maralidrisR

 

to me a Master has a bit of all these things combined..He is the Dominant in His domain, the strength that His slave feeds off ..He is wise and understanding of life's situations that test us..Even though He knows His word is final , He takes the time to listen to any input and then makes His decision for all..He knows what is best..He is loving and never would harm what is His, never destroy those that adore Him. He cares for their physical, and emotional well being.. a happy slave is one that happily serves out of love and respect and not fear...His look tells it all..He is someone that is not afraid to show His human side. His compassion ...His vulnerability ...He directs and guides us to be the best that we can be , and praises us for endeavors..His Dominance is subtle, unspoken words speak loud in His presence  and He demands nothing, but expects totality in His slave...commitment, communication, love, respect, beyond words....to give of herself openly and willingly ..He is sexually fierce and yet gentle in taking what is His,.. the love He feels is always there even during the most feral of moments shared...never a raised hand would He make out of anger, He is in control...He is trusted..He is Master...He is my Master and i adore Him.... this perception is of course  all mine.. it will vary in the BDSM lifestyle as many times as there are fetishes and people involved...some may agree and many more probably will not, but that is ok because relationships vary as well... 

8/10/14

let me preface this short writing by saying that by no means am i an expert or all knowing on the subject of polygamy..i also understand every polygamy home is run differently,however i believe one fact to be the same...if a true polygamist situation exits, its because of at least one persons capability to  give love, to have love, to fall in love  with more than one person at the same time and to be surrounded by those that  return the love willingly and embrace them into a family .its not about a way to fuck as many as one wants w/o being branded a cheater. its about trust and devotion  and being open and honest with those involved and the giving of oneself ..my thoughts are just that...MINE..they aren't written  anywhere except my mind.(and now i share them).. i base them on my Master, my first Dominant ever within  the lifestyle who i was fortunate enough to find w/o even looking..and so i

just felt the need to write about my views on polyamorous life and how i deal with it having come from a monogomous vanilla lifestyle not so long ago....i met my Master soon after coming to. a BDSM chat site.... i fell in love with who He is and that involves His polyamorous  lifestyle...i accepted Him and His beliefs, and desires He has and His capacity for loving more than one, but it wasn't spontaneous nor is it easy...at first  i wasn't interested romantically speaking,in Him because of that...in my mind i  just  kept Him at a distance as  a friend to talk to.and get to know...eh, sometimes the heart just doesn't follow the minds thoughts . my submissive inner self was pulled to His Dominance and i found myself falling fast and hard and desperately in love with this Man.. i knew He had been living with His slave for a few years and even though she knew about me, at that time we hadn't been in contact much if at all..,i actually didn't know what to talk about, ..it still felt weird to me.. like i was doing something i shouldn't by being with Him and in the back of my mind is always the fact of my ex relationship of 22 yrs and his cheating on and, subtle controlling of me.... Master is the Dominant tho, and i respected His position... i read some articles about being poly  and i asked questions..once i was collared to Him the communication with His other  evolved easily in my mind,she was a part of Him. i was just myself......her and i seemed on the same page.. our desire to make Him happy and please Him.. serve Him.. and love Him..i accepted her as His, and my sister slave...its been almost 2 years owned and collared by Master.. i still struggle with the poly aspect...sometimes my monogomous side fights against the poly ways...i will be honest, there are times i wish things were different, and i was the only one,but they aren't .and i'm not...so i deal with it inside myself....i don't want to say i'm being jealous, however when i know there is another and Master has been with her i shrink within myself.. i know i do this and i know why i do this, but i cant seem to help it........i feel disconnected with Him.. i do a lot of thinking..sometimes not feeling so special thinking thoughts knowing He says things to others that He says to me . my mood get sullen..then  my mind questions and tries to reason with itself...why cant i have more than one if He can.. why aren't i enough for Him.. what am i not doing that He goes seeking others   (these are my mongomous thoughts talking in my head)..i know it stems from my past...i have to reason with myself..i somehow find the strength .and pull from deep inside the answers to these questions...the first one is rather simple...its not so much i can't love  another as i don't desire another...i have nothing left to give anyone else, my Master has all of me...i gave it to Him freely and happily long ago and will continue to do so...the  other two questions are answered in my mind as this, its not that i am  not enough, its not that i am doing anything wrong, its Him and who He is and His great capacity and need to love and be loved by more than one.. its Him and who i accepted  into my life..each time i go within myself because He has another i go through these thoughts all over  again, i go through the moods...... so yes i still struggle to totally understand my place in the poly home....i'm sure its not easy for Him to juggle His time to give us all some of Him  so i sit and wait... i was welcomed into His home for a month and his other slave and i got along fine..Wwe all shared a bed...it was easy...i felt comfortable there...its where i am in my mind...and where i belong...i now have another sister slave, as Master took her for His own...i have "met " her online and we chat.. we  too, seem to get along..we too, seem to be on the same page....if i could say anything to others i guess it would be to trust in yourself and the feelings you share with the polyamorous Dominant in your life...its all about Them.. about how much the desire to serve Them is..its about how to make Them happy..to remember your place and need  to please Them..to understand how important it is to Them for us all to get along(realizing all families have its ups n downs and disagreements) and not be jealous..its about the love and devotion you give to Them.. no its not so easy just being newer to the lifestyle to get your mindset into the poly aspect of it all... but its not impossible either..i am happy to be owned by Him..i think of Him, i breathe Him, i live for Him, i was meant for Him, i give all to Him,i adore Him, i trust in Him..and in these ways

it IS about me...i know i will be loved and cared for and nurtured for life by Him..accept,understand, relax and give willingly....and it will be easier...the struggles are still there , just faded by Him.