* Update, looking for local service submissive to help out around My house. If you are not local, service inclined and available at least weekly don't waste My time. If you are also a pain slut well that would ideal too but not required. Let's chat, contact me. Hello, Happy, easy going and friendly, always smiling and laughing. I am the perfect mix of sweet and spicy. Love hanging out, laughing, teasing and meeting new people.
Looking for friends in the lifestyle. I am an experienced Mistress though always learning n pushing my own comfort levels. I enjoy spanking, flogging, paddling, cbt, humiliation, restraints, mental control, role playing ... just to name a few favorites.
Also love riding my motorcycles. Are there any other locals who ride (I live near Quakertown.)
I miss you too, feels good naked under my fan N I'm loving this visual u gave even without the pic coming over stupid yahoo, I just had my own thought of you with my lock in place n chain wrapped around waist with extra in front of pants whacking lock as u walk up this crapped deserted trail we walked tonight. have u kneel put hood on n hand me the chain leash end as I slap My slave awake Pulling ur hands in between my legs so u can massage my ass from front. Hidden away in that hood. My pussy right there n yet unobtainable again. Maybe I would walk around you chain wrapping tighter still circling u n teasing u. Lick ur ear pinch a nipple tap my balls with my walking stick ouch that's gonna hurt pet. Suffer for My pleasure. Moan in agony n thank Me for my attention. For choosing you My slave n giving my gift of domination. As I revel n enjoy the exchange. Lighter n energized I will become as I take while giving the balance we both crave. These r my thoughts pet much different the yours
While my adventures continue, I have been slacking in my journaling. Or maybe I haven't felt the desire to share. My play of late has been more intimate n personal. While I am an exhibitionist n enjoyed playing at clubs, I haven't been to one in years nor have I attended any play parties. I'm finding getting back into that circle a slow process. I'm trying hard to maintain balance in my life. As an open, honest person, it's hard to guard this side of myself so tightly from so much of the world. While it's easy to be consumed by these carnal desires, it's not like I can tell the ladies at work about my weekend of chaining up my slave in my basement then violating n bruising. Being single and dating, it also adds a whole other dimension. I'm never changing again. I've accepted these desires to control and dominate, to feed my sadist n release in my designed service topping. These urges are a private part of who I am, I won't deny them anymore. It's satisfying to find a bottom to My leash. To have given him the greatest gift by calling him My slave. He has been pleasing Me for over half a decade. He knows Me well, one of my fav friends he is. He feeds Me with his thoughts n dreams n I mold them n embellish with my own elements. It's thrilling to see my visions appear before my eyes. My Slave chained, yes chained, I love the sound, the feel , the touch, I just love chains n big locks. Snapped shut with My cock n balls begging for My cbt touch. Bursting all purple n taunt, pathetic cock jumping around wanting to be slapped. Or to see the sight of My naked slave, limbs spread wide n chained awaiting the final lock's click. Skin a blank canvas awaiting My torturous n tempting touch. Bringing it alive, blood rushing , heart pounding, floating away as I take him high n deeper, flying while grounded by My connection. A look from My eyes, the feel of My touch sending ripples throughout. He pleases Me as I please him, perfect balance obtained. Not in life, in that moment n in that space. For I am no one persons other half. I am freedom. It is my adventure n I'm going down the path of my choosing. I'm busy n enjoying life everyday. Which doesn't leave much time for online or even journaling. It does leave time for walks in park with lady friend while slave sitting off trail in blacked out shades n ear plugs in. Remote for zapper wrapped around My cock in his hand. He waits n waits as we keep walking around n around the path. When finally a hard slap startles him back to reality. The remote being pressed while both my hands are planted on his face. The giggles the button pushed again as new instructions whispered. The guess who slapped you games are thought up n the tac tit games remembered. My story to tell. All real, all Ms Sugar.
What a long strange trip it's been and the adventure continues. My life is like a roller coaster. So many highs an lows and crazy unexpected twisting turns. There was a time I wanted the ride to end. I wanted the normal vanilla life again. Now I wonder if that's really possible once you have tasted the spice of this life. I've debated the morality of my cravings, questioning and confused as to whether I should start down this path again. Truth is, I'm still on it, the ride might coast but I'm still on the tracks. It's become a part of me now. Once you feed the demon, the craving will never truly go away. A drug induced ride of endorphins rushing, heart pounding, and sweat glistening down my flesh as I swing my implements of pain, of pleasure. To me it is a dance, music ever present in my life, of course it sets the tempo n delivery of my stinging touch. The dance has become only a teasing and tempting part of the desire now. When I started, it was all about the sexual high. The control, the begging, the orgasms denied/flowing. Years later, it's risen above solely carnal reveling. My desires are deeper now. I've tasted the sweet exchange given mentally and Felt the energy much more intense then the physical body can conjure. I yearn for that connection again. I've felt it as a dominant n felt it as submissive. Is it possible to find both in one person? Still so many questions, so many areas to explore n so much to convey. The journey continues ...
My Domme Dance returned, oh how it felt wonderful wielding my toys again. My pet, my slut, ever so eager to please Me, his Mistress, in any way I so desired. My techniques n style are evolving.?The mental control was a such a delight, one I'm sure to be expanding on. The bond is only beginning to grow. Trust given, control released, the dance is just beginning.?
After teasing n taunting n turning his skin red, I pulled his hair tilting his head back. Looking up into My eyes, which already haunt his thoughts, I spit water into his gasping mouth. The subbie orgasm rippled through his body. Not sexual, no this was all subbie bliss, the moment of pure connection. The balance obtained when a Dominant and a submissive become whole in each other. This is the feeling, this is the drive, this is what feeds the craving and in that moment satisfaction is finally reached. I am embracing My Dominance and becoming whole again and oh so eager to experience all that is yet to come. ?
What an exciting week it's been. My pet continues to provide much entertainment n pleasure. For those wondering, this kind Mistress has released him
From his CB cage though the key is still securely around my neck, hanging in my cleavage to remind him who is in control. Yes two days is very short but his training is just beginning. One must work up endurance n with the way I tease, the pain has been intense for him, my little slut is doing a wonderful job enduring n encouraging My return. My first slave, my intro into lifestyle read my last journal n came pouting for attention. Why didn't you ever wear my key, we never played like that, pathetic begging from sad, jealous sub. Let Me tell u why, u did not deserve it! My time is precious n not to be wasted. I have no use for liars. In fact, I have no time for bottom toppers.
Another lesson, based purely on my opinions as this is my journal. I never pretend to be what I'm not. I am a student of life, a work in progressive, evolving and changing as my knowledge base increases. I learn, I teach, I take and I give. A bottom topper is someone who pretends to be submissive yet they try to control the Top. Trust and honest communication are necessary to build a connection for me. That does not mean I will cater to my bottom. Don't come to Me with your own agenda thinking I will play it out for you. Won't happen, My way, My rules. I will push you, I want you outside of your comfort zone. Of course this isn't what you are use to, I hope it is awkward n unconventional. I'm a Mistress and you My servant, My pet, My submissive and maybe one day if you prove worthy My slave. I want to get in your brain n soak up your desires n fears n everything that makes you tick but don't for one second think that shows weakness, that you will get Me to do what you want. Always on My terms and My schedule.
Making someone submissive when it is not their nature is certainly a challenge. It does not mean someone serving you, who is by nature submissive any less worthy or exciting. For submissives decide who to give that gift too whether it comes naturally or not.
It's been a long time since I've wrote in this journal. Was trying the nilla world for last couple years. Amazing how this lifestyle gets into your blood and makes you crave. My natural dominate tendacies are strong yet my toys are in need of a good dusting. I want to play! I want to turn skin red under my skillful yet rusty touch. I want to oil the machine and crank out the rhythm that's long evaded me. My former play toys, puppies n subs coming running back so eager to greet My return. Yet I'm unresolved. I'm not there yet. I'm still preparing mentality for this Mistress to return fully. I've learned so much from my adventures in the submissive mindset. A new appreciation n skill level has been reached through this hands on approach. I want to dance as a Mistress again, to swing my toys n mark my return yet something holds me back. What could it be? Why do I crave it so much??
I don't journal on here much as of late bc of my daily emails with my Dom. My gf says I should write a book, certainly makes her laugh n get wet. What do you think of a glimpse into my life??? Oh my sweet Master, I know it's a mental hang up in the whole Dom/sub dynamic but u need only command, n I will happily share my knowledge. That's a huge reason we work bc your not an exp Dom with lots of subs n your own agenda wo concern of mine. I know full well u discover my lifestyle as we connect deeper. Your concern n care is so apparenant to me n why I trust u so much.? A flogger is so versatile, gentle thud massaging or stinging tips whipping. Swing in a figure eight. The design of my handle allows for smooth fluid motion once u get into it. U can also lay It straight across ass to wake up. With all pain, it's more intense when u build the pressure in a consistant continous method. Rhythm is key for me, y I like music in my scenes. When i really connect, I can feel the enjoyment, see it, hear it. I can get lost in the moment, exhausting my body in the dance as I take them right over ? When I flog I mix in lots a toys. It builds the intensity. Flog then spank come back with nine tail n use silk on burning skin as u rub it, varying the sensations, the pleasure/the pain. Then back to slow flogging. Building it. Over n over until your giving it everything u have a your bottom is lost while flying high. My body sEems to react with the shakes. Once that sets in I have trouble breathing but I know I can go further. Just holding n rubbing the pained area while whispering in ear till breaths come easier then build it back up again. Each time higher u go. Never been down this road as a bottom. I get lost so easy with, once u start it would b hard for me to effectively coomunicate in the moment.? As for placement, just stay awAy from neck (wrap around to face not good) n kidney areas for hard impacts. Ass back legs arms feet n of course boobs. All game. U have advantage, u can mix the pleasure of your hard cock into the pain. Go from spanking, dripping wet, to being pounded then back to flogging. Wow at the thought. ? On Jul 21,WMD ?2009, at 12:39 PM, DrC Juris? layers come-off begrudgingly my sweet. As to the fist - I have trepidation about your ability to withstand it; I don't think you know how much you're being hurt when?it's mixed with pleasure and I do not want to damage you.? I take my responsibility seriously and?fear that pushing too?far in a?twisting may cause too much?pain that you won't realize until later.??Next time I'm wrist-deep in you though, we'll walk through it together and I'll attempt?the g-spot/knuckle. ? Maybe 3 PM @?farmhouse on Friday?? Lakehouse I'm working on; would definitely prefer to go-up with you.? ? I don't like asking, but you need to tell me "how" to flog properly - I really want to try it, but at this point ... this dom is a little embarrassed to ask his sub how to top LOL?? Blindfolds ... hmmmm. ? I like that you've reserved a box for us ... a place?off-limits to bb and his ilk; I now understand that you have an innate ability to do what few others can in that regard and it truly gives me solace.? I prefer to know if all, but not if it puts a?burden on you or you feel as though you're confessing.? It gives me a better grasp on your mind, your will, your emotion, personality and your sexual needs/wants.? Not always comfortable, but nothing is perfect.? In my world, you'd sit and wait for me until I'm available - and want only me - for any and everything ... and only I could make you feel good?