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	About MissNight I now have an opening in My home for a male house mouse. This position comes with a private furnished room, kitchen, laundry privlages, ect... You must have your own transportation. The rent is $400.00 per month. I have a private playroom for U/us to enjoy ourselves. I am a Sadist. I love hurting those who love pain. I respect limits and safewords. I have an Alpha slave who's been with me for 7 years now. Look her up here, her name is MissNightsshelby. If you decide to Msg Me here remember your manners and use full sentences. I do enjoy chatting with intelligent, honest and creative folk, and am happy to correspond with like minded individuals. Should I happen to meet that perfect female sub/slave, WITH HER OWN PLACE TO PLAY/TRAIN, and preferably a pain slut, well who knows, something might develope. It could happen. PLEASE do not assume that if I take an interest in you that it means it will lead to a live in situation; that is not possible due to personal reasons - ask and I'll be happy to explain. I am a Sadist. I enjoy hurting those who enjoy being hurt. If you crave the kiss of the cane and crop, then you know what I mean. Lucky you. I do enjoy correspondence with intelligent individuals, provided that you are able to write in complete sentences, expressing complete thoughts. One line emails will not be answered. If you wish to entice Me, appeal to My largest sexual organ - My brain. Pain is an art, and I love creating new masterpices - or should I say "Mistresspieces!" shelby, or MissNightsshelby as she is also known is My collared girl. She is much beloved by Me, and I could not be prouder or happier than I am now, especially since We are wed for just over 2 years now, together 4 and 1/2. I am one lucky Domme.

So. Nothing like a good humiliation whore. My britbitch, who can be found here on CM under the name femscum43, had an evening of supreme humiliation. First the daffy bitch followed each direction to the letter and made herself up as a clown, white face and all, and wrote the words "cum hole" on her face. Then she wrote "pig fuck whore" on her belly, with an arrow pointing down. Then she ordered a pizza. I'll leave the rest to your imagination, just adding that photos were taken and I'm sure are floating about somehwhere on the net! If the humiliation weren't such a turn on for her that she actually had at least one orgasm during the ordeal, it probably would have been more humiliating, but it was indeed humiliation enough.

We must do that again some time.

Really.

Too funny for words to express.

I got updates on My phone while Christmas shopping and I'm sure people were wondering why I was laughing in the middle of the store for no apparent reason. Then again, perhaps not in this day and age.

If you would like further details and I deem you worthy of them, drop Me a line and I'll share.

Stoopid font didn't print the apostrophes correctly - puzzle it out.

So YIPPEE I'm back online lock up your daughters and oh go ahead your sons too! It was a struggle, a major pain in the ass - I had to actually go out and by the next generation wireless adapter for My network equipment - mysteriously, after loading all the new drivers I "needed" and the SP3 for Windows XP I just "had to have" the old one wouldn't work anymore. And of course the enclosed software didn't work, I had to go to the manufacturer's website and download the most recent version to get the damned thing to work, but work it does and I am back at My desk at long last where I belong, zippity doo dah.

So, an update. Did I mention I got two new tattoos? One on My right ankle that is Marie from the Aristocats (and if you don't know who they are you don't watch enough Disney movies and shame on you) and it says "Pretty Things Make Me Purr..." and the other is on My left shoulder, and has a red rose and a lavender rose, a small pink heart in the center with My initial and shelby's (yes, I know about the relationship curse about tattooing your lover's name or initials on your body - I'm not worried - I laugh in the face of curses - HAHA) and green leaves below. I've always wanted color - I have two other tats, one black line art and the other in grey scale. I just love the color, and I love these tattoos!

