MisterKingdom

Greetings,

As it is My name, so goes one line in that particular song;

 "Mister Kingdom, help me please to find the rainbow's end.." 

 In finding My girl I have found My rainbows end, happily exploring the depths of her devotion and the heights of My dominance. At one time we were mere strangers but by chance have found one another. In each of our pasts others have discounted us as too intense (Myself) or too hard to handle (her) but that is their loss now. I enjoy pushing her limits and maintaining her focus, true she can be a challenge but with a look or word she quickly remembers her place.

I am a pleasure Dom, for those who know not what it means I live to see her pleasures expanded. I know in turn by doing so she will happily grant Me the follies of My passion and dominance. I am her Master as she is My slave, within herself she is also very much an alpha-female. Strong, opinionated, hard-headed at times but she is above all other females in My eyes. I allow her to be the social butterfly she is, the consummate business person and a lady in public. She is also My slut, whore, bitch, fuck-toy and friend.

Encompassing all that I desire and even brining in treats for her Sir as I give her treats in return. I find it a shame most that are discovering this lifestyle will never know the true depth and connection a Master and slave share. Newbies think it's all about the kink, some "men" think it's about control and subjugation. What the fuck do they know?...I know when she is on My arm or out alone she can make Masters, Doms, men and women cringe in dark desire wanting to covet her. Ask Me and perhaps I'll allow you the chance to witness and perhaps partake in her amazing sexuality and response. This invitation goes for Doms, slaves and subs but do not mistake My kindness for weakness.

I'm not a jealous Man as her pleasures are My driving force...

I am however a protective Man.

I own her now, that fact is absolute.

Greetings,

It's rather amazing when someone can reach deep inside you and ignite feelings once thought gone or trampled on by others. As one door closes usually another opens and I'm pleased I investigated this one...time will tell.  I'd like to send My warmest regards to My muse who should be enjoying her new found happiness as well. I wanted to let you know I appreciate all that you are and for being in My life. May we both find that part of our lives that calls to us..by the way you're right, I should have never settled as I'm not likely to make tht mistake again.

Be a better person tomorrow than you were today...

MisterKingdom~ 

Can you say "BULLSHIT?"

I never cease to be amazed at the influx of newbies, wannabes and out in out scammers. This entry popped up when I signed in and I'm shocked...I NEVER knew there was a "Slave Camp" is that an offshoot of the "Girl Scouts Gone Bad" division? roflmao...anyway I needed a laugh, perhaps you could use one too.

Hi all dominant Master, if you are seeking for that submissive slave to serve you for your pleasure then stop here and talk to me, i,m a 24/7 submissive slave who can serve you for either long or short term, i,m really to obey you to the fullest,worship you and adore you, i can do anyhting as i have been taught many things about the BDSM in the training camp where i,m and im really ready to wear your collar handcuff and things of such, i have no limit other than electric shock and blood splitting bcos it can lead to death, contact me anditell you more about myself if you think i suite you slave match....or add me here to chat with beckymorex968@gmail.com then you can also send ya mail to me there, thanks !!!! 

WOW!!...is it Me or is this place going to Hell in a Hand-basket?

Be a better person tomorrow than you were today...for God sake be better than this piece of crap.

MK~

Hello,

Epiphany comes many times to a person while others it seems to skip completely, I know I've had a few in My life but I was not wise enough to heed them. I entered into a relationship with a woman that I'd love to keep as My friend however I highly doubt it. I was asked to tone down My boisterous personality because she did not like the attention, it embarrassed her. This was not done on purpose but the way My personality works, I'm in the thick of things and usually don't shy from situations or circumstances, as the saying goes "A fool feels no pain because He is not aware of it".

I am fully aware of who and what I am, an Alpha-male. Some coin us as Dominants but it's a mindset for Myself and it's not ALL about the kink. Within this dynamic I am still a man with all the fears, doubts, dreams and aspirations of most men and I am aware of the world around Me. After dating for a year she asked Me to move in and it seemed prudent for I truly do love her, always will. Then after a business trip overseas she comes back suffering from full blown Menopause, volcanic hot flashes, libido that had moved to another planet and so on.

Prior to all this I was her caretaker before we moved in together due to an operation. I cooked, cleaned, took her to the Doctor, cared for her house, etc...etc. In lieu of intimacy I needed emotional support, verbal love, touching, kissing, something to show Me I was viable as a Man. Being both an artist and a Cancer this dynamic had to happen for My own sanity and self-survival, I even mentioned it countless times until it felt like it was nothing more than rain on a windowpane. I had met her on a Vanilla site (she was aware of My flavor) and in many ways I am a better Man, I only pray I have shown her she is beautiful no matter the few wrinkles, her unforgiving mannerisms and a couple of extra pounds.

Again My own self worth came into play; was I loving enough, was I handsome, am I a good lover or do I repulse her? Every human being unless they're completely clueless has these thoughts, even a Dominant. I have come to terms with My looks, weight (100 lbs less) and My personality. Bottom line is I cheated on her, not physically but emotionally which is JUST as wrong as it is painful. I also realized it still DOES take two to make or break a relationship as she was the catalyst and I was the chemical reaction. One does not happen without the other, life is hard and if it's not given you an epiphany of lately you are as ignorant as the fool who feels no pain.

I am still the fool but I have had My fill of pain, given pain, accepted pain and mutual pain. The difference is that I am not ignorant like the fool, perhaps a bit flighty at times but well aware of the pain. So many people in our lives we have given second chances to, some deserving and others not so much. God has given Me a half dozen chances considering I should have died a half dozen times. That dynamic is between My Creator and Myself...no one else, even My own children have shown Me this along with unconditional love.