(but that might be just a tad selfish and as you know, I'm an altruist;) ? I like that I am your dom and no other (no You cant serve two masters).? Toys are my domain on you - true, cathartic pain is to be delivered by me.? BB has a huge advantage though ... TIME ... time to "date" and court you - time to cuddle and mellow ... time to eat to drink and to drink you in.? I don't - my work is all-consuming and 4 kids and a wife can take?a little time as well? LOL.? Talk to me about him, about Gf, about life, about the men you top and what makes it all work.??I want to know your adventure and your ventures - I will digest it and wrangle my emotion so that I control it rather than the converse ... for this is maturity. ? Strech your wings and fly - you know where home is and what I provide; owning you isn't?merely physical. ?? ? Date: Tue, 21 Jul 2009 09:05:55 -0700 My jealous onion is peeling layers, very happy about the finger rule :)? When u have ur fist in me, have u ever twisted your wrist, rubbing the knuckles ?over my gspot? ? Fri works, leaving early work, I can go by 230. I can do lake whenever. Just give me a cpl days notice n I will arrange. I would love to ride up together. More time with u the better. I could always b a broken down motorcycle rider u picked up on the side of the road, right.? N I will show some quick n easy ties. I don't have patience for the elborate ties myself. Does add another element, both mentally n physically. Like blindfolds do too. Even a hand over the mouth n nose, so many possibilities ?rough n fast, slow n tender. I love your mix. I know u like to b in me but flogging is such a rush as a top. At least it is for me. I really get into ?it's a huge energy exchange with right connection.? Bb asked me to teach him how to use my toys. I told him I couldn't get into the right mindset for that. It's one thing feeling his aggression through biting n hard grasps etc. I just couldn't let him flog me or use my mistress sugar toys on me. That requires my submission which only u have ?How much do u want to know when it comes to him? Do u want to know everytime I see him (becoming much more then I thought) n everything we do?? I don't want to feel like I'm keeping anything from u but I don't want to seem like I'm rubbing it in or making it hardier for u then need be. Of course I will tell u anything I need to. An now that the finger rule is lifting, there won't b such a mental struggle for me. I have no problem with your other rules, none at all my love ;) Cock leashes can hurt if I want them too. Mostly show n the mental aspect of being dominated n controlled. What I don't like... Pee/scat/blood Dancing is a huge turn on!? This rain is killing me, want to crawl Back in bed!!!!? On Jul 21, 2009, at 10:21 AM, DrC Juris? gotta tell ya - I love sauna time. There's something deeply primal about having my fist all the way in you and then?being able to feel you tight around my dick after that kind of stretching.? I'm lifting the?no fingers rule baby - I don't think you can abide by it anyway.? But I'm extremely?stict on the other mandates - no cock, I mean?NO COCK in any of your orifices?AND absolutely no cum near any one of them. I own that ass, that pussy and that gorgeous mouth of your honey - don't forget?it and don't abuse my deference to your bb; he's going too far for my liking, but I know you too well to overly-restrict the wiles of your pleasure.? I love when you feel good, so go have your boys; drag them around by their cocks, tie-up their?balls, take some pussy worship, have them fuck your gf, shoot their nuts with rubber-bands, but, ultimately, you know where your bread is buttered and you'll be back?to your master for some relief in?whatever form I?deem necessary (I?can't wait for ginger-day; ropes may be necessary).? When can you take a day for the lake (btw)?? That may be a good ginger time -?you may have to ride up OR we can take my topless, 2-seater. I like your ideas with bill but what's the leash look like - is it painful? Dancing turns you on?? Make it easier on both of us and give me a list of what DOESN'T make your horny. BB can borrow you for the weekend, but this dom will have to mark his territory after your done with bb, pee on you if I need to to show who's boss (that's a euphemism;). As to the ropes?- I need some serious tutoring in that area because I do want to do more with you restrained - it's very nice, but I don't like how long it takes to tie you up, which is why I like when you come to me with breasts bound :)? I love the restraint idea, just need to streamline it for me baby ... I'm a simple man who just wants to dominate you and own your ass ... efficiently. It's been too long that I've been w/o clilps and that flogger, which I need to finally put to good use - when can I have you next?? Friday daytime with toys in tow?? I've never truly flogged you and I really REALLY need to do it ... still a little resentful of my pets activity in my absence and have to meet-out punishment for the same over time so as to not damage.? I say that lovingly with all sincerity my dear!? ;)? There's a lot more layers to this jealous onion! ? ? > Date: Mon, 20 Jul 2009 18:52:25 -0700 >? > > > What a great day, so glad ur back. Mmmm mmm do I feel wonderfully complete now. Gf cooked great dinner, chilled then I actually got her on the home gym while I polished my bike n did some upper body. Busy weekend in the works. Hoping for sunny weather sat. Philly funk is playing at sandy hook on Sunday. My fav beach n band, I am so there with my bb in tow. Hope there is better music to dance to this gig. Little disappointed in Easton sets. Still awesome band. Just not my funky get down type I like. Bb is great dancer. Never really had a guy who liked to dance. It's fun :) I'm such a tease dancing, shocker I know. How I plan on getting bill hard at club to put the leash on his cock. Going to dance in front wearing my gold n blk corset mini mini skirt sway my hips turn n spread legs n grab at ankles dropping n shaking back up as I turn n pinch his nipples hard n calling him my anal whore n how I'm going to pound his pathetic ass etc. Not that I will but he's the mental one. Likes the visual n mental stimulation. Leash will be tied on. It's a cool knot there's a pic of it on my profile. There's a few ties that r quick n easy I like. I wil?show u if instructed. So many options. Endless opportunities n possibilities. Enjoying the ride? I sure am ;p
I love riding my motorcycle. The feel of the throttle bringing my engine awake. Roaring under me, as I come alive, every sense alert n soaking in life. R there other local kinksters who love to ride? Where's the next adventure to??
My search for a new toy continues.. This Mistress, this temptress goes unchallenged. I want to play.. My toys so long removed from my grasp. I want a willing pain slut to feed my sadist. I want my body worshipped, my muscles rubbed, my desires fullfilled. I am picky!! I am inundated. Come to my mailbox n come back to my eyes. Remind me why you are my perfect toy, my pet, my slut, n my puppet to direct. New scripts r written in my mind n await you to bring them alive. Tempt the temptress with your words, catch my eyes n stand out from the rest. Y u?
Ah rainy Saturday morning, my body resting from the hours at the gym, time to awaken my mind n capture my last few weeks. Busy no longer fits, my life does not feel busy anymore. I am embracing change as a chapter in my life closes n a new adventure begins. My poly household has ended n my Gf finally sleeps beside me as it should be. We have discovered each other, again or maybe for the first time. A true love strong n deep, eight years evolving forever. My lady at my side facing the next challenge, together. Emotions have been freed in me now. No longer do I wear a face of cold stone. I am free, to be me. A woman with so many facets. A never ending, perpetual motion alive, awakened n recharged. My soul filled with a loving positive energy that can flow from me unrestrained n unpolluted now. Rules now govern parts of my body, submission given so willingly only to the one that owns me. My Dom, my lover, my friend, he controls from a distance as this mistress needs. Freedom found in control. Satisfaction obtained as frustration removed. I am taken to edge, held there, tightly. Tantric pleasures combined with mind control and the physical
control have completed me in a happy release I've never known. My assignments keep me challenged, pushing myself further through this self discovery. Keeping me captured while free to explore. Making happiness as we go...
We all have them, some more than others, my dumb dom days are few but then I haven't had many dom days of late.? Today's was the result of the wrong mind set and lack of aggression.? As hard as we might try to let go of our daily life stress, sometimes it's just not entirely possible. We might want to escape our reality and release in a world of pleasurable pain but this Dom knows now I can not force the change. Not as a top. The scene has been discussed for months now. Only fitting for this recharged Mistress to recharge a Dom. The ass kicking was planned, the terms discussed and the game began. Having never played with an alpha Dom as a top before, there was an uneasy feeling for me going in.? Sounded easy enough, punch, kick, slap, poke, pinch, knee - anything I wanted with the goal of dropping him to his knees. I quickly realized that I am a lover at heart not a fighter. While I enjoyed the banter and the physical exertion, I could not find the aggression he desired. My sadist side never came out. There was no recognition of pain. No reaction for my sadist to enjoy and feed on. My mind was never fully present and my emotional state is too weakened. I could not force myself into that evil fighting bitch that could drop him to submission, begging for my mercy. I am very glad we finally meet and thoroughly enjoyed our conversations (and the wrestling lessons). He is a very impressive Dom and someone I wish to share some lagers and stories with soon. And round two ;)
I received an email from a fellow CM'er thanking me for sharing my adventures and proving that switches really do exist. My first thought was, I'm not a switch. In the 30 plus years of my life, only one man has ever made me feel truly submissive. Only one man, through his words which captured me so deeply, my respect and trust given from our very first meeting, so easily flipped my switch. N there it was, I guess I am a switch. So many self discoveries, so many changes happening in my life. I am also dating again and wishing to meet fun, like minded, interesting people in the lifestyle. So say hi, actually say much more then hi, your words must first capture my attention and your actions will b necessary to hold it...
The following is an email sent to my Dom after one of our meetings earlier in the week. Followed by his response. Progression is moving faster then I anticipated...
Felt like I was going to pass out
a few times after leaving u today. I finally pulled over n soaked in the rain
for a few. Hours later, after dinner, n I am still feeling exhausted n
completely drained. U just keep getting better. How is that even possible? I
don't think I have ever cum so much. maybe it was saying it, asking to, fighting
them off only to cum hardier n longer when I was allowed. N the pain kept
stealing my breath away. Leaving me gasping much like those long stretches
while my airway was blocked by ur enormous cock buried so deep down my throat.
My poor pussy was used so hard n I realize now y the increase in suffering.
Lesson learned, I will b sure to always b shaved. Damn little hairs pulled so
hurtful in those clips. Need to give myself time to recover too, released so
much today. If u ever take me 2 sub space realize the return can b very frightening.
I've only had that one time personally n it was a good twenty minutes later
when I lost it, oh it all came uncontrollably out. It's an incredibly vulnerable
state of mind. U r so lost n scared not really realizing where u r. Ur body
reawakening, intense sensations returning into every nerve n cell. I've brought
them there n back, men n women. The closer my relationship with them the deeper
I could take them. U may get me there sooner then I thought. If we had played
much longer tonight... Wow. U r so amazing my Dom. So glad I was horny n lonely
in Qtown, just like u. Now I am so appreciative n appreciated among so many
things. My feelings overflow in me, released from the restraints I was forced
to use for so long, free to b me again. Thank U for another feet sweeping moment of pure ecstasy.
His reply.. Going down on those sore, puffy lips after you consumed me was the
least I could do after taking you through so much via those nasty
little clips - they're vicious, but you came-through just fine.? That
puffy little lady of yours?stands out so proud and undaunted, just
asking to be tamed; and the inside,?the ceiling of your damp gash is
ripe with that solid, bumpy golf-ball of sensitivity that loves to be
fingered and depressed and ultimately tortured with my fist?tapping at
your cervix and stretching you beyond your?breadth as the tears roll
silently from your eyes.? The beauty of?never hearing you plead for
mercy nor pulling away -?taking it all knowing you've never been
so?owned or emitted such sweet nectar as when it comes through agony.?
Then to?top it off with heavy friction on your tender clit while your
pretty face gags on my massive dick lodged deep in your throat - the
struggle for air brings sweat and tears which lubricate the effort and
fill my?balls with anticipation of what you WILL absorb in to your
being.
I'm not sure?how to get you to "sub space" or what the return will
bring, but I will continue to push your envelope knowing it's what you
need and want and what I alone can accomplish mastery of your
endless?sexual reach.? Watching the tight skin?of your tit turn
purple?and?squeezing it as I sunk in to your?tight ass was ecstasy.?
You should be exhausted and drained -?in about an hour your body and
mind when through an obstacle course of massive proportion while
being?canned and relentlessly fucked.? Man, was it?good. I will keep increasing the pressure, the torment and the sex - I have
more to give and I will expect you to take what I can dish-out.? You're
strong and beautifully willed for my taste; you are the perfect
specimen of a soft, gentle, sexual, thinking and confident woman who
knows what she wants - I'm just fortunate enough to have?you, if only
for now (and I plan to make good use of you for our mutual and
cum-filled benefit).?
Reading over these last few journals, makes me realize how unfulfilled my Mistress desires are becoming. My current pet is too busy to be of use to me lately. Looks like I will need a new pet to satisfy my sadist desires. So the search is on again...
Email me, more then a hi and more then a webcam request. Remember this is only a means to the end I want REAL TIME. As tempting as some of u subbies out there sound, if you live in another state (or even the other side of mine) then what good will u b for me. I miss using my toys!!! I miss having my pet under my control, letting my own creative mind find ways to torture and tease, in a mindblowing mix of sweet delight I too can dictate.
