lilpammy

for all you wonderful or not so wonderful people out there, i do not appreciate seeing your penis or vag in my email box. i thank you for the thought. but if that is the best thing you can show about yourself to me, im not interested. i would rather get to know the person that you are not the body you have.  thanks for understanding.

lilpammy

(wonders if anyone will actually take the time to read this and understand)

been doing really good. job has been going well and i have made alot of new friends. the changes in my life are moving smoothly and the transition from one season to the next is almost tolerable. i do have to say that i am happy. i am not sad for those that are leaving my life cause i know they will never be forgotten.

Had a wonderful 4th of July. got to watch fireworks with friends and the "little" inside me was howling with delight. the full moon made it all that more awesome to be outside. the weather was nice it was a soft cool breeze which was totally welcomed after the very hot day outside.

Dear Future Daddy Sir,

i still sit her awake at night wondering what it would be like to curl up with you in the evening and watch tv. i crave the cuddles from your warm strong arms wrapped around me. to hear your heart beat in your chest as i lay my head on you. i am but a humbled little girl waiting for you to come find me. i have slowly started to clean away all the excess baggage in my life to make room for you. i promise that once you find me i will be a pleasant daily reminder of how wonderful your life could truly be with me in it. until we meet Future Daddy Sir i will leave a candle in the window sill so that you can follow the light to my warm loving heart.

your little girl,

pammy

having kinda of an emotional day.  the days are drawing closer when my play partner will be leaving me to go back to his life in another state. it saddens me to think i wont be able to visit him and have his firm strong hands on my body. i love the way he caresses me after a good session and speaks to me softly. on the other hand i crave the way hes a total jerk when hes trying to push my buttons. i hope that we can find me a loving DaddyDom that will treat me half as good as he has. i hope that the new Daddy will understand the special place in my heart that this person holds. my play partner will remain a permanent part of my life  taking on a mentor role when he leaves. my heart aches for him when hes not around and i only hope that this little heart of mine will be filled with the love only and DaddyDom can consume.

Dear Future DaddyDom,

life is getting very busy. work is awesome. i love the new job. i am gonna miss my play partner and i only hope that You DaddyDom will be the one to fill that void in my soul that craves your attention and strong guidance. till we meet. im here learning and training to be a starting point for your pleasure.

lilpammy

yeppers  today was a good day  just like i thought it would be. had a wonderful lunch with a nice person ( thankies  you know who you are).

ok so Future DaddySir,

please i am pleading and begging for you to make yourself known to me. this flippin world is not as fulfilling without having someone to learn and grow with. like i said before  I AM NOT PERFECT. i have alot of training to go through to be remotely anything worth keeping. but for you MR. DaddySir i am willing to put aside all of my stupid childish woos and be that little person you need and desire. please come soon. i am tired of not having you to tuck me in at night as i lay next to you. i crave being able to make your breakfast in the morning and help you with all your daily issues. i desire to be taught by your hand all about how to please you and make my self pleasing to you.

thank you

lilpammy

today is another day.

i woke up and had a wonderful day so far. Kinda sad cause my Playpartner is leaving texas soon and i will miss him terribly. Still on the hunt for a LTR DaddySir. I swear so many fakes and so much drama. Its hard to weed through all the bullshit to find the gem hiding there. I know i am not perfect and im sure i need to work on a few things myself, so that i may be pleasing to the DaddySir that finds me. so here goes on and on for the search for that hiding gem.

lilpammy

so i got in trouble again the other day. i went to go see my Play partner and had a hickey/mark on my neck. He got mad and made me write slut on my neck where the mark was and post the picture for everyone to see how horrible i have been. i guess either im gonna learn how to be a good little girl or im going to be humiliated a bunch.

Sorry for what i did and i promise i wont do it again.

ill be a good little girl.

lilpammy

ok i completely understand that life gives you lemons and your supposed to make lemonaid.  but why in the hell are people always walkin up and pissin in my lemonaid. for real people please come on.  cant i just get a break once. im not askin for much. just one little break.

lilpammy

today i have learned that intimacy can be achieved without physical contact. the intense connection between two people in love is so extreme that without physical contact they still achieve that intimate feeling.  i so crave more and more.

Dear Future Daddy Sir,

just wanted to say howdy lol. its me again. i was listening to a song today and it made me think of you. wasnt intended to be about BDSM, it was a christian song about the love between a girl and her faith. but all i could think about was me and you. heres what it said you tell me what you think when you find me.