"In the land of the blind a One-eyed man could be King" I have one eye open...still. Although My heart hurts badly, hopefully it's on the way to being "perfect" damn it...

Greetings, The following is a disclaimer given the parade of idiots I've had to endure who contacted Me about the possibility of them being My sub/slave.

• The 43 yr. old who wanted to meet so bad only to say she wasn't od the lifestyle.
• A 27 yr. old who's kink is older, tall Doms..we met and was told she isn't ready for it.
• 39 yr. old that I met, got along great only to have her psychoanalyze My reasons.

I'm fed up with the lot of you, move in or marry some redneck that drinks and hopefully beats you in the manner you desire. I understand why a large percentage of Doms and Masters treat women like stupid, sexual cows. No emotions, no connection beyond them servicing their Man or whomever on demand. I've always felt an emotional connection with My girl helps round out the dynamic and I still do.For anyone ELSE that wishes to contact Me? Fucking DO NOT BOTHER unless you KNOW what you want, expect, desire and are able to provide. I have more than enough "friends" Period...Be a better person tomorrow that you were today...this goes to aforementioned three and the others.

Ciao~ MK

 "ANATOMY OF A DECEPTION" 

I was asked some time back to collar a girl here, a local so to speak in Fayetteville NC. I had spoken to her several times and said I don't collar on a whim but said I would "consider her". We met 2 times and discussed life, lifestyle and U/us then I came home to tend to business and received an email a 3 weeks later to find she had been involved with another Dom some time before Me (He was married but would not leave His vanilla wife)

Well as fate would have it His wife passed on and He has MY condolences but He started pursuing her following His wife's demise. My "girl" failed to mention she was under My consideration, so she sold her ass for a 7 day cruise and a promise of being His sub (she had promised to be My SLAVE but there's not any difference between the two...is there?) Note the obvious sarcasm.

 I say goodbye to you, heart, mind and soul. I deserve better than you but unfortunately I see the good in everyone...even in you.

NO honesty, NO HONOR and NO compassion 

Goodbye...I will forgive you, eventually

 Definition of a hypocrite? 

Greetings,

It's been awhile since commenting here as life takes the lead. In My time of being busy with moving, work and My health I have seen many a dear friend tossed aside. What in the world happened to intestinal fortitude, holding Yourself up to a higher standard? It pains Me that so many so called "Doms and Masters" can discount a girl simply by defining her as "property". A commodity to be discounted or traded if it does not perform to standards...bullshit.

This is the reason I choose to "love" My slave or submissive, for within her gift of submission she is far more valuable than mere "property". A gift to be cherished, nurtured, expanded and never taken for granted. Besides this dynamic when you love Your girl and truly know her better than she knows herself there is no better safeword. To move Your girl with a loving look versus a threatening look is always more desirable..threats, punishment and abandonment do not make for a good lesson in behavior modification. So take heart, if you want to be objectified, restrained, humbled and used as your Master sees fit make sure He loves the woman inside the submissive...in turn she will come to love Him. I'll leave you with this quote I found today;

"It's not the critic who counts, not the man who points out how the strong man stumbled, or when the doer of deeds could have done better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena; whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs and comes short again and again; who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions and spends himself in a worth cause; who at the best, knows in the end the triumph of high achievement; and who at the worst if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who know neither victory or defeat."

Theodore Roosevelt

Greetings,

I've often wondered why Men (even Doms and Masters) act the way they do towards a female. Then I got My answer in a profile of all places, I wanted to share the sheer eloquence of this female wordsmith and please overlook the typos as they are the authors:

 I am very out goin. I love goin and haven fun anywhere i go i make it fun. I am not shy bout my sex life. I am easy to get along with. I am into sports and doin alot of outdoors stuff unless its in the room. I know youll like me and i am very picky bout who i hang with or talk to so if i dont like you i will not talk to you.

 WOW...

I know only for Myself I require intelligence in My sub/slave, a ladylike quality that brings mere men to their knees. This is a flashback to a Texas white-trailer trashed redneck that was better left hitting the wall versus the Mothers womb of this incredible creature.

Alas, I accept her stupidity, simple mindedness and cute "whar are my drawers" mentality. Why you may ask besides it's the right thing to do? Simple, she will find another of her kind and quite like some perverted Animal Planet special they will mate...eventually.Thank God for the Ball-gag...now if we could teach them to use contraceptives.

Be good but be better to each other..

MK~

Greetings,

It's been awhile since I've noted anything here, God knows My journals are long winded enough. Funny, when I first joined this site it said "Express your thoughts here"...cool a journal. Being rather pragmatic, compartmentalized and a desire to track My personal growth I thought this was fantastic.

For Myself it has been a learning tool, reflected moments of time that reach far beyond the lifestyle. I've seen and heard wondrous and horrible things in this place and in life. It was imperative I did not give in to the "Kid in a Candy Store" mentality, we've all been witness to it in chat rooms, profiles and emails. What concerned Me most wasn't My ability to share more than My "persona" but the judgements and chastising statements I got from other Doms! WTF?!?

You can take the Dom out of the nilla but you can't take the nilla from a Dom, yea I know... weird euphemism lol. We ALL have opinions and opinions are like vibrators...you keep them to yourself. Hatred or jealousy has no place in here or in the world, I welcome opinions, ideals, thoughts but I do not welcome judgements. Ironic how the ones that scream for understanding and acceptance are the last ones to give it...ok, I'm opinionated out.

I just wanted to share a thought, a passing glimpse that came from inspiration. 

"Do not follow Me blindly because of Title,

Follow Me because I inspire you,

Kneel to Me because you're compelled to,

Submit to Me because you want and desire to."