My Dom does not disappoint! Another wonderful time spent under his control. I knew going in that I
would be punished for not completing my assignment. No excuses, I expect
nothing less myself. I deserved whatever I would getting. After all, it was an easy assignment to
complete. Three tacks on each tit for at least 10 seconds while supervised by
my gf. Guess I was curious what the punishment would be. I arrived as
instructed, my breasts already tied up as he wished. This was not as easily
accomplished as it sounds. I came straight from work on my long lunch break. I
turned onto a close by winding country road then turned onto a dirt road then
finally into someone?s long driveway. In the cover of the trees, I nervously
lower the top of my dress n pushed my camisole off my shoulders. I had
practiced the tie several times the night before until I found one I liked. My
hands shaking, I quickly tied the rope under my breasts then up over my neck
and back down n around until my breasts where left wrapped tight n turning
purple just the way he instructed. I pulled my dress back up and took off out
of that drive way hoping no one had seen this strange self bondage act. I
arrived at the farm house already wet with anticipation. He led me into the
barn and told me to undress. He admired my rope work and was impressed. Of
course I have quite a bit more experience, though never on myself and never on
breast. Out came a ruler from his pocket. He started tapping my nipples then
moved me to the stone wall. Carefully placing each nipple against the rough stone,
he pushed me tight to the wall n spread my legs. I was told not to move. He
took his ruler and my crop and began working over my ass and legs. Every so
often, he pushed me hard against the rough wall as his pressure increased with
his toy of choice. Whenever the pain started making me wiggle, a hard whack was
felt followed by his fingers which found me dripping wet with pleasure. He
grasped my long hair in his hand and pulled me off the wall, kissing me hard as
his other hand pulled at the tender skin on my breast, my nipples were standing
hard from the pain. He then pushed me into the waiting chair and savored his
work, is honeycomb overflowing onto his eager tongue. Now the ruler n crop found mark on my
tormented tits. Whacking them as he sucked, my prominent clit took a good
lashing as well. Shame my poor clit sticks right out and hollers for attention,
as he says, all bulbous and swollen pink, too tempting not to torture. Those
damn gator clips were placed back on my lips n my clit while several big ones
dug into my hard nipples. Oh the pain caused while being fucked hard with those
clips digging tighter n tighter with every pound though it?s nothing compared
to pain when they start coming off. Moving from the barn to the bedroom to yet
another room, my time with him is intense action packed with rarely a chance to
catch my breath. His instructions so willing followed in a daze of sweet
delight I cannot seem to get enough off. He makes the rest of my world fade
away in those precious hours. The punishment did not come until the end, a
first and totally unenjoyable experiences for me. He came all over my
face. I will be sure to always complete
my assignments! In all his Dominant wisdom, he came up with the perfect
punishment for me.
oh ya, this journal made my gf horny :)? n thanks for the nice messages too, just another day in my life, hold on, its a bumpy ride...
While I'm not a newbie to the this incredible lifestyle, I am a newbie in context of exploring my submissive side. Yes, I am finally able to admit I have a submissive side. I am Dominant by nature and in my search to find balance I have found a better understanding of the power struggles and internal conflicts I have felt for so long. I have been asked what is the difference btwn a submissive and a slave. In the simplest terms and my own opinion, a submissive has the control. A submissive dictates the who, when, where how, and in what manner. Their will remains their own to give as he or she consents. A slave, however, through a relationship of trust so deep most vanilla people could never begin to understand, have given their will to another. They have given their consent one time, so that all future choices are no longer theirs to make. Each relationship varies in this degree. So it is very natural and empowering to realize being submissive as a Dominant is where I find my balance. I have long strived for this feeling of internal contentment. Too long has this Mistress given n given only to be left drained. While I can script my own role plays, if there is not true dominance in my partner (which there never has been) there is only a fleeting moment of filling. So quickly drained away, fulfillment never reached. While I have made many female subs cum from my impact pain, I have rarely involved much sexual play as a Mistress with females. It's typically in public play spaces n thus limited. So here I am a Mistress exploring my submissive side with a natural dominant/sadist who has no knowledge of the lifestyle. What he does have is natural ability and creativity, that can not be taught. So here we r, two newbies exploring a world so vast and exciting. When even the pain brings pleasure, u can do no wrong. This week I arrived with a few of my toys along, as instructed. His game was called tac tit (yummy sadist mind he has). Tacks were laid out on a dresser with a mirror attached. I could either look at myself or look down at the tacks pointing up at me, taunting me. My arms rest on the dresser with the tacks inches from my breasts. As he got me dripping wet, his honey pot to savor, the tacks continue to tease my mind. As the orgasms ripped through me and I naturally began to squirm the pain arrived, pushed down onto the waiting tacks then pulled back up. Three remained on the dresser, I already knew my punishment. Three hard smacks I received, as I brushed the others off my tits. Now I had to arrange them, this time, no orgasm to distract. I leaned down again, onto them I winced. Again and again until they all stuck, good girl I was called. ME a good girl, a term (among others) that would normally offend me and bring an onslaught of my opinions of such words, brought only a smile. I did good, and he looked so pleased. That is what I wanted, to please him. That is what I want when I Top, I want to please. There is no pleasure for myself, if what I am doing is not pleasing my bottom. While I may be a sadist and receive pleasure from your tears I bring, there will be no pleasure for myself if those tears and screams were not ultimately your pleasure too. Me in all my submissive glory, am finally seeing what it means to be the one on my knees. There is no shame, no humiliation for such a strong Mistress. No this feels completely right for I have finally found a man who brings my submissive side of me out so naturally. Mine to give and given freely to a man who brings me such intense moments of pleasure and pleasurable pain. I am a very sexual person, most of my private play involves some form of sexual interaction. So naturally I want to mix these two desires with him. The chemistry is all new territory for me. He takes, I give. He commands, I follow. He tied my tits up next. He likes to make them into purple bulbs. Of course I have seen this done, have I ever had this done to myself, of course not. Can I now say I know what it feels like, YES. Amazing! My clamps which until now have only been used on men's balls n nipples, were now clamped onto my honey lips. Oh the pain and the rush of new sweets. I was dripping by the time he placed six of them on me. Next he turned to my bulbous tits n put the bigger ones on my nipples. Again the waves of pain were only heightened by his enormous cock that rarely leaves the inside of me as he tortures me. Banging into me the clips feeling tighter n tighter, I was then flipped over, the one's on my lips rub the bed n I screamed out in pain. My legs giving out, he asks what hurts. My lips, I can barely breath out, as he slowly begins to remove them.. one by one all the while keeping up that delicious hip movement into me. the pain more intense with each one coming off till he is back to pounding as the final one is removed. my body lays shaking, every inch alive n bursting with sensations unknown. It still amazes me how he can keep up such an incredible performance all while playing with toys on other parts of my body. The viper biting into my already red hand smacked ass, while he continues to leave me dripping from the pain, from the pleasure. Everything he does with the ease of Master. So now I am content, satisfied and very sore still. My mind is free to wonder of new ways to torture my pet. WHO better return quickly bc this Mistress wants to play...
Tonight I rode with my lady, my love. She makes a comfortable back rest. Her big boobs circling into my back as she massages my shoulders. Flying down the road and winding into the purplepink sky. My bike roaring btwn r legs. It's not too big, I want bigger! Love that blast off the throttle, racing the straight away, feeling that surge go through me at my own twist. N with my woman behind me I feel curled in n comfy.
My latest my sadist, the natural dom is one indeed. He moans in pleasure my tears they bring, pulling me into him to smack me changed. Colored red under his hand, my white tapestry I freely give. He licks his necture, his honey pot to suck now and contently he does, my fires not conquenched but finally content. Balance to my D this s so completely fills finally. Welcome addition, known to some close was needed. Recharging afterall is necessary, u can not just give n give. Sometimes u need to get. Get it hard, get it long, get it in n out all holes owed. Its offered, he takes leaving his power so naturally consumed, foreign feelings filling into me a void completed not know even there. My emails received n descriptions given, instructions though wondering how much u really know? WW thinks u have been reading up on my lifestyle. What have u learned, what will u show me next time when quicki extends though not long enough. I WANT more time my Dom will come out n fight u back. U r learning that quick, i'm enjoying the reactions n? the punishments, mmm pain returned? where was she hiding. pita u love to deal with, after all u know exactly how to handle me, dont u? U needed this recharge to, u find more n want more n get excited constantly now in my world, where fantasies come true, edges r pushed n explored what an adventure I am bringin u on ....
Life moves on, I don't know where so I follow along enjoying the adventure n trying so hard to find peace. Perfect balance n maintaining my smile. Y should that b so hard? Poly multiple more so much more never ending always changing can there ever b harmony. I want it not sure what I do that prevents it for some *sighing. Of course there r those so well tapped into me my true self comes out. The easy fun smiling laughing side just enjoying life. Doing that now, relaxing at my wild womans house contemplating my week. My pets company I entertained on Mon night. My gyms pl, he was blindfolded, sitting on his mans covered in darkness as I slide onto his lap, cock already in cage n tortured in swollen pulses from my sweet sweaty tits suana glistened for his arrival. As he inhales my scent .. Interupted by no doubt, so my pet max gets my sweaty workout pants, steaming on his painful ct200? Wide open he stays locked in my agony. Given in pleasure, enjoyed as such my lips r stroked as my hand pressed his face away. Crshing his throat his hisses to squeeks come at me so my heavy slap finds his balls n that sudder of pain rips through him as my whispers in his ears bring his breath held. The groan starting n bringing my necture so desired from me. He is fun my pet so ready to try cpl. Now my touch can torture while my commands bring sxual pleasures. Circling the show, this exhabitionist will direct her players. So many thoughts on what we will do my toys. Still awaiting my email pet!! After more of my painful pleasure I direct the removal of cage from his sore engorged nuts bring gasps n yells so sweet he sings to me. I want my toys laid out for my selection n u will learn my needs before spoken. Handing n moving with ease of quick touch. I want red skin rised in respect to ur Mistress my touch afire. U already know my desired response the tightly wrapped hold giving nibbles to my neck as ur fingers slide over my shiny pink swollen clit that pulses u in trapped now in ur mind controllng. Ur lucky tonight my smacks bring it on. Finally freedom from pain the release allowed knowing u will lick n suck it all off my toes. Does that make u go? Remember my latest ..:
New chapter in my ever evolving life my path leads me down. Where to start first? Come out baby! I will start there, balance on all sides for all to enjoy. My patience grows weary for ur side to become alive. My pet continues to please me well. The massage by the lake, the torturous touches the ideas exchanges, yum u excited me from the inside. Ideas and thoughts flying out of me. A? sub couple awaiting my touch, my pet to arrange and me to dictate. What will we do? Already planning it out, my pet on ur knees when I arrive. My booted foot will push her down while u take the smallest rope out and the weights. Ur toture to start as my other foot finds its way to her pussy all wet for my arrival. Into her I will explore while I string u up my pet. Ur balls in my circle, tightening n weighted down easily. Ur cock cris crossed as my rope makes its way into a leash for ur Mistress. My pet how happy u r making me. The smile, the laughter u can c, her still blindfolded. Still a mystery who touches her. What will she do to me. The words whipsered slowly with ice, "u r mine to do as I please with" Do u accept my will as ur own? Will u please me as I please u in ways ur mind has unkown. Now lick blindfolded, find them n lick them as I weight them down more and more. I smack ur face for the winse ur little wussy ass will surely give. yes give the reason u want it, u crave it. My bitter sting cutting into u so easily. U give it to me, the engery my sadist craves. Fill me again I have grown so thirsty during the hunt. Refill me n balance me with every stroke of my toys touch. Will it sting, will it thud, will it freeze n chill n tingle all in one? Will it make u woozey will it make u fall? Down to me, her waiting pussy still grinding on my booted tip. her fingers stroking me, filling me as my own juices flow for u to feed. come to me my pet and massage me ur flesh red from my touch. Give back to me that loving engery exchanged and refreshed. Spin me back for the exchange to continue. My other new character has arrived. in full force, his natural force is unfolding into my life as I decide to mentor this virgin newbie mind into my world my way.
CM has come through for me again and I have found a wonderful new pet. While our encounters have been brief and far to spaced out, each time has brought us closer together. The connection strengthening each time. The first meeting was brief indeed. I was throwing a play party. Feeling comfortable from our couple weeks of emails, texts, and phone conversations, I gave him specific instructions. He arrived at my door, knocked, walked in, and kneeled with his eyes closed. I put a blindfold on him, my arm tightly around his neck and told him to sing my sg happy birthday. Shaking from head to toe, he did as commanded. Once he finished, I told him to hand my gf her bottle of wine he brought and took the blindfold off to see the audience watching him. All smiles, he thanked me and I dismissed him. The next time we met, he brought my gf a sushi lunch and kneeled while I blindfolded him. As my gf ate lunch and watched tv (n us), I guided him to me. I was laying on the couch with only my little leather dress on (which was quickly slipped off). His strong hands massaged, his mouth sucking on my toes, my fingers while his hands worked my flesh. After working my entire backside, I flipped over and his hands continued. Once I gave him permission, he hands quickly found my silky white breasts. He gently massaged, his breath growing quicker n my nipples getting harder. I took off his blindfold for him to view my naked body in his hands. My smiling, relax eyes gazing into his. His smile filled me. That time I was jolted back to reality as I heard the front door open n the mother of my bf calling out HELLOOOO.? Boy I never got dressed so quick before lol. The third time, he was properly locked up in his new chasity cage. Purchased at my request. If he was going to get hard while playing with me, it was going to give him pain. Double the fun after all. He came over took off all his clothes, already locked in, he began massaging. Working every bit of stress from my body. Following my morning texts, he knew I wanted this to be a very sexual massage. His hands, his mouth found all the right spots. He followed my direction with ease. A natural exchange with conversation that flowed effortlessly. Feeling much better, I even gave him a taste of my flogger, my canes, my crop n of course my hands. It was so nice turning him red. I must admit, I enjoyed the moans the cage on his cock brought, giving him such pain from the pleasure so enjoyable indeed.
