LordDarkDesires

Well it has been a while since I whine bitch and ranted.  Not much to really say, numbed at this who experience lately.  Had one younger female wanting to explore Daddy and Lil together spoke for a month and than  poof she was gone.   I know I showered that day and even wore my best boxers with no holes are anything.   Must have been the all day sucker  lol

So is there one lady out there that wants one time experience, at least to start, of being my  sex slave  toy?   Lets see who answer and is serious about this

Find it interesting that all the ones willing to talk to me that are localish and not a bot wanting me to go to a pay site are all either in Iowa or East side of Mizzo.   I think that mean they are either up wind of me and  so do not smell my choice on cologne or it means my side of the state is  more in the closest and extremely pickish.   Ah the grass seems greener  should I test the theory out or just  carry on carrying on

Well I have been out of town on a trip.  I picked up a local alternative paper and thought what the heck I will respond to one of the ads.  Interesting results.  She was exactly like what she said she was,  she was as kinky as she said she was and she even showed up like she said she would.   Wow all my bitching for the last could years on this site and all I had to do is stop coming here and pick up and alternate paper in my local area. Who'd thunk.   Still there is hope for this site, just the other day I got a response just to tell me to FO and I was not her type.  That is progress.   I am beginning to think that more than 1% of the profile of females are real.  We may be at like 10% or something amazing.

Been looking for love in all the wrong places and maybe even the wrong lifestyle.

Well I had three different ladies actually contact me, instead of me contacting them.  It all seemed promising that I might find one out of the three that we clicked.  Two to three conversations later not one of them is online anymore.   I am guessing the moral majority needs to hire me to stop the spread of this lifestyle,  Wouldn't take more than a few years of chatting with all the females  on this sight and I could make a good dent in it since they all seem to disappear.  LMAO

This site is exciting can I have more please

Well I am totally confused.  Just when I think things have taken a turn for the good, poof the good is gone.   I had three different ladies  make contact with me on this site.  Highly unusual to start with, and all express some interest.   I answered question and told of how I proceed in things and that they were gone.  No good bye, no not interested no anything.   I had always thought part of what made this lifestyle so nice to be involved with is that there was always at least common courtesy.  Apparently that has changed over the last year or two as it seems to me that all parties In this lifestyle seem to have gotten more  rude and narcissistic.

So when a female puts a profile up that says looking and e-mail me, why do they also not add the disclaimer, that your age matters to me, your looks matter and your location matters.   Or make it simple and you say you want someone that looks like a god with the right muscles and build, has a soft sensual voice, that is within a couple years of you and is not really dominate because what you really want is just and aggressive male that will do the things you want them to do and just  not put people through crap.   Better yet just say anyone over a certain age has no value and should be ignored so no one will respond.    Wait, this is beginning to sound bitter, how dare I point out the stupidity of some of the profiles.  LOL

I must be doing better I have had seven people view me this week and one even  made a private message.  So cool

Good day today, had one person block me, one call me a moron, one even told me that i was making everything up and I am full of Shit.   I have not pissed off or upset this many in one day in a very long time.

Wow I have been a member since 2008 between the two profile. The one before this one that was hacked and this one.  I have a whooping four contacts in that time, but  to beat that low number I have a  whole bunch of - you're to old, you're to nice, you're to soft, and my all time favorite - you're to romantic.   Opposite of that was the one are two that called me sadistic and the one the called me just pervertedly fun. 

None of this however has gottne me what I am hoping to find.   Bummer.  So I will update again  when I get a new put down or brush off.  

Of course I have no way to count all the never answer messages are the fuk off and die replies and I love the mthe most.

I have decide that the idea of conversations is a lost art.  I have on many occasion tried to strike up a conversation and found out how quick that people just stop and never say another word, not even thanks but no thanks.  I kept looking for what is apparently not on this site when it comes to just be courtious (sp).

I was recently knights as a Sir Knight.

