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I am looking for a Mistress or a Sir. Thats a female Sir. NO MEN!! i am a sub boi and yes that is a change for me, but something that has been in my heart all my life. My last Mistress loved that change in me and encouraged it. i love it. So if that is what you are looking for then i maybe the one.
READ THE LATEST JOURNAL ENTRY :)
i've been in this lifestyle for 25 years, and have had my fill of people on here that tell me what they want and well, lets just say that many are wannabes, because when it comes down to it when we meet in real life, it's all about *sex*. Sorry folks, but this lifestyle is not all about sex, and that's NOT what i want nor am i looking for. If the relationship grows that way, then its fine, but otherwise, if you say on your knees and pleasure me right off, i know where your head is, and it's not where mine is going. errrr should i say mouth?
I was trained in High formal protocol. Which means i probably will be looking for a long time. Sad to say the one that trained me, probably ruined me and she agrees, because i continue to look for just that, and *that* meaning protocol is hard to find these days, i know my serves, positions among other things, and am a domestic as well. So this is what I am looking for:
A Butch woman or Mistress that is already trained and i don't have to tell her what to do to me.
Kinda takes the fun out of for me and my headspace. i don't like to Top from the bottom but i've had to do it so much , i forget my place sometimes, lol. i need someone to take that place for me, to take that control.
Someone that is *really* in the leather lifestyle and not in it for the play. I like play don't get me wrong, and especially spanking, but there is more to this lifestyle then beating someone or flogging them.
By leather lifestyle i mean someone that knows what "earning your leather" means.
I want someone that believes in corporal punishment.
I want someone that has Intergrity, that is honest and trustworthy. You lie to me, it's a dealbreaker for me.
Does not matter that you are married, i have been in relationships before and am very poly. I am lesbian, altho i am married, but we are roommates, he's a woman in a mans body he says, lol. He knows all, so don't worry about that. There is something about "dangly bits" that i just can't get past, lol.
If you already have a sub, i would not be the one for you, as i was trained to be alpha, and do not do well as a beta, just being honest here up front. i have tried it in the past, and there is no sense going there now, unless of course we already know each other and connect. It happens sometimes!
The thought of belonging to 2 women is one of my dreams, but it's not come true yet, lol.
When i serve, i serve with 110% of my ability. Most of the time i give more than i get back and that is ok, as long as i know that the one i belong to takes care of me when i need to be. Some people say it's all about the Dominant, and it's not. If it were not for us slaves/sub, there would be nothing for the Dominants to do, so to me it's about both sides, not equally, but you have to have that trust that it will happen.
i love taking care of the one i belong to, shopping, massages, pedicures, whatever they want.
i want someone that has no problem communicating what is needed, that can carry on a normal conversation and wants to do things outside of the lifestyle too. i tend to be bratty at times and need to be kept in hand so to speak lol.
i know this sounds like a lot of wants and need..but i have been burned so many times by people that i need to make sure my ground is covered. i know i won't get all that i want, but 2 out of 3 won't be bad. :)
I am not looking to serve a Master/Male Dom. Please don't ask.
I AM NOT LOOKING FOR A MALE SUB PERIOD. ANY EMAILS TO ME WILL BE DELETED AND NO RESPONSE WILL BE SENT OUT. i am a submissive, not a Mistress, i can't understand why male subs can't get that through their heads!
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I am not really looking, but if the right person came along who knows what might happen.  |
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i am updating my journal because i am very happy. i thought i would never find another person that could fulfil my needs in full protocols and be loving, caring and consistent in being with me as my Trainer V was. i could shout from the rooftops if i could. i'm very happy that i found the right Mistress for me and that i can be the person that i was trained to be and learn more from her protocols as well. My slavehood is not only great, but it's challenging and fun. She's sadistic but very creative in the way she does things. This girl never knows what is going to happen next and i love every minute of it.
Even tho i have disabilites that sometimes keeps me from being with her or serving her, she finds ways around it to keep me going. She understands and still wants to be with me :)
We are taking it slow, learning about each other and she is training me to be hers in every way. i love learning her rituals and protocols and like the fact that she is consistent.