Why do we feel the need to title n define. So many kinks, so many choices, so many likes n turn ons. I am naturally dominant. I know this, it's my nature thus comes naturally. Then y does the remembrance of that pure aggression biting into me and groping me in a wild moment of pleasure keep me craving. I want it again, in my control, in my design. Happening as I direct it. That is what u crave after all. My control, my erotic nature burning within me. Igniting u. Making u feel alive! Needing release again n again always craving now. What does that make me then? I want to feel my back and ass on fire from ur beating. Feel ur sweaty hard pecs slide across my buring flesh, cooling n tingling every nerve alive. Ur cock on my leash, my control to pull into me when I want u close. Those huge arms holding me tight against u as u bite into me making me cry out in a dripping wet moment muffled by ur groans of pleasure. Will u give me that position of power? Will ur desire, ur pleasure be in satisfying me? Will ur fantasy be fullfilled with what I give u n take from u? Can u stand up to my power n give it back to me, stronger and more alive? Can u understand what this exchange does to person? Can u grasp the extreme highs n extreme lows that always follow. Balance, order, control it's what I need. It's what I have compartmentalized with no need to label. I fill the whole circle with my variety of desires.
The top of this story was written by a potential new toy per my request this morning. After I was given such an unrealistic story, I deleted the forced orgasm punishment (as if!) and input my own touch. What do you think?????? One? morning you are? sleeping
soundly and you hear a? cat knock over a trash can outside! The? trash
spills all over the? street.? You come back from the window?with
an erotic grin you?sweetly? you move along side of me and? with
your hand? bring me to erection and? then say to me Mikey?
my? angel? go out side? and put the? lid on the can like
you? were supposed too and? clean up that mess a cat left? when
he knocked over the can?and? when you? come back I'll have a
sweet surprise? for you......
?
As I walk in the door you? ask me to
wash my hand as you yell up from the basement!? "Come down here honey I
have a sweet surprise!"
I walk down the 24 steps that lead to our
enormous open concrete floor basement. With one guest? room.
Honey please close the window on the far
wall as you? say from the bathroom next to the guest room ill be right
out.?
The window is closed and as I turn around
a clothes bag is brought over my head and quickly handcuffs are put on my wrist
! OMG I thought what is going on. I felt 4? hands on me? and?
didn?t know? what the hell was going on.
?I hear you? say to me
"honey? the surprise is for Candy my girlfriend not you you fucking
asshole!'
?
I snuck her in after you fell asleep and
was going to play with her after you went to work, but being you lied when I
asked you if you put the lid on the trash and the fucking cat woke me up when it
fell over I've decided? to give Candy a little fucking thrill at your
pathetic expense!'"?
With that you secure my wrists to the
rafters and have? candy? duct tape my angles and thighs together after
you both violently literally? rip my? pajamas? from my body.
"What's that? you? pathetic
whore? An erection?!" well let me see Candy why? don?t you entertain Mr.
Erection for him the bitch and? show him what's its like to give his cock
to a women with the most beautiful strong hands!"?
After about 10 min of? beautiful
sucking and stroking by Candy? she all of a sudden started to really?
get a hard hard? grip on my cock and started to stroke me really
really? fast? I could feel my spunk swelling from deep inside? my
ball well I started to get sensitive and started to pull away with that you hit
me so fucking hard I screamed and you commented to me "Pull away again and your
going to get? 10 lashes? just like that!"
You
pathetic fool, before you get any ideas about cumming, its time to put
u in your cage. The cold metal slide over you wet cock with ease. Being
so hard, I could not fit you all the way in. Time for pain to take care
of that problem, I laughed. As Candy was having her fun, I laid out
my toys. As I pulled the ginger out of its bag, you winced knowing the
burn you would soon experience. That was all it took, your erection was
gone. Candy snapped the cage shut and clamped you in. No more worries
of cumming now, you were well teased and the torture was just
beginning. I took my time carving out a big butt plug tip on the fresh
ginger. Then I shoved it in you as Candy put the ball gag into place.
Candy giggled as tears formed, you wiggled violently. It was no use, you
could not get any escape from the burning. I started with the paddle,
whacking the ginger far in, burning new flesh deep within ur ass. Candy
applied the nipple clamps, twisting n twisting, bringing new pain to
the front of your mind. I switched to the flogger, working from your
upper back down your body. I instructed Candy to lay down on the table
in front of you and begin to pleasure herself. From this angle, I could
see her as I continued to work your back. I removed the ginger and told
u to watch Candy and enjoy the show.. Going from a light pink to a
blazing red, your back was showing my touch well. The pain was growing,
as was your cock was swelling again from the show in front of you. I
left u hanging as I turned my attention to Candy. Her breathing was
heavy and her moans increasing. My tongue slide over her wet pussy as
my lips sucked onto her already swollen clit. She was screaming in
pleasure in seconds as her sweet juices flowed onto the table.
Unhooking you, I pulled ur leash over to her and removed the gag.
Commanding you to lick her clean. You eagerly licked then cried out in
pain. Your erection was very painful in your cage. WE laughed as u
whinced. I smacked your face hard and told you to continue licking, how
dare u stop when not commanded to. Yes Mistress, you cried and
continued to lick her pussy as I straddled her waiting tongue. Oh
Mistress, please, please u begged.? Please take this tight little cage
off, it is soo painful u cried. Another smack across your face as your
leash was pulled to the floor. On all fours bitch, u have not felt pain
yet! My canes whacked you hard, your skin having turned pink again,
screamed at the stinging blows. All over your ass I whacked, welts
forming. There was plenty of room in your little cage now. I struck u
with the paddle again. Thud, thud on your welt covered ass. the pain
burning deep into you. Candy laid in front of you. I pushed your mouth
to her pussy and told u to start sucking on her clit. Eagerly
distracted again, you did not even notice as I slipped into my strap
on. As your ass waved in the air, I grabbed it tight and slid hard,
fast n deep into you. Candy held you tight to her as u cried out again.
Pounding into you, your mouth and fingers pounded into Candy. Screams of pleasure
filled the air, as Candy started to cum over n over again. I slid the
cage off and flipped u over. My pussy was dripping wet from all the
excitement. Candy climbed over your face, pinning u under her knees.
Her pussy lips smothering you. Just then, I slid down onto your hard,
freed cock. We kissed passionately as we both rode the toy below us.
It's time my pet, u may cum I commanded. We all moaned together in a
release that ripped through as all. Shivering an quivering, we collapsed into a pile of flesh. Before your breathing returned to
normal, the cage was put back into place. Now get to work slave. Your
fun is over and ours has just begun. Slipping the lock into place, ur
cock safely trapped in place until my enjoyment would release it.
Where's my puppy? Where's my boy toy hard n waiting for my every command. At my feet, watching me, ready, eager to please, to serve my every desire satisfied. Where r u? I have not met u yet? My attention is so hard to catch though when u do, u r happiest, waiting tail wagging until u do. ur only care is mine, how can i please my Mistress? How did I get so lucky to be chosen to lay at her feet. And again, I will repeat myself, NO ONLINE. I have little time why would I waste it online. This is a means to an end, the end that I want is real time. With some one local, an ongoing situation. Have your own place, my home is full and an escape is nice. I like to go out, participate in local clubs, events, etc. You must be out there my pet. Say more then hi, show some knowledge that u actually read my profile. Interest me enough to reply back. N keep trying, your Mistress is wating.
I finally had time to finish n edit that last rambling journal, it still jumps all over the place but then so do I. Always going in so many directions n so easily distracted.
Your fantasy is MY reality, that's right, we r finally figuring it all out. My happy poly? family embracing change, growing, thriving, feeding off each other. Resistance lessening, open communication happening. This is how I planned it after all. Time we figured it out, though where r the d/s relationships? Outside the circle, Y??? I lost my purple stone this solstice. What does that mean I wonder?? Steph's gift from her Great Aunt, the 3 carrot amethyst came out. Knocked out by the beating my flesh endured that wild weekend at the Black Phoenix. My mentor, he fills me such intense power rushes that in this night? I was drained to the core. Every negative thought, emotion, all the evil beaten out, drained away in tears. Oh I cried, I crashed harder then ... ever. It was enlightening and endearing, this list just going on n on. Now the poly family seems to be working as it should be. supporting, loving, caring really there in anyway pleasing. After all pleasures come in many forms. D/s where is it? With the pain sluts, the humilly boys, the beat me up, just kick my ass. Again a list that is unending, I love exploring new kinks. I came in top, there was not bottom for me. I knew the techniques, I knew the touch. What I never experienced was the rush of endorphins. I wanted to know. I was ready and the time was right. He took me there to subbie land as Cheri calls it, my wild woman, how she has tried to put into words the experience. Where I have gone though never from the bottom. All of it I loved. He had choosen a dual cross. I watched as that pure sadist took her on the other side of my cross. She screamed in such agony I could not resist looking. I opened my eyes after she screamed so loud. My sadist inhaling her cries, feeding me as my back became flaming red. The floggers, canes struck my skin with such force I cried out, tears streaming down my face. I really don't know what he used on me. I was not talking, I was consuming. The pain rolled into me tears coming hardier. I cried out suffering. Feeding that grin as it grewth within him. This time into my blanket, I cried and tingled and every sense in my body was alive and exploding. Eyes closed, convulsions all over my body. My hands getting numb, he took me down. He just knew the connection was so strong, he massaged me gently, tantalizing and kneading my bruised skin, I was so wet already. This was making it much uhmmm.? We talked wrapped in his warm arms. I wanted more, asked what about my ass. The spanking bench appeared next. This is when my stone went missing I fear somehow. I was not within my body at all times. The pain was not pain at all, it was energy rushing over every inch of my body and pouring out. The BP is alive in every sense n recharges the fetish world into u. The sights I experience r many. Hunt the cunt was by far one of the highlights of the night. Four doms, one to a corner attacking her. Alone n rushed, the schoolgirl clothes were ripped off the innocent girl. They pinched, bite, ripped at, poked and groped. Then they stepped back off the mats n choose toys. Vipers, crops, floggers, single tails, stinging bone ripped at her. Sadist sluts coming for their fill. She raced from corner to corner. Screaming, crying, jumping, twisting she was being hit on every inch. When she finally red, she was I saw her. U know she really, really enjoyed it :) Pony show was incredible. Look forward to watching the shows grow. Express yourself, what a truly entertaining environment that was. The dances and routines, so many delights. The freaks were out and I was at home. My kinksters alike, there with so many thrills. The chair suspension, the stapled twins (which was a beautifying n inspiring so artistically crafted with dangling ribbon from the nipples to the knees). they never sacrifice the sluts after all! One cpl scened so intense I had trouble moving my eyes. After my session the cracks of his whip sent my skin into shivers that lead me into convulsions. Uncontrollable it rushed out of me. Peaking through my tears that wet my arms, I watched and cried it rushed out of me.. alone, scared, n empty. Flames from his flogger burning across her body, lighting her nipples ablaze. Screaming as her throat he squeezed, taking her breath away. He whipped into her, wrapping it around her skin in snake like? movements. Then he brought it back. My engergy recharged in him melted down into me. Every last breath bringing back life into me. Leaving me feeling like I am now. Alive, energized and ready to take on the world as I continue down deeper in I go...
Happy New Year!!
Off to the Black Phoenix to welcome in the new year with a BDSM BANG!
