msubfornewdomme

This is a big step for me; I've been into BDSM my whole life. Practicing for the last 13 years and I've been a Dom the entire time. I've always known I've had a submissive streak but I fear it's more than just a streak. I feel as though I am actually transitioning more to submission.

I tend to be a bit wordy but I'll try to keep this explanation short. I'm tired of having to fight to win a woman over. It would be one thing if it was just the merits of my life and character... but now a days; there are so many jaded women that they just don't trust a guy. & I'm unusually earnest in my behavior. As time has passed I found that simple things like receiving the hug instead of giving it... being the inner spoon... and more have helped sate this tired side of myself. Constantly running the lives of myself and so many others.

So here's the problem, I've started to become aroused by submission and the idea of it, more than domination. A transition that I'm not entirely happy with, as I've always enjoyed control. But one that I'm choosing to embrace because I am a strong believer in balance and this is simply that.

So what am I looking for?
Well in simplest terms, a Domme. Someone who's willing to take control and let me enjoy the ride. More specifically there are boundless ways to describe what and how I want things but they follow a pattern... so let me describe it.

Pattern:
Domme, who's kind... sensitive... open to dialog... confident... happy... secure... and willing to have tremendous patience with me as I open up. As a Dom I know what is needed to submit and I will endeavor to provide it.

I have subbed a few times to girls I was in long term relationships with; but in all cases she was unfamiliar with the concepts and asked me for little less than topping from the bottom.

B.D.S.M.
Types of play:
The only things I wouldn't like... are things that degrade me to the position. Humiliation is wider than this so let me explain. In humiliation, a Domme might say "can't keep from cumming can you slut?", in degradation "only slaves can't keep from cumming, you deserve this." I'm quite intelligent and very successful. Unfortunately its in an environment where I am responsible for my own accolades so degradation is harmful to my security. Tl;dr... Humiliation yes... degradation no.

Orgasm Denial:
I get the appeal; and I think I'd be ok with short term limits to help me perform better. But I've seen the "often" evil gleam of denial trickery... I would red so hard if a Domme threatened long term. It's a intimate source of trust for me.

Things I'm New To:
Pegging, and body worship... as well as servitude and solid Mistress/slave play is right up my alley. I'm a physical person so I wouldn't enjoy a non-contact relationship as much. Online is a little different and I could enjoy online only interaction. I am very service oriented though, regardless of my position I enjoy doing extra for my partner.

On the couples and poly side, I'm a 2 (maybe 3 at most) on the kinsey scale. I would prefer to be topped by a woman, but wouldn't mind being topped by a man if he was respectful; and in many ways subservient too. I have never had gay sex as an adult, only a couple times as a teen. I would be open too it as long as it was a multiple partner scenario. I don't think I'd be open to just having sex with a man.

Messages
If any of this interests you, then shoot me a message. I'm not super picky, but I'm also nervous on this subject and a busy person. Please allow me some time to read and reply.