Ok, that is all now for this happy slave girl.
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The heart is healed, my heart is strong. It takes awhile and that is not to say that she will not forever have a part of my slave journey. i've moved on and have allowed myself to heal and find someone that will take what i have to offer and use it. It's been so long, so many years that i have not been able to use my training fully, that i am so excited that i have found someone that "understands" that part of me and is willing to try and work with me on it. Who knows where it will go, but for now..things are moving slowly and we will see where it will go. So for now...i'm no longer looking. i not only found the one...i found a household to fit in. We are still working out the details, but i foresee it happening in the near future. This girl is all smiles.
What i had before was great, it ended sadly, but i am stronger for it. i WILL be the slave i am, i WILL not let that get me down.
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Sometimes it takes the heart a little harder to heal. The time i had with my Mistress will never go away. i try and forget her, but that is not an easy road. You can not take a year of service and toss it out the window. What i had i will cherish forever. Her face and her smile will be stamped on my heart for eternity. Even tho we can not be together anymore, a day never passes that i don't think of her.
So, please folks give me the time i have asked. Yeah, it's been two months since we parted ways, is that long enough for a heart to mend? i try and do things to take my mind off of it, but it doesn't work, i tried to play and get spanked but well that didn't work either so for now, i will work on healing. When the time comes, i will be ready.
She is a very beautiful and wonderful lady and i hope that she finds the right boy/girl for her in the future. She deserves it.
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Things are not easy after a release, even tho it was mutual your heart still hurts. To those that keep messaging me, thanks for your kind words, but i am not looking to be collared or to serve at this time. i may serve those i already know in this lifestyle locally to keep in condition, but i have no desire to become someone elses sub/slave.
What i do wish for is someone to talk to and maybe set up a play date for some spanking fun. Spanking to me is a release of pain, as the endorphins release all that anguish i am feeling.
So, if you are interested in just "playing" then i may be interested in meeting you.
i'm not looking for long term anything. Some of my interests are spanking, anal play, waxing, roleplay. Just let me know!
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i have been released from my collar as of 1-8-08, it was not easy kneeling before my Mistress for her to take it off, but the time has come for us to take leave of being Mistress and slave. It was a good year, and we both have been blessed with each other. We both still love one another and will still be very much a part of each others lives. She is a grand and beautiful woman and she has taught me many things and maybe one day, we will return to the M/s relationship, but for now, we will be the friends we were in the beginning. i'm not lost to her forever, a part of her will always be in my heart, and i in her's. Thank you Ma'am for a wonderful year.
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My beautiful Mistress has allowed me to take on a girl to train. i was trained by a wonderful Trainer in Florida, and now i'm passing this on to this girl. It's bringing back a lot of memories since i've not been able to use my training in the last few years, so i'm really enjoying it. She's a fast learner and i'm really proud of her so far. For me, male subs just don't want to really learn or be a "true sub" they are more "do me" subs, they want played, they want CBT, but when you mention house or yard work, they run. i've had this girl for 2 weeks, and i have yet to play her once. She's earned a good scene because she has never mentioned to me "play" at all, it's been about serving and what she can do for me or my Mistress or my husband. She will make someone a good sub someday.
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I have found the one for me! i now belong to Mz SweetnJewcy. She has made me very happy and i her. So i'm no longer looking, but if it's just friends that you are looking for, then i'm open to that. i wish you luck in finding that special someone for you! |
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Ladies,
Just a note..please be careful when meeting men on these venues. i met a male Dom (he said he was NOT), got to know him, went over limits, and such, agreed upon our play, and when he got me alone, he did whatever he wanted. Please, please be careful. It seems a lot of men, use our beautiful lifestyle to get sexual fun from us, that are serious about it. i was hurt, and have turned totally against men for this reason...it was as close to rape as you can get..so please be careful....have safecalls in place.
i did...that's probably what saved me. |
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