I need a work out partner. Felt so good lifting some weights, doing some kicks/punches. Made me desire to combine my pleasures. There are plenty of little bottom boys who would love to be at the receiving end of those kicks. Even got some canes out and practiced different swinging moves. What a great upper body work out. To bad those blows went? unfelt. I need a toy to play with when my time allows it, as I wish to play. I am also doing more public scene'ing at the BP. Would like to line up some bottoms who r free to go and play when my time allows. do u really think I am going to reply to the hi message or the standard cut n paste, not even bothering to read my profile. Make yourself stand out to me, catch my eye? (PICS) n hold it long enough to get my attention. Which is hard to do, I am easily distracted so remind me, bring my attention back to u. Once you get a taste, I? will leave u craving the rest of your life. So invest some time if.... you are what I am seeking. You need to be local, I dont want to c ur webcam. My place is rarely free. You need a place where we can go. I like casual, relaxed, ongoing n unrestricted. My free time is limited, so if yours is as well then I guess its not worth my effort. And remember, I know what I can offer... what can u offer me.? What makes u different then all the hundreds of other bottoms in my inbox?
Recharge, get plugged in n amped back up. How do u recharge? I need aggression to feed my aggression. After giving n giving I eventually get to that burned out feeling where there's nothing left. As Mistress I can orchestrate my own recharge. This time the scene was laid for the pain slut as follows; I would come knocking on his door selling magazines, he would invite me in, there was rope waiting on couch n bedroom with candles lite, toys laid out, spreader bar n rings awaiting my tie down. Yes, thats right, after trying to fight my big tall ps off, he eventually got me pinned down n restrained. The next hour was filled with his game, filling the pussy up, so cleaver that one lol, wow did I enjoy that game though, he told me I creamed like he has never seen before, eagerly licking his sugar sweet rewards. the game then moved to the bed.. eventually the ropes loosen n the attacker becomes the attackee. ropes around the shoulders, elbows bound tight btwn the legs which were bent up into a kneel with ankles n wrists tie together, with the right knots n pressure point pokes u would be amazed how quickly that position can be obtained. now more toys can be used n my game can be played, see how red the ass can get before welts join the party
time limited, excitement building, finally stolen moments that haunt ur thoughts for days, weeks months to come.. do u ever forget. can u? once u taste of lifestyle u cant get out, it will always enter ur mind, like a deja vu, the smell, sight all of it flooding back into u, taking over all ur senses, does it still make u shiver, every inch coming back to life, then the longing, the burning desire, consuming ur thoughts now, u need it again, the fix u ache for it
I haven't had time to journal in a while, so busy again life sucks it out of me. Recharges can come in so many ways. From a hug and kind words, to gradual pain building from a caress to a sting to a pound to a scream or maybe just the pleasure of their company the chance to make smiles that fill. All easy to do for your mate, the other half or in my case quarter? no there r way to many to say any more, there r so many pieces filling this puzzle. does that make my life a game? i play, even in sessions.. pieces differing, the rules and settings changing. perfect for the piece being played. the players after all control the game. not the ones running along side. keeping up, trying to stay close, after all its not like the direction can be predictable. changing constantly yet staying safe, happy, home.?
Moving sucks, I am so glad it is over and my life is finally balancing out again. No play time makes this Mistress very cranky! I absolutely love having my slave girl living with us!!! Things have been very turbulent during the exhaustion of moving and the combining of routines and coordinating of schedules. I am happy to see laughter again, smiles and fun times. PLUS... the Black Phoenix finally reopened this weekend! T and I brought r sg and we also picked up my favorite pleasure slave, hugh and headed down for the grand reopening. It was such a wonderful evening. Didn't realize just how much I have missed playing. We were running late after an afternoon of jack-o-lantern carving with the kids, yes can you believe kinky poly people can have normal lives too! so we missed the munch and headed right to the club. we were one of the first people there. Was nice to see familiar friendly faces and new ones too. A cute girl sat down with us so I started asking her a few questions. After awhile the crowd started coming in. I decided it was time for a long overdue massage and took my ps over to a table to get started. His strong hands quickly melted my months of moving away. Feeling much better and ready to play, I found my sg and let her pick out which prop she wanted to be tied to. Her choice, the whipping pole in the back of the club. Letting T do his thing, he tied her hands to the top and secured her collar to the pole as well. She was not going any where. I worked my way through my favorite toys.. flogger, paddle (oh she hates that one), canes, crop, 5 tail and a few others. I knew she was enjoying it and I was so happy to be playing with her again. The connection was incredible. My fingers found just the right spot as I bit into her side. Her moans of pleasure filled the air as I smacked her ass with my other hand. Oh how I enjoyed that long overdue session. I promise, it will not be so long in between my darling. When her hands started turning too deep a shade of blue, I pulled her down, wrapping her up in the blanket and sitting her down. Her face was glowing as I lovinly stroked her. I turned to the cute girl who followed us over and asked her if she would like to go next. She smiled brightly and nodded yes. I asked her if she like everything she saw. She nodded again and started undressing. I quickly tied her up and started getting my groove on again. What a difference playing with woman. I love variety. The soft sensual touches mixed in with the stings of pain. The moans of pleasure the begs to keep going. Not knowing her and having not discuss boundaries I kept to what I had done with my sg. She later told me how she had not had so much fun playing in quite a long time. In fact she had multiple orgasms while on that whipping pole and I was not even playing sexually with her:) Oh ya, I still got it lol.
This is journal wrote at my request from the youngin I met from CM.
Hello Anyone. My
Friday night was very different from any other I have had in a long
time. I finally got to meet my Mistress. Which meant driving out to a
pub somewhere I have never been before. She also had me go in an order
drinks for us. Also something new for me. I was in for a night of
surprises. First I waited with our drinks staring at the door waiting
for her to arrive. I was very pleased and excited when She walked in.
It is always nerve racking but exciting to meet someone for the first
time. Especially your Mistress. She was so seductive and sexy. I am so
shy in comparison. I was so nervous, but She was dead set on changing
that.
She and I kissed within the first 5 minutes of meeting and
it was so passionate and delicious. I didn't want to stop... From then
on the need to go somewhere a bit more private was on both our minds.
Once
we finished our drinks we got in my Jeep and already in the parking lot
had started. My hands were roaming her body and our lips were pressed
tightly. Then another car pulled up and it was time for the adventure.
She
was directing me around many back roads looking for a nice quiet and
hidden spot to let me prove my worth. Ten minutes must have gone by
that we were driving before coming to a close gas station. Once I had
parked things really started up. My fingers spent a very good time
between her thighs. My mouth on her body as I sat full erect the whole
time. My thoughts were racing as she allowed me to please her. I was so
turned on, so excited. I didn't think of anything other than making her
feel amazing.
The night was amazing. I was so drained when we
left. I could barely move. It was wonderful. I was so happy to show how
useful I can be. The night ended so well. I can't wait for another
chance. Thank you Mistress.
Met a new play toy from CM this weekend. MMMM is he fun! Cutie youngin with no RT experience. Only exposed to this lifestyle through some online role playing. A switch he claims to b, my slave he will become. I knew from first glance he would serve me well. So eager and excited, he is clay in my hands to mold. Conversation was easy and the sexual tension was building from the first kiss. As i ran my fingers through his soft wavy hair, I wanted to eat him. Devour him right there in the bar. One might assume with my full household, that all my needs are fulfilled, they would assume wrong. My craving for burning passion and raw desire overwhelm me at times and leave an empty hole in me.? So we took an adventure, the first of many to come. Knowing we could not go back to my overcrowded house, we drove around on back windy roads. He was getting so nervous and feeling lost. So I gave him direction and let my natural dominance take over. No scene'ing, no role playing, just pure hot steamy passion. Aggression felt by every inch of my body. Being so aggressive myself, I become drained so easy. When I go weeks after weeks without feeling sexual aggression, I need to be recharged. Not only was I recharged by our high school make out session in the car, lol, I now feel like a firecracker who's fuse has been lit! Bomb Diggity!!!
PGC kink night was a huge amount of fun as usual. I am disappointed the crowd seems to be getting smaller n smaller every month. Almost seemed like the party didnt start till my crew showed up. I bet between my group and all my friends I invited, we made up the majority of the ppl there. Steph had a blast! As i knew she would. Snake and that amazing tongue of his, had her squirting by the end of the night. It was nice to see that glow on her face as we drove home. My slavegirl has quite the rosy ass today. After last month, when the security guard was the only one marking her ass up, I decided it was my month to claim that ass. She did admit to some discomfort at work today. But then everytime she sits and flinches, she will think of me :)? I scened again with my good friend M and her little one L. That was alot of fun, I enjoy co-domming. Happened twice last night. After scening with L, flogging Steph, scening with sg, a cutie came up to me and asked if i would do him too. As soon as he told me he had never done anything like this before, I was more then eager to give him a lifetime of craving for more. I took it easy on him but also gave him quite the sampling of sensations. From pure pain to sensation stimulation, I had every muscle shaking with pleasure. I thought the bite on the neck was going to make him melt on the cross. My wildwoman who also came out last night, was on the other side touching n teasing from the front. We even dual spanked his tight little ass. MMMM was he yummy. Of course i left the after care to wildwoman, I was being pulled in so many directions last night. I even had the sg up on the pole doing a dance. She is so beautiful and moves in such an erotic way that if i had dick it would be hard no doubt lol. Her ass kept peeking out from under the skirt. I just wanted to spank it every time it did. Just to feel it, caress it, kiss her tight and hold her close. I thought Rachel might be lost without her Miles but seemed to find new meat no problem. Her suspension was incredible to watch. Even had her hair bondage she just spoke of going on. Of course she wanted more sexual sensations during it but we had to remind her, the guy did not know her. had only met but minutes before. such play needs to be discussed, boundaries established, etc. oh these newbies, what will we do.... oh yes be pleasantly entertained as we watch them jump in with both feet.
The house hunting is over!!! Settlement is Sept 29th. I can not wait to move, this is going to be a long month I fear, full of packing. Moving 3 households into one, what an undertaking and adventure approaching.
I need a celebration flogging, E get ur ass ready :) I have mised you!
Silk slave i'm sure your serves will be needed by all of my ladies after the big move week. Be ready to come stay over and pamper as only you can.
Next Wed is again kinky night at the Pleasure Garden Club. We have much to celebrate this month and I am really looking forward to the night. My gf, Steph, will even be joining us this month, yippee!
On a sad note, the Black Phoenix is no longer. The was a hostile takeover and Sir Thomas is no longer the owner/operator. DO NOT GO THERE anymore. Who knows what will become of all your personal information the new operator will again be requesting.? Sir Thomas will keep us safe, no worries there. Such a shame, I had much fun at that club, too bad with all my recent business, I have not been able to go in over a month :(
I have visited the pleasure slave (aries4u2own) twice now and the pleasure was all MINE. Such strong hands/arms, warm funny personality, and magical fingers that ease all my stress away. Replacing it with a huge smile and a content feeling of peace and happiness. I highly recommend his services to anyone looking to be pampered. He is well worth it!!
Now if only I had more time. Poor E has been so neglected. My house hunt is taking up way to much time. I need to get my slavegirl under my roof. I miss her so much when she does not stay here. But when she does, there is just NO room, this tiny place is bursting from people and their possessions. I hope my crew realizes when we do move, order will be restored to my household. No more clutter or sloppiness, everything has a place and in its place it shall be put. Or fear my wrath. I have been very forgiving under these circumstance but not for long, ready to blow again.
Oh my pleasure slave, I need ur services right now. Take me back to that happy land where all that matters is my happiness. Your true slave tendencies,? pleasing me is where your pleasure comes from. Nothing is asked of me, expected from me, no your purpose and fulfillment comes from making your Mistress happy. Little lesson for all you want-to-be slaves out there.. a worthy slave does not need to be told what to do every second. Do you realize how mentally draining that is? No a true slave will know their Master/Mistress so well, that any desire he/she may have will be fulfilled before that desire is even felt by their M. That is your purpose, that is ur place slave. Your smile comes from the smile on the face of those you serve.
August Kink night at the PGC was an awesome time as usual. This month T and I brought our slavegirl and her friend Rachel. First time meeting Rac was when i helped her into her corset at sg's house. Second time now I have helped a naked woman get into a corset within minutes of meeting her.? Have to work on getting them out as quickly too, lol.
