mytruth2u

When i first learned about submitting i knew i had found what had been missing in my life. i’m not finding it hard to accept, if anything i’m sad that i didn’t find this years ago.

So now i’m trying to figure out what i want and how to present myself to this uniquely beautiful world. i guess i’ll start with me and the many issues that come attached to me.

i’ll start with the big and scary one because if you can’t accept it then there is no point in continuing to read about my wonderful, terrible self. i was diagnosed with breast cancer late last year. i lost my right breast in the process. i have no hair, originally because of Chemo but now because i shave it for a business i have started. I do have 15 or 16 different wigs though and they are very varied and beautiful. But I don’t always wear them because they are hot, itchy and truthfully i think i look beautiful without them as well. My head is very round and smooth. i love to be pet like a cat puurrrrr hehe

i am a very strong woman. i have lived though so many things and not only survived but thrived. i am very smart but not especially intellectual. I think that is only because i haven’t really put the effort into building up my intellect. i excel at anything i try to do. i am a visionary and a dreamer but my problem is that i don’t have a solid base on the ground. i can and do come up with ideas that will change the world but i don’t have discipline or motivation to make them reality.

i need a man that is stronger then me so that my large personality will not overpower him. i need a man that is smarter then me because if he’s not then i wont respect him. i need a man that is emotionally stable because i am all over the place. i need my man to understand that no matter what i show to the world inside i am week, scared and need his guidance.

i need to find my other half. i have always felt that a part of me is missing. Now it’s beginning to makes sense to me. i am week because my other half is strong. i don’t want to play around with fake Dom’s. i want to give away all that is me. i have always wanted to give everything that is me to the man in my life but the men in my life could never handle that much intensity. i feel that the only way that i will be truly free is when i’m completely owned. i want my man to know everything about me, to find out all my secrets and all my dreams.

i have been told time and time again not to trust so fully, not to be so intense, to hold back, and to hide parts of myself but that is just not me and the idea that someone could love me for me is beautiful. i want to feel protected, loved and safe.

i have always had dark fantasies of being forced and used. i find that when my partners have been rough i have been the most turned on. i thought i was a freak. i didn’t understand why i had dark fantasies. i think im a nice caring person so why do i get turned on by things that normal people would think crazy. i fear pain but at the same time the idea of giving my pain as a gift to my master makes me feel warm inside. i think i was made to be a sub but no one knew to tell me.

i have a lot of issues and i have no experience as a sub but for some reason you’re still reading my profile. Maybe you like a challenge, maybe you see potential, or maybe you are interested in finding out what type of art you can make with a blank canvas.