In other news, Saturday last, the 20th, was My birthday, and shelby made Me a cake, yum! Yellow cake with chocolate icing and a coconut pecan filling - OMG!!! Then she ordered a small cake - looked like a little hill decorated with vines and flowers with a figurine of Tinkerbell on the top - it was intended to go to the restaurant with mom, shelby and I, but mom pooped out and decided not to go so shelby just gave Me the cake at home. Too cute!!! We had a fabulous meal - almost too good - I ate WAY too much! - and then We went to see "Unstoppable" - a great flick - I wish it had been longer, but hey, a runaway train movie can only end in one of two ways, right? Anyway, I give it two thumbs up.

It's going to be a quiet Thanksgiving here for a change - I can hardly call Our turkey a turkey - at 11 1/2 pounds it's more like an overgrown chicken! But it will be nice to have a quiet holiday for a change, without wondering if We need to wash silverware in the middle of the day because We've run out of clean and more people are showing up.....

To A/all of My friends her at CM, I am truly thankful for Y/you A/all, Y/you've gotten Me through some rough patches and I truly appreciate Y/you O/one and A/all.

Be well, count Y/your blessings, and have a wonderful Thanksgiving. If you have noone to celebrate with, go volunteer someplace, willing hands are always appreciated and it will fill your heart.

Blessed be.

MN

For A/anyone who's missing Me, just so y'all know My pc had a meltdown and I have no internet access on it at this time. The laptop I'm using has a nasty habit of shutting itself off without warning and I never know what's going to get through and what's not. Please be patient. If you already have My yahhoo, you'll see Me as mobile, and I will get your messages on My phone and do My best to answer as time and circumstances allow.

Thanks

MN

My shelby comes home today from a week's stay with relatives in Iowa and I couldn't be more excited - I just wish I could greet her home with a good flogging - she is so different from My other subs, she is triggered by different methods, leather on her back is guaranteed to bring her to the same places that pissy panties or a beaten cock takes them. What a variety I have to play with, it's very refreshing!

But i will have to wait for My flogging and spanking for shelby, as mom is here and it's a little hard to explain the noise.... she's not completely deaf! But the next time she gets her hair done..... I'll have a acouple of hours to work on shelby and I'll not let them go to waste, that is a certainty! Floggers and paddles and crops oh My!

Shelby My love always first in My heart, My thoughts, My everything. I do love you so.

My brit painslut - susan - has now a new assignment - each evening she pisses her panties, over a bowl, and then soaks them, drinks up the remaining piss, and wears the panties on her head like a head/facemask to bed. Wat a pathetic whore she is becoming! I love it in her, and she revels in it. I've had to give her a couple of days off, as her last assignment, bulldog clips on her pussy lips with a chain attached all day was such a success.... she chose to remove them by standing on the chain and standing up. What a good little pain whore. She just adores the humiliation so I will chronicle it here for A/all to see as I know it will excite her no end. A shame all the idiots on here forced her to take her profile down, they just poured so much vitriol into her mailbox that it was necessary. Humiliation is one thing, hate mail another. Learn the difference, folks.

Oh, and sometimes those same panties are used for a gag if I decide she needs one when I am using her before she leaves for work in the morning.

A Domme's work is never done!

To brand or not to brand - that is the question. sitis is very dedicated, especially for one so far away and one I will likely never see in person. What if he is claimed by a local Domme? Will She resent My marks upon him? One would hope not - after all I'm not burning My name and address into the man's flesh, nerely a respresentation, in this case a Star, indicating Night. He is eager for it, and I am seriously concidering it. My issue is he wants to do it in a place that will be in plain view to one and all - to be visible at all times, not a discreet branding as most are, but a blatant branding. Thoughts? Comments? I invite feedback on this.

I've gone and done something I thought - actually I swore I would never do again. I've taken a male sub. He's an online sub but will be permanently marked as Mine very soon. He is also very much a pain slut and enjoys what I have him do for Me.... the lovely noises he makes for Me while hurting himself for Me are pure music to My ears. He is known here on CM as sitis and You should feel free to message him and tell him what a pathetic pain slut he is. I'm sure it will brighten his day no end.