That's it kids, shows over and try to follow this simple guideline: Be a better person tomorrow than you were today

Ciao~

 Happy Valentines Day to the most amazing creature alive,

For everyday she is in My life I grow, I learn and I thrive.

Blessed to have her in My life, I know would be a delicious twist,

Without the gift of her in My life, My heart would cease to exist..

Happy New Year...

It's been quite some time since I've said anything and this time of year seems appropriate. It's a  little amazing since we were supposed to bite the bullet on Dec. 21, 2012...I for one am happy to be here, even with all the physical trials I've endured as of late.  

Life is precious no matter the life you lead or the path you take, everyday is a blessing. Never let a day slip through your fingers without telling the people close to you how much they mean in Y/your life.

 I strive to be a better Man tomorrow than I was today, there is no reason to be complacent beyond apathy and laziness. Do I always reach My goal? from time to time I do finally reach it. The secret is not giving in after defeat, perseverance, tolerance, understanding and tenacity will get you there..                                  

..eventually.

 Respectfully,

Mister Kingdom

Greetings, 

This goes out to My "REAL" friends on Cm...most are subs, slaves a couple and one or two Doms I have formed a friendship with. My health continues to improve yet the quest to find a slave or submissive get's more convoluted with each attempt. I miss a dear, close friend  phoenix___ whom I was secretly in love with on many levels, then there's My muse (you know who you are) that took a more mmmm Domme path but I love her dearly as well. My sweet simple?...you are on that list of loves and high on My treasured list. There are not many that make this list, some new ones try to talk to Me out of some curiosity but have not sparked My love, I mean My TRUE deep, devoted love that will last an eternity and far beyond this "place".

I've heard many times from Dominants that love has no place in the lifestyle where My response has been diplomatic and polite FUCK YOU "grins politely". I've said it before and I'll say it till God decides to take Me from this planet. Kink is kink, I could be a Mormon slash Jehovah's Witness with a degree in Scientology, a Vanilla redneck (God forbid) OR a "Name-tag" Master and still want to wrap someone in latex, pour hot wax where the sun don't shine, whip em like a redheaded stepchild and leash them to My truck like a hunting dog...

 "Kink does not define, the P/person defines the lifestyle " 

OK, I'm done ranting, I know WHO and WHAT I am...Alpha-male, Master, Dom, Panther,Hunter and Gentleman. It sure would be nice to find the one that can accept all the nuances and complexities that make up "Me". Under this cool, funny, artistic veneer of a ruggedly handsome Man (looks good in type, don't it...lol) UNDER all that most see on the surface is an Enigma...a once in a lifetime experience. I have been all around this beautiful world and seen wondrous, amazing and terrible things...God has granted Me a reprieve at least a half dozen times. I am destined to complete this journey, to share and to love...just like My dearest friends I thank you for expanding My world. I pray in turn I have added something of value to yours as well...

Be good today but be better tomorrow,

MisterKingdom~

       "Have mercy is a soft cry in the dark...

             Take me is a gutteral moan through clenched teeth...

                     Please is a cleansing exhale across her trembling lips.."

Just a passing thought I had..thinking of someone in My life that has come to mean so much to one Master.

MK

Good day, I was cleaning out My personal files of things I've written found and extrapulated on when I found this little ditty. I've read it several times and it has always fascinated Me for it speaks to Me, I hope you enjoy as I have.

The power of submission lies in the ability to kneel for another, to give over one's body or in the wearing of a collar. The power of submission can be found only in the heart of one who gives her love to another freely knowing what joy and pain will from it.

Blessings, MK

Bon Dia, Yasso, Guttentagh, Bon Jour and Hello,

I have been absent from updating My journal as I have been very prolific in the past, using it to reflect, comment and also as a growth tool. If you know Me you also know I want to be a greater sum of a Man and Master than I currently am.

RECENT conversations has caused Me to release My sarcastic nature and for this I humbly apologize. In striving to be a Gentleman Master I am given to bouts of testosterone and a feeling of futility in dealing with jaded, cynical, suspicious, damaged slaves and submissives. Knowing the base nature of most males I do understand, for someone like Myself it is frustrating. God dictates I take the path of least resistance but My personality interferes at times, lol...it is also said to turn the other cheek, just never said how MANY times (or I missed that part).

With all that being said I was reminded (as if I needed it) that I have attained the greatest goal of any Man or Master could EVER hope to achieve. I AM a Father, a proud, patient, loving, firm and protective Father. This far surpasses My position of Master, Man or Gentleman. My lofty claim is solidified by My two loving children who have taught Me as many lessons as I have to them. I have only felt this pride surging through My being by one other I allowed to slip through My fingers...My dorei. I have learned a very important lesson once more and shall NEVER allow the girl that is destined to be My slave slip through My grasp again.

Be good and be good to each other..

MK

Greetings,

Things "feel" better for Me since arriving in Greenville yesterday (I know, ONE whole day). I was inundated with phone calls as news of My presence spread, old friends and friends of friends made Me feel at home again. This has been very hard on Me mentally besides the physical challenges, playing the fool makes you laugh at your own pains and makes everyone around you at ease. My attitude and condition seemed to have taken a miraculous turnaround.

 I've also starting attacking My condition with herbal medicines, My friend and Pastor had the congregation send out a healing prayer (perhaps it was divine intervention) Then again leaving a city where My talents, kindness and loyalty were taken advantage of. Coupled with coming 80 miles north to a place that holds fond memories, best friends and yes, feels like home. All in all I'd have to attribute My turnaround to all these reasons. I want to maintain My faith, heal My body and soul and feel the love of dear friends. I truly feel it's the promise of something bigger with a mate that will enhance, inspire and learn what kind of Master I am as I will enhance, inspire and learn what kind of girl she is in return.

