LordJ

tl;dr? people are real and have feelings, treat them as such, I don't care who you are or what you call yourself.

It's been about 10 months since my world was shattered, and I am by no means over it from an emotional stand point. I'm getting better day by day, it's easier to cope with the feelings of abandonment that come from your girlfriend/little of 6 years one day telling you that she loves you and showing you how special you are to her as her Daddy and her lover, and the next day leaving you alone, on the side of the road, 3000 miles from home knowing that you'll never see or talk to her again. The woman that you've poured your soul into, that everything you've worked towards with her in mind is suddenly gone. Not only does your past come down upon you crushing you and taking everything resembling joy and happiness from you, but the future you've worked and planned and dreamed of you're now forced to watch it burn before your eyes knowing that there is nothing you can do to quench the flames, you just have to let it burn everything you held dear until it burns everything out from inside you.    No matter how hard you try or how strong you are this will ruin the best of you and has destroyed some of the best of me.

Flash forward to the present, I've got a tenuous grasp on my emotions thanks to bottling them up over the last few months because if society's standards regarding men and emotions, but in this healing process I've tried making connections with people who I think would be healthy for me to cultivate a relationship and with whom I may find that part of me that I'd lost yet despite the fact that I'd taken the time to think through what I wanted to say and the care with which I wrote, not a single "woman" on this site with one possible exception has that the common human decency to at least write back and say, sorry not interested, or sorry, you're just not what I'm looking for.You may think you're superior, or better, but we're all human and all deserve to be treated with respect. Admittedly, respect comes in many forms, and being tied down and beaten with a cane can be a form of love and respect, so remember that.

I would like to use this platform not only to express my feelings and work towards healing myself, but also to ask that you remember that occasionally there's a living breathing person who has feelings on the other side of the computer screen. I ask this for my submissive brothers and sisters out there who are real, who are genuine, yet who are rejected in complete silence and sheer indifference.