lilone969


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	About lilone969 Reali life: i am a Bag lady, hostess with the mostess, caregiver, massage therapist, hummm need i say more? i am a most enjoyable submissive. wanting needing desiring a real life Dom - this lilone is a camelion social butterfly, loyal, 14 years in the life style, open minded.

i had the difficult task of deciding to forgo finding the perfect Dom in that I was

wanting to have a relationship wanting it to be Dom on sub but was unable to

connect with a life long partner.

i recently had the opportunity to reconnect with a submissive male and we

have begun renewing our relationship which is nice as no one wants to go

through life without a partner. i am so excited because we are getting married.

He being of the life style knows and understands my needs for wanting a Dom

In my life as i understand his need for a Domme. We have on occasion in private

begun playing the arena as a TOP to each other and life has proved to be quite

interesting.

We both understand and want the other to have the TRUE dominante that the

other craves, provided we communicate and are honest with each other the

relationship will work. Life at this time is good, i still seek the Dominance as

does he.

lilone

Lot times people see me on during work hours,

i am so sorry i can not accept a chat, cause i am

being a bad girl sneeking in while on the job.

sorry giggles and runs off.... lalalalalla

submission / dominance

both are a part of the life that possess me. yes indeed i am a well rounded woman, she smiles just look in the mirror. See that which is there, a heart of gold, a desire to hold, to be bold, to push the envelope. the truest essence is that i want to be possessed to be whisked away into the world where the man handles all things. Please do listen to my opinion for i do have a mind i am not a door mat who can not live life on her own.

~~lilone

You can not know that which i do not tell

in telling You will know

in knowing You will feel

in feeling You will anticipate

in anticipating You will dominate

in Yout domination i will submit

HAPPY VD DAY EVERY ONE !!
smiles ever so coyly.
~~lilone

i recently was asked what did i see in the mirror. ~~ my reply ~~

You ask what she sees, well Sir she sees the submissive within. The window of the soul opens to reveal that which is partly exposed. The sight of the lilone with her breast partly exposed to tease tantalize and entice the viewer. May He or she always enjoy that which is placed for viewing.

The lovely light white skin blushing ever so against the red. The red so distinctive definately indicates a being who is deliciously daring, challenging, exciting, bold and beautiful all at the same time

If the mirror were to speak back the dialogue would last a long time, who knows what would be told. Giggles and smiles seduction would be a major part of the conversation, submission, intelligently discussed, Joy and happiness in life. a life filled with acceptance of who she is and what she wants. Acceptance being the most important part of life. Knowing who You are and what You want is so important.

Respectfully,

~~lilone

hold me
fold me
take me high
let me fly

flog
cain
single tail
oh my

let me kneel in adoration
tell me what a good girl i am

i have waited
please Sir

two weeks latter the surgery was a complete success, i am sleeping no snoring no sleep aphnea awesome dreams and rememberitng them

recovery is looking good, i am going back to work half days enjoying life to the fullest yeah

life is good

WELL E/everyone it is on....
12:30pm Tuesday January 12, 2009
i will be having my surgery

lol i will be getting screwed three times by the Doctor.

to eliviate my sleep aphna, the Dr is going to implant a titanium plate with screws and my tongue will be anchored down to it.

needless to say this pain puppie is going to be hurting with non consential medical play.
Now when people say i have a screw loose, i can say let me check lol all will be fine all will be fine.

i have been instructed look at the positive do not look at the negative and enjoy the relief you will receive

Dont know when i will be back on line but i will be here.

respectfully

lilone

THANK YOU TO ALL WHO HAVE BEEN CONCERNED ABOUT MY SURGERY !!!!

our wonderful insurance has decided that to place three titanum screws in one's jaw and anchor down the tongue is considered to be cosmetic.

of course i am fighting it.

