MissBlueangel

I cant wait till the weekend....excited to see the family.

Will miss R tho...a lot.

My new corsets arrived, they are gorgeous. Just have to get into them.

First attempt was an epic fail.....

Im new to proper ones and tbh not sure if 'we' are going to get on.

Master is so good to me.

I also got a new collar....its handmade purple leather...and it has my name on it in big metal letters...and I love it so much.

Thank you Evil :)

You dont always suit your name 

Looking forward to saturday night.

Mmmm lots of hurty things to play with ;)

Strength isnt about what you handle before you break...

Its about what you can handle after you break

Now thats what I call a well organised party.

NE England does it best ;)

Party time tonight :))

To the ugly Canadian woman who sent me an abusive message yesterday then blocked me ( how brave )

You must be really into me to know I change my profile.....and it goes without saying totally jealous.

Firstly...learn to read English

Secondly....get a life....

I have been told Im full of shit.....well after food poisoning from a burger on Tuesday....Im here to tell you.......

Im not now :((

Been cheered up by my daughter who is learning to cook at 28 ???

Asparagus.....I told her to bend it and where it snaps thats the bit you throw away......Hmmm, yep...so she has just thrown away the tops of a huge bunch #epicfail

Vintage always is better...French violet wand circa 1930.....I tried the rest....today I tried the best.

Wand + Owner #simplythebest 

My love affair with Cadbury fruit and nut, officially ended today.

Sorry but your dumped.

Thank you for that.....sticky where a person should never be ;))

What is it about today on CM

I have seen about 5 bestiality pics already.

Sick f*****s is all I can say.

Ahhhh.....sun is shining today and Aasha is feeling pretty damn good and a teeny bit smug also

:))

Just want to thank everyone who I used to chat to for being so sweet. Cheers :))

Today wasnt the best of days.

:(

Friday was deliciously dirty with Master R.

The rarity of sun where we live...meant sex in the garden seemed impossible to resist.....so we didn't.

So intense was it that we failed to hear the arrival of number one daughter...who didnt announce her arrival yet got a bloody good eyeful.

Im not sure at 27...social services need bringing into things but seeing your mother getting  a .........

well 

use your imagination

Not good.

:(

Master R...your igenuity is a revelation.

Thank god Im a slippery bugger lol...or it would have been #awkward :))

Just call me Houdinni 

Lovely weekend with family....and a new 'do' .....triffic.

Nice to be back home tho :)

Banned from the forums on another site for stating a view....we need to take a look over here at how debate is carried out.

Numptys lol :))

Well since Im a member of the wide awake club I will add to my journal.

Monday was a good day (apart from the food :)

Master R and i met with two lovely people, for lunch.

Master knew them previosly and thought i might like the gorgeous S :)

He was correct ( as always )...they are great people and she and i got on like a house on fire.

Being only human...as i am....i took her to bed and showed her some lady loving.

She liked :))....a lot !!!

So thank you Master R...i think its the start of great fun for all of us <3

Hmmm... I seem to have mood poisoning.....

Must be something I hate 

Although the weekend got of to a rocky start ...( I really need to think before I act or speak...my filter is broken)....it ended up brilliant.

What a good time we had.....except the food.

Jeez it was crapola.

How can a 'posh' Hotel even get fries wrong.

No !  they are not ment  to be cold...hard and dry.

But in true Brit fashion; when asked if we enjoyed our meal....what did we say ???

Yep....'lovely thank you' :p  and mumble among ourselves how bad it was lol 

It would seem Im in the dog house :(

Sorry I am x

Now I know why I have always loved you Master R.

What a lovely day ....

Had a great weekend, went to a party on Saturday which was good.

MR got some ideas for furniture too.;)

Yesterday was a little spring clean time....all good 

To the woman who said getting back with an 'ex' is like "taking a shower and putting dirty underwear back on"

I suppose it depends on the why and how of the breakup.

In my experience its better than before (if thats possible).

But then Master R was never just Master.

There is much more than a one dimensional dynamic.