 I only pray if it's meant to be  the circle will be complete one day. Then W/we shall enjoy the physical, mental and spiritual intimacy...and the true feeling of finally being "HOME".

God bless and blessings be,

MK

Good morning,

Unless something drastic changes this will be My last entry before deleting My account. This not apply to a few "real" people on here but this does apply to most everyone who has forgotten the basic manners taught to them by Parents, Teachers or other figures of authority. 

1. If you bother to look at a profile and it speaks to you on some basic level for God sake tell that person. It doesn't have to be drawn out or a flowery email but just a polite note. Affirmation of Ones profile means a lot to it's author, especially if it's from the heart. Hell who doesn't like to hear "you look good" or "that was a great thought".
2. If a person bothers to write you and compliment or comment on your profile or journal at least use the auto-responder to let them know you appreciate, hate, love or feel indifferent about said comment. Mind you there are a few instances where these rules or "manners" would not apply simply for the fact that the person writing is a complete ass-hat.

One thing I found endearing about lifestyle chat rooms was the common courtesy extended to people versus the whining, back-stabbing techniques of vanilla chat rooms. WE as participants are supposed to hold ourselves to a higher standard, that's part of what makes U/us Doms/Masters and subs & slaves. Once more there ARE exceptions to this rule and all of us have met them at one time or another. These exceptions are the posers, wanna-be's, voyeurs and just plain assholes. It shames Me to be associated with people that cannot follow these simple social graces. I do not judge because of your CHOICE of standing be that a lesbian, Dom, sub, sissy-boy, etc. The one person I WILL always judge is a child molester or pedophile, if given the chance I WILL be their JUDGE, JURY and EXECUTIONER. 

My name is Marv, I am Mister Kingdom and I am a Master. Above the name given Me at birth however I AM a GENTLEMAN, this holds more value to Me than any title given by My peers or admirers. God Bless and be good to yourselves but more importantly be good to those around you

Good morning,

It's very hard starting over when your nearing 55 although I feel I'm a young 54 you tend to be considered either out of touch, a relic or overqualified, I am none of those. Now as I prepare for Church I felt it's time to reconnect with My Father and see how My spiritual journey is coming along. As I have said before personal change is important, I realize I can be a better man than how I started and in turn this will make Me a better Master. 

 I stopped actively looking and waited for My one to appear as softly as a sunrise, slowly increasing in intensity, enlightenment and warmth. God has tested My decisions as He will not openly say "This IS the one, go get her!". Instead He places them in My path to see if I've learned anything in making the right choice. Be good to yourself but above all be good to one another,

 Marv (MK)

Good morning,

 It's curious how you find things when your not really looking *smiles*. I pray that all My friends are well as I'm doing good Myself, just very busy lately. I'll take the time to say hello this weekend as My wealth comes not from the number of friends I have but the quality of My friends. Right now I feel very rich indeed, God bless you all.

 Warmly yours,

Marv

Is there ANYONE on this God Forsaken site that is real? or anyone that can be honest? It's no wonder people are as fucked up as they are, I was even told by one sub who I made melt with a comment. I was told that she found Me to be intelligent, passionate, intense, handsome funny and honest. After asking her to meet again she declined saying being with Me was like going out with her BROTHER. A BrotherDom?!?...that IS kinky and illegal in most states. This is yet one more bullshit excuse that tells Me she is not only dishonest but a shitty liar.

Is it the state of Texas that breeds this? God knows what I need in a mate and I trust him to deliver, the waiting continues...

Hello there,

I'm quite pleased I'm not actively looking anymore, it cuts down on a lot of wasted thoughts and effort in talking to so-called "subs and slaves". Recently I've noticed an influx of new users whose profiles are as blank as the look on their faces (if they bother posting a REAL picture).

Secondly are the ones that will look at your profile and don't have the common courtesy of saying "Hello". If I open Cm and a profile catches My eye I will at least make an effort to agree, comment or give a counterpoint...perhaps that's because I don't have that blank look I mentioned before. Mind you this is not ALL of the Lone Star States subs and slaves that do this, just most of the new kinksters, lookers and trollers.

Since My home page is set to local users I'm assuming (not sure if it's true) that Texas women have nothing to say. What a shame to have a state full of beautiful, glassy-eyed, non opinionated women. Then again I'd shudder to think the state is full of illiterate red-necked females that only speak when they hear the pop top of a beer can or a country song. This again is not always true, especially if you make a negative comment about the state then you'd better have a gag and earplugs ready.

Goes to show you all that glitters is not truly gold, just 14K plated pewter (This does not go for those that are in relationships as any Dom or Master would want SOME type of conversation) then again I have met some of the females counterparts.

"Popping open a beer and putting on a country song to see if it acts as a mating call"

God bless and happy trails.

Marv (formerly the artist known as MisterKingdom)

"Rejection is a reminder that you're not as great as you think you are..."  

Hello,

Recently after my health scare I thought I should put "My house in order" so to speak and in doing so made the horrible mistake of posting the death of Mister Kingdom. This epiphany I experienced that caused the profile change has not changed, I do however apologize sincerely if it had upset anyone.

 In the few reactions (I'll elaborate more on that later) I received was a little disappointing. A long time friend (or so I thought) became enraged and never wanted to speak to me again. In doing so I realized I was probably never really her friend, true friends know their counterparts well and love them for all they are...even the stupid parts.

 It is a loss none the less and it saddens me but I forgive her and wish her well. Life after taking off my "Cm label" has not changed who or what I am, still prone to mistakes and doubt but VERY much in control of my life. Yes we all have taskmasters, wives, husbands, children, etc, etc to answer to, I still have control of how I interact and react.