The more i seek you,
the more i find you
The more i find you, the more I love you

I wanna sit at your feet
drink from the cup in your hand.
Lay back against you and breath, feel your heart beat
This love is so deep, it's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace, it's overwhelming

still waiting to hear those special words from you Daddy Sir,

your little angel,

pammy

welp last night was interesting. i was with a Dom friend of mine and found myself on the awesome end of a few lashes. its always nice to get playtime when theres no expectations placed on you. just pure fun.

Dear Future Daddy Sir,

the sound of your voice runs ramped in my mind. i actually craved and missed hearing from you today. i know you were probably busy but the little girl inside wanted that special time. dreaming of you having play sessions with me are more vivid each night that i get to know you more. i want to know what it feels like to have your hands on my body, to feel the ting of pain on my flesh as you whip my body. the feel of extreme want as you prepare my body for your use alone. remember Future Daddy Sir i am a beautiful little girl when im speckled and bruised. lol  welp hope i get to know you soon.

still waiting to be yours,

lilpammy

Dear future Daddy,

today i get to show you what a good top i am learning to be. i have a short story of what i would do if you would let me have the chance to top.

as you kneel before me i place my hand behind your head and push you into my already dripping wet center. i hold your head tight and allow you to taste the rewards of the hard work you put me through earlier. i pull you up off the floor and shove you to the bed. throwing you down on it. i grab the flogger from out of your case. swinging like you taught me i swoosh it through the area several times. the wind from the swing caresses your stomach with soft coolness. you smile at me and tell me to remember who Daddy is and what he respect he deserves. i giggle and with a hard swing i slap the flogger across your belly. back and forth i swing with all my might at the strong alpha male i have imprisoned. i sweep the flogger down your thighs. i drop the toy of the floor and kneel infront of you . with warm soft kisses i work my way up your thighs. kissing inch by inch on your flesh deep and deep down your inner thigh. placing my hands between your thigh i spread them violently. a small smile creeps across my face. i start to nibble on the inner thing working higher and higher to your member. i place myself between your legs. i softly grasp your member and lick from the bottom of your sack to the tip of your member. kissing the tip with warm wet lips. holding him firmly in my hand i start to lick from side to side flicking my tongue across the tip. i can feel your body tensing up and enjoyin my touches. i stop suddenly and begin my kisses up your belly, pressing my breasts around your member as i make my way to your chest, neck nibbling softly. stradling you to gain better leverage, i begin to kiss your lips. with small sensual sucks on the bottom lip. i place my body directly above your member. allowing my juices to run down my thighs to your hips. i softly and slowly lower my body ontop of your member   impaling my tight dripping hole.  i allow just the head to enter my body and move slowly up and down, never allowing you to go past the head. i sit straight up on my knees with just the head inside me and i begin to caress my own breasts. i reach for the paddle beside your body and i softly but firmly strike your nipples. see the bright redness forming you bit your lower lip and thrust your hips higher in the air. i can feel you enter deeper inside me and i moan loudly  AHHH PAPI and press my nails into your chest. NO NO PAPI i scream louder. i feel you yerning for more than the tease i am providing. i grabb your hand and thrust them above you and raise higher off of you. i give you the stern look and dismount your now throbbing spear. i grab the flogger and begin to sting your thighs for punishment of taking what didnt belong to you at that moment. i yell at you  Daddy did i say you could have this pussy. you may own it but i control it. i swing harder and harder . working my way higher and higher. i swing with all my might and slapp your now swollen nipples. hard and hard i beat them. then with the last strike i say. Daddy beg for this pussy to surrender to you. begg Daddy Begg.  you start to plead and beg. when all the sudden a light switches in your head and you throw me to the bed and mount me. you slam my wrist into the bed and whisper in my ear. babygirl is mine. now cum for me. i begin to moan and moan. you slam your strong stiff member inside my tight wet hole with no regard to pain. harder and harder you pound at me deeper and deeper you grin. i start to feel a small tear form in the corner of my eye.  you notice and smile,   OH babygirl you like this dont you. Harder and Harder you fuck this poor little girl beneath you. once you feel the flow of cum flood from your body you lean into me and i whisper in your ear. thank you Daddy for making me the happiest little girl on earth. i am forever yours and for you i will always be the little top you need me to be.  good night Daddy

little pammy

today is a wonderful day, why? because i say so.  and nothing other than good will shall prosper in my life today.  i will be a blessing to others even if they dont deserve it. i will walk in love and grace. i will hold my head high and love myself for everything i have come through. today is my fresh beginning.