Im loving it :)

My smile is on holiday today :(

Sad day 

Evil, Evil...Evil

Just saying ;)

Imagine corrupting a Blueangel 

#excellentfind

I got me a nice new microwave from the tip....result :))

Scrubbed up well and works fine.

Someone !!! seems to think I aught to be embarressed by this....eh nope :)

Note to self.....keep eyes peeled for toaster...thats on the blink to 

:)

Today is the first 'session' with Master R since we got back together.

Im excited but terrified in equal amounts......I hope my bad experience a few weeks ago doesnt come back to haunt me.

But I suppose whats to worry about....Master R is sane and I love him :)

As an update to above...of course everything was amazing :)

Why wouldnt it be when your with someone who knows you inside out.

Thank You Master R for a blissful afternoon.

But since You love my long hair...can we try and leave it intact :))and last night I glowed in the dark;)

<3

Clubbing tonight with Master R....:)

Well that was a first...4 in the club all night....2 were staff

Triffic :(

What a dump !!

Is wondering when the German lessons begin :)

My nice new shiny bike hook came today....thank You Master R...how thoughtful * coughs* ;)

You did mean the two wheeled variety didnt You :))

Some American news about a young Tourettes sufferer who wasnt allowed to fly as he kept shouting bomb...bomb.

Hmm...the authorities were aware of his condition.

Mind I hate flying and the last time I was on a plane a child kept saying he could smell burning and I was bricking myself so I can understand the airlines concern for others.

Bit black humour if Im honest ( yeah I know not PC :)) )

6 pound lost ....Yahhhhh !!

Son of to Afgahanistan today ....Booooo :(

Mmmm happy Monday to me courtesy of my Sir <3

Yeah....today is the first day for a week the forums are loading up.:)

Well I started The Fast Diet on Monday.

Its not fast as in works quickly its 'Fast' as in fasting two days out of 5.

Its actually more of an experiment than anything else, supposedly increases energy levels...reduces risks of cancer blah blah.

Its so weird...because you know you can eat normally 5 out of 7 its no biggy...and its proving to be quite easy on the fasting days.

Watch this space :)

Now that was a wake up call I enjoy :)

Its nice to feel safe and happy for the first time in a while <3

It would appear that Aasha's journey within this world is to take another unexpected twist.

The man who brought me to this place has contacted me unexpectedly.

All the old feelings have come rushing back...indeed were they ever gone.

Having spent a couple of days with someone who claims to be a Master, but who really isnt worthy to lick the boots of an actual one, the difference between him and the real deal is painfully obvious.

Things really do happen for a reason...Karma...sometimes does work.

You JB from Essex were the wake up call I needed to see the thing I wanted had been there all the time.

And being such a cunt I rather expect Karma to come calling pretty soon.

Master R....I always said you were going to be a hard act to follow.

Welcome back :) xx

Forrest Gump meets Billy Bull shit jumps to mind.

Life really is a learning curve...

Someone who lacks the integrity and strength of character to just be honest....yet claims to be a Master....emmm NO

Onward and upward.....and thanks....I learned a great lesson these couple of days

Happy :)

Eeeek....three more sleeps then southward bound :)

I just want to thank a magician.

Im well impressed...thanks :)

And my new girl crush...

Christina Hendriks......perfection

Is it even legal to fancy Jack Nicholson in 'The Shining'

Mmmm well I do OK :)

Well every cloud really does have a silver lining *smiles*

Oh and 'T' if you read this...I miss you 

Im so glad my dont give a fuck still works...

Spider senses in good working order.....

Yep...good to go

Woop woop the fun-fair is in town.

Here's hoping David Essex is working the dodgems 

Mmmm :)

Does it not make more sense to read someones profile before you message them.

It really saves time and hopefully 'flouncing' when you are told your not compatible 

I really wish I could snap out of this stupid weird mood.

I would say 'bite me'...but someone already has ;) 

Woop woop....pressies ...:))

Its rare that Im speechless...but well..yep I am

Awww facetime with my boys....priceless<3

Birthday girl next week....I usually choose to ignore them but this year is going to be different :)

The last few days have been a rollercoaster to say the least.

I still cant believe anyone would even think of driving 6 hours just to meet me.

