ringer so I don't disturb anyone else having lunch. Most of the time I forget to turn it back on. I also don't go checking my phone for messages and such. I was on the treadmill when I saw that Sir had tried to get a hold of me. I saw that he sent me a text telling me he was on his way over. When I called him back, said how he tried to get in touch with me. He sounded mad. He wanted me to skip the workout and come home. I told him no.(We had an agree that I didn't have to cancel stuff for him.) He sent a few texts asking why I didn't see his messages. After a few texts he stopped texting me. Later he texted me and wanted to know how I didn't see the missed calls and messages. When I explained things to him he still didn't seem to believe and said goodnight. When I didn't hear from him for a few days, I texted him, but he never responded. That was more than a week and a half ago. I guess it is his way of breaking up with me again. I am assuming it is because he thinks I lied to about not seeing the messages and working out. I had never lied to Sir. Not about anything. It hurts to think that he doesn't believe me,especially when I had never given him a reason not to. A am a very honest and loyal sub. Even when I am in just a vanilla relationship I don't cheat or lie (except maybe where the Christmas presents are hidden.) I don't have to lie or cheat like that. I am probably the most loyal sub a Dom could ever have. |
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This weekend was nice. I went to my parents for the weekend. Mom and I went to a local fair. It was nice to get away from things for a bit. It was somewhat depressing because of all the the couples. It made me think about Sir and miss him. It has as been hard to deal with not having Sir in my life. Today I have missed him a lot and feel lonely and empty. Someone I know said that I was lucky that it didn't last long and to quickly get over it. Easier said than done. Especially when you care so much about someone. |
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Tonight has really sucked. I am not sure how much of this is going to make sense since I am upset. Sir has decided to end things with me. He says that it had nothing to do with me. I was the best thing that happened to him. He told me that there was some things going on in his life that he needed to take of.
I find that as I am writing this it makes me feel a little better. I guess I just need to get things out. It is hard knowing that I have to start all over again. I wonder if it is all worth it. I guess time will tell. I guess the only thing left is to say goodbye Sir. |
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Today was a very special day for me. Sir had to go away for a couple days. I called him while he was on the road. We started to talk about where he was at the moment. He then told me what the game plan was. While he was telling me, I got really confused. I didn't know almost anything about his past. At that moment, Sir decided to talk about it. I was very overwhelmed. I felt so honored to be given such a privilege. It meant more to me than I can express into words. I have been given a very special gift. Thank you Sir for that honor and for letting me into your life. It means the world to me. |
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Tonight was a very exciting and special night. Sir came over and we went out to dinner. When we came back Sir wanted to talk about some things. When he was done he had me strip. He slowly started caressing my body, making it come alive. We then went upstairs. He had me recite his 4 rules. He had me repeat them over and over. He smacked my tits as well. After he had me do some more things,he informed me that I was now a part of his house. I am very honored to be a part of his house. It is something that I treasure incredibly. I also find myself scared that I will wake up and find all of this a dream. What I have with Sir is remarkable. I was losing hope that I would ever find someone like him. Thank you Sir for making me incredibly happy and for making me a part of your house. I am very blessed and fortunate to have you in my life. |
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Tonight Sir and I went out to dinner. I enjoy spending time with him. He came over to my place and came inside for the first time. It meant a lot to me that he came in. It was really nice to sit together on the couch. I find myself wanting to spend more and more time with him. I enjoy the vanilla time we spend together, but I also enjoy when he is using me. The more time we spend together, the more I am learning to trust him more and more. I like seeing where this is going and what is happening. I look forward to what comes next. |
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Things have been going well with Sir and I. For my birthday, Sir cooked a wonderful dinner. He later had a cake for me. Last night he bought me my favorite candle and gave it to me as my present. It was a really nice night. I haven't told Sir this yet, but this was the first birthday in years that I haven't cried on. I owe that all to him. Thank you Sir for making it a very special day for me. It means so much to me. |
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Well tonight I met with the dom again. We went to dinner. Later we went to the mall and then for a drink and desert. We had such a great time. I am meeting with him tomorrow for my birthday. I am looking forward to it. We really seem to have a great connection. Because we want the same things, we have decided to further our relationship. It is a wonderful next step. I am very happy with this. Can't wait for what comes next for us. |
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So far things are going nicely with the dom I met the other day. We talk and text throughout the day. The more we talk the more we seem to have in common. It is nice to have intelligent conversations with him. Our conversations flow and time flies by. It has been very nice. We are getting together the next two days. We will see how things go. I think they will be a good couple of days. It is still too new to see if things will work. It seems it may but time will tell. |
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Today I met a new dom for the first time. In a short amount of time we discovered that we had a lot in common and were looking for the same things. It was suppose to be a meet with probably meeting for an hour or so. That was not how it turned out. We wound up spending about 7 and half hours together. I found myself pleasantly surprised by him. I thought he would turnout to be some wannabe who just talked the talk, but couldn't walk the walk. I was wrong. He turned out to be the kind of dom he claimed to be. I enjoyed our time together. We have decided to see each other again. I look forward to it. He is considering me for his own and hoping to collar me one day. Time will tell what will happen. |
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It is amazing how many doms say that they want a sub/slave and when things barely get started they disappear. It seems that they only want the challenge of seeing if they can find someone and when that happens the fun is over and they are gone. It makes it all that much harder to be able to trust someone enough to try again. However, somehow we find that courage and try once more. This time hopefully being a little more wiser in the process. Maybe this time the one that is being searched for can be found. |
