This is me. I am a feisty, mischievous lesbian who goes around behaving as if she is in charge, but I am actually submissive.
Generally I'm a happy, cheerful person who throws herself into life and will have a go at most things, though obviously not when I'm tired and haven't had my regulation 10 hours sleep per night because then I'm grumpy and not good for anything really. I value honesty and won't ever break a trust. I am fiercely loyal and protective of those whom I care about.
I am a fairly active person who loves outdoor activities such as canoeing, skiing and rock climbing. I am most at home in the countryside.
I like the ! jaffa cakes, toblerone, lychees, scampi fries, or whatever other food is flavour of the month. Sometimes I forget to eat which drives Ma'am mad, but without her over my shoulder how can be expected to remember everything!
My big passion is horses (yay!! I have my own 2 ponies) although I love all animals. I also enjoy curling up with my kindle and having a damned good read, especially if it is a fantasy novel .
My other passion is Minecraft. I can play for hours, or would do if I were allowed and didn't have to get on with other things such as work, washing, cleaning, cooking, eating, and sleeping.
That brings me to my biggest passion xxxsarahxxx. She is my Ma'am, my friend, my rule maker and my lover. My life has changed totally since I met her. I now have someone who I trust, who I love, who looks after me, who cares for me, is there for me and I spend every second I can with her. We intend it to be a lot more as soon as our lives mean we can. She ties me up in stitches as we never stop laughing and in knots too as she does some beautiful ropework on me. http://minxysropework.wordpress.com/ I have her in a training programme and soon I expect her to be up to standard.(only joking Ma'am)
Feel free to chat or come and say hi if you see me at a D/s 'thing'. If you bring jaffa cakes I am sure we will get on very well.
Thanks for reading.
Alone in the house, with my Mistress away. Missing her so very much. Sleep seems such a fickle thing. I long for my rock, my pillar to be back home.
well what's happened recently! Things started to get a bit.. sort of stale and vanilla with Ma'am and I. The result of it was that we had a little break from Ds. It turned out to be a very very little break. I'm not sure that we quite even managed to make the 48 hour mark before we both realised that it could not happen like that. Well it might have taken me that long but not Ma'am. True to her word Ma'am restrained herself very well from touching me in an inappropriately ds way during those torturous hours. Anyway, it ended with me on my knees in front of her begging to be allowed to be her submissive. And after a bit of a session we talked, and talked. and cleared the air. Realising where things were going wrong and how to address them.
Ups and downs. We all have them. sometimes even with the best of intentions things happen, or don't happen and even with the truest of love you sometimes have to work at the relationship a bit. Never give up in what you believe in though.
It's coming up to that time of the year again. The question that needs to be addressed pretty sharply is "what on earth do I get the woman I love most in the world for Christmas?". Making the Christmas present failed big time *looks at the oak branch with loathing (I was sooo sure that it was hazel not oak!) so what to do. If I buy anything before about now Ma'am inevitably manages to weedle out of me what it is that I've bought her ( Do you people know how hard it is to keep secrets from someone who can read you like a book?)
And yet it is getting pretty late to order anything from online. And I am working away a lot!hhmm what to do... what to do *scratches head and goes off to procrastinate further upon the matter
Can't beat a jacket potato!
mmmmmm
little things to please little people! :D
Well, a turn up for the books! I never knew I could squirt :o
Loving this song atm. I had a bad day with Ma'am the other week, feeling low and stuff. She played this song for me while cuddling me before we went downstairs to have breakfast ( tea and toast :) )
When She is down, I am there for her. To quietly take the load from her shoulders. When she is weak, I am strong for the both of us, knowing that when I am weak I can cover myself in Her Strength.
Crosses fingers that Ma'am allows me to buy GuildWars2. There will be a sad face around if she decides that I could better occupy my time doing other things :s
hmmm spent hours trying to make Ma'am a Christmas present. It is going a lot slower that I thought it would. I think I have used the wrong base material, which is a bugger, and probably means it won't be ready until next Christmas :s
*sigh* A trip to B&Q today to buy furnishings for my house. Trying to convince Ma'am that softer rope would be muchly greatly appreciated! It didn't work :( I vow to all on CM that I shall persist in this mad effort to get Ma'am to buy softer, less hairy, less scratchy rope!
(Eventually She will just HAVE to give in if just to prevent the constant moaning and earache She gets from me :D)
Ma'am has been getting deliciously strict with me these last couple of days. What with buying the house next door to her ( Lucky, lucky me!) We can have a space where we can be private. It's the little things that matter the most to me. The being forceful in the saying of something to me, ordering me to do things not accepting any brattiness, grabbing me and forcing me down to the ground mmmmmm
Minxy out!
Grrrrr Playing scrabble with Ma'am is HARD work! I always lose, and I hate losing! The things you've got to put up with as a sub :D
where in the likes section is the "loves messaging Ma'am when she comes on CM and abusing her?" :D
Ma'am has come around from the operation :D I'm feeling a muchly happy grateful bunny :D
Ma'am is having an operation today. i'm feeling so stressed out about it. *goes back to pacing room*
oh the simple pleasures in life! chicken nuggets and chips from the chip shop as my allowed take away meal for this week! bliss! :)
ohhh exciting news. Might be moving next door to Ma'am :o scary and exciting
Wanted! A more up to date Ma'am training manual!
the last of the christmas chocolate has gone from my room. Its not that i had a huge amount of it either
Its a sad day :(
the silver lining is i shall now start on the easter chocolates :D
Missing Ma'am so much, She's away this weekend and it feels like pure torture not being able to speak to her and spend the copious amounts of time on skype together.
