myall4you

First a disclaimer I was here before but cannot remember the password, or maybe the profile name, that I used then. I do remember my list of do not wants and the behaviors and attitudes that annoy me to no end but I won’t start there. Each of you that takes the time to approach me deserves to do so with a clean slate and on your own merit.

I am a submissive woman. There are very few who know me who could read that last statement without falling over in fits of laughter. In my every day life I am very much the one in charge. I know what needs to be done, when and how to accomplish the best results. If you are on my team you need to perform up to expectations (preferably above) or get out of the way.

I am that person professionally because I have to be. That hard shell, reliable and resilient, all the while aching for a place of safety, seeking those strong arms where it is possible to soften and crack, to set free the open and vulnerable being that huddles within.

In the past, I’ve met a few here who have expressed relief that I am not a doormat. I have thoughts and opinions – which I am not shy about expressing- I dress myself and decide what I want for lunch, with very little trouble, every day. If you are behaving like a buffoon, I’ll let you know. But you know what? Sometimes I envy those women, the ones who can just lie back and say “yes Sir” without so much as a second thought, or perhaps even a first one.

Obviously, this isn’t something that will work for me with just anyone. For a while I thought I had found the one but circumstances have brought me back here.

Does all of this rambling make it seem as though I am looking for an impossible ideal? I hope not. I’m not all that particular about height, weight, hair color, race, choice of career, or favorite music group. I am particular about you being single and a non-smoker. Neither are secrets you can keep for very long so why waste our time.

So, it’s not so much what I am looking for but what I can feel. It’s something we will recognize without naming it, call it an energy, a life force, what ever “it” may be…