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Getting Flogged.

I have been planning this day for a while now and wanting to feel and understand what it feels like to get flogged and what happens afterwards. I have been hearing all about this for a while from my mentor that I felt it best to get some experience for myself. I wanted to feel the flogged across my back and feel what sub space and sub drop was all about. Seeing a friend go through it made me wonder what it was like. So I passed on the idea to my mentor and she agreed to give me the experience. But I wanted it in a private setting with no one around because I didn't know how I was going to react.

She got me to stand against this wheel on the wall and hold onto the bars of each side. Then I started to relax a little. The first hit came across my back and I just stood there with my eyes closed waiting for the next. But instead my mentor came over and asked if I was ok. I said yes. She said she was going to deal you a few more blows, this time, many in a row. I got myself ready again and started to relax. Then the blows came. I wasn’t sure how many she gave me, I wasn’ t counting, but it felt like a lot.

She stopped and I stood there holding the bars. Then she touched my back with her fingers and my knees gave out and I fell to the floor. I sat on the floor for a few minutes with my mentor behind me.

She slowly got me up and walked me over to the couch to lay down on my stomach. She talked to me a little more and asked if I was ready for some more. I said yes and got myself into a safe position on the couch. Again, the flogger came down across my back and this time it was a little harder then the first. Then she stopped and ran her fingertips across by back and this time I started twitching. I was feeling too many sensations all at once so I’ m not sure what I was feeling but it felt good. She got me to relax again and she started flogging me again. Same thing happened again. The twitching however got more intense the third time round.

The fourth round of flogging I got was a little more intense then the first 3. She started to flog a little harder then before. I remember her starting but I don’ t remember when she stopped. All I remember is her fingertips running down my back and me twitching like crazy and unable to stop. She looked very pleased with herself and pleased with me and how I was taking it.

My mentor told me that I took 104 strokes from the flogger. I didn’t realise I took so many hits my first time. She said that I took it like a champ for my first time and that I said I liked it. I didn’t remember saying that I liked it but and she explained that I could have gone into sub space. I didn’t understand it at first but the more we talked about it, the more I understood it.

We started to pack up and head back to her house. During the drive back, my head felt a little weird. At the time I didn’t understand it but I was processing so much information from the flogging that I didn’t realize what was going to happen next. As I walked into her house, she took one look at me and asked if I was ok. I gave her a hug and said I feel like crying. Wasn’t really sure why but I went up stairs and laid down and started crying. She was there and held me for a moment and talked to me about the flogging. I felt like something was missing at this point and didn‘t know why. Trying to figure everything out. Trying to process the days event. Trying to wrap my head around it all. I had no control of my emotions at this point. What a mind fuck. She could only try to calm me down. After a while, I did. She said I was going through sub drop. It happens after getting flogged and this was normal. But, something was still missing and I wasn’ t sure what it could be.

Even after 2 weeks I’m still processing a lot of what happened that day but slowly I’ m understanding more of what I went through. I have decided that I want to learn more about the D/s dynamic and maybe one day take the role that suits me best.