lilsublauren

Guys, school is crazy right now... If Im not answering immediately now you know why... 

Guys, please do not write me one sentence emails. It is really hard to start a conversation from that. And please please please ask me something more than do I enjoy sex. I want a relationship based on more than that.

If you are meant to be in the lifestyle, you will find that, where you were once only walked through life, you will be gliding on air. Parts of you that never were complete will then become whole. In relinquishing control, I have found freedom: freedom to find and be the person I am inside.

New Beginnings :)

Just to let everyone know... i am not ignoring anyone, i am preparing for finals and i am completely swamped. ill try to answer emails over break... hope everyone is well

<3 lilsub

In the beginning I was fooled by Dominants who were good looking, had charisma, dressed well, and had that "dominant" personae. I soon realized that these things are easy to fashion. Real Dominance is a deep and visceral thing, something that has nothing to do with the trappings of BDSM. -- Sensuous Sadie

The true strength of a woman is not measured by her compliance to being shackled to a bed that becomes a fortress of solitude, but her willingness to submit her very heart and very soul.

Woman was created from Man's rib; Not made from His head to top Him; Nor from His feet to be trampled; But from His side to be His equal, Under His arm to be protected, And near His heart to be loved.

~Submission is not about being used, submission is about being of use. submission is not about what is done to you, submission is about what you do for others "Strong men simply need women. This will never be understood by weak men. A strong man needs a woman at his feet, who is truly his. Anything else is less than his fulfillment.~

I want to put myself absolutely at your mercy for good or evil without any condition, without any limit to your power. -- Leopold von Sacher-Masoch

What a month, I needed the time. Hopefully something good will come from it... We shall see where life takes me now :) I hope that this month did what it was intended to do...

Im taking a break from all this for 30 days...

Is feeling very lost today... I know i messed up but im not sure how to fix it, for now I guess I wait..............................

My body hungers to be put to use, doing what a woman does best, pleasing a man...

"If you are meant to be in the lifestyle, you will find that, where you were once only walked through life, you will be gliding on air. Parts of you that never were complete will then become whole. In relinquishing control, I have found freedom: freedom to find and be the person I am inside."

"In a sense, you will find that it does not matter what stance you take in bondage and discipline games. Either role done well transcends into the other, and to be done well both require trust."
~ Lady Ravinia

Thou art to me a delicious torment.
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

Pain in itself is only sensation and it is our attitudes of resistance to it, and fear, that make it uncomfortable. These attitudes are conditioning and can be released, or simply traded for more fulfilling attitudes. Acceptance and gratitude. Offer it love, instead.

“The best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of others.”

No kind of senstation is keener and more active than pain its impressions are unmistakable...

To have someone give you control of their bodies and minds, to be entrusted with the responsibility to take care of them, to have someone willing to suffer for you, to forsake pride and dignity to please you... what other gift in this world can possibility equate to that?  And more importantly, what makes you worthy to receive it?

Discipline gives total freedom; it allows you to go beyond limitations, to break through boundaries and reach the highest goal.

Respect The Lady
Use And Thoroughly Abuse The Slut
Protect The Little Girl
And You Will Own The Heart, Body, And Soul Of The Woman
Capture The Mind...The Rest Will Follow
-Author Unknown-

Worry is no more than fear. Fear you'll lose something you have, or fear you won't get something you want. Worry is fear. No more, no less. And fear is the absence of faith. If you truly, deeply, honestly have faith then you have nothing in the world to worry about.

i cant believe how much my outlook has changed in only a matter of weeks. Others have tried, unsucessfully i might add, to persuade me to attempt anal sex, though none have come close. Yes Daddy has in less than two months turn me into an anal slut. Daddy took the time to teach and train me, and made the expirence incredible. i am shocked at the pleasure Daddy is able to give me purely from anal sex.

My Daddy has quite successfully turned me into an anal slut. And im completely happy with it :)

Finds it funny what things will come out of your mouth while your in sub space... :)

According to my mouth I am changing from a sub to a slave, lol.

"I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don?t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don?t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, taken, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding."

For the first time, I desire to be collared. To be called his, and know that I am. I had to think alot about it. But I am ready to have that commitment between us. I am ready to be yours.

<3 lil sub

I just had the best night spent with sir. I am so happy to be able to serve him. I am a very lucky sub, to have been choosen by him. I look forward to pleasuring sir again soon.

<3 lil sub

I had the best night. I enjoyed every min, as I always do. This has come so fast, and I cant be happier. I enjoy taking care of Sir, and I will continue to do so. Have to wait til the weekend to see him again... But Im so happy =]

<3 lil sub

Had the best first night, Sir made me feel wanted, needed and protected. He feels all my needs by allowing me to take care of him. I sat on my knees looking at him wanting nothing more than to make him happy. And pleasuring and making Sir happy, I found my happiness.

<3 lil sub