Dear Future Daddy Sir,

just wanted to say i had an awesome morning until the dog decided to rain i mean pee on my parade. she decided to come in the house from outside and pee on my bedroom floor. i konw right!! how dare she.  but any ways  would have been nice is for you to be here to comfort me and laugh at me as i rub carpet cleaner into the floor, but then again you still havent found me. your still far far away somewhere searching for me, just as i am you. i hope today is better for you. i hope you are having a wonderful morning. would have been nice to wake up and make you breakfast in bed and serve you . please Daddy Sir find me soon, mornings are just unfulfilled with out you here.

still waiting, your obedient babygirl,

little pammy

day dreams of a masochist babygirl,

you call me into the living room in a very serious tone, using my full birth giving name. i know now i am in deep shit. i keep replaying the last couple of days over and over in my mind thinking what have i done wrong. i cant come up with anything. i see you sitting there stern look on your face and concern fills my body. you order me to kneel at your feet. i walk slowly toward you get on my knees place my hands on my thighs and look straight at your legs without making eye contact. you look down at me and grab me by my ponytail and pull me to my feet.  i begin to plead and scream, why are you doing this what have i done wrong, what ever it was i promise i will do better Daddy. tears start to form and you pull me into the garage where you have been working all day. i look around thinking what in the hell did i not put away, what did i mess up. you drag me by my hair roughly and throw me over the tall tool box. the pain in my stomach is almost too much to bare and i begin to plead for forgiveness. you demand silence.  you grab the knife on the work bench next to you and begin to tear away the clothing from my body. tears of shame start to flood my face. you tell me to place my hands on the top of the tool box and not to move. you walk away. my mind is racing and emotions run ramped in my body. what the hell is going on keeps repeating in my mind. what seems like forever you return with your toy case. confused i begin to get terrified. am i being punished?  not daring to risk asking any questions i lay there still, hands beside my head. the next moment took me by complete surprise as i felt the stingy pain of your cane against my ass. i screams loudly, tears begin to flood down my face, unable to catch my breath i feel the second, third, fourth swings from you mighty hands. you begin to rub the welps now forming on my body with your hands. the pain is completely unimaginable. growing weak in my legs i begin to tremble before you. i feel the thud of your paddle again my bare ass and i jump. you begin to laugh a bit and im confused. after what seemed like a session with every toy in your case you allow me to stand and force me to the room. pain over coming every inch of my body i can hardly walk. you thrust me on my belly on the bed and spread my legs wide. you lay beside me and whisper in my ear. Babygirl you are the most beautiful thing i have ever seen. i am so proud of you. you have done everything i have asked and for that i am grateful. you begin to caress the now bleeding welps on my back and thighs. i feel the warmth and love from you hands. you pull me closer and kiss my forehead and look into my eyes. you tell me one thing that i have wanted to hear for a long time. Daddy is givin you one request  anything you desire you shall have it.  i think long and hard and from deep inside my soul i utter the only thing i have desired forever. Daddy the only thing i desire is to serve and be yours. this one thing i ask if you will grant me. Please Daddy let me belong to you and only for you. With an approving smile you look down at me and reply

Good answer little one.

Just recently i cam across a profile and on his journal he had written a letter to his future subby/bottom/love of his life.  so i thought i would do the same. this letter will be the things i desire for my dream Daddy/Dom/ love of my life.

Dearest Daddy Sir,

last night while laying in bed i was just thinkin how nice it would be to have you tuck me in and give me nighty night kisses, to feel your strong arms tucking the blankets around me. as i closed my eyes i almost felt your soft kisses on my forehead. as the small tear formed in my eye i knew it wasnt real. you Daddy Sir are not here yet and i am still waiting. getting dressed up in my prettiest dress and my cutest shoes and those piggy tails in my hair would be fun to do for You alone. Sneaking into the room at night crawling into bed and whispering in Your ear " Daddy Sir, can i make your night more pleasurable " is a fond dream of mine. i long to be the good little girl You want me to be. to sit at your feet and love You with every ounce of my soul. i promise if You do find me i will be the bestest little girl you have ever had. i will love you from my tippiest little toe to the toppiest of my little head. please Daddy Sir  if you find me i promise to not be THAT bad and You wont have to punish me THAT hard.  Daddy Sir i promise to be the bestest tool for your pleasure alone. i dream of how your whips, crops, canes will feel against my bare flesh. my body aches for the tightness of the rope as you tie me up and suspend me.  please Daddy Sir dont keep me waiting too long. i am but only a servant of yours and long to be owned. Daddy Sir i promise to wait as long as it takes till you find me.

waiting patiently for you Daddy Sir,

your little pammy