 Over the years my temper has leveled out, being 6'7" and just under 300 pounds is intimidating enough without a temper. Do I still get angry? of course but it's the way I react that has changed, once more being the "Gentleman" I strive to be. This is but a small part of improvements needed, communication and being prompt is another.

 I used to be of the mindset "I'm too old to change so why bother?", which is one piss-poor excuse for bad behavior. I will continue to change these personality quirks as I will continue helping my fellow man/woman in times of need. Do I have endless funds?Hell no. I work as hard as physically possible to support my 2 children, pay a mortgage in NJ and support myself here in Texas.

 These acts of compassion have ranged from pushing a van out of an intersection, giving 5, 10 bucks to someone that needed gas or just helping the old lady carry her overstuffed bags from her trunk to her porch. Small moments of my time and money to make some ones day a little better. Sure some people have offered to pay me back but it wasn't why I do these things.

 Life is complicated, ever changing and unclear, we all plot out a tiny corner of this world to make a "life". In doing so we are faced with crappy jobs, difficult supervisors, stupid drivers and the list is endless. Dealing with fellow "humans" makes this task even more frustrating, which is why I choose to do acts of kindness.

 Yes I have run into "idiots" as they exist everywhere, if I can impart on some knowledge that can improve their persona so be it. Again some people don't want to change for the better so I take the path of least resistance (a lesson I should have embraced long ago)

 I suppose the whole point of this rant is become a bigger part of the picture, impact something positive in some ones life, be kind to those deserving, compassionate to those needing it and be more than what you've been given. All of these are pretty easy...except for the last one.

Perseverance and time will tell though, just don't wait too long like I did.

God Bless

Marv

Upon creating Man God took time to reflect at His creation and exclaimed: "I have created the perfect ASSHOLE!" God knew that Man would not survive an hour on his own so He created woman to be Mans helpmate..

After looking at Man and trying to find the least offensive part, God created woman from a small section of Mans rib. Again God took time to reflect at His creation and exclaimed: "Well shes not a perfect asshole but she's going to be a BITCH to deal with!"

Good morning,

Sleep did not come easily to Me last night, I was blown away by several revelations that are indescribable. My heartbeat quickened, pulse raced and thoughts swirled madly around My mind. And this was a GOOD thing! *Smiling* I feel like someone has breathed life into My dormant, lifeless body...ressurection.

Goodnight Collarme,

MK

Good day everyone,

Next week starts new adventures for Me and some questions have been answered and others yet raised. I do know without compunction that I cannot go back to a vanilla relationship, period. Yes, I do enjoy vanilla distractions because face it people it is the world we have to exist in. And until they develop "Bowling for Bruises" or "Skiing for slaves" I believe we'll just have to make due till then.

 I am still lamenting about leaving Texas, I love this state as it was the birthplace of My Father, Uncles and others long ago. I'm not real happy with what it has become, full of transplants, transients and people that bring their own flavor of where they were from to here. Well kids this IS Texas, people should be kinder and if I see you on the highway and you think that squeezing in front of Me to gain one whole car length is making progress? I will bring a bit of outside flavor to you when I flip you the bird (courtesy of the N.E.)

God bless and goodnight,

MisterKingdom

Good morning,

Having a hard time sleeping, mind is preoccupied but intrigued. I'm happy and My mind is calm at this point, no reflections, no opinions, no epiphanies and no lamenting of things that once were. I like this...

God Bless and enjoy your week

MK

Good morning,

In My last entry I had spoke of My PC going down and wrote something that read: "You do not realize how much you miss something until it is gone as the saying goes. My recent loss of My computer early last week went far beyond My ability to communicate with friends on Collarme. etc...etc..". I still believe this to be true but there's a disturbing trend I've been noticing. I have My Cm homepage set to look at local slaves, subs, women in general just to see what this "Great" state offers.

Now mind you I don't consider Myself handsome by any stretch of the imagination, in the eyes of the beholder and what-not. I am well versed in may subjects considering I've ventured beyond My home counties and state borders. I'm blah, blah, etc, etc...read My profile if it's that intriguing. What I HAVE discovered in My local searches is just plain rude.

Not the way they talk I'm speaking of the way they answer mail!..they DON'T! If someone took the time to write Me I owe them some response but to just delete without reading is just ignorant and rude.

I thought this was a select phenomenon but it turns out the entire state of Texas (at least 90%) are void of the ability to communicate or even possess minimum manners to respond to what I've been told are very in-depth and witty emails. Now there are a RARE few, you know who you are because W/we've spoken and you have shown courtesy, wit, charm and the ability to speak more than two syllable words...as for the rest of you I bothered reaching out to? "Fuck you very much and good luck in procreating within your own bloodlines" Yea I know it doesn't sound very Christian but God didn't create a state of rude, illiterate fools, they just may have migrated here.

MK

Save your hate mail, My whole family was born in East Texas. Yes I'm a Cajun, Coonass, French Indian, call it what you may but I DO have manners and the ability to answer emails, even stupid ones.

Greetings,

You do not realize how much you miss something until it is gone as the saying goes. My recent loss of My computer early last week went far beyond My ability to communicate with friends on Collarme. My PC is also a source of income for My company, a great way to talk to My children on web cam and for word processing, so on and so forth. In it's absence I received an email that posed the question "What makes you say you are damaged goods?  i would like to hear what you have to say about that.  We all have pasts... some good, some bad... but it makes us who we are now" Those that know Me well also know of My loss, My lament and My personal growth. Both before that day and well after I have been very open about the effects it had on Me as Man and Master.