My lovely pain pig slut in the UK is concidered to be under My collar, and I am pleased by this. I enjoy the times We spend together, exploring her pain, and her humiliation; she is so obedient and willing. I won't go into her humiliation here, althoug I'm certain she would enjoy that, but suffice it to say that she definitely needs a shower each morning!

My beloved shelby has created a new profile here on CM, MissNightsShelby, and I'm just pleased as punch. I hope she makes lots of new friends, she's a gregarious soul and enjoys the give and take of a lively correspondence as much as I do. I've met so many interesting people here - the pain slut I am playing with over in the UK, the young girl I'm introducing to submission in the Midwest, and most importantly, My very own shelby. Bless CM for that!

I could not be prouder of her if I tried, she's worked so hard to achieve her goals over the last couple of years, even with the challenges that have come her way, and has risen above them beautifully. She is My center, and I don't know what I'd do without her - I hope I never have to find out.

Here's to you, shelby, My love, My beloved, My best girl, My Alpha, My One.

I'm amazed at the number of "submissive" girls who just want to be told what a Dom/Domme will do to them so that they can be "turned on" - what's the pay off for the Domme here? I always wonder about that. I resent being expected to basically provide free cyber sex to a sub with nothing in return. I do all the work, they get their rocks off and I'm left holding..... My keyboard?? Puh-leez!

And the hits just keep on a-comin' Ladies and Gents! Te AC has once again taken a crap, as it were, and they can't get out to Me until tomorrow morning, so it's 85 and climbing in My house, doesn't sound bad, but it could get a lot worse. Hopefully if We keep the doors shut and the windows covered it won't get too bad. We'll see what tomorrow brings. Just a little break? Huh? Just a little one?

Ok so it rained a little harder.... First My shelby landed back in the hospital - severe dehydration again - if they could just figure out what's wrong with her stomache all this would stop for cryin out loud... damn doctors.... I feel like I need to wwrite to Mystery Diagnosis and get her on the show so We can get her the help she needs... they just shrug and look mystified. While she was in, the AC at the house decided to take a break as it were, and $414 later it's up and running again, and that's after My discount. Hooray. I swear, the summers here are going to be the death of Me yet - no way to live without AC, especially with My 70 y.o. mom in the house, I just can't put her through that! Not to mention what it does to the rest of Us! So I grit My teeth and try to figure out how manymore months it's going to take Me to pay off the credit card now. *SIGH* Thank all the little gods for plastic. Don't know what I'd do without it. We got a solar hot water system and had the air ducts sealed through this program that's partially funded by the government and the utility companies, and I'm supposed to be getting rebate checks from them to help pay for it, but so far I've just gotten the bill, and no checks. Thanks, guys. Go ahead, take your time, no really... We don't need to eat this month. If it isn't one thing it's ten others. BUT. We shall perservere. We always do, We will again. Somehow, some way. We are made of sterner stuff than that. That's what made it possible for My great grandparents to come into Arizona Territory in covered wagons and settle at the turn of the century, by golly, and I can do it too. Different challenges, same gene pool. So bring on the rain, I was thirsty anyway.

Thanks to A/all who've sent words of sympathy and encouragement regarding My vehicular issues... things will get better, I know.... le sigh.

It never rains but it pours.... I need a sugar Daddy!!!

Not only did the Truck break down and need a new fuel pump assembly (pump, float, filter, etc) costing Me right around $600 with labor and all, but the other car needs a whole new A/C unit, because you can't just repace the compressor anymore, as metal shavings get into the system and if you just replace the compressor, you end up needing a new one in another three months or so so what's the ooint?? And THAT, My friends, will cost Me another $1,000 cold cash, no pun intended. My dad always told Me you never own a car, it owns you, and boy oh boy was he right.