During drive down I realized just how much of a newbie Rac really was. The closest to lifestyle she had ever been was a spanking or once having a knife held to her throat during sex. She is smoking hot too so I knew she was going to have a blast at the club. It didnt take long to figure out she was a switch. She went from wanting to be bent over and spanked to wanting to drag some guy around on a leash. While standing in line to pay, I asked the cutie in front of us if he was a top or bottom. He said he didnt know, it was the first time he had been to a place like this. I turned to Rachel and said, hmm sounds like you. You could see the sparks flying from their eyes as they met. sg was still glowing from the frisking of the bouncer on the way in and was drooling everytime he passed her by. Whispering all her naughty slut thoughts in my ear. So I went up to him and asked him if he would spank my bad slave, she deserved it. Of course he agreed and I bent her over his knees and watched getting excited with every smack. Meanwhile Rac and Miles were busy chatting away at the bar. She came over to me and asked if anyone could just go up to someone and whack them, say with a flogger. When I told her no, they needed to ask permission first, she got a look of disappointment. I asked her y and she said she wanted to use my flogger n go whack the guy taped to the chair. I told her to stick with Miles. I told her to tell him to turn around n assume the position. After some proding, she finally went up to him. He leaned over the kneeing bench and Rac let him have one. Wow was it hot. Picture Rachel, purple corest, short, short black lace skirt, thigh high black stockings and black heels, long curling hair half pulled up on top of her head and cute little glasses perched on her nose. very very lickable!!! hunybear comes up to me and hands me a spoon, tells me to have her whack him with this, i give it to her and she gives it to him, right on the lower side of his back (damn newbies are dangerous) after a quick lesson where NOT to hit (all while miles is yelling harder, harder) doesnt he jump up, grab her by the hair and throw her across the bench. he grabs the spoon and whacks her ass as hard as he can, she about jumps out of her shoes so i grabbed his arm mid swing and tell him gentle, u must work up to that force. the rest of the night those 2 were going back n forth like this, one giving, then switch -- was incredible to watch.
more to come..
The next night I found my gf in heat (as she called it.) Even though T had spent the afternoon playing with his sub, as we layed in bed in the evening, talking about sami, he unzipped his pants and told his cock whore to get to work. As he shoved S's mouth onto him, I found my canes and began to give her a sensual caning. Knowing she had never felt canes before, i started slowly and lightly. Increasing as we went along, her muffled moans were getting me hot n wet. When I could take no more, I pulled her off him and slide down on to him. Oh my T, he feels like no other, I rode him and easily came over n over, hard and intense as he fingered S. Then moving, I let her slide down onto him, holding her from behind, hands on her throat, kissing n biting her neck as she too came. The night was still young. I had promised my E that I would be coming over. So I texted him and told him I was bringing a surprise. I knew my gf had wanted to try topping and E was just the pain slut to take it. When we go there, she sat in the magic massage chair as I got busy with E. I showed her how to use the different toys, how different strokes and distances get different reactions, switching and moving as u read the body language. She finally picked upa toy and joined in. She was having so much fun so I layed down on the bed to fulfill another desire i knew he had. As his lips and tongue found my clit, the louder i moaned the harder she hit him. Over and over again, E cried out, harder, harder, yes, yes, hit me harder. Hours later found all three of us in bed. His long, strong fingers making both of us cum at the same time. Moving n switching positions, i knew he would be ready to explode so I told my cock whore to suck him as I held her head down on him. Again, I caned her ass this time as he ate her out. Oh it was amazing night of reconnection with my gf, my soulmate. A night my favorite pain slut will never forget.?
I never gave much thought to owning a slave. I wasn't looking for one. In fact, I did not think it possible being a mom, living this dual life I lead. Hell I already had a bf, gf and a play toy. One night while reading profiles, I stumbled across one for a female slave that lived in my same town. While her profile was geared towards finding a Master, I figured you could never have too many friends and wouldn't it be nice to find someone in the lifestyle so local to hang out with. So I sent her a message to say hi. There was a quick reply but that was it. Weeks went by without another message. So I sent one more. This time, pleasantly surprised we exchange yahoo IMs and started chatting. We made plans to hang out that same night. Normally I would not meet someone for the first time at their house. There was something much different about her though. Conversation was effortless, there was a familiar feel about each other and a strong sexual attraction. I quickly introduced her to my family. The kids got along great. When your gf really likes the new female slave, well you know you have found the right one. Of course the bf liked her, who wouldnt. She is cute, sassy, flirty and of course has those wonderful slave tendancies to please. The past few weeks have been a whirlwind of exciting new experiences. The first time T and I played with her it was magical for me. Those feelings of desire and passion where alive and strong in all of us. A few days later, after an afternoon at the pool, the four of us layed down in bed to rest before sami headed off to work. We were all clothed but that did not stop our hands from exploring or our mouths from kissing. For the first time in months, my sensual feelings for my gf turned to strong sexual feelings. As her fingers rubbed me in just the right spot, i could feel sami's hands stroking other parts of me. My hand finding its way to T's hand, my other hand wrapped in S's hair holding her to me in a strong kiss. When I came, my mouth found sami's shoulder where i left a bite mark that remains black n blue days later. It was an amazing afternoon of awakening, in all of us. Desires and pleasures unfolding with so many more to come. The next night found T and I alone with sami again. This time, house to ourselves, the toys came out. I finally flogged, caned, whipped etc all while sexual pleasure was being mixed in. This was the first time we played and scened. It was natural. At one point, as she layed naked across our laps, are hands exploring her body, she looked into my eyes and said, Mistress this is not fair. I told her she was our new toy and we wanted to play with her, all of her, inspect her and tease her. I took out a breast so she had something for her mouth, he tied her wrists and bound them behind her. I'm getting wet just remembering that night. ? MMMMM? Still more pleasures to come.
I'm going to Alphies for the Tuesday night munch this week. Sounds like my gf, my new slave and T will all be going as well. Should be lots of fun. Come say hi.
For those that haven't been there yet, Alphies is on welsh rd and rte 1 in philly area. And for all the newbies, a munch is just a social gathering of like minded ppl. Its a normal bar, no cover charge. Just fun people hangin out, conversing, dancing, mingling, good times. Of course there is always someone that gets spanked (if ur watching) and well, if i'm going with two beautiful woman, there will be some kissing for sure :)
I saved the best update for last. I have met the perfect female slave on collarme. While it is still new, the connection and chemistry is felt by all. She is a perfect mix for my crew and a welcome addition ..her and her adorable son. We have had a family bbq and all the kids got along great. It is so refreshing to combine both lives so easily and naturally. T and I have played with her together as well. There was so much sexual tension, there was no denying how anyone felt. She used the word cherished, she felt so cherished. And she was, it was as natural as breathing. Best part, she has really brought T and I closer as we explore r feelings for her with each other. Well more on her later, I am glowing again just thinking about her.
Saturday night we went back to the club for the after party from the ball. We got there about midnight and there was already a dozen or so ppl around. The closer to 2am, the more ppl in costumes started coming in. Soon the place was packed. My fav to watch was the fire play. There was some needle play in the back area while intersting to watch, not some thing I would want to try. The fire play though, i was hooked. Checked the upcoming workshop list and there it was, a class on wed night. The rest of the night was more of the same, lots of watching. I had no one to play with and there seemed to be mostly cpls there. Not many unattached subs walking around, lol. We ended up going to breakfast with a few new friends. that was nice, havent been up all night like that in a long time. Sun was shining bright by the time we got to bed. Wed night, T and I took r bikes down to the city for the fireplay class. I was little anxious about having to naviagate the Boulevard on my bike but it all went well. The class was very informative, Brian is a great teacher, very hands on. One of the girls that I had seen him playing with on Sat was there for the class. As well as a beautiful domme that I have seen at the PG before. We chatted for a while, great lady. After 20 yrs as a top, she is exploring her submissive side now. Had to check with her Master before volunteering for the fire play. Good thing too, those cups left huge, dark hickys on her skin. She had a cute smiley face on her back. And her tits had a ring of marks. The cutie from Sat got on the table last. She was too funny, at one point she said oh stop, please stop I'm going to cum. When Brian kept on wiggling/banging the cup btwn her legs. Someone came over with a vib to touch the cup with. Thats when she sat up and said well at least let a girl do it as she looked at me. I quickly stepped over and brought her over the edge. That was so hot, just from the cub vibrating on her. She makes such incredible noises, was very enjoyable. When we got home, I jumped in the shower. I walked into the bedroom to find T already practicing on S. From the look on her face, she was in heaven. I was too tired to try it anymore. One thing about fire play, u must have full attention on ur play, no distractions. Not something to take lightly. While practice may make perfect, i dont intend to burn any of my toys. I dont like marking my toys. a nice bruising maybe but never anything that will not fade quickly.
Finally, a quiet moment to update my journal. There really isnt enough hours in the day lately.? Last weekend was spent mostly at the new bdsm club in Philly, Black Phoenix. Well worth checking out. The place is HUGE. Tons of area to scene or just socialize. You have your choice of massage table, multiple different style crosses, cages, kneeing props, suspension bars, bars with wrist cuffs attached to a chain with easy height adjustment. And these are just the ones I can picture. Place has over 10000 sq ft if I remember the owner right. Still a work in progress but that adds to the whole dungeon feel in a way. Friday night T and I went with a friend. The place was very empty that night. Only a few other ppl. After our tour and some socializing, we picked out a prop (the hanging bar) and took turns on r friend. It was the first time we scened together. Was very light play, social setting and neither of us had played with her before. The few ppl that were there quickly found seating around us to observe. I could see her shoulder was hurting her, so we lower the chain/bar but it was too late. She was not getting into it. After we took her down and talked for a bit, I think it was more of being the center of attention. All eyes watching her was stopping her from enjoying. So we went back to socializing until almost everyone left. Then picking a more comfortable prop for her and putting a blindfold on, we continued r scene. This time getting more intense with our strokes and toy selection. While it was nice to step back and watch, give my own arms a break, it did feel a little disconnected during the play. Having to be consider of someone else's strokes, watching where i walked, etc. Tending to b a bit self centered, that took some getting us to, afterall I do as I want, when I want, especially when I am scene'ing. Overall I really enjoyed it though. R subbie friend certainly did as well. I watched her body lose all tension and fall into a deep relaxation. I knew we had taken her to subbie land. T kept on with the single tail, i moved to more of a comforting touch, easing T down. Been so long since I had taken anyone there, was so enjoyable to experience again.
Finally, the long awaited update... crazy busy life as usual. Last wed night was Pleasure Garden's Kink Night, good times as usual. For those that still dont know PG is a swinger club in Philly that caters to the Kink crowd on the first wed of every month. Good thing is u dont need to be a member to get in on kink night. Oh what kinks u will find there. I met my first human carpet this month. That was his pleasure, being walked on. Feeling the weight on his stomach. When he first approached me, I thought he was crazy. I am not a small little chicky. I am all woman, all curves .. big tits big ass. After a few attempts, numerous begging sessions, i finally decided to step. Was just that, stepping on a person. No real pleasure for myself but I certainly enjoyed watching him. I only indulged him for a few minutes so he started following me around, begging for more. After a quick scene, i was feeling very good and found him under my feet again at a bar stool. At first, i slide one foot onto his stomach. Leaning into him to the beat of the music. Then both feet. One foot on his face, one foot on his lower stomach. As he sucked my toe into his mouth, all kinds of pleasure sensations came alive in me. I slide off the chair into his lap, his legs coming up to give my back a resting spot. My head resting on his knees, i moaned in pleasure. What a comfortable seat he was. My feet on his shoulders, i laid in relaxation watching all the action in the room.
Moving onto the stripper pole/stage area,? watch hunybear scene, I found my E sitting front row on a comfy sofa. Hunybear is so incredible to watch. Such power, control and ease. His little sub is so much fun to watch as well. Was not the prancing show from last month but still quite the show.