I have had much to think about this past year, My former slave made Me question My "worthiness". Thanks to much soul searching, prayer and time alone the term "damaged goods" no longer applies. I was damaged only in My extended lament over losing her when in fact I do not feel I ever "owned" her to begin with. Things that make up our pasts, what some refer to as baggage do to a degree make up who we are. If we choose to let that baggage control or distort us to the point we cannot move forward I would indeed be damaged goods. In retrospect I allowed this relationship or the dissolving of the relationship control Me. I took stock of the Man whose words you are reading...just who IS Mister Kingdom? I know who the Man is, He is a Father, an artist and good friend to those He extends His friendship to. He is passionate in all that gains His interest, this may be the artist in Him. When I choose to love it's done unconditionally, His devotion goes beyond the positions in life and lifestyle, He enjoys cooking for His mate, gives flowers for no reason beyond showing His love and appreciation. Now Mister Kingdom also shares many of these traits, when I found what "term" there was for My calling, I laughed.

When I explored the lifestyle further it became much clearer, a Master cannot control the world around Him. I CAN control My reactions, decisions and attitudes in this world however. Being a Master (to Me) is more than a title, to Master Ones self is to control what happens in His world. Yes I am still at the mercy of customers, employers and others but My whole demeanor is different now. I had stumbled horribly in the past and let life control Me, now I am proactive versus being reactionary, My thoughts are measured as are My words in certain situations. God helps Me find a center in both worlds of vanilla and BDSM. As far as the sexual aspect those are just kinks, preferences in what One enjoys. The whole TPE is what wets My appetite, to feel spiritually connected to My girl, emotionally and physically. I am sure I don't need to explain this to those that have experienced this phenomenon.  

Life as well as relationships should not be a 50-50 proposition, it's a 100% effort on both sides. Would you want your Sir to only give you 50% of His control, love, interest or effort? I think not because He would want more than 50% of your devotion and attention. Masters, Doms, subs and some slaves work to exist in this vanilla world, making decisions or taking orders depending on their position. However I remain a Master internally in life by maintaining self control and pushing Myself to enhance these qualities. Now onto My girl, I (patiently) seek one that feels Me internally when I'm not there physically, she hears Me when My words are not spoken, a girl that moves without being touched. My scent is in her nostrils, My flavor ever present upon her lips and My hands felt upon her flesh when they are nowhere to be seen. I wish to feel the same about her, soft cries that ring in My heart and mind while she sleeps. The look of wonderment and pride in her eyes when Mine are closed. The softness of her hair on My inner thigh as My hand reaches to hold her when she is not present. I will honor her when we are out enjoying vanilla distractions, My hand in hers or gently but firmly pressed into the small of her back.

Our interactions with each other beckon others to "feel" our collective energy, other couples move closer and more intimate. Men long to have her from the glowing cheeks and the seductive smile that hints at the corners of her mouth, women desire Me from how My actions toward her are that of a Gentleman, lover, friend, confidant and Master. Even most could never fathom the term "Master" finding it demeaning in description but longing for it because of My actions. These are things most of you will recognize or practice, it will seem redundant to some and refreshing to others but it is a continuing journey for Myself. With Gods good graces, lessons learned, loves lost and self improvement I will live the lifestyle, I will not let the lifestyle live Me.

I leave you with My daily prayer, it has bore fruit and blessed Me in ways I'm still discovering. May it do the same for you. If your not a practicing Christian I can respect that and do not wish to force My beliefs on you nor do I care to receive emails chastising Me for entries in MY journal, thank you. 

"Oh that You would bless me indeed,

and enlarge my territory,

that Your hand would be with me,

and that You would keep me from evil" 

Goodnight and God Bless. MK

Readers Digest Version of Past Journals

 1/10.2011

Happy New Year!

Well for the first time in almost 2 years I went back into Cm chat, I had a bit of apprehension in doing so but got over it quickly. I went to a familiar room with old friends who knew Me well and caught up briefly. I was a bit anxious about this since My being thrown out by My former slave, waiting to be chastised on her behalf since she spent countless hours there before Me. Funny, it never came about as questions were asked and answers were open and honest. I was greeted as warmly as I had been in the past with well wishes and several "I'm sorry". I cannot turn My back on this lifestyle due to one bad, confused apple as I am to blame as well.

My lesson learned and My past darkness being resolved I never want to get involved with someone that has a child. When I say child I should say adult due to their age but with the mind of an infant, this is besides the point. I want to thank My old friends for not judging Me as I would not judge them. Seems two-faced that I would judge My former and her "off-spring" but that was real life and I've learned to forgive her and forget her. This attitude took close to a year to resolve since My love for her was so deep and complete. In hindsight she never really loved Me totally and I was nothing more than just "another" Man she felt used by. This is her cross to bare now and has been quickly resolved by dating several men of all lifestlyes, so I'm nothing more (if that) than an after thought. So thank you all for the warm welcomes, thank you for one that listened to Me as My heart healed and offered a pumpkin pie *winks*. 

God Bless, MK

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12/30/2010 

Good afternoon,

I received some news just the other day that was sad and a blessing in disguise. Someone whom I thought was very close to Me died, not in the literal sense but inside of Me. I wasn't quite sure how to interpret this feeling and gave it as much thought as it deserved, which after 15 minutes wasn't much. This "passing" was flaunted in front of My face, almost as a cruel joke but it wasn't aimed at Me at all. Instead it was a reminder that this person was never really in My life to begin with. Mechanical, cold and calculated are what these past thoughts brought forward. I was angered for a moment then laughed out loud realizing the type I was dealing with.

This was the same reason I left the Carolinas and most other southern states because of the sheer ignorance. I'm not saying everyone below the Mason-Dixon line is ignorant but I tend to be a magnet for them. Molested personalities, corrupted ideals of relationships and bearing offspring that would have been better off not knowing at all. I don't like feeling this way but I also don't enjoy being duped by this type, I'm smarter and above that. Just goes to show you love IS blind and at times stupid, it's needless to say but I can SEE clearly again.