It's hard when the cornerstone of your life is uncontactable. But i know it is equally hard for her too.
There are times that i scream and shout, rant and rave, and fling in Ma'ams face that i "am not a f****** sub any more" and rant on at Her about how i hate it when She tells me what to do all the time.
But She is always there through those thundery storming outbusts and cuddles me on the other side when i hate myself for losing my temper and for saying things in heatedness.
She understands, and for that i am ever grateful.
Yesterday is history, tomorrow a mystery. But today is a gift, thats why it's called the present!
In which case... can i have it warmed up a bit please?
Had a great time at Exodus saturday. Ma'am dressed me up in lots of rope in a freezing cold marquee! (might i also add using the hairiest rope she had!)
Met alot of people i've been wanting to meet for a long time :) Great night out!
One more sleep to go :D poor Ma'am ain't going to know what has hit her when a rampant minxy sub hits home tomorrow!
grrrrr... hate it when the woman i love knows what buttons to press and deliberately winds me up then we get into a discussion about why it is wrong to swear at Her!
BBBbbbbbrrrrrr just want spring to come now!
A week or so of sunshine to bring the grass and plants on.
anyone know of anywhere around notts/ london area where i can get leather from. looking for ..probably bridle back, half or whole hide?
gosh its been a while since i updated this :o i have gotten rather lax these past *cough* couple of months. well to be fair the workload at work seems to have increased again, and the number of people shouldering the work decreased! such is life with cut backs. hey ho!
It feels like it has been forever since i last saw Ma'am, (stops and tries to think through the damp cotton wool of exhaustion inside my head) nope, no idea how long it has been! but in a couple of weeks i'll be able to spend a couple of weeks with her. :D *starts planning mischief now well in advance!)
well summer is definately here! 25 o out there. i don't like the heat :s
On a much nicer note. one more sleep to go before i get to see ma'am :D
lychees MMmmm. looking forward to quiche and salad in a bit.
am finally awake again. had a lovely long sleep and feeling so much more positive today. The only bad thing is i've slept half the day away and i was supposed to be shopping for food. Ma'am won't be completely impressed with me, but i guess she won't be shocked either really.
Now time to get dressed and to go shopping hopefully maybe just before ma'am gets back :D
Bit miffed i'm missing the BBB today :( Both Ma'am and myself would have liked to have gone. but alas.. work commitments usually seem to get in the way :(
Thoughts of a new future. A farm. 17 acres of land. horses, mine and liveries. potential Ds stuff in barns mmm. nice thoughts to sleep on.
Hot and sweaty! i definately think i identify as a masochist! i hate going to the gym with a passion, and yet i still go! why? i find me asking myself. i don't care what i look like physically, i hate going.. so why do i do it? hhhmmmmmm. mayhaps one day i'll be able to answer that one!
Must remember not to consume alchohol when i haven't really eaten. And then when i'd had a couple i shouldn't have eaten the chicken thingies!
Happy Friday everyone!
oh bugger! i'm working tomorrow. gutted.
NVM Happy Friday
*sighs* its one of those dull days today when nothing seems to go right. Ma'am asked me to send someone a text, and in among all the cleaning and playing on the ds lite i forgot :(
forwarded an important email to her and interrupted her reading of it with questions and general comments on it to her.
methinks its just going to be one of them days :(
Had a lovely weekend and a couple of stolen nights with Ma'am. the ginger was not used thankfully, but that doesn't mean that it won't be in the future!
Spent last night in a bit of bondage, ankle cuffs on connected by a carabina. so interrupted nights sleep and a grumpy minxy today. i found myself waking myself up last night because i play with the carabina in my sleep to make it clink!
Yay, i get to go up to Ma'ams a day early *dances round singing while packing bag*
on the bad side She does have a piece of ginger with my name on it apparently.
something new.. scary
Two more sleeps to go!! Well nights that is. It might be up to 6 more sleeps to go if I can get away with a few naps :D
I finish work for the day, and settle down for a good laze around. I am away from Ma'am for the next few days with mixed emotions. I feel I can rest as i am not caught up in the mad whirlwind that is Ma'ams typical life. And yet at the same time my life feels quite dull and lifeless without Her here.
Ahhh well, roll on friday when i can be with Her again!
Ma'am decided to get creative and try out some new things in rope down my leg today. It didn't take too long really, just about long enough for me to get cramp in the leg she was working on. Typical really!
been for a lovely meal with Ma'am who was plying me with alcohol. seems She's trying to get me drunk :D hope that it gets followed through and that she might take advantage of me :D
Joined Collarme today to keep up with Ma'am and to make friends with folks.
Hectic day today, weather has been typical british best today! Sun one min followed by rain, sun, hail, sun, thunder out the blue. you get the picture i'm sure :)
Pony being on his toes today. Good spring grass and the wind under his tail meant that he was rather spooky over nothing.
Had a good play with Ma'am earlier. have a bit of a headache as a result of bashing my head mind! that'll teach me to stop thrashing around!
