Feeling really down today - a bit of sub drop maybe!! Have met up with three indiviuals over the ladt 3 weeks. First two after dinner we mutually agreed there was no spark and went our separate ways in a friendly manner.
Yes terday I met another Dom, lunch went well, he seemed really nice and i made the decision to invite him back to mind for coffee. Well things progressed and we ended up playing. It was enjoyable i found myself able to submit to him - which is always my worry with someone new. I thought we both ad a pleasand afternoon, getting something from it. Not sure that there was anything more though.
He left to go home, nothing said. Perhaps I expected more - at least a note saying thanks for the afternoon but don't think we suit . But instead I got a big blank nothing, not even a text to say he was home safe.
So now i feel used, my perception of course, he came equipped to play. Not sure i can cope with doing this anymore. So am going to take a break.
Perhaps i expect too much , am looking for someone who doesn't exist.
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