*SIGH*

I just hope that these repairs will be the last for a while. At least I have an honest mechanic, who looked over the rest of the truck and said, everything else looks ok, unlike the the theives at Midas who had a laundry list of things they said were wrong and wanted to saok Me for $2000 and that didn't include the fuel pump. Caveat Emptor indeed! *sigh* and new tires for the car just around the corner... at least they aren't as expensive as tires for the truck - My lord are those expensive! All in the name of keeping us on the road. It wouldn't be so bad - I know some of Y/you are thinking "why get the A/C replaced?" Well it's Arizona, Y/you see, and in a little car like that A/C is the only thing that makes driving it bearable. Otherwise it's like driving a convection oven around. Honestly! A person can get heat stroke. Rule #1 around here is never leave the house without a mug of ice water.

Well, self pity session is ended.

***SIGH***

So I just came home yesterday from five days in the hospital... Friday I woke up and My right earlobe was swollen, and the node in My neck just below, and tender. By 5 p.m. My ear was swollen so big it looked, I was told, like "claymation" - an apt description after I saw the photo. The floks at the hospital definitely were not happy with the speed at which the swelling had progressed, and by the time I got there I was running a fever of 102.4 which over the next couple of hours went up to 103.6. A ct scan revealed there was no infection in the mastoid bone (yay) but they decided I needed to be in the hospital at least overnight while they gave Me IV antibiotics - which turned into four more days of around the clock antibiotics and the skin on the top of My ear started to split before the swelling went down. The fever they got under control, but actually put ice packs under My arms to aid in that endeavor - brrrrr! (Besides making Me and the bed all damp and not in a good way.) So they ended up calling it "cellulitis" which basically means an infection in the cells - how discerning. Now I'm home, on another 10 days of antibiotics, salve on My ear, and can at least sleep through the night instead of being woken up at 4,6 and 8 a.m. for this and that. Thank goodness I was in a good hospital, and I lucked out in having a doctor with a sense of humor. All's well that ends well, but poor shelby was run off her feet with having to be home to look after her 5 y.o. granddaughter part of the time, then back to the hospital to be with Me, sleeping in that dreadful chair, and generally being the wonderful woman that she is, and well as My best girl.

Today is the fourth anniversary of the day that My shelby and I met in person for the very first time.

Four years - it seems like so much longer, in the best possible sense - it seems as if she has been a part of My life forever, but that is because she should have been. If it weren't for the fact that Our lives had to happen the way they did in order for Us to come together the way We did, I would wish Us together from infancy. The sad truth is, without the trials and tribulations that both of Us, she especially, have suffered, We would not be the people that We are today, and would not share the deep and abiding trust and love that We do.

Happy anniversary, My dearest love and best girl, know that you are the other half of My heart, and the light in My life. My world would be a cold dark place without you in it.

How embarassing - I mean really - how embarassing - a moment of pure insanity - I never take online subs and there is a reason for it! I don't know what posessed Me, I truly don't.

My apologies to A/all who know Me. Truly, I apologize for such foolishness.

well, slavetoHerwill has found herself a new Mistress already and is moving cross country to be owned and and and....

Good riddance to bad rubbish!

I already regret collaring this sub - she has turned into a giant headache and I am ready to give it all up and go back to the real thing exclusively where My phone does not blow up with whiny texts, My orders are not ignored and I don't get pissy IMs all the time.

Infants belong in the nursery.

well, I've done something I haven't done in a very very long time.... I've taken an online sub. Herlittleslave is now under My collar and under My protection. she's a sweet thing, willing and eager, and I'm looking forward to seeing where I can take her.

My Girl gave me this...

Because You Loved Me

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

Happy Valentine's Day to A/all and Sundry....

Tonight shelby and I had dinner at a place called Uncle Sal's - a nice little Italian restaurant situated in the plaza at the corner of Hayden Road and Osborn, for those of Y/you who happen to live in the Valley and are in search of a new place to eat. It's a little pricey - We had an appetizer, a medium priced entree each and a glass of wine each, and our bill ran just under $65, as an example. Trust Me when I say the food and service were well worth the price.