After he finished, I warmed up my arm on my wild woman's ass. Upward strokes, upward, tighten that ass, oh ya... ah she is the best :) Now i needed to release my engeries and my crop found E's ass as I pushed him onto the stage. My new carpet slave in tow with my bags. Once E was secured to the cross, i laid out my toys across carpets body. As I went from toy to toy, I would take a step on my carpet to retrieve a new one. My excitement was growing as I picked out two canes. Doing a rhythmic caning, I worked my arms on him. Beating him, his ass was my drum. He had bruises for days after. Was very gratifying to see. After I let him down, I moved my attention to the new toy .. carpet. As i sat on him and put my toys back into my bag, he asked what pleasure i got from that. He was the one getting the beating. So I showed him, I put my legs down onto his shoulders, trapping his head under my skirt. My dripping wet lips sliding across his nose as I stode up. I asked him if he understood now what pleasure I get from scene'ing. From the look on his face I knew he did lol. The rest of night went by way too quickly. There was more socializing then playing this month. Was a fun night and left me wanting my toe sucked for much longer. I have felt that sensation before but not like that. Going to a play party this Sat, hopefully will have more to update after. Also going to a munch at Alphies tomorrow night (off rte 1 in philly area) so say hi if you are there too. Love to hear from my journal readers :)? Mistress Sugar
Well i was not disappointed, thats for sure. What an awesome time last night at the PG. Starts off slow, always does. First the flirting, smiles, glances. Once I started playing though, heats it up. First was Jill on the stripper pole. She wanted the pink handcuffs in her bag but I wanted rope with my new knot. she was quite impressed with the simplistict ease of the restraint. Not liking it rough, i took it very easy on her. Used her little heart paddle. My hand, spanked her good. Full cupping, fingers strokin spanking. Then finally E walks by. He was off taking in the sights way to much. I tried reminding myself he is not my slave. Would have liked one of those last night. Never a drink for my hand or footrest. Anyway back to Jill, so E brings me my flogger. Her eyes light up, in her squeeky high voice, oh i dont like it to hurt. i reminded her it is all in the touch and proceed to gently bring the long soft thick suede straps up her shapely legs, Then moving it slowly, i flapped it against her ass. Increasing the distance and force with each one, still very gently and caressing with the touch. she moaned how she enjoyed when a cutie pie little sub girl came up n offered J some pole dancing tips. Not realizing how hot that spot light by pole gets, i was ready to watch the show with a cold drink. At some point T came in, J's friend. She was quite disappointed that she missed us scene'ing. It was just a tease though. I was ready for the real thing. Now i wanted my pain slut. He was too shy though, not ready couldnt decide where he wanted it. Bent over the massage table, the bench, cross. i wanted suspension bar but he choice the cross. I wont be so accomadating next time! So i tied his wrists up and started my usual dance with him. Moving through the toys, increasing my strengh, I let it all out on that ass. Blazing red, welts coming out another Domme came up and commented she liked my technique. Was impressed with how much he could take. I told her my slut likes welts, she said that really turned her on and walked away. So after playing with several .. this Mistress was HORNY!! I dragged E into the pit and laid down on the center bench area. He eagerly licked my juices as J walked by. I motioned for her to come join us and asked her to suck on my nipples. She so deliciately unzipped my leather dress and took out each breast. Gently she kissed and sucked my breasts. Well being right in the middle, everyone from bar area could c right in. T quickly came running over to join. At some point, i instructed E to get up and give me some to suck on. There were plenty of cocks offered but E's is mine, familiar. Well T dropped down to her knees and took right over between my legs. She was much more aggressive in her approach. throwing my legs over her shoulders, diving in with both hands, fingers exploring, tongue licking. Another one of there friends came over and asked if he coudl suck on my free nipple. Sure why not, it needs attention too. He was amazing as well. Very long tongue which makes his nickname very appropriate. I could hear my moans of pleasure echo'ing off the walls. I could c the lines of people aroudn the pit, watching, rubbing, playing with themselves or their subs. It was such a huge turn on. I couldnt tell how long it had been but i knew it was almost closing time. My swollen clit could take no more so i slide down off the center bench onto the clothed lap of the stranger who was now between my legs licking with that long tongue. I sucked my juices off his tongue and thanked him, asking him what his name was. He told me he could do that all day if i wanted him too. Yum, what a nice thought. After regaining my balance, I walked out of the pit and was approached by a cute guy. He told me how much he enjoyed the show, that i was the super sex star of the night, just then his gf smacked him and said i thought i was. Was perfect ending. I had such a good laugh.
So the first wed of the month has certainly become a night to remember. With many future adventures to come...
Finally, its the first wed of the month again. Kink night at the Pleasure Garden here i come. I cant wait to play, be free, be me, have fun n enjoy pure pleasure. Was just practicing a new knot on S. So easy, so many possibilities. I easily added the wrist into the ankle example i just learned. I could have some real fun with that one tomorrow night. Yum, so many subs at my fingertips tomorrow night. Even invited my first slave to come. Wonder if he will make it?? He needs a good humiliating. That worthless, disrespectful bad puppy needs to b retrained all over again. At least I know with him how well behaved he can b. After all he already has a special place, being my first, intro'ing me to this lifestyle. I can never really say goodbye to that one. No, he has his good qualities. I know how to punish that naughty dog. Havent had him in a collar on my leash in months. As much fun as E is, he does not wear a collar for me. I dont think of him as my slave. A Mistress needs a slave, hell I need many slaves. Could have used that little nail boy tonight. Oh so little free time and space. I so need to get a bigger place. In fact, I need to find someone local with a house that is willing to host play parties for this Mistress. I certainly have plenty of friends n toys to invite. Just no place to invite them too. Well not yet anyway. i will keep working on that but dont want to waste the summer when so much fun could be had.
So who's joining me at the Pleasure Garden tomorrow night. B sure to say hi, I will b the Mistress with the huge smile.. giving it, getting it and all around enjoying it... *Whip.....
I so need a play room. How can i properly play with my toys, without a play room. There is not enough space, no room for props or certain scenes. Also hard to get into the right mind set with pictures of the kids hanging around. No I need a new place. A big farm with a huge barn. Lots of rooms to rent out. Big dungeon stocked with all the toys and props a mind can imagine. I have it all planned out in my mind. Would start a company, Pet Training Plus. Income would be generated from sessions, toy sales, and cover charge for events. There would be a room set up with live feed to my website. And a one way mirror interogation room. This would be my home. A compound if you will. Main house with huge great room, combination kitchen, living room, dining room area. One wing off the main house would be the family side. Rooms for the kids on days they are over. Across the pool area would be the other wing off the main house. In this wing there would be lots of rooms to be rented to the select members of my extended family. After all a Mistress has many needs. From pain sluts, houseboys/girls, stable hands, there is room for so many in my household. From the ones that want to be humiliated and degraded to the pets that want to be loved and stroked, my family will be loving and excepting of all.
went to the munch at alphies last night. what a great time, so many great people there. Really nice group. Met someone new who intrigues me. Only dabbled in the humiliation side a bit so far but this one, well thats his pleasure. So send me your ideas!
Last night, after making rounds, I kept noticing him looking at me. I decided to get another drink and say hi. By the end of the night, he was crawling for me, licking the bottom of my shoes, sucking on my toes, I even let him put my socks and boots on for me. (Yes we took the motorcycles there, was surprised, not to cold coming home at midnight.) He wanted me to pee in his beer or spit in it. Strange indeed, to each there own. I just love meeting new people and finding out what thrills them, what they crave to try and do again. People fascinate me, their likes/dislikes. One of the things I enjoy about this community so much. People are so open and accepting. To bad he is not here now, I have some bodily fluid for him to lick. Was so horny from the ride home last night I woke up this morning and got my vibrating rabbit out. Oh those ears find just the right spot, everytime. Of course now I'm even hornier and its time to get to work. To bad Ts not here, would like to take a ride on him first :) ?
Just home from seeing E. Was a quickie tonight. We were both tired, long days. I wanted to tell him all about the Pleasure Garden's BDSM night. Its the first Wed of the month, so T and I went last night to check it out. Left me craving to play with my favorite toy. I wanted to play so much last night. Was incredible to see so many people doing their thing. Believe it or not, I am not shy. I have no problem playing in public. I like knowing I'm being watched. Adds to the pleasure. Since we did not bring subs, we were instead taking in the sites. Loved watching Lobo play. It is amazing to see his figure eight florentine with the matching cat of 9 tails. Such rhythem and style. There was also this couple very into ropes. Was interesting to see how he tied her in different positions and suspended her. Hell he was even doing hair bondage lol. Already planned what I would like to do next time.
Picture this... E on his knees under the big suspension bar, naked. Hands, tied in ropes, flung up over bar and tied off, stretched out and up, so he is not able to knee but not allowed to stand. I would start out with the flogger, my fav. After warming up my arms move on to the front. After a long, hard kiss - sure to get him hard, I would wrap his balls n cock up in the hitch wrap, leaving the leash hanging off the tip. Pulling the leash between his legs and up between his ass checks, I would switch to a cane, i would pull his leash, tightening it as I start off slow. Working up and down his ass, both sides from thighs to the top of his crack, i would start turning that white ass red. Quick, hard whacks. Then switching to the stinger, i wold tease his balls with the tips. whipping it back n worth, increasing the speed and decreasing distance. Making the wire sting him, I would move up the ass. Bringing huge welts with ease as he squirms and cries out in pleasure. Rubbing my hands over his burning ass, i would drop him back to his knees and release him. Walking backwards, i would have him crawl after me. Knowing what he lusts for now and feeling how wet i had become from the play, i would slide into a bar stool. pulling him between my legs to lick my sweet juices. Would be fun to have Tanya and Jill join in. Playing with their hard ons under those cute little skirts. Feeling their hands on my breasts, mouths licking at my nipples. Cumming under their hands, moans of pleasure, all under the watchful eyes.
I've been asked what i am seeking. What Im not seeking is easier and known. I really dont have one thing in mind. Open to lots of possibilites, after all i love variety. Tonights scenario is all about switching. Something I have never done and well, not yet ready to try. No this night, he will be coming over here. Sneaking into my bedroom, naked, silently covering my mouth with his big strong hand. Masked, telling me to keep quiet or I will be sorry. Grabbing my head, hairwrapped in his hands and forcing my wet mouth onto his hard cock. Holding me tight as he slids into my mouth, into my throat. I wrestle against his mass. Trying to get free. Not sure what else his little mind will come up with. Really wondering if he can pull it off. The last attempt was not realistic. Funny nurse k, always smiling, it was not believable. So how will E do tonight? I will let u know. The switch will be when he attempts to slap me, then Mistress Sugar comes out to play. Flipping the switch, he will be laided out, wrists restrained before he knows what hit him. And hit him I will!!! Slapping his face as i finish the top ropes. Alwhile stradding his face, arms pinned. Then the legs, bent and tied. Maybe even pulled up n back. Then his rape comes. My toy gets a turn in his ass. trying the double dildo, ride him. so excite ..?? **Update, he did a fantastic job. Very impressed by his ability to assume the role. Especially since it involved trying to control his domme. One thing I did not like was the verbal degrading. He tried to control with words instead of force. I find no pleasure in being called names, whore, slut, etc. I found myself focusing on those negative thoughts the words brought to mind. Instead of the intense waves of pleasure he was bringing to my body. No I was craving force, the aggression of a stong, confident man. Maybe its time to find one that is not role playing.
Not to much happening this weekend. Just some lovely time with the family, snuggled in at home in evenings.?
Steph gave me my first hena tattoo for the season. A wrist design as well as one on my upper arm. That one is flowers and a butterfly. Totally Steph but hey, its my arm. Not me at all. But it was her first attempt and she did a great job. Still havent committed to a real tat yet. I just cant decide the what or where. Thats me, always changing my mind.
This weekend I became aware of my inability to follow instructions. At work I have lots of projects and fix many problems. But its always up to me how and in what way the end result is obtained. To be told hold this here, put ur hand under this, especially when I didnt want to be touching the dirty, heavy thing in the first place, well it just totally set me off. A simple request yet something in me fights. My own will can be so strong and stubborn at times. The after thoughts ... whats the big deal, why didnt I just do it. Not to meantion the clean up work necessary then. But still its not my first reaction to listen and follow, without regard to my own feelings.
Being dominant comes so easy for me.? Its as natural as breathing. Funny to think only a few years ago I knew nothing of this lifestyle. And now, I think about it all the time. Always making up new scenes in my head to try. A stroll through a store finds me staring at objects and visioning entirely new uses for them. My bedtime reading material has become CBT, wax play, bondage books etc. Always soaking in new knowledge.
Stopped to see E the other night after school. Was a quick visit, only had about an hour to spare. I really wanted another ride in that magic massage chair.? Such heaven those massaging balls digging into my back as his tongue and fingers rotate in and out of me. He texted me his new toys have arrived. Cant wait to play again. He is begging for new welts. Wish i could find that strap for the strap on. Must have left it at slave d's place. Need to visit him and retreive the restraint i left there too. Liking that e has so many toys of his own. I can just drop by and there is plenty to play with.
Im in the mood to give a flogging, to bad i cant get out tonight. He is building a pleasure horse. That should be fun. Want to get him into all kinds of positions, experiment.