But today its going to happen.

Life is funny.

So lets see what happens..if nothing else a lovely intelligent new friend :)

To quote something from the film " Fright Night"

'you have to have faith for this to work'

Hmmm yep :)

It took a few wasted hours of messaging but eventually the penny dropped...another fantasist.

My first actually...but no doubt not my last.

I will be quicker at spotting the next one tho..yanno..practise makes perfect.

First night for a while without night terrors.

Feeling as happy as the kitten on my avatar :))

Been practising DIY, HD brows.

Hmmm....I dont think Joan Crawford is such a good look after all ...doh!!

EEEEK I hope my lamb moussaka was lamb.

Today Im feeling a little hoarse :)

Tonight is Greek cuisine evening.

Not sure why since the guest is from Vanuatu.

Maybe because we dont know any Vanuatu recipes :) are there any 

Moussaka was a great hit followed by baked blueberry cheesecake.

Think I need to lie down now....am going to burst ...yum yum :)

I rarely if ever use my journal to twist....but....If I see that damn BBC pic on any other profile i will scream.

Heads up.....stolen pics are against TOS

Also a BBC on a caucasian profile is pure fucking stupid

Seriously...you lot are single for a reason

Wonder what I can get up to today.....:))

Block demanding people for certainty

* shakes head in total disbelief *

Two funerals in two days........

For the same person 

When your daughter tells you that the time and date of a funeral is different to what you think...question it !!!!

Grrr two days now and I cant get on to the message boards. Just wont load up 

Having a girlie crush on a 'forumite'...mmmm

I am really sick of having bad dreams and nightmares...especially when they continue again after I wake up then fall back to sleep. Is that even possible ?? :(

Well today was different.

And definately in a good way.

A little bit extreme, a little bit rough and a hell of a lot of fun.....and that wasnt a play session. 

Mmmm

Your CV is supposed to be the most important thing you can have when seeking a job.

I guess I may have to re write mine soon. 

I really need to get work soon.

Bearing that in mind...I need to re write my profile here soon.

Awww. I was hoping to share my germs with Sir today. A snuggle would be just what the Doc ordered.

His car has broken down miles from home....:(( hope he is safe 

Its way to cold.

I feel ill.

Back to beddies for me....wake me when its spring

Lost my reading glasses...found them in the washing machine. Full cycle and lovely and clean....doh !!

Think I might have to change my brief profile to say ...Im only on here to read the boards.

Maybe "chat" to some people is a euphemism for ...." Im gagging to be your sub....Im just playing hard to get"

The lovely people I chat with are a breath of fresh air...I hope you all know who you are :) 

Perfect Friday. 

Watching rubbish tv with my girls. Bring on the nibbles ladies <3

I have just put tonic water with lemon in my wine thinking it was soda. Bloody lovely :)

Side note to this....wine and soda is a spritzer. Seems some people havnt heard of it :))

I just want to use my journal to thank everyone who has sent me good wishes. Its been lovely reading them 

A morning spent in hospital....not nice. Still a packet of wine gums have cheered me up:)

Well my rock and roll lifestyle continues unabated. Woo-hoo, in the kitchen cooking a big pan of de-tox soup. Hell yeah.

You really dont expect to be "caught in the act" when your my age. Giggling like two naughty teenagers.

Master....your wish is my command but when I suggest we lock the front door perhaps next time we should  :))

I think that a lot of men who are looking for a sub or a slave need to remember that the d/s dynamic is based heavily on respect. 

I think some need to think about this and wonder no longer why they are single.

Respect is earned...it isnt simply given to you 

Why does the truth hurt so much,,,why do I have to take words that were meant to help and make them hateful and cruel and negative.

Why have I allowed my past to bleed into my now and discolour it.

Is there a cure for being so touchy around certain subjects. 

Im sorry x

Thank you for today Master. You gave me so much pain yet so much pleasure. My poor breasts look beautifully ugly ...and Im not to badly burned either x

Wooo-hooo new year, new start (again)

So bye bye all my FB "friends".....well 98% of you.

God damn that feel good lol.