The appetizer was Portobello mushrooms in a gorgonzola cheese sauce with walnuts, a surprisingly tasty combination - the sauce was delectable, and the walnuts added a fresh, crisp top note to the meatiness of the portabellas. I recommend it highly. I did manage to stop Myself from licking the plate, but it was a close call.

I had the veal scapariella, a dish I highly recommend. The white wine sauce, mushrooms, garlic and tomatoes were a perfect foil for the veal, which was moist and tender, and breaded lightly, so that it did not become soggy, something I cannot abide. It came with a side of young green beans which were sautéed with onion, and a small dish of ziti in marinara - yum! The house Chianti was nice - I'm no wine expert, but it went well with everything I ate.

shelby had the shrimp and scallops Antoinette, a pasta dish of linguini with garlic, artichoke hearts, capers, roasted red peppers and black olives to compliment the shrimp and scallops. shelby says that the linguini was cooked perfectly, not sticky, not overdone, and that all of the individual flavors came through in the dish, each component cooked to perfection. She says she would give the dish an 8 on a scale of 1 to 10. Not bad.

The atmosphere was very pleasant, the restaurant is built so that it seems cozy no matter where you are seated, with its attractive green and white checked tablecloths, wooden salt shakers and pepper grinders at each table, and simple but attractive white dinnerware and classic stemware. The only negative thing We really experienced was that the cutlery just wasn't up to par with the rest of the restaurant... knives not quite sharp enough, forks a little flimsy, etc.

Unfortunately, We were in a bit of a time crunch and were unable to stay for coffee and dessert, though the desserts I saw being delivered to other tables looked tempting to say the least.

All in all, I'd rate Uncle Sal's at **** and next time I go will be sure to leave Myself plenty of time to enjoy the entire dining experience.

Tonight was a very special night - shellbylea is under My collar once more, and it was a lovely night all around. I must admit, I did shed a tear or two when I spoke the words and placed the cuffs and collar on her, binding her to Me again, bringing her closer to My heart than ever before. We celebrated with an evening of floggers and paddles - and what an evening it was! That little red paddle I bought at the Fetish Ball in February is a favorite of hers and Mine now, and I foresee it being used again and again! I love you, My sweet girl, more than ever, and will love you even more tomorrow than I do today.

And so life goes - another day, another plumbing challenge. Honestly, I have to say, I could find bad things to harp about, but the good outweighs the bad by the ton, and I am a happy Woman, no doubt about it. My love grows each day, like the little gardens she plants for Me in My yard, like the first tomato she so proudly brought Me from her plant... which We shared - did you know that tomatos are sometimes called love apples? She is My all, My breath, the light that shines upon My face.

It feels so wonderful to be able to love unreservedly and to be loved in return.

I got a one (misspelled) word email, apparently becuase of My updated profile.

I've tried to be nice about it, fellas, but you just don't listen. Hence, the blunt honesty.

Deal.

Another long delay between entries. We've finally picked a date, and will be wed in mid August - yes, in the midst of the most miserable heat the Valley has to offer, We will pledge Our eternal love and devotion. We must really mean it.

Last night.... My love is sweet upon My tongue and fills My senses and is My every delight... I wonder does she even realize this... how I love her, how I adore her, how she is, in those moments, My entire Universe. Her velvety skin, her scent, her sighs of completion are My earth and sky at night, and only make Me love her all the more when I look at her again in the day and remember.

I love you, shelby.

On a whim, Shelby and I went shopping today, and each of Us found a dress that We will wear for the wedding! Cool summer frocks, light cotton, and all in black and white - I guess We'll have to do colored flowers to add a splash of vividness. A whim turned into something great!

Oh dear, didn't realize how long it had been since I posted. I "graduated" from Physical Therapy on Thursday, a bittersweet moment as I really enjoyed going, but am happy to be - yes, dare I say it - HEALED!!!!!! At long last I feel as if I can pick up a whip/flogger/cane/crop and swing it with confidence, knowing that I'll be able to go more than five minutes without pain. Yay. Just yay. It's been a long time coming. Two years, in fact. That's the lesson for today, kids and kiddettes, Doms and Dommes, and it applies to EVERYTHING in life - address problems early, and they are easy to solve - the longer you wait, the more healing time will be required and the more extreme the measures will be required to fix them. Now here's hoping I remember My own advice.