This use to be such a cool site to meet people talk and find a partner;  now not so much.

Well tired frustrated and not sure this site is for me anymore.  I have made some great friends here, and love them dearly, but honestly i think we all come here for the same thing.  To find that one person that we match up with so we can spend time with when not in the daily grind.   That seems not to have happens in the many years on here.  Several false starts several almsts,  but I have not just found that one that clicks. 

Really said as there are so many on here.

Well I thought things was going well and than the three girls just stopped chatting

Looking for a play parnter for Aug 31 to Sep 5th, can host at my place. 

I use to have fun in this site and have meet some really nice people in here.  Most with senses of humor  but still willing to ask the question needed asking, but lately it seems more and more people take everything said ot tpye literally.   That is sad that a person can not relax express humor and have fun in and with the lifestyle.

Take one perso nthat sent me this " Why would you post the pictures ytou have posted, don't you want to meet someone?"   Of course I do but you know if I  put up pictures by a professional photographer, that you will be expecting that person at every meeting not accept the fact everyone has one or two bad days.

So come people, relax and enjoy this chosen lifestyle.

Wow just not my week.  I have been have what I beleive to be fun open conversations with three ladies.  One was very serious I felt with lots of potential.  Now, nothing from what I can tell.   I think the phrase should with with age comes wisdon and experience in a lonely life.   I refuse to give up there has to be someon out there that will be more than three weeks of chatting and than gone.

I have come to the conclusion, and it is only my opinion, but is seems that the ffurther west you go from St Louis the less female submissive that are openingly looking, and the more suspiosu those in the lifestyle get.    It seems here in KCMO that there is less openess to just general ackownledging the lifestyle and to just have conversation.  Are if could be me

Well not looking at all seriously anymore.  If a female comes along that I click with, than I will embrace it.   I have found most all the ladies in my neck of the woods have been burned so many times that they enetered any conversation expecting the worst and make one mistake or off statment and they are gone.

Well I am now looking for a yonger women to explore life and lifestyle with.  Lost the person I had spent years with on a regular basis to a overseas job.  I need to start over.  Looking to fill and empty spot in heart and life.

Thinking of getting a sybian for any lady that ends up deciding to be the submissive I am looking for so she can pleasure her self for extended period 

On a positive note for a change.  Great new year.  Had fun with a small intimate group.  Got to do some video taping and even participated in some scenes.   Still looking though for that  female to complete me.

LOOKING for a LTR working into a 24/7. Must be younger than me open minded and adventurous. Now why is that such a hard thing to find or even get a conversation started with.

I find this site to be a pain in the ass at times.  I posted this just to see if all of those stating that age does not matter, that they are open minded and wanting sometthing to be 24/7.  Do not get me wrong if one honest  female had answer I would have embraced this possibleility fully, but I had over half say your to old sorry or well I have limits and I have these other requirements but I am  wanting a tpe. 

Come one now- really.   Okay done with my rant.   I will keep my latern buring and keep looking as that ancient greek guy  LMAO

Merry Christmas to all those on CM

Happy Holidays to all my fellow CM'rs and a spanking new year

An observation on life.  Those that know what and who they are are more open to those trying to find their way than those finding their way are tolerable to others also searching.  I have searched for a submissve for over a year now and have found some that want to really talk about it but run from totally honesty, I have found somethat do not want any conversatio nat all just use them now and I have found one that  are all about how the dominat looks as they want to be with a certain defined type of  dominat.

Any females out there want to go shopping  with me in the next few days.  Have a nice amount of extra money and want to blow it on a lady for lingerie and heels and boots type stuff

If serious drop me and note

In the darkest corners of our minds is where the depths of our primal desires and needs hide.   We all want to pull them out and explore them but have been so conditioned to hide them and resist them and ignore them that they frighten us when they surface.  Our sensuality and desire to explore this lifestyle therefore begins in the head and moves into the touch and out other sense.   I had a close family member that told me once as I became more involve in relationships that the first thing I had to do was to be smart enough to attract the girl’s brain, than her body would follow.  Those words hold true to this life style.  Let me get into your brain and your body with follow and you will find your dark desires.

