MissPandora696

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On Might verses Right:

You've got nothing. Nothing but your bloody knives and your fancy karate gimmicks. We have guns.

No, what you have are bullets, and the hope that when your guns are empty I'm no longer be standing, because if I am you'll all be dead before you've reloaded.

On the Mainstream Mindset:
Normal is not what is Good or Right, only what happens most Often.

On My legacy from the Conservative Point of View:

Let Me be charged with Enthusiastic Corruption of the Public Good.

On Democracy:

People should not be afraid of the Government, the government should be afraid of the People.

On Fear as a Tool:

A Spectacle of Fearsome Acts, is what preserves the Order of Things.

On the dangers of forgetting reverence which is owed to History:

We must avoid clinging to the edifice of a decadent past.

On the Spin Machine:

Our job is to Report the News, not fabricate it; that?s the Governments job.

On the Power of Persuasion:

While the truncheon may be used in lieu of conversation, Words will always retain their Power.

On Identity:

I am no more this face than I am the muscles beneath it, or the bones beneath them.

On Imagination:

Ideas are Bulletproof.

On Perception:

Perception IS Reality. If you think you are a pizza, you are a pizza.

On the Human Condition:

Even though I do not Know you, I Love you.

So often I listen to, read, or talk to submissives and slaves who lament being alone. They expound on the "need" to serve, the "desire" to be owned, and the bereft feelings they endure when they are without a Dominant/Master.

There are whole conversations in fetish groups, support group style gatherings, and seminars at various events dedicated to teaching submissives/slaves how to cope without, search for, or improve their skills for a prospective Dominant/Master.

I empathize with their needs. I sympathise with their desires. I understand the over-whelming longing to belong to someone and be a part of something greater than they are on their own.

One symptom of a lonely and alone (no they are not the same thing) submissive/slave can be seen in the various "i want" postings, emails, and solicitations received on certain websites, such as this one. the emails/messages often start with "i want a..." or "i need a..." or even "would you..." and "could you...". Those emails then go on to extoll a "Do Me" list, or some other form of laundry list containing all the things they are interested in having Me do to them, with them, or for them.

Ready for a shift in perspective?

I think maybe for many who are seeking, it fails to occur to them that a Dominant has a desire to own. That We suffer in Our lonliness just as they do. Because We are to be seen as stoic and strong, dominant in Our own lives in order to be qualified to Dominate someone elses life, and in control of Our environment there seems to be this assumption that We do not suffer for a lack of being served.

I have been witness to Masters with slaves who take them for granted. I have released slaves who refused to develop the ability to put Me first in their consciousness. I have held My friends as they cried over the feeling of loss and grief at being alone when once They were served so wonderfully.

Sometimes, when the chasm looms before Us, We hold on to the slave We have, rather than face the consequences of being alone. Many times Dominants 'settle' for what They have rather than demand what They need.

What are the consequences of being unserved? That is as individual to the Dominant as fingerprints or hair color. For Me... sigh... for Me the weight of being a Mistress is heavy. I require a great deal of control in My life. I am high maintenence and the cost of being alone means there is no one to put Me First in their life. I bear the burden of self realization, having no one to gaze upon Me in adoration. I suffer in that I have no one of whom to be proud, no one to train to fulfill My needs.

I hold back the pressure of My desire on spiritual, physical, and emotional levels. I have learned the hard way that it is better for Me, to walk alone than to suffer to walk behind someone elses needs. I will be First in My life. By My choice alone I will put someone elses desires before My own. That is My choice, those are My needs.

Until then, I will hear the laments of those who seek to be Dominated, but I will also hold close and tight the knowledge that Dominants without slaves suffer in their own right. It is My nature to bear that suffering, rather than to ever settle for being second.

This is info from an old blog. Still, I was interested enough to write it down a year or so ago....

Pain? it's such a mutable and odd thing. Perception being what it is (and YES, if you think you're a pizza then you are a pizza) pain is different for everyone.

So, My brand site hurts. It feels dry, brittle, and rough. I don't mind the pain of it. What I get irritated by is the incidental pain. I love new experiences, I learn so much from them. Now I have learned something about pain and how I experience it. I have learned I am even more of a control freak than I thought I was.

Here's the deal? My tolerance for pain is lowered significantly when something hurts just by existing. If I have control of it, if I *do* something to make it hurt? then I don't feel the pain so intensely. I'm not sure why that is. I have a few theories.

First, pain without some instigation is like Chinese water torture to Me. It's is constant, low level, and indistinct.

Second, there are some chemical reactions that happen in response to a deliberate experience.

So, I go wash the brand, pour peroxide on it, cause it to be in a deliberately painful state... and it feels better. It feels better because I have that little rush of chemical romance in My brain. It feels better because I caused it, controlled it, and own it.