Surgery was scheduled for the 17th is now on hold ... dont know when it will happen but it will happen even if i have to pay for it some kind of way. i want to live

lilone

i want
i need
i desire
to be flogged
whipped
loved
cherished
cared about
hold me
pull my hair
rake a knife over my skin
love me leave me
care, share dare to be there
one day after another.
i am undergoing surgery on the 17th
am in an emotional turmoil
going crazy
knowing what i want
knowing what i need
desiring
tears spill
life goes on i
feel like i am going crazy
~~lilone

pamalia

The following questions were recently asked of me, What am i looking for? and what are my Interest:so i figured i would write the following Well let me begin by telling You a little about myself. my pet name as is indicated lilone -- i have also been called harley's angel and most recently the names karamel came about. i am 54 years old, very indipendent well rounded enjoy life to the fullest. i am a social woman i have lived life in the life style for 10 years. During this time, i was in a relationship 24/5 with the Man i fell in love with and wanted to live the rest of my life with. He indicated that was also His goal. That magonomy was an inportant issue. i indeed was delighted then another woman came along and He decided that Polyamory was what He wanted. me being the woman that i am -- had to make a choice. i was his prized, chosed cherished possession and i would not share the sexual side of our life. i stood my ground both feet firmly planted with much dispair hurt feelings i opted out. W/we have remained friends. i for some inate reason am unable to hate. Once i love i love. i have walled up in my own world far too long and it is time now to venture out to bring down the walls and try again. i want a freind, someone i am able to communicate with, someone i am not afraid to say what is need to be said, a lover, a confident, a protector, a masculine Dominate man who is giving one that is a King and wants a queen, i am very submissive and caring but i am in no means a doormat. i love exploring, i am unafraid of anything, i am unshameful, i am sensual, i am sexy and i am unafraid to say stop. Please know that if i do not like something i will say so but i am willing to try again just in case i might like it. hummm what else. well i am very social and brilliantly electrically alive. i brighten a room and when i am sad few know except those that are vey close to me. i am a touchy feely woman easy going loving, enjoys walks talks, movies, dancing, motor cycles, this touches briefly on me. Now if you so desire, please ask and i will be happy to respond to any questions, respectfully, lilone.

What is the difference between missing, wanting, or needing?

Do i miss, want, or need it?   What is IT???

The feel of Your hands on my body, the tautness of my body as i rise to the touch

The feel of your hand at the base of my neck ~~Master claiming His submissive
~~submissive giving to Him her complete essence all that she is; is His

Sweet remembrances: the feel of massive hands caressing, owning, thrilling, exhilarating my breast. Nipples aching to be claimed by the one Who owns them.

i can almost hear the sound of Your hand slapping on my ass. The cute lil no assatall ass Yours forever till the end of time. The adrenalin rush the pheromones exuding the essence of the session about to begin

the feel of the cold steel on the nicely pinked skin ahhh the etching yet about to begin ? give me flowers all over my body make me an adornment of the cherished time Your knife will spend with my skin. The dance of your knife and my body which made U/us as O/one for all to enjoy the sweet seductions exchanged in the kiss of the steel and skin.

Electrically alive the violet wand with a life of its own knows me better than many.   Placed in Your hands with the utmost control it has my body begging for more and more. Please oh please don?t stop Make me dance all over.   Allow me to give You the pleasures of Your soul that which is yet to unfold.

The leather spraying all over my nakedness, i can almost smell, feel and hear the sound of the floggers supple tethers. Kneading the tired aching muscles that beg for release my back, my ass, my thighs, and my feet covering every inch of my body.

Tears the saltiness of my being streak down my face. Uncontrollably they come, as i remember and how well do i remember the pain combined with joy, pleasure, as the exchange allowed U/us the coming together as O/one.

Do i miss, want or need ? they are all one in the same for me... for being submissive is what and who i am and always will be. i did not ask for this i was not trained. Submission is a part of my essence, which i give to You in love.

One day some way there will be One who holds on to all that i miss want and need,       ~~lilone~~

Hold me Daddie please, Your lilone needs to be held. i have been a good girl i promise i have. Wrap Your arms around me let me curl up by Your side make me safe. wrap Your fingers in my hair gently savagely pull yank may the nipples of Your lilone become hard. Allow my wet pussy to beg yes beg to beused please Daddie. use me love me be satisfied with me.

