LittleTimeThief

Female Submissive, 48, Seymour, Georgia

Female Submissive, 26, Anytown USA, Ohio

Female Submissive, 24

Winter can't figure out if it's coming or going. I miss being in the weeds and on the bike. So come on spring, would even love to get the boat out.

Well, I have finally come to admit that I sincerely suck at bowling. Joined a league back in September I was hit or miss back then. Got better, and here we are three quarters of the way through the league and I am just beyond pathetic...It's horrible...You know whats amusing a straight bowler trying to teach herself how to hook the ball at the end of the season because her straight game has become so bad its embarrassing... What kind of player am I? The one that keeps the handicap alive!!! LMAO....

Sorry I haven't been very chatty these days. Lot of things changing in my life, and I've never truly been great with major changes.  = (

"If love could have saved you, you would have lived forever." Funny how sometimes you find solace in an animal more then a person. Each time I am cooking dinner I look to a spot he had to lay in. Despite getting yelled at constantly because he made it nearly impossible to set the table without climbing over his 70 pound form.  Or look at my towel after I've dried my hair. He'd always try and steal my towel so he could roll on it. I understand its only been a week, but when your a person who has lost so many people, so many things in your life. Each one takes a little bit more of you. I'm trying to find just contentment these days. I have a four and six year old who seem chipper about it. Say they miss him but that he's in Heaven now. In there minds Heaven is an amazing place where there is no sickness and no pain. It's sweet really, but all I think of is that he's gone just like everyone else.  I feel so lost, and alone despite everyone who tries to make me feel better.

This weekend I lost my dog of ten years. It has been devastating, and I'm really not ok. Unfortunately and fortunately at the same time I don't have the luxury to just crawl into a hole which is the only thing I want to do. He was everything to me. We tried so hard to fight his illness, but in the end he just couldn't fight anymore. Sometimes I wish I didn't have to fight so damn hard. It has been an exhausting and sad Christmas for me. I just need to piece my shit together for my girls.

Experiences are the best thing you could do for yourself. I've had a good number of years heavily in the life style. I miss a lot about it, mostly I miss the feeling I had with a Dominant I trusted with my life and my decisions. For submissive out there, never forget that takes a bond far more then simple infatuation. That is your decision, so please take time in it. I've fallen pray as many others have. But there are Dominant's out there worth every ounce of your obedience and trust. To me my favorite thing was kneeling at someone's feet. Laying my cheek upon his thigh while he watched tv, or read. Or even had the dinner I made for him. The simplest things were amazing to me. I loved to be a good girl, it was what I worked at. My pain came more from play then punishment.  Anyhow, lol. Not really sure that tale, I was only going to say I had an awesome time in Delaware this weekend. I love hiking, biking, kayaking and anything outdoors. For those who are like minded. Check out Rail Explorers, they are currently in Hockessin, DE. Not a very long ride, but an awesome experience!

Well, spring is finally here. Hopefully to stay, so after a great camping weekend it's officially time to start shedding some weight. Food change time, and getting into a biking and kayaking schedule. It's always easy to start, but keeping the motivation isn't easy. So I'm hoping to keep it up.

A few days ago someone asked me to share an experience of my own. It was nice to remember some older memories, thought I would share it with whomever decides to read my journal.So here is part of my return email. ^.^ Experiences huh? That's definitely a loaded question to be sure.  I think a fun experience was in my youth, I think I was 19 and my good friend lived just south of NYC who has a very large public community named TES there is a long title but T.E.S is the abbreviation. Anyhow, it was Christmas time and I had never been to NYC despite living in upstate NY my entire life. So my friend invited me to his hometown where we could have just taken the Metro North into the city. So I was excited to see Rockefeller Center and Macy's at Christmas time. ( Spoiler - totally not anything special. ) Anyhow TES has informative classes for people don't really know the lifestyle or more physical aspects of it. If I recall correctly the title of the class was Corporal Punishment - How to read your partner. My friend who was extremely Vanilla decided he'd come with me. I was never very shy about who I was back then. Turns out, we ended up in NYC right as the subway decided to take a strike. So we walked over 100 blocks to get there, but anyhow.   The instructor was a male sadist who had a flogger, cat'o'nine tails, and a single tail whip. But because of the strike two of his submissive's cancelled on him. So he only had one, and he made a funny, joking off hand comment that he'd just look to the class for volunteers. I think he was taken back a bit when I clearly rose my hand and said I'd love to participate. He stumbled his words a bit, as we've never ever played together and he had no idea how i'd have reacted. But in fairness he said he'd think about it, it was really just a joke.    So the class went on, he had a larger woman as the submissive she wined at every tiny strike. So I thought it would be more painful then anything. But after he went through everything we took a break and chatted he looked at me and ask if I really wanted to try? So I was so into it. He asked if I had ever experienced this before, and at the time. I had never tried any of it. Which I'm sure made him more apprehensive but I was totally ready. I removed my shirt so I was standing infront of 15 people in a black lace bra and some black slacks. He started with a deer skin flogger which feels amazing, almost like a damn massage. So he just kept going and I wasn't really giving him big reactions. I think he thought i'd be a bit softer with it. But someone made a funny comment and I just started laughing. It was fun, when he realized, and well we both realized my pain tolerance was a lot higher. So by the end of the regular flogger he was pulling back for full swings. Working up a sweat.   Then came the 6 tail braided piece. I wasn't as brave with that one. Each hit I'd favor the side, it hurt much more but I still enjoyed it. In away it was great for the class to see how different my reactions were to the first submissive. I was DEFINATELY more of a pain slut for sure. The last was the single tail whip left a few good marks right between my shoulders. It was an awesome night for me, he slipped me his card and messenger id said if I ever wanted to play. On break I went into the bathroom to see the marks on my back turns out I was SOAKED. In retrospect I wish I had taken him up on the offer for a playmate. I think it would have been great.

Well it has come to my attention that I have to literally say this to some of these individuals.  If you have nothing nice to say lets remember its normally better not to say anything at all. ESPECIALLY, when it just a random email to get ahold of me. Why waste your time, writing an obnoxious childish message to me? Then tell me if I'm bored to get a job. Seriously, anyone who messages me doesn't know anything about me except for a small snip of my life that I've written in my profile. So spare me the wasted time as well. Keep your bull shit to yourself. Be rude to someone who is interested in something like that. Just because I am a submissive doesn't mean you have to be down right mean to me. Especially when you have no idea who I even am.  I like humiliation, I like flogging, hell I even like objectification but that doesn't mean I like jackasses. Save your breath next time and anyone else who obviously doesn't agree with what I've written or who they think I am. I am what I want to be. My job has endless hours and no paycheck, but I assure you I am not bored in my life nor do I have endless time. So excuse my discourse but I am a person too and I have the wealth of lovely emotions just like you. Do not waste my time, and as pathetic as some comments seem to be waste your time elsewhere.

I want the weather to stop being stupid. I really want to get outside and do everything!

Two sick Children and sleep do not go hand in hand. Not to mention the weather can't seem to figure out what its doing. = / I had to cancel my camping trip this weekend which saddens me a bit. But I just pushed it off a week, will be awesome to check out my new Kodiak Canvas tent.

Just uploaded a few more pictures of myself. For those of you who may not have noticed but I have always been somewhat tomboyish. Don't quite feel very comfortable in the girlier things. Just me I guess, not that I don't wear skirts or dresses. It's just a bit few and far between. I'm excited for the weather change. Soon I'll be able to get back out on my bike. I love biking, normally go 15 to 20 miles three or four days a week. Get to add Kayaking into my weekly work out. Get back in gear, shed some of the winter weight would be nice!

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