mrsticky

So I realized that as a sub male, even as a slave, I've just identified as just another bottom feeder in a sea of mature male sluts. That realization really blows. I really hope that this doesn't mean that, in order to attract a little attention, I'll agree to take bb loads anonymously. I really don't like the idea of contracting a disease no matter how amazing it might be at the time.

I've been thinking of other things that might make me seem more attractive. I certainly have considered cross-dressing since to me the one begging for it with their ass in the air. Personally I can't wrap my head around why a guy would be attracted enough to another guy to want to stick a dick in them. Maybe very girlie guys, that somehow seem more like a natural born woman than some gay guy. But not all guys that do enjoy sticking their horny little peckers in guys want that ass all smooth and laced and garnished artistically, smelling like some exotic ripe blossom trying to pull in the pollen in spring. Yeah I have allergies too.. so easy on the perfume. Even notice how some strippers bodies' seem to smell like such a great combination of different lotions, oils, perfumes, washes and sprays. Each of those smells accents all the little cosmetic steps a woman has to go through to create a formidably marketable piece of ass. If someone would appreciate all the hard work and show it by letting me really perform and show off, I would do it. I think I would love to do it. I'm like like a dick lov'n bull dyke. I need a reason to put on lipstick. One of the things I loved about a few of the profiles I read of guys looking for sissies, were all the stipulations that the sissy must ALWAYS wear womens' clothes. Some of these dudes were expressly interested in turning the sissy into a complete TG.

I know this Jeep Mechanic that has fake tits. You would never know it. He is the most average ordinary guy you can imagine until you invite him to a costume party. I have to say, I admire the guy. I thought he looked ridiculous in a dress even with tits. I can just imagine getting a nice set of tits, nothing to big, just enough to hold the line of a dress, and forevermore broadcast to an expanding potential public that something about me was wrong...but that having tits might help.. Most guys with tits my age are not exactly what I would call attractive. I wonder what those that are have in common. I would say probably, a since of style. Or is it just natural good looks and/or surgery? 

I think women have a lot more going on with this love for shoes that we realize. Nothing worse than a woman in really bad shoes. Unfortunately it seems that most womens' shoes available in my size are either horrible or expensive, sometimes both. I like the idea that walking in high heels takes a lot of practice. Most girls don't think about their high heels as a way to get a stranger's cum, but if it worked I'd even shave my legs and wear stockings.

I like wearing the kind of panties that can be seen, just a hint, buy the people behind me at the checkout. Most girls wouldn't even realize that they might have been giving a host of hard and willing donors little peaks. Of course when I wear a thong or g-string, I am almost always very aware of who sees it. I actually get very shy. Most of the time, there isn't anyone looking anyway, and fewer still anyone who cares even a little. I've made a little dare with myself that if someone thought that because I was a panty boy it would be ok to grab my ass or give me a wedgie, or make some crass comment, etc, that I would let myself fall into sub slut mode with him as my greatest desire. I'm sure that works to scare away dangerous situations more than it actually helps me get cock... It's still hot to think that some guy would be able to spot the obvious plea for a cock and be cocky enough to call me over or pull me behind a building without a word and take advantage of what I try to advertise discreetly, tastefully, but disparately needs to be taken care of.

  But from the other side of the situation... I like it pot luck, Russian roulette style to be honest if attraction was the only factor and health and safety weren't an issue. Of course, I don't look at guys and think of how much I would want them to bend me over or wonder about their dicks unless I'm really in heat. I usually think if anything how horrible it would be. I do spend a lot of time looking at cock pictures. I look at them maybe like a bronc buster might size up a stallion's merits before taking on the challenge. I especially like the pics with a nice idea of the amount and thickness of the possible loads achievable. I'm not sure what I could really handle if put to task. I actually like short fat uncut cocks with low hangers on a pot bellied hair dad with an attitude only a short dick in a big cock world can provide. I like guys that say they are straight too, that somehow seems to imbue their cocks with a subtle superiority which I find very attractive. If that cock painted my face, shirt and tonsils, with spooge I would want that tshirt autographed so I could have it framed and only wear it out on special occasions.

I actually have been thinking of a non sexual way that I could be exposed to cocks. I wonder if anyone would enjoy having an erotic portrait of their cock painted. I was thinking about having them cum on a canvas and incorporating the actual cum pattern with the rendering of the cock itself. Think I could get any more for a portrait than they do for erotic body-rubs?