== Results from http://bdsmtest.org/ ==
100% Submissive
98% Bondage receiver
76% Masochist
75% Experimentalist
74% Voyeur
69% Primal (Prey)
50% Brat
45% Slave
40% girl/boy
39% Non-monogamist
27% Vanilla
24% Exhibitionist
23% Sadist
11% Pet
4% Degradation receiver
2% Primal (Hunter)
2% Switch
1% Bondage giver
1% Dominant
1% Ageplayer
0% Owner
0% Daddy/Mommy
0% Brat tamer
0% Degradation giver
0% Master/Mistress
0% All-Rounder
See my results online at http://bdsmtest.org/result.?id=7025

As i begin a new chapter yet again in this ever evolving journey.. i have decided to make a journal entry to answer a question that is repeatedly asked of me.. what do i seek?

Wow, what a loaded question.. simple answer: everything.. complex answer: an eclectic mix. 

i am not certain about You, but i live in a real world. i work a forty hour work week, in a responsible management position where others rely on my competence and follow my guidance and leadership.  i live in a vanilla society that frowns upon still many aspects of this lifestyle.  i have children who are impressionable at any age, and have to contend with peers day in and day out.  So every choice i make affects not simply me, but my career, my standing in the community and my children's daily lives.  Which leads me to that complex answer of seeking an eclectic mix.  i seek a partner in life, my best friend, lover, teacher, mentor, Dom/Master, someone i can look to every day to be there to help guide me.  Someone who wants to be as entangled in me as i am in Him and someone who isn't afraid to make that leap of faith into a real relationship that stands in all , not simply in the dungeon. 

i am a romantic, i love with everything i have, He can't be afraid of my love and affection. When i feel cherished and loved by my Dom/Master, the entire world opens to Him, my longing to please Him, my need to make Him happy, my constant burning desire to serve His needs and wishes unfold and blossom.

i am a realist, i don't live in fantasy, i enjoy play time and i enjoy the realities of life.. if You seek a full time no limits TPE slave who lives for your every whimper of wants and has no life at all except to be your non thinking blindly obedient servant to kick around, sexually obliterate and use with no regard to her as a person..  with all respect to what You seek, but i am not it. 

This lifestyle is unique to the two individuals involved in the relationship. There is no right or wrong way.. The simple fact that i am a submissive, doesn't disqualify me from having needs of my Dom/Master or from knowing what i want in a partner within this lifestyle.  We are all different, that doesn't make what i seek wrong, just unique. 

i seek a unique man.  Intelligent, open minded, fun spirited, laid back yet firm in His decisions.  A warm heart, a strong and noble character, stable, consistent and someone who will enjoy the journey we can take together. A strong want of the kinks the lifestyle can hold isn't a bad thing either.. grins..  i seek a man who isn't hiding from a wife or plays online only..  i seek real time, real life, real emotion, real touching, flogging, bondage, sensory deprivation, and all the wonders life can bring while entwined within an open honest communicative relationship...

hmm hopefully that might help answer a few of those questions..

To answer another question that is frequently asked of me: What do i offer?  i offer affection, love, submission, servitude, respect, devotion, dedication, laughter, intelligent converstation, companionship and an overall happy girl to serve Him and do her best to make Him happy.  While i live in the real world and have real responsibilities, this submissive/slave within me is always there, always present, always wanting to please.  As the relationship grows, the doors to all that could be possible open and i follow in the journey He wishes to take me on.