marylinmonroe

Is love in BDSM really possible? or is it just a myth of her own creation?

She has this girlish notion that there can be a strong loving bond between a slave and a Master. A sort of bond like you read about in a romance novel. But perhaps that sort of love is only possible in stories. she has allowed her heart to be sent through a blender, in an effort to sift through all the Men and try and find One that can love her as much as she might love Him. she doesn't even feel motivated in looking anymore...perhaps she is finally able to except, that men like that never really existed at all, except in the imagination.

People keep asking her how long she has been in this lifestyle and why she is a slavegirl. she has been in this lifestyle well over 10 years now. she feels more herself here than in any vanillia situation.

she got into this lifestyle after falling in love with a Man. she wanted to do everything she could to please Him but He was not interested in her that way at the time. she wanted to convince Him of her love but her attentions to Him where only proving to be a burden to Him. she didn't want to burden Him any longer so she made an extreme sacrifice and stopped contacting Him. It was the hardest thing she ever had to do. Even today it pains her to know that she could not be the one to bring Him His daily pleasures.

It made her realize, though, what she is. she is a true love slave. when she loves, she gives herself over to a man's pleasures completely.

she guards her heart now. she would like to fall in love again. Though, she wants to be sure, before she lets her heart fall, that He will be able to love her back.

Ok...so this girl tried being a Mistress a little. BORING! she just couldn't get interested in slaves or subs. ok back to being a slave herself. That was an interesting week. Enough said. :)

A slave came to this girl today and said it was a shame that she was a slave because he felt that she would make a great Mistress. she confided in this boy that she has been a Mistress before and that she also agreed that she was a very good one. It is probably what makes her such a damn good slave. It made her realize that though she doesn't switch at random, she does need to classify herself as a switch. she can be a Mistress, she can be a slave. Though, she cannot be both at the same time. In this way she is like a chameleon, changing with her environment, adapting to her surroundings, and blending well.

So if Y/you are wondering if she will switch on Y/you one day, the answer is absolutely not. that would be like telling a chameleon to be bright red when it is resting quite comfortably on a green leaf. Not possible.

Happy kink hunting, M/marylin