 And better still............Dances with wolves....a bloody good start to 2013 :))

I still cant think of any humour for my journal so will just stick to the deadly serious....

I am very loved up with my master, my lover and my friend.

R.....I love you absolutely xxx

I have been trying to think of something cheery to write. A little apres xmas humour but buggered if I can.

Im upset for yet again not engaging brain before mouth. For over-reacting and being incredibly silly.

Think my stupid mood isnt being helped by too many choclates :(

Having just read The Diary of a Submissive...which is supposedly a "TRUE" story, all I can say is reader beware.

A complete load  from start to finish. 

Shite 

So much free time suddenly. I really need to fill it somehow

Fuck the turkey...its me thats going to get stuffed.

MMM cant wait ....warm up the crop please Master :))

OMG......pain,sex and food. Priceless. What a brilliant way to get at least two of "your 5 a day"

Thank you so much Master and I deserved what you did....I wont ever forget my collar again 

Well last night was good and met some lovely people. It wasnt what I really expected tho and perhaps a bit boring. 

Thank goodness we found an empty room upstairs....we snuck in and suddenly I wasnt bored.

The dungeon was ok and as a result my bum cheeks are very bruised :)

I think I have been good this year so had high hopes for xmas. But Santa really is a fat judgemental bastard.....thankfully Master isnt. <3

night at The Spa tonight ....well excited 

Yipee...Im going Xmas shopping with master tomorrow. For meee!

Wonder what I have to do to earn my gifts

"Slave......send me your number so that I can verbally abuse you".....# EpicFail

I really wish I could understand the word Sadist. Not the dictionary meaning. Are there levels or types of sadist perhaps.

Some would say He who owns me is..... but I think not. He certainly likes to make me cry but has always said its not the inflicting of pain that he enjoys, but the fact I am willing to accept that what I hate for him.

So maybe Im to judgemental when I see a profile that states sadist

I am only now seeing the power I have. I dont top from the bottom, I am totally submissive, yet do have IT.

I probably always have but its taken me this long to realise it. I feel comforted by that knowledge.

Master decided to help clear my head of confusion last night. Made sure I understand actions and consequenses and The chain of command. He says it, I do it, end of chain. 

I dont consider myself shallow and I dont actually want Brad Pitt but seriously if you look more like" Cess Pitt" I doubt we will click !! ;))

Today has been a "bout de souffle" moment, but not in a good way. Confusion rules. As a person who seldon drinks alcohol I have bought 2 bottles of wine and wonder the wisdom in that. 

But I guess I will just suck it and see. I look forward to my hangover...and hopefully the backbone to make some serious decisions 

Before you diagnose yourself with depression or low self-esteem make sure you are not, simply, surrounded by arseholes 

Am loving these surprise visits from Sir. Although I think he was checking on the colour of my bruises from Friday.

The love bites are looking particularly attractive ....hmmmm 

Had a surprise visit today...mmmmm...and thank you so much for my navy blue Doc Martens. Lurrrve them and you :)) xx

After wearing the afore mentioned Docs for a little while I now realise they were given as a punishment. I have a blister already....they kill :(( lol

Master has said that he will allow a heater in the " Red room". So at least I wont freeze to death.

Although the heat that my arse usually gives off after a session could probally heat a 3 bedroom semi. Yep my bum is ample....but much adored lol.

Wish I wasnt so horny....my sex machine will blow a fuse after 6 weeks. Plus once the xmas decs go up the national grid wont know whats hit it :)

How the heck will I cope without Sir for 6 weeks. Going to be ripping my hair out after week one :(

I think things are going to change very soon.

Im not getting a good feeling anymore and the concept that love really isnt enough sometimes seems to be raising its head :(

Think I  probably deserved that. May not be sitting down any time soon ! Thank you Sir 

 If you comment at least have the balls not to block. I guess thats why you have no sub

Im not looking for a Master or a Dom as my profile clearly states, but if I was do you really think  

a message calling me slave/ whore/slut/rhymes with witch or even better IT, stands a cat in hells chance, you are delusional.

Your not doms/masters, your sad idiots who suck at vanilla relationships so think you may fare better on here.

