MeadBond

The profile babygirllove1 is me... the account was supposed to have been closed due to some harrassment I was getting under it... D:

What to say. I am very new to the life style even though I've basically known I was a sub for a long time... I have just finally decided to push into the lifestyle and finally follow who I am.

I will not cam or show pictures unless I am comfortable enough to do it cause well I as told there are some creepy people on ehere sooooooo... yeah

One thing I've not noticed... that seems to have been lost on the D/S world is the love... that everyone finds for each other. A D/S isn't about pain, who you can toss her off to, how you can keep her locked up and out of sight and abuse her. A D/S relationship holds love, because it takes so much trust, so much love to be able to have that type of submission and that type of control for someone. People concentrate only on the pain, and punishment but there are still out there who seek the love side... as I do the side where your Master will still carress you and love you and speak to you not as "his slut" or whore but as his pet and as his only love :)

I'm very very shy person in all honesty this is mostly due to a very very bad past. When I am chatting online it is much easier to be open but in a face to face I am very quiet, and easily embarrassed. I'm also the type of person who if I even hear the slightest dip in your voice or the oddest look cross your face I'm going to end up apologizing immediately and asking if I did anything wrong. Long silences do not help me either. I'm a worrier a bad one I HATE hurting people, I hate upsetting people, I try avoiding situations where one might end up hurt in the end... and really I hate any situations that cause a decision where either way someone is on the bad end of it... not a big decision maker >_<

I am bipolar so emotional, but very loving and caring towards those I end up caring a lot about. I enjoy who I am and I wouldn't change me for the world (personality wise). Some say I have a mother Teresa attitude for wanting always to help another person but that's just how I view the world. There's some good somewhere even in people in jail and hell I wanna help bring it out. I've had past Masters tell me that this will never make me a good slave but it's something that will never change about me sadly :/

I'm a huge animal lover though I will not mind hunting or fishing just don't expect me to gut them! I'm a nature lover, a poet, a writer... and actually majoring in creative writing as there is nothing else in life I can see myself doing job wise. I'm a thinker, a lover and a dreamer. I do not see anything as impossible, I just see bumps in the road to get to the impossible.

Other things about me... I'm a hyper active person. When I have my real up days be prepared for some sarcastic jokes, random running about, random words and what not. I followed Gor for a while as it has the slaves heart and I do do Gorean RP on Gorean based sites. I have quickly learned no matter the consequences given by others... a true sub stays dedicated to her Master. If she is punished by another for refusing what her Master told her to refuse... so be it as your Master always will come first.