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SIR wanted this cunt, that is wanting to be considered by him, to make a journal entry about why submissives should always use lowercase letters unless referring to SIR. a sub should use lowercase letters because a sub knows it is the right thing to do. it shows her willingness to as a sub and her desire to serve. SIR also deserves respect so his name should be in uppercase. lowercase letters should always be used by a sub because a sub is lower than a DOM. their place is beneath them. |
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Happy Birthday to me. Spent the day all alone. I could have went to my parents and spent the evening there, but didn't want to bother. Other people that matter in my life just forgot about it or didn't care because they never said Happy Birthday to me . It took a headline in my messaging for them to say it. Boy did that make me feel good. Anyway, that left me alone for the day. I did treat myself to a wonderful dinner. Then when I was done, I had some cake that I got at the store. I made sure to put a candle in it and sang Happy Birthday to myself. I wasn't sure if I should even bother with a wish, but decided to be hopeful and make one anyway. I hope next year's birthday will be a better and happier one.
Thank you Sir Chris for remembering. It meant so much to me. Thank you for the smile that it gave me. |
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It has been a long time since my last entry. I had been meaning to put one up sooner, but just hadn't had the time. Now that I do, I want catch you up on things.
I had decided that I needed to take a break from finding a Dom. The more time I had spent on this site, the fustrated I was becoming. I was tired of all the wannabes claiming they knew what they were doing. Then after asking a few simple questions, it was made clear that they didn't. My biggest issue with it, is that they do not understand that if they do not know what they are doing, then a sub like me can get seriously hurt (I mean it in the bad way). Beside me getting hurt, they themselves can get hurt. This lifestyle is based on trust. If a person can't be honest about what they know or don't, then how can they be trusted? My life means way to much to put it into jeopardy like that.
With that I decided to date vanilla guys for a while. I quickly found that they bore me. I missed being controlled and used. I did find out that there are quite a few Doms on vanilla sites. I was having better luck finding decent doms there. It was mind blowing. Then after dating a bunch of vanilla guys with no success, and missing the lifestyle, I decided it was time to try again to find a dom. |
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I have been trying to get my profile updated. Since not being on in two years there were things that I needed to change. I didn't realize how much I had changed and learned about myself until I started editting my profile.
In the last 2 years I have been able to find out what kind of Dom would best suit me and what kind of relationship that I need. I was surprised to find out that I needed a combination of both the lifestyle and vanilla lives. At first I wasn't sure how that would work, but I have learned that it can as long as both the Dom and Sub are on the same page with it. You can be 24/7 and still have vanilla with it.
With these past 2 years I just wished that I had learned more experiences. Unfortunately that was not the case. I am still close to where I was 2 years ago. Oh well I know that it will change in the future. No sense in dwelling on the past. I can't change it. Now I just need to concentrate on the present and future and see where it takes me. I can't wait for my next journey. |
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Wow, this is the first time I have been back on this site in over 2 years. It is funny how time flies the older that you get. Right now as much as want to post the last 2 years, I will save that for another entry. I just wanted to post a something to let people that I am back on the site. |
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I can't believe it has been over a month since my last entry. Time has relly been flying fast for me. Even though things are going by real fast for me, my play sessions have come to a stand still. A couple of months agao I said that I had surgery. Since then there have been issues that have come up because of the surgery. These issues had required me to put my lifestyle on hold. It was a difficult time for me not being used, but a very enlightening one. It gave me the chance to really think about what is important to me. It has made me realize without a doubt that this is lifestyle for me. With being "suspended" from the lifestyle, I was able to see that this lifestyle is a part of me and that it will always be. While not being used, it is as though a part of me has been lost. A part that I am very eager to have back now. This time away has made me realize how much I desire to be a submissive and to further myself into becoming a slave. I have heard a lot on this site talk about whether or not someone is real sincere about this lifestyle. If you question on how much you really want to be in the lifestyle, or you question of the person that is with you, I encourage you to take the time and step away, or have them step away from the lifestyle for a short time. In a short amount of time you will be able to determine whether this lifestyle is really meant for you. For Dom and Dommes you can see how much a submissive/slave wants to be here by holding back on this lifestyle and seeing how the submissive/slave reacts. This can then help determine if this person is right for you or not. I know that this time has helped me, and has helped to keep me on the path for personal success as a submissive and eventual slave. When you are first starting out in this lifestyle, you may, and probably do, question whether or not this lifestyle is meant for you. After "exploring" for a little time in the lifestyle, you may want to take the time and reflect on things. This time away will help you decide what you want to do. I have spent a lot if time reflecting on the last several months and what I have been doing and what I feel is right. I think it has made me into a better submissve by knowing more about myself and what is it that I desire from this lifestyle. I hope by sharing this, I can help someone else in the process. I have realized that there are a lot of people out there that just are not sure of things, like I was when I first started. I want to be able to help them and hopefully be able to make their journey in this lifestyle an easier for them. After all I am here to make life easier. |
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Things have been very busy for me since my last entry. Since the last entry I have had some more play sessions. Even though it was most important for the Doms in them to have been pleased, I found them to be very enjoyable and learned much from them. Before I go any further, I want to take the time to say "Thank you" to one Dom in particular that I had been used by in one of these sessions. To respect his privacy I will not reveal anything about him. He has taught and shown me a lot. I want him to know that I appreciate everything and that I thank him very much for all that he has given to me.
