MistressSearcher

UPDATE:  9/119/2013   (Yes, I know, it really has been a while!)

Well, for turning 50, I still get people peeking into my profile and guys, at least READ my profile before sending me messages about wanting me to suck your cock or wanting to suck mine... Hello, submissive but still, I may fantasize about it but there is ALWAYS a female Domme there in the fantasy making sure I do it right... 

New profile pic, which was taken the other day. If I had the white frilly blouse, I could have gone with the school girl outfit but... Like I said, I am fifty, not 15! Don't think I could pass even for an older girl without MAJOR makeup and my corset. And in the background, you can see my "Slutty french Maid" uniform. Maybe the next time, and maybe I will do something totally NOT like me so far...

I am not serving a Mistress, yet. I have a very nice friend who I found on another site, who ties me up and takes pics. I am working my way to the good shots, trying to get into that "DiD" look... If I could drop about 100 pounds I might be able to do the total "Harmony Productions" look. But not gonna happen, though one never knows. With the corset I could possibly get more of the look...

Beyond that, I still travel, extensively through the northeastern US. Got back from Illinois and traveled to PA before getting home. Love parts of the travel thing and wish I had the ability to find bondage buddies and the like in some of the places I travel to. Who knows...

Thanks for reading and hope to talk to someone soon who has the same interests as I do...

Lynda

Well, it has been a while since I last updated... And some things have not changed...

I have been led astray by yet another couple who said that they wanted to get to know me and maybe play... Well, they seem to have disappeared. Strange how that works.

The passport thing was actually easier than I thought. I had to go to Buffalo but I went, with my letter from my employer to get it as I needed to go the following week and, five hours later (and MANY dollars lighter) I had not only the book but the card. So now I can travel where ever I can afford... Sort of like it has always been, though now I can cross international borders!

Other than that, traveling extensively still. However, I am thinking that I may have made contact with someone with whom I can chat (well, we are chatting now but...) and maybe, if we feel up to it, get coffee... Of course, one never knows what can happen over coffee but, well, one can always hope!

Anyway, I am hoping that maybe this possible relationship will avail me to be able to at least get to the damsel in distress or french maid mode, though sometimes french maids become damsels in distress so...

Thanks for reading

I have learned that even when you are patient and honest, you still can get hung out to dry, as it were. And in more ways that just one...

Vanilla wise, I am finding that I will now have to travel more for my job. Not a big deal, unless of course, you now have to get a passport for things... Let me tell you... Hurry up and wait take on a WHOLE new meaning.

Kink wise, I have decided that one couple I was talking to was leading me on. However, into my mail box cam someone else. Now, I had felt that dealing with men, even as my feminine self, might be okay, until, of course, a couple of them did what men are wont to do... Okay, even I know that in my guy mode I would HOPE that I would not lead someone on like that. But as is oft the case, well, if I have, my sincerest apologies. And as I think about it, maybe i did... In fact, one that I can think of, though maybe I will learn to trust my instincts...

But another person, as a couple, I hope, has rekindled a little of that possible hunger that I am hoping that they do not spoil.

Of course, it could also be the Domme that I talked to the other day on yippee (You know) that had me the most intrigued. And it was just a chance encounter that I had seen Her on my messenger panel as I was clearing up the junk mail folder.

So, one never knows. And as I have ALWAYS said, to the victor goes the loyalty... Oh, and the spoils... Honesty and integrity have always been something that I hope to feel I have inside me...

Oh, to feel the ropes that bind me, deep inside my heart, as I come to learn what that little voice inside my head has been trying to tell me for all these years that I have been away from the lifestyle and scene... What is she telling me???

Well, another cold and snowy day here... I thought that it was SPRING!!! Not winter, part deux!

Anyway, beginning to wonder about myself and what it is that I want... Or need...

Friday can not get here fast enough and yet, I am filled with a little fear and the like. But there is also anticipation of trying something I have NEVER done before... Maybe that is the fear...

Or could it be the fear is that I may actually enjoy it...

Only time will tell... As will, well, they know who they are...

Lynda

Another day, another long trip. But one filled with good things... The day, not the trip. Looking forward to the many days ahead with anticipation and hope. One never really knows what the day will hold but if you are patient and hopeful, good things may come.

Of course, on another tangent, I am doing some of my favorite hobby, writing. It is a small thing but, in all honesty, something I really do enjoy. Of course, considering the subject matter, not too many places are going to publish it. Luckily I have an outlet online that has posted it to their story site, so at least I get to use that outlet for some of my pent up, well... Fantasies???

But I did learn something new this past week, while writing... It was a MAN who invented pantyhose... How many people knew that...

Oh, and Julie Newmar invented the Catsuit...

Meow

I guess that I need to make sure I keep things under some sort of control. I have this unfortunate tendency to leap before looking, occasionally put my foot into my mouth with no way to remove it in time or other silly little things that might make me appear TOO eager.

Lucky that sometimes I can be brought down to earth by a gentle word spoken in my ear or a kind word written to me.

But that doesn't mean that I won't do it again. It comes with the territory...

But goodness knows, it does make for some interesting writing... I may actually be able to spend some time writing this weekend... I hope...

Well, it is time to admit that maybe i can find a little peace and happiness these days.

For all the trouble that "You Always Have Other Options" and their chat can cause, on occasion one may feel lucky in that a conversation can start. Of course, having to sign into the chat session almost every five minutes can be nerve wracking! Of course, I don't know where conversations will lead but unless one is willing to stick it out there for someone to slap or grab, you are just hiding behind the shadows.

And I, for one, am pretty tired of hiding out in the shadows.

Well, another typical day in Upstate new York... Grey (or is it gray?) and miserable and nothing to do but put on my little french maid uniform and clean the house. Which is certainly funny when you consider that I have this thing for five to six inch stiletto heels. I can not seem to walk in shorter heels and I really can not figure out why that is. Not that I really care, though.

Since there is time, I guess one could say that the active search is on. Sitting on the sidelines certainly does not lend to getting anywhere, plus people tend to think that you are some sort of lurker, sitting on the sidelines and just watching. And if you are a member of CM, what is there to watch? Photos??? The occasional BDSM movie. Come on...

Of course, part of me thinks I should change the handle I have on here seeing as several people instantly see the work "Mistress" and think, very briefly, that I might be a Domme. Well, I guess that would make me say Ooops... But then again, I am SEARCHING, aren't I? Okay, maybe not too diligently but still...

Of course, when you fill out your profile, it just asks if you are straight, gay or bi... Hello, what about those who are, well, curious??? Goodness knows that some guys who are straight realize that they might be a little bit curious. Goodness knows, my "fantasies" and writings have usually included me (yes, even me in my writings) has had to do things, unwillingly at first, either to a man or to a TG.

And speaking of TG, Does that include cross-dresser's on this site? Goodness knows I am as open minded as anyone and there was indeed a time when I thought I would love to become a woman (either completely or at least the so called "she-male" like in the fetish flic's) but I also realized that, well, I thought about it a little TOO late, in terms of my body shape and size. Unless, of course, I want to look like stereotypical Russian woman...  But that doesn't mean I don't at least try, though it might be one of those wasted efforts.

Anyway, I am hoping that maybe someone will take advantage of me and  maybe let me serve in some form or manner. Goodness knows that if You have a dungeon and need something built, I could try to build it for You. Have done so in the past (though it has been MANY years in the past) and would like to prove to myself that I can STILL do it. And I would love to feed my one dark passion...

Has something to do with prolonged and inescapable bondage and, well, being forced to do something really... sissy like...

Hey, I said I was curious, didn't I???