Where I live if you call people those names you would be looking for a dentist pretty damn quick.

Im sure you are beating women off with shitty sticks on here. The queue to be your subs must be staggering.

*breathe...all better now * :)

Well Master is supposed to be paying a visit tonight. Cozy night in. Im making chilli but have decided to hide the chili powder after use. I still remember what he did with the Deep Heat ...and it wasnt massaging my back.

Im still a bit fed up with things at the moment, he has appologized over and over about Thursday and thats not why Im feeling like this...I need to give my head a shake or I need them endomorphines or whatever to do there best.

Hope he brings his toy chest :)

I treated myself to a gorgeous corset today and a big snuggly jumper so tonight its going to be sexy undies topped off with that. I tried it on and it looks super sexy...that plus " Bardot" hair and BOOM !!

Decisions decisions....what to wear tomorrow. 

I have never been to an actual /bdsm club so not sure what the dress code is.

In swinging naked is allowed but Master says not where we are going. And I dont do leather/latex so am stumped.

Think corsets and stockings may have to do

Well I dont need to bother as we are no longer going. To say I am pissed off is an understatement.

Unless of course I go alone :))

Am so excited for Thursday. 

The Dungeon awaits !! MMMM Im getting goose bumps already 

Felt like a newbie at the club on Friday......been ages and last time I was there me and Master broke up over it.

But we had a great time.

And thank you for fixing my light.....I will never switch it on without smiling at your ingenuity. You were right, as always, anything can be erotic with the right mind ;) 

Well Master doesnt like me changing my hair but I have. I now await the verdict. 

If I get a severe punishment I will then know that blondes dont have more fun 

Went to my first car auction today.

Because of a half dead blue bottle buzzing around my head I nearly bid on a Audi TT.

I was ordered to sit on my hands after that :)

I really wish some people would think about their gallery of delightful ( coughs ) photos.

They are supposed to attract people.

So no.....a picture of you with your hair brush wedged up yer arse doesnt do it for me.

Do you blow dry your wig with it afterwards or is that one just for fun. 

Best news for a while....my lying cheating ex husband's woman has thrown him out again. Second time in 4 weeks.

Awww bless. He had to sleep in his new car, and the gritters were out last night as well.

Tut tut.

Aint Karma a bitch :))) 

What other people think of me really is none of my business so feel free.

Haters always gonna hate...but dont you think it makes you look jealous. 

Oh and there is no cure for ugly so you stuck with it 

Owwww...the agony of tooth ache. Who said I like pain ??? :((

A combination of me falling of a ladder and Masters "man-flu" sadly= no weekend away :((

But on the bright side I got some tax back so .......devine shoes....your all mine ;)

Well that was the best lunchtime treat I have had. MMMM calorie free too. Thank you Master...standing naked in a freezing room waiting for your presence is such a joy ( coughs) ;)

Santa pod next weekend......cant wait !!!

Hope I feel better today. I hate feeling like this. Can the real Aasha please come back....I love you really

I have the best Master in the world......car fixed and made to feel the most beautiful girl in the world all in one visit. 

Just what the doctor ordered.....thank you baby so much :) xx

Dont waste time explaining to people who are hell bent on misunderstanding you. So true.

Going to see my most beautiful, favourite man this week. So excited. Sorry Master lol :))

A random piece of nothing here but Im well jell of our American friends at the moment......OMG how lush is Tess Munster....divine....

I wonder if Masters house has a leaky roof or something because after I left there were puddles all over the place :))

I think I might be getting a whole lot of punishment tomorrow.

I caused Master quite a lot of upset a week or so ago, so its all I can expect really.

But I did have a weekend away first :)

A visit to the house of Evil, where no-one can here you scream  

Blackpool was a blast. Cheesy as hell but good fun. I had an amazing time. Thank you Master.

After much thinking I know that the person I need to be with is R. I love him too much to try and find someone who probably doesnt even exist.

So R if you read this, you own me....heart and soul 

You really have to love an opening first message of ...."Speak to me slave".....Ok then "Fuck off"

Time for more cheerful entries.

Im off to wet and windy Blackpool tonight.