Usually I have some kind of lesson to tell. I have topics, but the words are not coming to me right now. So instead of boring you with nonsense I will just wait until another time for the lessons. For all my Doms, Dom friends, Submissives/Slave that I chat with, I want to say thank you to you all. You have become very special to me and I want you all to know that I appreciate everything that you have done, said, given to me. Thank you!
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I can't believe a month has almost gone by since my last entry. Boy does time fly. Yesterday was my birthday. I went out to lunch and dinner, but nothing too exciting. Otherwise it was just an everyday day.
There isn't a whole lot going on since my last entry. I have had a few play sessions, but nothing big. I realize that not being colloared is a hard road to go down, but I know that in the long run it will make me a better submissive. I know that I could take the easy road and submitt to one Dom now, but in the long run I know that it is not wise. I will not have known what it is like to be with different kinds of Doms. Without this knowledge I cannot make a wise decision about choosing a Dom to be with. I want to make wise decisions and be a very good submissive for the Dom I submit to. I want to know that I have taken the time to learn and find out that he is the best and last choice for me.
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I never would have thought that having time way from the lifestyle would be a good thing, but it has. It has made me really see that this is the lifestyle for me. That I am submissive and this is my place. Any questions that I had about really knowing that I was submissive and that I wanted to be here have been answered. I know that I want to be here. I desire to be here, and that it is my place to be submissive.
Before my surgery I had been training with a Dom. He sis own me, but I was under his control while training. That training has ceased. When this happened I found my self not knowing what to do next. I had heard that it happens to submissives when they have been released and are backing to finding another Dom. I didn't think that it would happen to me. I found myself lost because I was not under that control anymore. Things that I was not allowed to do when I was under control I was able to do again. I found this to be extremely difficult. I still felt like I was under control and that the things that I was not allowed to do were still off limits to me. I had to break through that barrier in order to move on. I kept repeating to myself over and over again that I was not under anyone's control anymore and that it was ok to do the things that I wanted to. I had to force myself to do the things and even when I did, I still felt that I was being disobedient. This was a good lesson for me to learn. For me, it meant that I was heading in the right direction for becoming a very good submissive.
Another thing that I had learned was that I really need to take the time and really get to know a Dom before jumping into anything. I need to really take the time and find out about a Dom before I commit to anything.
What you see is not always what you get. That is a lesson I have learned very well.
*Edited on June 26, 2007.
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It has been almost a month since my last entry, so I thought it was about time for another. I hope this one stands up with my others.
My vanilla life has many ups and downs in the last month. Some I wish not to discuss here. Please respect my privacy for that. One big thing that has happened is I just had surgery. I do not want to bore everyone with the details. It was nothing serious and something that I have wanted for a while now. (No it was not any cosmetic stuff.) Through this time, the one thing that has gotten me through everything is my submission. When things have been bad I have looked to my submission to put me back on track or at least to make me feel better. It has been the one constant that I can depend on. It has helped to put order back into my very hectic life. When I have felt lost, just getting on my kneels and kneeling there has put me back into place. (When I was able to.) It has made me stop and really think about things and reanalyze them and put things back into perspective.