Physical Therapy continues to go well, they keep pushing Me and I push back by doing everything they ask of Me and doing it well. I admit I've been slacking off on the home exercises but will be getting back into the swing of those... I only have a few sessions left at PT and want to keep conditioning the muscles in My shoulder so that I can once again weild a whip with AUTHORITY! LOL

My Ortho says that three more months and I will be completely pain free... I'm hoping it will be less - I've been ahead of the curve on everything else, so why not that too?

My love will be here soon, cannot be soon enough for Me! Each day I wait for her return, eagerly and with a thousand kisses..........

Still a happy camper, this has to be a record for Me. Things are going ridiculously well. We went to lake yesterday and had a picnic. It was a little breezy but swimsuits in March? There is an upside to living in Arizona after all! She looked like an Odalisque......

Ok so happiest Woman possible risht now.... not only do I have the woman I love beside Me, but she is to be My bride as well!

I could not be happier..... well, unless the winning Powerball ticket were to fall into My lap too, I suppose!

Makes up for 3 out of 4 days of rain in California, though there were some lovely moments as well.....

Can?t Go Back

2/15/08

Can?t go back

There?s no second chances

Only looking back

There?s only second glances

Wishing things had ended better

Wishing won?t make it so

Wondering when it all went so wrong

Wondering why things had to go that way

Can?t go back

There?s no second chances

Only looking back

There?s only second glances

Loving?s hard enough day to day

Loving?s not enough year to year it seems

Learning to late that lesson time and again

Learning that he?s never the man of your dreams

Can?t go back

There?s no second chances

Only looking back

There?s only second glances

Trying to hold the faith

Trying to believe that it?s true

Hoping that just once

Hoping it can happen to you

Can?t go back

There?s no second chances

Only looking back

There?s only second glances

The Fetish Ball was a good time - especially made so by the company I kept - thank you, My dearest of loves....

And a Happy Valentine's Day to All and all!

This week is better than last week, and next week will be even better - I'm determined to make it so.

It's the little rituals, like Friday night tv, that I miss....

Every once in a while life throws something at you - or rather, you see what life's thrown at someone else and you realize - things just aren't all that bad. Life is going to go on, men (and women for that matter) will come and go, and still, life will conitnue to plod along. All we can really do is seek out the small beauties, notice them along the way, and acknowledge them for what they are - blessings.

Blessings to all - and don't forget to look for beauty in your day.

Looks as if there is light at the end of the tunnel after all. After spending a few days feeling as if I'd been tossed out like so much trash (he returned everything and kept not so much as a photo) I've decided that it's just as well - there are things he can never give back that will always remind him of Me... "Fat Bottomed Girls" by Queen for instance - it's always going to be Me he thinks of, and that's good.

And I am fortunate enough to be being wooed - that's right, wooed! - by a very tender and sweet man right now, who writes Me the lovliest letters, which I wait for with baited breath each day.... what a lovely feeling! Thank You, Mark.

I was told recently by a "sub" that I am not a "real" Sadist because a "real" Sadist takes pleasure in the fact that the person on whom He or She inflicts pain does NOT enjoy it.

I say there are variations to everything - this is My particular brand of Sadism, and if you do not subscribe to the theory, then please, move along, nothing to see, thank you very much....

Is ever a tear the last
never to be shed again
is ever a memory softened
enough by time
to batter the soul no more
but to rather be a sad
memento of the past

What though the radiance which was once so bright

Be now forever taken from my sight

Though nothing can bring back the hour

Of splendour in the grass, of glory in the flower;

We will grieve not, rather find

Strength in what remains behind.

--Wordsworth

Breathe.......................................