God Bless and Happy New Year

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12/27/2010 

Merry Christmas to A/all,

As much commercialism as the season brings I was able to go back to the core of why we celebrate the season. My spiritual journey continues as does My search for the girl who will enhance Me, I used to feel I needed someone to complete Me but know now that is not true. I need to be enhanced, inspired, driven, coaxed and at times pushed. We as humans even those of Us who go by "Masters, Doms & Dommes" need this in our daily lives. To exist is just that...existence, to feel alive We need to "live" in every sense of the word.

Embrace the day no matter how mundane it seems, make it a spectacular day. Embrace the ones you love in every conceivable way, communication, touch or just a knowing look. As My time on this world enters it's second half My only regrets are not letting those close to Me how much they have "enhanced" My life. Now it's My time to enhance theirs, until My time passes. I learned a great lesson at My Fathers passing over 10 years ago amidst much personal loss and pain. Here lies this Man, My Father and My inspiration so still and dormant. After the painful viewing (I had NEVER seen an open casket service prior to this) I did not think I could fathom burying this person I loved so dearly.

I found the strength to be there for My Mother and family and much to My shock was joined by over 100 people I had never met. As they paid their collective respects I was greeted with story after story of how My Father had touched their lives. As the pride of being His Son swelled so did My sorrow for not truly knowing this Man. My wish is to continue what he had done, to touch people in some small way that will enhance their life. For in the end are they not the ones who have enhanced Mine?

God Bless and Happy New Year

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12/15/2010 

I'll be home for Christmas...

Greetings once more My fine humanoids, I'm back from the Reservation in one piece and it was a very interesting trip. I spent 2 weeks in sub-degree temperatures dined with Native Americans on Thanksgiving (the irony was beyond description, lol). Then the trip back only to get sick after being on an over extended flight back home to Texas. That too has passed as I prepare for My next set of travels. I am still on hold for Argentina till next year I think, the boys on the Rez want Me back for a month this time in January. Most importantly of all is My trip to see My children on Jan. 8th. My daughter will turn 12 and My son is well into his second year at college, My soon to be ex has finally agreed to give Me a long awaited divorce.

But this entry concerns being "home" for Christmas, I've decided for now Texas is My home but it still doesn't feel like it. I thank God that I have reconnected with My former slave on a friendship basis but this time last year we celebrated together (Update: Never befriend someone that does not understand the concept) this year will be a bit leaner both physically and emotionally. I have had trouble sleeping as of late and I do not really don't know why. They may be the thoughts of Christmas past, My connection with My faith and My personal issues may be the source. Last night My thoughts were so vivid, so full, so complete and so varied it would boggle the most complex minds.

I decided to get back into My artwork, an expression that helps Me think clearer, calmer and gives resolve. The world around Me can stay accelerated and I will keep to My own pace (as most Masters do anyway, lol) I have got responsibilities that need tending moreso than just "living" week by week or month by month. I am also working on a literary piece, for better or worse this too shall keep My focus. Despite all of this the "lifestyle" still calls to Me, beckons Me and I see Myself being proactive daily in a more controlling and self-confident way. Should I apply these trends towards a sub or slave?...only time will tell as they have very big shoes to fill (so to speak). 

So My fine feathered friends I will close wishing all of you a VERY Merry CHRISTmas (Happy Holidays is such bullshit). Remember why we celebrate the season, I will pay My respects in Church on Christmas Eve so I won't be alone afterall...seems I never was to begin with.

God Bless and be good to and for your P/partners and your fellow man.

MisterKingdom

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11/22/2010  

Just an observation: 

Greetings from snowy Idaho! I had some time and went to check My mail. I saw some new profiles (females) when I logged on and what I'm seeing is a disturbing trend. It appears Cm is getting a large influx of people that have JUST joined that are clueless as to what they want. Most I've read are looking for kinky sex, not realizing that the connection between D/s or M/s goes far beyond that.

Tired of the "status-quo" in a vanilla relationship they seek what they desire (sexually) here instead of talking to their partners concerning their carnal needs. Either that or their respective partners freaked out at the request. I don't believe they could handle a TPE relationship or the fact they would have rules placed on them prior to receiving their "just desserts". Then again there is also an influx of "Doms" that are on the other side of the spectrum as well.

Frustrated Husbands and wives, boyfriends and girlfriends looking to be spanked, restrained, blindfolded, used, slapped, choked or play-raped under the guise of a D/s union. A waste of time for Myself and many others who have lived the lifestyle
Oh well, it's JUST an observation *winking*

God Bless and Happy Thanksgiving from the Reservation

...MK

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11/17/2010 

What a (this) Master wants...
In every aspect of her day she will be aware of Me, I'll fall in love with her intelligence, wit, charm, mannerisms and for many more reasons. I do not need to micromanage her as she is an adult capable of independant thought. What she will find when she accepts My collar and I accept her service is this;

My slave and I will work, we will attend Church together (there lies a whole other discussion, lol) and will enjoy a wide variety of vanilla interests. This however will not affect her mindset of who or what she is.

When we are alone she will be collared (leather) to run round the house naked if desired. My needs will be met totally in every aspect which will give her satisfaction. When in public she will have a "Dress Collar" which no one would suspect holds the same depth of meaning, devotion and ownership.

Being a 24/7 slave means many things to many people, I have seen some on here that think its just a way to subjegate a woman. These individuals can no more control a simple thought let alone a free thinking sub or slave. My control (which is really her gift of submission) will transcend far beyond shackles as it is part of everyday life.

