lisalollipop069

I have been away from collarme and and the like for a while now, and it's time to come back, to resume my search for whatever it is that I'm looking for.

Due to life circumstances, which I won't get into at the moment, I feel like I'm missing something. Whether that is indeed a partner, I do not know. What is clear is that I lack the objectivity required to help myself and fix whatever it is that's wrong with me.

What I'm looking for is someone who is local, understanding, at least a little bit knowledgeable, and probably of the dominant persuasion that can act as, at the very least, a mentor to help guide me to a better place. 

I feel my first journal entry is very relevant to my situation and what I'm feeling again, so I refer you specifically to that at this time.

As I'm more interested in talking to you and getting to know you as well as you getting to know me, I will leave it at that. Feel free to ask questions, just please be respectful.

UPDATE: Just gonna change around my profile. The old one is now a journal entry.

Hello there world! I present myself to you as Lisa. 

ACTIVELY SEEKING:

1. Any Edmonton area females, domme, sub or otherwise, who would like to have a panty party. We hang out at my house in panties. If interested, please send me a message and we can work out other details, including other activities that would happen!

2. A strong dominant female willing to sponsor me to relocate me to anywhere that isn't in Canada for the summer for full feminization. That means I want to live in your house, do your chores, whatever, as a full woman. Please message me to discuss full details.

3. Anyone who wants to follow me/has a good blog to follow on tumblr! My blog is http://iwishthiscouldbereal.tumblr.com/ and I hope to meet more people there!

Have a great day!

Hello there world! I present myself to you as Lisa. 

I apologize in advance for the slight deception, I am indeed a boy, and do indeed wish to remain a boy in my day to day life, but for what I am looking for from here, I wish to be referred to as a girl.

What this all boils down to is that I've never been able to be really sexual and open, or embrace myself in that way. I'm always finding excuses to avoid it or hiding who I really am, and I barely even know who that is. In almost every other aspect of my life I know who I am and what I want and where I'm going except in this one, and I struggle with finding those things out. This is where you might come in.

I've come to the conclusion that the best way to find out all of these questions that I've been asking myself is to find someone to be open with. Find someone with whom I can share my deepest darkest fantasies and desires, all the things I've kept secret from even past partners at every cost. Just sort of dive in head first into something that frightens me beyond compare.

I'd like to have a relationship with a woman who will dress me up in girly clothes and play with me like her doll and all sorts of things related to that. For the purpose of full disclosure, this person would ideally be an older woman who would like to be a sort of mother figure to me, although I'm not overly picky about who fills this role or how, just as long as it's a woman. Sub, domme, doesn't matter. Just someone who is understanding of my situation and would like to help me to change it.

I'm not necessarily looking to dress up in public, and I actually would prefer to be fairly discreet about all of this. I can understand if whoever I eventually find here would get me to do so as part of getting me to be able to express and be myself at some point, but definitely not right now.