Cant wait to spend quality time with someone special :)

Its hard having the perfect person in your life but it only being part-time. 

Confused.com

I read a quote from Nietzsche yesterday..".Im not upset that you lied to me, Im upset that now I can no longer believe you "

How very accurate 

An hour with Master is such a special hour. May I have more please ?

Feeling agitated and bored.

Never a good combination with me !

Thank you so much Master <3

I readily admit Im new to this and as such dont know protocol and what is acceptable etc. But I dont think its that much different to vanilla relationships in one respect anyway.

Surely its not ok for dommes to "poach" others mens subs/slaves. To steal a mans woman. 

So please...those that are trying to...please stop. 

My profile is crystal clear as to why Im on here 

Well they say you learn by your mistakes so at this rate Im soon to be a genius :) But last nights mistake burned. Memo to self....instructions on products are there for a reason. 

Master comes home today...I hope to see him tomorrow ***woop*** :)

Its a good job I have a sense of humour because some of the numptys on here are hysterical

Malignant narcissism is an epidemic on CM

I feel like the best part of me is missing. I feel empty. I wish master was back home <3

You have got to love Father Ted........" That girls mouth is like a chicken coop, every time its open a cock flies in" lol :))

Well the weekend starts here and I cant wait. 

I really hope its gonna be messy.

Bite marks are love notes written in flesh. Sweet :)

I feel that soon I will have to succumb to the trait of most journals. Im fighting it tho...but the urge for a rant is great. I have deleted my FS account....my favourite ranting site...so Im at a loss. :))

Oh fook it ....Im gonna....

I bought banofee bonbons today, and do they heck taste of banana and toffee. There.....I feel better already. 

Well as a result of too much time on my hands, I have been having a perv of the pics on here. Wish there was an "eyes out on stalks" icon.

There seems to be a bit of a theme regarding womens genitalia being stretched open.

Now I know its horses for courses but two things come to mind 

1. An over stuffed donner kebab

2. Road kill

Balk !!

Not that Im counting but 7 days till masters return.

Miss him like crazy and as promised Sir ...no lady wanks ;)

Just been reading some peoples journals. Bloody hell there are some bitter folk out there. Slagging off, naming.

Even at my most despondant  I wouldnt dream of saying some of the stuff I read.

Guess some of us are just more polite and respectful :)

Master is away again with his car :((

Its going to be a long 10 days.

I will miss him so much. However tonight Im out with the girls so watch out Durham  

Im a happy girl.

I made Sir happy today. Thank you  xxx

Im not sure if my humour was appreciated last night. 

Im cheeky and funny...you know that. 

It wasnt meant to be serious :))

As a random comment to anyone with bruises....doesnt arnica gell help. Great stuff 

Master, I love you totally. Its as simple as that <3 

28/8/12

Master has been in touch and I got what I deserved as my latest photo shows. 

Punishment gratefully received.

27/8/12

Well I think after this time I need to accept that Master will not be in touch.

Im not to be forgiven.

I will chat on here but until the time is right I wont be looking for another.

I dont trust or give my love readily.

I think It was my mistake to do so with him. 

And my mistake to upset him 

25/8/12

We live in a world where everything is disposable. If something is broken we throw it away, a tv,kettle, washing machine, vacuum cleaner all get thrown away  and replaced. 

It seems I am also disposable.

Its a week now and I still feel empty and dead and sad beyond belief.

I just need to say thank you for all the messages from people,, who have no ulterior motives, who have messaged me with advise and empathy. Its nice...many thanks. 

24/8/12

Purgatory sucks !

21/8/2012

On Saturday night my world stopped spinning.

I did an unforgivable thing to my Master.

I disobeyed him and embarrased him and made a fool of myself.

I was jealous and acted totally out of character.

I beg forgiveness Master, and hope that you take pity on my suffering.

Im so very very sorry.

8/8/2012

My first ever entry.

My thoughts on a page.

Master is overseas for a week and I miss him already.

Its been a while since I have submitted totally to him and gratefully received  his punishment and think I need this as I feel so tense.

I hope on his return he will think I deserve his attention.