My ideal relationship is based in love, this is perfect for most submissives or slaves, most Doms/Masters (like men) wither away at the thought but they are just "men". Hold true to your convictions or decide to be nothing more than an object. 

I might love My car but I'll love, protect AND cherish My girl..
My car can be replaced or fixed, My girl cannot..
It really is the most amazing dynamic I have ever experienced in My life...

I long for it again.

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11/16/2010   

How does One make ammends when the other refuses to listen?... 

How does One dig deep within Themselves to see the folly of Their ways?...

How does One forgive Himself for losing something so precious?...

One asks God for the "other" refuses to see the clarity of His resolve.

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11/15/2010 

Greetings,

Well it is another day and yet another challenge, I am focused and determined to stay the course God has taken Me on and it has had its own rewards. My heart is healing and the faith in MYSELF to be the better sum of a Man than I once was. I had an interesting weekend, full of emotions, self realizations and sheer joy. My Father made His prescence know to Me again, this came in waves of a powerfull joy and rapture I cannot yet put into words.

My faith has faltered in the past month, losing My residence, My abilities to perform My job and the shame of staying in a shelter for a week. Talk about a stark difference in life it wasn't 3 weeks ago I was in the Hilton in Las Vegas enjoying the accolades of My peers. The following week I was waiting in line at a homeless shelter. Life can change in the blink of an eye, situations are in constant flux no matter if your a man or Master, slave or sub. God has been steering My car (life) since before My trip to Vegas, I have been wanting to grab the wheel when I felt My driving was better than His but I refrained.

In doing so He has shown Me miracles I had always thought of as mass hysteria or hypnosis. My leg is healing nicely although My inability to get to the wound care center is beyond My capabilities. Even the week I spent in a Shelter was a blessing in disguise for it showed Me where I "COULD" have ended up.

 
Finally God had taken the constant pain from losing My slave from My heart, no more tears, no more "what ifs" and no more wanting. If we were meant to be He will make it so, not in My time but His. If we are not meant to be My pain will not be doubled or My abilities put in constant doubt. I've also learned being a "Christian" makes you no better or more compassionate than a heathen.

Like Master, Dom, slave or sub it IS just a title, a ribbon to wear that makes you feel superior to those "non Christians" or "vanilla people". This and other entries are not up for judgement or for stimulating debate. Kink is kink, totally being empowered by your sub or slave is beautiful.

 
"Power corrupts, Absolute power corrupts absolutely"

 
I know this well. With Gods help should I ever be given the gift of submission again I will use My power with His hand on My heart. In turn My submissive will know the power I guide her with is done with conviction, the bonds I restrain her with will be more than mere ribbons...
I thank God for the gifts of incorruptible power.

God Bless

MK

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11/2/2010 

Greetings,
I find it amazing how long it takes to reach a pinnicle in Ones life and how quickly it can disappear. My situation has been controlled by others only because I doubted My own abilities to make a sound, pragmatic decision. I spoke a while back about letting God make those for Me, am I becoming submissive? No, just to My higher power which is the way it's supposed to be. As long as I can stay mentally clear and not focus on past events, past relationships God will answer My prayers.

Once more I've risen from the ashes, I can see light above Me and My relationship with God strengthens. Does this make Me perfect? *chuckling* far from it. What it has done is make Me more focused, driven, humbled and thankfull. The pain I keep is a reminder of a love lost, a time in My life that defined Me and shaped who I will ultimately become. I've stated many times before what I wish to become, a good Father, Christian, Person, Provider and eventually a good Mate.

Which brings Me to something that has been mentioned a couple of times as of late; My "Intensity". I never thought as this "condition" as a hinderence, it has been My saving grace from time to time. It also has been My downfall in relationships and work. Some call it passion, others call it micromanaging, there are dozens of descriptions you could attach to it but I feel "passionate" fits the best. I am a passionate Man, artistically, personally, professionally and Fatherly.

 
"All or nothing" was another description given, this one may not be so complimentary. Over time I have learned to choose My battles, knowing the path of least resistance is a better course at times. Everything is a work in progress, spiritually, personally and professionally. Do I yearn that these traights would have been worked on during My last relationship? of course. She quickly moved on and has found someone that makes her happy, I'm glad she has. I don't feel she will find the intensity or depth of love which is good because she expressed concerns of being able to give back what I was offering.

Each person has personal limitations of what they're willing to give, be it effort, work, ideas or even love. For Myself love is one of those "All or nothing" situations, this too took Me several lessons to learn but they are part of Me now.I'll continue to work on My spiritual journey, improve My current situation and Myself, I just miss having someone to share it with. Achieving goals are good, but to share triumphs with someone you care about deeply or to revel in theirs?... 

It's spiritually satisfying on so many more levels.

God Bless and be well,

MisterKingdom

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10/28/2010   

How does One pick up the threads of an old life?

How does One carry on when in Your heart you begin to understand these IS no going back.

There are some things that time will not mend, some hurts that run TOO deep that have taken hold.

I will not ask that you do not weep, for not all tears are bore from evil...

just from an old life lost. Never to be embraced again...

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10/19/2010  

Hello Everyone,

Back to reality; I've discovered being out in the far reaches of East Texas is no longer the place for Me. It's impossible access to the airport, Doctors offices and civilization. God and Myself have spent alot of time out here interacting (on His terms of course) and it's time for Me to rise again.

My lawyers have been in touch concerning the bicycle accident I was in 3 years ago  I will rely on My own talents and skills and carry on, allowing the Big Guy to drive this time as My own sense of direction hasn't been so keen lately. So off I go...slowly into a new beginning. Wish Me luck?...there is no need but it is appreciated. My concerns are My relationship with God, Myself, My children and eventually when the time is right, My girl. In that order.

Goodbye for now..

Mister Kingdom