It dawns on me that there is a difference between being controlled and having to be told what to do each instant.  Control is "the minute you arrive you will go to the kitchen and clean it the way you were instructed."  Once I learn that I know what you want and don't need to be told each step each time the kitchen is to be cleaned.  The need to know exactly what you want is so filling and helpful, but I hope you would not think you would have to remind me that the dishes are part of cleaning the kitchen.

Having said that yes I admit I will make mistakes and need occasional correction.  I won't make the mistakes on purpose though, and I will learn from someone who is kind enough to punish me when needed.

Some of  you guys do scare me a little, but a submissive man is not one to point out how someone else doesn't measure up.  And I no doubt should also take into account the fact that men are often morons, and so there is no doubt you ladies probably do get some ignorant and silly emails.

Still it worries me when I read the tone of some lists of what people don't want.  Civility is truly dead I guess, and no doubt I'm showing my naivete when it comes to CM to even mention it.  But when you read phrases like:  "Don't waste my time or even bother if..."  

I suppose that is how it is here.  I guess I get that.

After approaching a woman who I thought has an amazing profile I am just minding my own business when I glance back at the browser and see "New Mail" or whatever it is called all lighted up.

Jump over and click to find...  No it was of course not the woman I had written.

Instead imagine how lucky I was to learn that MystressWorld or something close to that has a need for apparently quite a few submissive boys to be used as a kind of sexual drone in her effort to give women lessons in how to dominant men.  It's even okay to be married, as apparently the need for submissive male sex stories is just that great!

I'm guessing the male "subjects" as she referred to me will need a credit card of some type.

Patience update...  It still kinda sucks.

I found a really awesome profile written by a woman who seems to know what she is talking about.

It got me thinking about the type of men who many of the women here warn not to contact them.  Some requirements are understandable.  I mean I get that a woman may not have any use for a sissy boi or no desire to own someone over fifty or younger than thirty or whatever.

I'm not sure exactly what defines a "game player."  I would guess it would be a man who writes an email but won't commit to becoming an actual owned slave.

The desire to be owned completely and fully is genuine, at least I think it is.  But it is also the ultimate act of love and trust and respect.  How cool would it be to find a woman who has the kind of strength and intelligence it would take to own a person?  I think it would be awesome.  

So for all of the women who have suffered through the silliness that we are obviously capable of introducing I extend a sincere apology on behalf of everyone with a penis.

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In a completely unrelated thought:  How do you make submission and the weakness of control it implies look hot?

Some of the things women want are already confusing me....    If you are a submissive girl who would be a friend that would be nice too.

Anyway:  I am not a submissive in the world, just long to be one in the bedroom and in the house.  I'm not sure the diff between being a sissy and being told to wear panties is...

There is a lot more to me than my submission, it's just that right now it kind of overwhelms me and I need to act on what I've always suspected myself of being.

I really would love to provide perhaps some domestic service to start?  Maybe that could show how dedicated I am?  Oh like I really know.  I have no idea what Dominant women want as most of my education has been online and probably written by men just like me.

A kind, loving sadist who can accept my need for control and submission would be like hitting the lottery.

Blah blah blah right?