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meturmatch

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sticknchell
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pattiemoon
    This is the lifestyle I was made for, the one I belong to. It welcomes me, caresses me and brings me to life.
   I am submissive and I've known this since the age of 12. At the time of course, I did not know/understand all that this entailed. So... I hid this part of myself from the world and perhaps myself for a time.
   I grew up to be an intelligent, assertive, out-going, out-spoken, rather stubborn woman. Somehow, I kept finding myself in leading roles. Since I love a challenge and am highly competitive I accepted these roles, and succeeded in all. I believe that no matter what you do, that you should always strive to be the best and take pride in everything you do.
   I wasn't whole... not complete.
   I still do not claim to know everything there is about the bdsm lifestyle or my submissiveness. I do know that when I find someone worthy/deserving of my submission and I surrender to their control I become complete. It releases me from the walls I've built around myself. I come to life.
   It is not my body that needs to be conquered/controlled, because the flesh can betray me. It is not my heart that needs to be won, for it is weak and can be betrayed. It is my mind you must find your way into, my mentality you must unravel. THIS IS THE CHALLENGE: Succeed in this and the heart, body and soul will follow.
   I am 46 years old and have only met my match once, and I'm still putting the pieces back together after that ONE. I am only interested in friends and like minded people, if you seek or expect more than this from me... then I guess you'll wait.
   If you don't read the book you're holding, how do you ever expect to know/understand what's inside of it?
   I do not answer to wannabees or those that THINK they deserve my immediate respect. This is no game to me, I am real and looking for the same.
1/21/2011 10:35:28 PM

Hello  Old Friends...not sure if this will do any good this time either. But I guess ya gotta give me credit for trying. You might as well read all of my profile, blogs, journal what have you because I am still the same person. A little more learned, a bit more gunshy I hate to say but with good reason. I repeat and stress... PLEASE READ ENTIRE PROFILE AND ALL JOURNAL ENTRIES... I absolutely will Not tolerate wannabees/idiots etc. etc. and believe you me I can tell em REAL QUICK... as I am REAL... would really just like to start off with some decent conversation from like-minded people . I hope All are Well and are having a good 2011 so far...ty for reading this.

1/29/2010 12:30:28 AM
     The intruders in this lifestyle never cease to amaze me. You know who I'm talking about. The Wannabees that Nevercouldbe...
     For a fake to come on here and think they won't be recognized is sheer stupidity. To post endless comments about people not being real, being fake, lying etc. etc. and to be called out on it by a true BDSMer and then run.
     BDSM is a real lifestyle to US, and that includes SSC... yanno... Safe, Sane and Consensual... If you won't accept someone because they are being cautious on one of these websites than You aren't a true BDSMer. You are a wannabee catering to other wannabees. This lifestyle is one to which you have to be careful enough with, much less these sites and the internet. I mean, for Goodness Sake there are crazy, psychotic predators everywhere pretending to be things they aren't and we're just supposed to jump into something serious with someone after only a few emails or conversations ONLINE... I think not
1/31/2009 7:18:34 PM
Hello again,
  For those of you who belong in this lifestyle and are interested in actually getting to know someone before they think they are capable of Mastering them, look me up on alt.com... much more details there. You should know what I'm about before you even bother.
1/30/2009 11:52:29 AM
Hello everyone. I haven't been around for awhile. Right now I'm just looking for someone to chat with to start. A like minded person who doesn't mind intelligent conversation. I will not tolerate any wannabees. If you aren't as real as I am, I simply do not need you. I'm not into games/cybersex/bullshit so please don't bring it to me.
9/10/2007 1:33:31 PM
The question of what I seek is often asked. It is a question I think through on a regular basis. I seek the One who can take who I am, as I am, and improve upon my strengths. One who can teach me my place. The One who can correct me with patience and in all the right ways. The One who can take All that is within me, and make it better. The Master who can take the strength within me as His own, leaving this true submissive released from myself.
7/30/2007 11:50:32 AM
 I was recently asked what my wants, needs and desires are and here is what I came up with.
What do I want? I want it all. I want it all because that is what I am willing to give and I deserve no less than I offer.
What do I need? I need to be free. Free to be my whole self. I need someone who will accept all aspects of me. Someone who knows what they want and exactly how to get it. Someone who is strong, confident, wise,patient, understanding, with a sense of humor and a twinkle in their eye to match my own.
What do I desire? I desire peace and contentment; security and comfort; overwhelming pride and satisfaction. I desire to be complete.
6/7/2007 8:05:49 AM
Pardon me my ramblings. I check this site as well as another on an almost daily basis. I have met some very interesting and nice people, as well as the idiots that seem to come along with the sites. I just can't help but wonder if there shouldn't be an easier way. This is the 21st century, changes are going on all around us constantly. When is it OUR turn??? Someday, I see those of us in this lifestyle as widely accepted as the homosexual community, but I feel it is up to US to bring about the change. Alot of people in this lifestyle are still in the closet and I understand that, I truly do. But, if we are to become accepted, then We shouldn't act like we are ashamed or afraid of the life we have chosen. Everyone has their own likes and dislikes, their own opinions and that is how it should be. Worrying what other people think shouldn't be our main concern, being accepted being open and honest and shouting our choice of our own lifestyle from the top of the world shouldn't be such a scary thing... any suggestions as to how WE might fix this???
5/22/2007 8:37:14 AM
 I believe my profile should state clearly that I am not looking for fakes, wannabees or idiots. Do not message me expecting my immediate respect, obedience or submission because it takes a whole lot more than words to get to me. I am real and looking for the same so if You can't carry on a conversation with someone You just met without talking dirty, issuing orders or bringing sex up right from the get go then You are not who I seek. I like real conversations between real people about everyday life etc. I suggest you read my profile carefully and notice the likes/dislikes because otherwise You are wasting both of our time. I ask this nicely here, if it isn't honored, I won't be nice anymore.
5/16/2007 10:01:57 AM
           Sweet Submission
I sat in stunned amazement,
  The day we first met.
I couldn't believe what I already knew,
  My heart and mind were set.
 
I knew that very instant,
  Exactly what would be.
I felt it deep within my soul,
  Your love would set me free.

You strode right in and made me yours,
  In the best possible way.
All I could do was hold on tight,
  For there were no words to say.

To You, I have given,
  My heart, mind and soul.
My sweet submission belongs to you,
  For you are what makes me whole.

Meturmatch
5/15/2007 7:06:11 AM
Man in the Shadows

I can feel your presence,
It reaches across time and space.
My heart sings, my soul hums,
As your fingers caress my face.

Your voice whispers so softly,
Inside of my mind.
Where all my resolve melts,
For only you to find.

I walk tall and proud now,
My head up and shoulders back.
Your shadow stands behind me,
Giving me the strength I lack.

My heart, mind and soul,
I freely give to thee.
The Man in the Shadows,
As you stand over me.

meturmatch
lonelybim
 
 Age: 21
  New York