Now with this surgery, I am unable to do anything for a while. I have found myself really missing the lifestyle. Not being able to really do anything has given me more time to think about what I want and what I am really looking for in this lifestyle. Having this time off has really made me see that I want this lifestyle more and more each day that I am away from it. I can't wait til I can be actively in the lifestyle again. It seems so long since that time. However with this time I am still able to use the mental training that I have received to keep my mind and spirit within this lifestyle. That has helped me get through this little adventure of mine. At least I have the time to concentrate on my mental training and develop it further. That has been the plus through all of this. Actually it is not only a plus, but it has helped me get through this difficult time in my life. I am really looking foward to when I can get back into the physical part of this lifestyle. |
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I have learned so much these last 4 months about myself and what I really desire, than I have in the last 10 years. I am finding that the more knowledge you obtain the better and safer you will find yourself. I want to lbe able to learn more. I am desiring to become what I feel true submission is. I would like to find female subs/slaves to be able to chat with. I desire to hear about their different kinds of experiences and their emotions from events that have happened to them. I am hoping to be able to share my little experiences and knowledge with them. Hopefully we can learn something from one another. I hope to know from them, what the expereince is like to be a 24/7 sub/slave and everything that goes with it. I would like to know how other subs/slaves feel about being used and what their first time being whored out was like, and how it is to be whored out now. I need to learn all that I can to become a better slut and to be to be more pleasurable and desirable.
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4/24/07 After about 4 months of being new to this site and lifestyle, I thought that it was about time I write a journal entry. I wasn't sure what I really wanted to write about, but then it hit me. I wanted to be able to help other newbies into this lifestyle. Before I begin I want to take the time and dedicate this journal entry to a very special Dom. Without his guidance and knowledge I am not sure I would have ever been able to do this. He has made all the difference. It is because of him and what he has given me that I honor him and return his kindness by helping others in the same way.
I entered into this lifestyle about 4 months ago. I knew very little about it and wasn't prepared for all that comes with it. I didn't even know where to really begin. I did know that I was a submissive. I have always liked doing things for others, and for me that was just a natural decision. However, that was all that I was sure of. I found that I had all kinds of messages from Doms that were asking me for all sorts of things. I was so confused on what to do and how to do it. I had wished that there was a manual for newbies. It would have and still would make things alot easier. I wanted to help others the same way I have been helped. That is why I have decided to write a journal here. I hope that some of things I have felt and have expereinced will help others in the same situation that I was and am in.
Here is list of things that I have found to help me along the way and hopefully will help you as well. Since I am a submissive this will be geared toward Submissives/Slaves than Dominants/Dommes. However the information can help both.
1) Determine what you are looking to become. Self evaluate yourself to determine if you want to be a Dominant/Domme or if you desire to become a Submissive/Slave.
2) Write an honest and complete profile. Let people know what you are in and not into. Honestly tell them what expereinces you have. This can help you better in finding the right person for you. As you become more familar and experience things with this lifestyle you should update your profile.
3) Trust your instincts!!!!!!! Whether you feel it is good or bad situation, go with your instincts. It can save you from having a really bad experience. In can even help to save your life.
4) Find people to chat with. Hear what they have to say. Listen about the expereinces and emotions they have had during this whole journey. If you can, ask them questions that you may have. The more inforamtion you can get, the better decisions you can make within this lifestyle.
5) Find a knowledable Dom that you can talk to. There are a lot of Doms on this site that like to help newbie submissives/slaves. They want to help by giving you information so you do not "get hurt". I have found that you can tell a really good Dom from a wanna-be Dom is by asking questions. A Dom will be quite knowledgable in this lifestyle and can answer most if not all kinds of questions about this lifestyle. He will want to freely give you this information. There are a lot of good Doms that want to truly help you. Take advantage of their kindness and knowledge.
6) Find other Submissives/Slaves Doms/Dommes to chat with. They can help to tell you about emotions that you may feel and how to deal with them. They can tell you about their expereinces and how this lifestyle has changed them. They can tell you things that may help you with things in this lifestyle.
7) Ask as many questions as possible. The more you know, the better decisions you can make. The better decisions you can make, the more enjoyable this journey may be for you.
8) Don't rush into anything too quickly. Find out about the person you want to be with. In this lifestyle you need trust. Trust is the most important thing needed. Take time into know about someone before you start anything. The quickest way you can find yourself in a bad situation is by rushing.
9) Be cautious!!! Don't reveal any personal information about yourself until you feel comfortable with it. (ie phone number, e-mail address, home address) Do not let anyone push you into something that you are not ready for. I want you to stay safe.
10) Be open-minded. Just because you may not be into something, doesn't mean that someone else isn't. Beside as you get more into the lifestyle things can change. I have found that things that I wasn't into before and didn't think too much of, I am starting to see that maybe they aren't as bad as I thought and I may even want to try them.
I hope this has been helpful. As I progress more into this lifestyle I will share thoughts and feels with you. Right now I just wanted to give you some basic things that I have found to help me make this journey easier. Have fun in this adventurous lifestyle. |
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