Breathe.........................................

Breathe................................................

OK I'm having trouble getting past this sorrow and now there is anger leaking in..... and I hate it. I am afraid I'm starting to take it out on others, and I hate that - they don't deserve it, and it only damages the relationships I have left - and if I ruin those, what will I have left? Nothing but a pile of self-hatred and recrimination. Wonderful. More grist for the depression mill.

I fail to understand why anyone would (a) doubt My femininity and (b) demand to see Me on a Webcam to prove it and then (c) drop the conversation as if I were poison - what did she expect to see, a Domme in full gear?? And tell Me, is there ANYTHING in My profile to suggest that I am seeking a bevy of slaveboys to grovel at My feet? Answer: NO! I am not seeking anything but a little intelligent conversation - is that so difficult to understand? Apparently it is. Rant Complete.

deleted the entry about My breakup - don't know why- except that I'm trying to move past it I suppose - I did it without thinking - just click click and it was gone. Six years is a lot of time to try and put behind Me in just a few days, and thankfully I have people to love and support Me while I try to figure this whole thing out. Thank you all.

Ok so not feeling so dark and hopeless any more, for which I am grateful. It's funny how the anticipation of potential conflict with someone whose opinion I value, who I esteem greatly, who I love, can cause Me to lose so mush of Myself. Thankfully, I have had a chance to re-ground (is that a word?) and take stock and recall that I am a person of value and merit, and that just because another finds fault with Me does not automatically mean I am guilty of anything.

Shelby, My love, My lovely, I hope your weekend is as wonderful as last night was, and that you return to Me on wings of light. Hurry home - I miss you already!

Dark days come
seemingly without end
no ray of light to be found

Bright days will follow
enlightenment will be seen
the intellect tells Me

Can I wait for them
or will this be the dark day
the day without end

The dark day that ends
in only night
only night for all time

OK so someone evidently doesn't like My profile and "reported" it - eek! Oh well.... I can journal again, so it can't have been all that bad. Another day of PT, another new exercise added - little itty bitty barbells - they are soooo cute! And HOMEWORK! Now I have exercises to do at home on My off days as well! Hey, if it means that I can swing a cane and a flogger all that much sooner, I'm all for it. A little stiff today, but that's ok. I'll work through it. Saw "I Am Legend" and My respect for Will Smith as an actor went up yet another notch. He impresses Me so much, grows as an actor every year.

the day after My first day of strengthening exercises at PT and I'm feeling good - My therapist thought I might need an ice pack last night, but nope, I just didn't have that much discomfort - the healing process is going so well, I'm almost afraid to be so optomistic, afraid I'll jinx it. Now the only question that remains is, how long until I can handle crutches so I can have the foot surgery I so badly need, and will I have time to play in between or am I destined to be whipless the rest of the year?!?!?!?! Say it ain't so! I miss the feel of the crop and the cane in My hand, the swish-whoosh through the air, the gasp of a sub under their strokes. *SIGH*

Trying to learn to "live in the moment" better. Since My shoulder surgery in late November, I've learned a real lesson in patience. Not being able to swing a whip, flogger, paddle, crop or cane has been frustrating, but I know that eventually I'll be the better for it and the pain I had before will be no more. I start strengthening exercises (no more isometrics) tomorrow in physical therapy, and My therapist has been so pleased all along with My progress that I am nothing if not encouraged. I hope that 2008 will be a real banner year - 2007 was a year to remember, that's for certain, but this year I am full of renewed energy and faith and hope.

So what happens when a sub is no longer a sub (at least, not to Me) but is still part of One's life - an important part, at that? It's a new day, that's for sure. I love you, girl, you know that. I still feel sometimes like I'd like to tie you up and have My way with you, but that's just sex, not anything else, not LIFE. I guess that's where the difference comes. I don't know when I stopped seeing you as a sub/slave and started looking at you through the eyes of love, but it changed everything, and almost ruined it all - and love's not supposed to do that. I hope We find our way, together....