Now for the new possibility. Chatting with a newbie. He likes forced submission although he has very little experience. Not a pain slut, well at least he doesnt think he is, lol, its the idea of having no control and being dominated by a strong, sensual woman that he craves. He likes to role play too. Something I enjoy as well but have not done much of lately. I have several ideas in mind. One thought was a "drugged" restraint. He lies passed out as I restrain him in ropes, totally unmoving/not "awake". Using the ankle/wrist position I have been eagerly waiting to try out, it would leave him totally vulernable and at my mercy. A hard slap across the face would "wake" him up.? Under my control, no choice, no turning back. Another thought was a regular date out in public. I would be shy and timid. Very embarrassed by his advances, I would tell him no, pulling away every time he tried to gropped me. When we got back to his place, he would pay! The domme in me would come out and he would not know what hit him. The shy girl would give it all back to him ten fold. Making him beg for mercy, bringing the little sissy bitch tears flowing.? What do you think? I would love some feedback, ideas, comments ... ?
I visited Eric last night. Wow, think my clit is still swollen n vibrating. Even a little sore today. Oh such sweet pain, the only pain this Mistress enjoys, lol. After riding my motorcycle all weekend, my back was killing me. I made myself comfortable in his massage chair while he prepared my cocktail of choice. I was already in heaven from the massage chair when he came into the room. My silky wrap dress was revealing lots of cleavage and had fallen open exposing my shaven pussy. My eyes were shut so I did not see him drop to his knees in front of me. He started kissing my feet, sucking on my toes, moving his way up my leg. Quickly finding the spot that needed attention. Oh it had been too long and I need so much attention. I really think it a curse, to be horny all the time. Leaves me frustrated and grumpy when I do not have relief. Oh the relief he gave me though, over and over for almost an hour. It left me weak in the knees. As I stood up, I fell down into him. We held each other tight as our breath started returning to normal. Gaining my strength back, I instructed him to lie on the bed, face down. His white ass quickly turned red under the tip of my crop. It was his turn for pleasure, his beating was just beginning. Few minutes later, i rolled him over. Taking the rope, I tried out my new hitch tie on his balls and pecker. I just love the design it makes coming up the shaft. Perfect leash left hanging off the tip. Holding him taunt, I rolled him back on his knees. Ass high in the air, nice hard toy on the end of my leash, i got the cane out. Up and down his cheeks I whacked. Moving back and forth, pulling, stroking, teasing him. Going from painful strokes to soft caressing tugs I teased him. I worked my way through the toys laid out. Increasing the pressure with each one. Working my way up to the hard plastic strip. A favorite toy of his, a found object, finally used as he dreamed. It left welts across his ass just as he imagined it would. I knew the best way to tease him thought would be to straddle his face. My lips were wet from the pleasure of hearing his moans. My wet pussy called to his tongue. He begged to lick me but I would not let him. Slowly moving closer n closer to his tongue until I could hold out no longer. I slide across his mouth. My juices running down into him. He eagerly licked and sucked but his thirst was not satisfied. He wanted to make me cum again, to quench his thirst. My still swollen clit required little work this time. I quickly reached orgasm. Dripping into his mouth, his moans of pleasure so intense it heightened my own. I wanted him in me. I slide down onto him and rode him. The perfect toy, so hard, so eager to please. Following instruction so effortlessly and following where his own desires and passion leads him. Makes things so much more intense, so consuming. The perfect mix. He flipped me over to dive between my legs again. Craving my juices, he licks just the right spots. His long, strong fingers filling me up like never before. Pounding me, in both holes, all while his tongue sucks and licks. Was the most intense orgasm of my life, over and over waves of pleasure ripped through my body. Oh moans of pleasure turned to screams of delight. Louder and louder I cried out. Riding his hand harder and harder, my hands wrapped in his hair. Burying him into my clit, pushing him tight into me. His moans of pleasure rippling off my clit as the intensity and duration increased. Oh I am so wet just thinking about it.
Balance has returned. What an incredible night I had yesterday. I met for drinks with my friend M. She is a beautiful, tall red head with an equally beautiful personality. Just a pure pleasure to converse with about anything and everything. Best of all she is a switch. Most recently coming into her domme side. So nice to have someone to talk to about different technics and styles. She is much more into the sensual, erotic side of bondage. Where I have been into the pleasurable pain. Most intriquing is her tales of being submissive. She has the most open and honest way of easily breaking feelings down into words. Has really opened my eyes to the submissive mind. I have heard many times the best dommes have been a sub. I could never imagine submitting, not in my nature.
First reaction to S telling me she was in a collar on a leash and being told she was a good girl brought rage to me. I would have punched him out. How could she like that? But she does, she re-confirmed how much she enjoyed it. I just couldnt get inside her head. Why, what would make you like being demeaned in such a way. It was M who finally helped me understand. Its not meant to be demeaning. Its a verbal confirmation of approval, that one is pleasing you. Just like I enjoy hearing the moans of pleasure I give, she enjoyed being told she was pleasing. Finally, I could understand that. I have humilated many men with my words. To me, this was the same. Never fully understand why some people enjoy this humilation.
So after drinks, I came home to T doing some research on CBT. Off we went to hardware store for smaller dimension rope. When we got home, I practiced some of the new techniques. Really like the coil version wrapping up the shaft. Made the tip so rock hard, ready to burst. Felt so good in my mouth. The other version made such an interesting rope pattern all the way. He has such a perfect pecker for practicing :) No pain, very very careful at least I try to be. He tells me when I'm not. He is so helpful pointing out what to avoid where to place, what to watch for, etc. Looking forward to trying the wrist/ankle position he showed me. Will open up all kinds of possibilities.
So after all this practicing, sucking, licking, picture taking, the fun move back into the bedroom. It has been so long since the three of us have pleasured each other together. Was incredible feeling, the affirmation of the love we all share for each other through hot, steamy sex!
Life is grand :)
I am a very emotional person with a great imagination. This can be both a curse and a gift. My first reaction comes from my emotions, how I am feeling at that moment in time. Yes I am a woman! I can be feeling jealous, at first reaction, then the logic will start to kick in. Logic is never my first reaction. Once I start thinking about the situation or my feelings on a situation, my thoughts start to become more rational.
I am a student of life, always learning, growing, challenging myself. A work in progress. In fact this journal is part of my work in progress. I am writing it for me. Yes its in a very public format which I like. I like the comments I get, the suggestions. Again work in progress. Thats how we learn, from others and through our own self exploration. Lately I am finding my learning style is becoming more written. It helps to write it down. Maybe its the reading and re-reading, it helps me retain it better or see something I missed.
Last night was not a good one. I fell asleep hurt and confused. My gut reactions to situations can ruin a great day. For someone who is always in control, how can i have so little self control of my own emotions? How can I be in this lifestyle, totally embracing being open and sharing and yet have jealous issues pop in my head. Why do we crave what we don't have even when what we have is so incredible? Is it possible to turn off unwanted emotions or to do that wouldn't you have to turn all emotions off. I would not want to live a life without feelings. If gut reactions are fed by emotions instead of logical is there a way to retrain that instinct? Or is that ingrained in who you are?
And if you love someone, how do you put their needs, thoughts, emotions before your own? Maybe that is where I need to focus. If putting others first, over your own emotions, is the first response then do you lose yourself? Where do one's own feelings come into play? What importance do they have? If those feelings are unprodcutive and counteractive to a situation, then they should be pushed aside while you put others first. So how do you do that? Sounds so easy. So why do I struggle so?
Oh the sweet joy of pure exhaustion. What an incredible night of pleasure. My new toy is so much fun. Hours and hours of entertainment. It felt so good to dance again. And by dance, I do mean beating his ass. Started with my flogger. Love the feeling as I swing it, the sound it makes as I vary the distance and speed. Then moved to the paddle. T took the big, hard wood one. So I only had the soft leather studded heart one. Man does that thing make alot of noise. Quickly moved on to the crop. His toy, just bought for tonight. Liked it much better then my own. Tip is wider and shaft is much more flexible. Was fun bending it back and letting it smack that ass. Made him jump every time. Then onto the bamboo canes. He was really liking them. Again such a versatile toy, bringing pleasure and pain in many forms. Loved dragging the tip down his body. Poking with it, sliding it in his ass crease. Since he was a dirty boy, there was no bottom play for him. I guess he will take my direction serious next time. Those single use enemas are no where near as much fun as the bags and I dont bother with them. But he did get to feel my wetness as I ground into that burning hot ass. Cooling with my juices that surely flow when I dance the Mistress steps.
Flipping him over, I slide down onto him. Grinding and riding, the moans of pleasure so easily came, over and over again. Oh what a fun new toy I have found. So eager to please me. I enjoyed the toys he slide into me. New ones, just bought for tonights occasion. Havent felt anal beads in so long. Good times for sure. Got to love those well trained, mature men. So different then the slaves I have played with lately. He did not need constant instruction. His desire and passion fed his actions. Touching, sucking, teasing all the right parts, just at the right times.
Soon my lady will come home from work. To snuggle with me in bed as I tell her of my nights adventures. Who knows when T will arrive home. I hope he is having as much fun as I did. His sub b has been begging for a good hard beating for a week now. I'm sure she will get hers tonight. And then my love will come home to cuddle with his loved ones. Happy home, all smiles tonight. Even S, her fun will come tomorrow when her playmate Bill comes to visit. And I will be the one listening to the tails of pleasure from her day as we snuggle in bed tomorrow night.
Sweet dreams, I know I will have some :)
Mistress Sugar gets to play tomorrow. I'm so excited, its been way to long. Packed my bag tonight-flogger, paddle, ropes, crop, bamboo, silk, leather, candle, damn forgot to pick up more clothes pins. Next time I guess. Even through in my vibrator and the strap on. Is it Wed night yet!!!
Made a gag bit which should work nice as I work his ass over good. What a life I lead :) Went to Lowes with T tonight. Just your typical couple buying 100 yards of rope and some bamboo. Discussing who gets to bring what toys as we both are playing on the same night with our subs. Came home and then tried out the bamboo on S's white ass. Its amazing to watch skin turn instantly red. Then tried different strokes on each other. Got to experience how the different sizes and speeds efffect the sting. What fun.. More details to follow :)
I already completed my circle. S, my soulmate, pain slut of a best friend and my true love, T, the dom who pulled us together as lovers. Circle whole with three halves. All balancing each other, giving where the other pulls back. Filling in all the pieces as natural as the yin yang. Perfect balance. So you would think anyway.
My piece was not in tune. Still void, echos from my unfilled Mistress desires. I thought I wanted a boy toy, someone young, full of energy and stamina. More of a slave or puppy. Giving me that eager attention and unwavering obedenience. Living only
to serve, giving, always putting my needs first.
The search went on and on though. The ones to write had short, boring, standard messages. Where was the originality? The creativity was nonexistant. The few that interest me slightly got a reply. The couple I talked to, the conversation was painful. A struggle not worth enduring. If it wasnt kink, their attention seemed to drift away. To be with me, all my senses need to feel alive. If it was too hard to hold a conversation, there was no chance I would put that much effort into more.
When out of nowhere, months after writing it, a reply came from one of the few messages I initiated. All along I have been searching for the wrong thing. What I really desired was a pain slut not just a slave. Enjoying pain is a requirement for my play. He was more though, the perfect bootyman. Not a young boy to have to shape and mold. He was already well trained. More then that though, he was real. A two hour phone call that felt like 10 minutes with an old friend. There was no effort needed to converse. Any subject was as natural as the next. So we arranged to meet. Just a quick drink was all the time I had. From the first glance, I knew this would work. He was pleasing to my eyes, the possibilities seemed endless. He was just what my ego needed. So full of compliments, true heartfelt words that brought pleasure to my soul. The eagerness to please was so apparrent.
The next meeting, I discovered just how talentd his tongue
was. Those long strong fingers that easily bring pleasures untold for
too long. So eager to please, to satisfy, over n over. Those puppy dog
eyes so big and full of promise. YUMMY
When he
stroked my flogger, laying on the bedside table, he said, Its so soft, it couldnt bring pain. Like you, you are so sweet and adorable, I cant imagine you bringing pain. Challenge taken but only a taste. This first time meeting was all about me. Time was limited. My flogger slide across his back and ass. Very, very long back, never been with someone that tall. There is so much room to play ;) The soft drags soon turned to massaging pounds. Leather, smacking across the skin, loud and hard. Full force spreading every stands out. As i changed my pace, my distance, the tips were the only pieces touching now. The painful sting he could now feel. Faster and faster, stinging followed by hard pounds, driving that burn deeper. But only a taste, just enought to turn him bright red. For my own pleasure, I left him with to red hand prints on each ass cheek. My mental branding. This ass is mine, to do as I desire with.
His ass is still anticipating the beating that will come. Mistress Sugar will leave her mark next time- welts. So he can relive the pain i give for days after. The constant reminder of pleasures to come.