Your challenge is to embrace that desire and to let yourself explore them.  I hope to find a female that knows she is submissive instead of female submissive.  Big difference.   I also hope to find a lady that has already learn to submit to herself first so that her submission to me will complete her.

LOOKING for a LTR working into a 24/7.  Must be younger than me open minded and adventurous.   Now why is that such a hard thing to find or even get a conversation started with.

I ask 5 ladies and five guys - both vanilla and lifestyle friends.  The question was simple - If I walked up to you and showed you 1000 in cash and asked only one thing.  What would you do to earn this  money what would you answer.

The ladies all looked for hidden  motives and what conditions were and asked a ton of things - all five of them.   Not one guy did, they had answers pretty fast.  Interesting lesson in how differently we think.

Had an interesting night at a fellow dominats place.  He decided to have a bunch of us over for cards and football.   Only requirement is to bring a submissive.   WhenI got there I understood why.  We were playing Dom Strip poker.  Interesitng game.   The Dom/Dommes play and the subs do the stripping.  The interesting part is the sub for the winning hand got to remove the piece of clothing from the loosing sub.   It has other interesting facets to it. 

One of his subs was in a gater stockign and heels  serving drinks and making sure the NFL game was on and all.

There was two that replied to my prior journal post and one was in the UK and one in Germany.  None even near  Kansas City.  That is so funny.

I will see if this gets read by any adventous female subbie/slaves.

I am willing to pay a very good summ of funds for a female willing to be shaved completely bald from head to toe and allow me to video tape it for my own pleasure later on.

If there is any out there I hope you  send me a private message

Had some really good conversation with two local ladies.  They both seemed very promising, but apparently, I was not  what they were looking for, so alas, still looking, leanring and enjoy the journey.

I have read some really interesting and well thought out journal entries on here lately.  It is refreshing to see some insight into the thinking of others concening this lifestyle.

Okay a rant here.  Lady get over yourself's.   When a Dom or Domme pays you a compliment or contacts you to make a comment, it does not mean they are trying to collar you automatically.  There are many of us out there that just are being complimentary.

I recently told a person I like the smile in there profile picte.  The lady went off on me explain everything she thought was wrong with me and why it would never work.   I had no intention of anything  other than complimenting the smile in the profile picture - not less, nothing more.

After many years on here or at least it seems that and meeting many great people, I think it is time to move along.   It is obvious to me that a brief reply or even a detailed reply is what a person will be judged on.  That is ashame as the person being judge maybe entirely different than a brief on time conversation online.  I know there have been several I have meet that had I judge them as others had judged me I would have missed out on some really cool people as friends. 

I have also come to the conclusion that many come on her as marriage or lifemate service and I am not seeking that at this time.  I do not rule it out, but I am not starting at that point either.  Many come on her looking for someone to tell them what they are looking for, I am also not that person so the chances for me to find a good match to even start a conversation is slimmed down tremendously.

I love the friends I have from here and have enjoyed the conversation greatly, but this place is not geared for helping me find what I seek.  I know this as I have tried many and various approaches to convey my wants and have only found those willing to tell me what I am doing wrong and how they would never talk to me while they are talking to me.  Do not get me wrong several of those have become friends.

My profile will be up for a while longer and than I will move along, thanks for the good  times.

An observation I have noticed, a persons reputation is easy harmedo n here, sometimes ruined, but it is never enchanced or made on here.  Just an interesting observation.

There is a thin sliver light between pain and pleasre and a good relations betwee a Master and his submissive live in the thin sliver

Have had very nice coinversations with two ladies from on here.   I have hope that this will reap firendship and maybe more that will provide us with what we are looking for.