MissOchistic

Female Switch, 44, Anaheim, California

Male Submissive, 48, Collins, Missouri

Male Dominant, 50

For any of you who know my situation, and who have expressed concern, offered your advice or your sympathy, or may merely wonder, I thought I should mention here that things are pretty okay now. I'm returning home in October, with enough savings to get the ball rolling, and a place to stay. Things are definitely looking up. You were all right. (well, except DomiGuy. I am not, nor have I ever been, Nigerian xD) There is always a way out. Also, I do indeed get to bring my dog :)

I found this story and it made me smile, so i'll post it here. (sortof rewrote the rhymes because i can't remember it exactly and have to type it out). The old Dom entered the coffee shop, on a gray and cold November day To answer the call of a young brother Dom and hear what it was he would say. For he had heard through the grapevine of Leather, of relationship and collar, both at risk of being lost. He yearned to help them, Dom and sub, and cared not what might be the cost. They took a table away from the crowd, and their coffee they did accept. The old Dom awaited hearing the story, to see if a young love could be kept. "When we first met", the yound Dom said, "she was obedient and yeilding to my will. She had her faults and so did I, But of us would work to our dreams fulfill. But the one thing I asked of her, she has not changed. Not have I seen an attempt to try. I have ordered her this thing to attend, and yet my wishes she does defy. The time has come to cut my losses, to remove my collar and from her part. Long have I waited for her to submit, now I must remove her from my heart." The old Dom sat and considered these words, before in puzzlement shaking his head. For he knew the woman of which this man spoke, a true submissive, who would go where he led. "I don't understand," said the gray-headed Dom. "In what manner does she you defy? She is not disobedient, unfaithful, or rude. She is as pure as a clear summer sky." The young Dom smiled and began to speak. "We spoke of this, but she brushed it away. Not as a submissive, but as a brat. She has not conformed to me wishes in the least, for still, this woman is fat." The old Dom sat stunned, not believing his ears, for he knew this woman, as a friend. She was a BBW, true, but a true slave as well, Who was proud her knee unto this man bend. "Fat?" said the old and gray haired Dom, hoping his ears had misunderstood. "You would cast her aside without care or regard. because on this promise she could not make good? A woman submissive is a woman who loves, in a special and unending way. Her weight she cannot always form or control, and for this she is forced to pay? You want a model to wear your collar, but it was not to a model your collar you gave. She is what she is, a woman to love, who has found value in being your slave. It is not the flesh a submissive wears that gives to her that most special of worth. It is her love, her passion, her honor, yet all you can see is her girth." "What I want is a worthy woman," said the young Dom. "With an hour glass figure upon which to place my arm. One who will make me the envy of others, one who will bring others to play, like a charm." The old Dom drew a deeo breath; he now understood. "What you want is not a charm, but bait. You would cast out a large woman with an even larger heart, to seek out one you will soon come to hate. Know as you cast away what you have, to seek one who will fade like a forgotten dream, and before you tell this woman who has done you no harm, and before you hear her btrayed and anguished screams, Know that this woman you cast out today, who's service you treat like an old, worn-out shoe, is not unworthy of your collar, my friend. The one unworthy is you." If anyone knows the original author, shoot me a message. :]

I've been wondering for a while now about my total aversion to putting my weight in my profile. I didn't quite know why it was such a horrid thing, but the idea of displaying it just seemed so absurd and socially graceless. I mean, if I'm willing to flaunt my physical flaws here, why not just go all the way with my dirty laundry and tell everyone I loved to be a kitty and be bound, gagged, and whipped?? Oh, right.....then I remembered where and who I am. There is a lot of debate as to whether/why there are more BBW in the BDSM scene then elsewhere. My theory is no, there are not. It's just that in Vanillaland, we are not supposed to have raunchy photos or crazy hot sex. We're supposed to hide and select "Average" and eat pints of ice cream all alone at night. But here, shame is not an issue. The last thing on our minds should be what someone else might think. If we wanted judgment, we would be on HotorNot, amiright? I myself, when asked what type of woman I prefer, see in my mind's eye a thin, slightly curvy beauty. But in practice...all my women but one have been very different from that (and the one that was, was just lousy). One whom I lusted after for the longest time was actually a good bit bigger then I was. Little did I realize that while I might like thin pornography, in real life...I was just a face person ^.^ Everyone has some asset that stands out. Some girls have great tits, some a perfect ass in jeans...mine is my face. And I am just now grasping the idea that when a man does not like my body, it is for the same reasons I do not like certain women; it's not that I'm disgusting or unattractive, merely that they are a [insert other favorite body part here]-man. I am no better or worse than thin girls, only different. My body peaks at the head, where other girls amaze elsewhere. If you are a toned tummy guy, move along, nothing to see here. If you want pretty eyes or thick soft lips, or maybe a great curvy ass, I'm your gal. I have a Master that happens to like this face (no opinion yet on the ass), and is the type of guy that I am pretty convinced will not be running commentary on my wobbly bits in the sack. So I have decided to list my weight, all 164 lbs of it, and if that number makes you cringe, keep walking. I apologise to all BBW here, as I think my hiding and feeling shameful about my body is an insult to anyone with a similar shape, and only contributing to the idea that we're inferior or damaged. More curvy, round, big, sexy women I say! What it ultimately comes down to is...if you care what I look like when you're fucking me, you shouldn't be fucking me in the first place. ~*MissOchistic*~

"i expect a response slave" 1) Don't expect anything. I respond to all messages in kind EXCEPT ones that demand a response. I am a slave. I am not your slave. I neither obey or respect you. Just because you say you are a Dom online does not mean you Dom anyone and everyone. 2) Do not use my title as a derogatory word. I assure you, I am your equal, if not much more. As is clear in this case. No good master would think "slave" is an insult. 3) DIAF.

Heehee...some old man keeps messaging me trying to convince me that his 51 year old dick is what i really need.? Please, people...don't insult my tastes by insisting that i don't know what i like or want, or think that you are going to be Superman and rescue me from my horrible life. There is a reason i am not seeking, and more specifically, there is good reason i am not seeking you.

People...i am not interested in any play with anyone else right now. If you would like to talk or invite me to chat, feel free! But unless you're a fuckwit who can't get anyone to submit to you, don't invite me in and then leave with no word when i say i won't wear my miniskirts for cybering with you. Also, do not email me and expect me to worship the piss you dribble on the seat. Only my Master is special, not anyone online who calls themselves such. If you would like my Yahoo info, get to know me and show me you actually want to talk, and i'll be happy to share. i meet wonderful people online and would be happy to meet you as well, but only if you can show a little respect as a friend. ~*Miss Ochistic*~

I am soo happy. Maybe the happiest I've been since I can remember O.O I'm going to Germany for a week next month...**super shudders of joy** to see Janus and go to an awesome concert. Booked the tickets, got my shit together, no messes or mistakes or any problems. Everything is just happy juice right now. That and..hehe...He called me a "good kitty". That just..X_X. Hits the spot. I haven't been happy in a long time. This was an excellent day.

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