Ancora Imparo

Well, it is official. I am now 45 years of age, and have learned another years worth of lessons. Some have been good, some bad, some I hope I never have to repeat, most I hope I remember forever. Happy Birthday to Me.

Had a great time tonight - took My shelby with Me, and met with a genuine masochist - so rare, so very rare, and truly to be treasured. He gratefully accepted all I had to give, and thanked Me each step of the way...... it was a true delight - I only wish I could post ALL of the photos here, however............

Wow. It's been quite some time since I did a cam session with anyione at all, but this sub - I've found Myself a genuine pain slut. he got an enormous erection when his balls were covered in doll clothespins and he had a ball stretcher parachute on over that with two half-pound fishing weights attached. And SO obedient. *sigh* Happy Ma'am. he was even allowed to cum. Happy subbie.

So all of the new interest has been very nice, to say the least - be aware, it is one of My rules that I do not play at My home, I have My reasons - that's My private space. If you cannot deal with that, well, I guess you'll just have to move along. And no, I don't have a web cam - at least, not yet.

have added some new photos - even some for you foot fetishists - enjoy!

"Ah! She is magnificent! Her stride is the lightening striking. In Her right hand is a sword of flame, in Her left the goad of pain. Her voice is the shriek of the North Wind. In Her eyes flash comets, portents of wonder. Between Her thighs is the road to Paradise. i look upon Her and my strength rises, yet i rage without fulfillment."

Well. A new chapter begun, and lots of fun. I've discovered some new things about Myself, and about My shelby, and they have led to a deeper an more abiding love between us. My love Master Mike is as always there to support and love us both, a treasure to be sure, and this was a very enlightening weekend.
Right, baby girl?

I am a very happy Domme.

That;s just all there is to it. I have not only the love of My life in Master Mike, My partner, My best friend, My other half, but now I have taken shelby as My own - collared, a member of My Household, and living in My home. I always knew that I would find this eventually, but I never imagined it would happen this soon - I must have done something right..... Life just doesn't get much better than this...... well, except for winning the Powerball, which should be next.

With many thanks to the author, Ms. Carol King:

"My life has been a tapestry of rich and royal hue;
An ever-lasting vision of the Ever-changing view. A wondrous woven magic in bits of blue and gold - a Tapestry to feel and see, impossible to hold."

The threads of circumstance that have led to this point, this extraordinary point in My life are many, some tangled, some smooth, some slender and fragile, some, silken cords as strong as chains of steel.

All I can say is it looks as if Karma is giving Me a break, perhaps as a reward for the efforts I have made on behalf of others in the last few years, and especially in the last few months.

If I can pinpoint the cause and bottle it for sale, drinks are on Me.

Met a genuinely interesting submissive, one of the few I felt inclined to have a conversation with that did not include styles of punishment. Not that punishment and other delights were not discussed, just that I could chat with her about other things as well. Very refreshing.

I'm SO looking forward to meeting this one......

My goodness, it has been a while, hasn't it?

Life's funny, and people are even funnier. I've been through a whole herd of poser and pseudo-subbies in the last year or so, and hope to at last discovered one or two female subs who may actually be worth the effort of getting to know.

Pain, pain, pain, is there anything more, liberating? Is there anything that reveals more about the truth of a slave's submission faster? I think not.

To those who crave it, I will be waiting......

To those who cannot seem to live without it, I shall send it home with you.

I've kicked most of the subby boys to the curb - I'm just not interested in meeting their demands, especially since most don't seem to get the whole "Who's demands are the priority here anyway" thing.

Moost of all, I still seek a female submissive to work with, to mold, to train, to teach the beauty of submission to.

Is is really so much to ask???

An online journal - hmmmm.

I now have 8 boy subs all wanting My time and attention - I hd to start keeping notes and a calendar!

Still waiting to find that female sub who wants to experience the euphoria that reaching new limits can bring.

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