COMPLICATIONS:   Why does this lifestyle we lead have to be so fricking complicated. WHY can't society let us live as W/we want to live?   Why do so many who are in a committed relationship want to stray without telling the SOP that they are doing someone else?

O/oNE can never really leave once Y/you have lived the life style, once you have experienced the joy the satisfaction the trust the true power exchange, the excitement, life is never the same.

sighs, why oh why,   i know it is not mine to question but i do.

a request has been made for a new journal entry, i have not had the time, much has been going on. i should have come to state that, in not doing soYOU will say i am being definat, and need a good ass beating. well i am sorry. i did not comply. punishment of no phone calls has been Your result. Dont worry with the distance i am my own worst ass kicking machine. see i am writing.

The call from a mysterious stranger finally came.....
It began during the day while at work. There were many emails that were exchanged. Excitement grew to the point of not wanting to work. Anticipation.. smiles... it was joyful play... hummm she wonders what is this all about.

i had been called to task.... moi... topping from the bottom ... accused of knowing just what to say, yet at times i was lost truly the blonde one in me must have shown through.

There were questions, which were very thought provoking, titalating with excitement, i tried as i may to ruffle through the mail. Darned papers rustled too much. smiles Yes i was caught.

The call was enticing, an educated man of the world, on who travels, fluent in two languages, on the board of many directors.

a poly man a man who is Dominant enought to own three slaves.

i a lowley submissive brought much laughter and excitement to His afternoon.

i was just being i the ~~lilone~~ happy, joyous, free.

Do you wish to get to know me? a question asked hummm.... Expectations had been discussed giggles. Have none for in it is in having an expectation that the unexpected may result.

A Dom who remembers indeed how on earth would He have made it to where He is if He did not have a clear cut memory. A fine motor skill for listening for hearing all that is in between.

Read between the lines, oh i laugh for there is nothing between the lines it is just i.

Much excitement prevailed in the conversation Attention was brought out to fine details, my heart beats fastly as i type out these lines.

THANK YOU SIR

~~lilone

Bound, helpless, I lay here. My arms stretched over my head, my hands safely held in captivity. My legs spread wide, held securely apart with your spreader bar.Bound helpless, I lay here. Your blindfold on my eyes, enclosing me in our own world. The headphones you have placed over my ears carry me off further into the recesses of my own mind. I hear your voice over and over, I am delighted to discover that the tape recorder is not playing music, but a litany of your voice, whispering of things to come. Bound helpless, I lay here. The vibrator you have placed inside me is set to low. The fullness of it combined with the constant vibration keeps me aroused to a feverish pitch. Bound helpless, I lay here. And the irony is that in being bound, helpless, I am more secure than ever. I do not know how long I have lain here. I do not know if you are here, in the room with me. I am lost in aworld of darkness and whispers. Your recorded voice soothes me, arouses me, makes my breath quicken in longing and desire. I sigh as the tape automatically begins anew, and realize that I have indeed been here for quite some time, listening to our voice praising me with the knowledge that I am yours... yours to command and use.... your lover, your pet.... your slut. So lost in the world of darkness am I, that I start at the feel of your hand on my body. A soft caress,starting at the cheek, curving down to my lips, a gentle touch that makes my tongue reach out for your finger. Your hand moves on before my tongue finds it's goal, smoothly making it's way down my body, skimming my neck, brushing against my breast, petting my aching nipples, making them yearn for a stronger touch. Your hand does not dwell long as you feel the reaction of my body, straining up for more intense pressure. I feel the slow, soft caress move down, past my belly to the burning desire of my sex. I sigh and strain towards you, lulled by the gentleness of your touch...and then shriek as the caress turns into a sharp, hard slap between my legs. Your voice is still coming to me in the headphones, the words are burning into my brain. Your hand leaves my body and I whimper, wondering where it went, and wanting the feel of it again. I smile in pleasure as I feel your lips against my right nipple, sucking. Your tongue rolls around it, making my nipple stand at attention against the silky roughness. The unexpected sharp pain of a nipple clamp being attached to the now hard nipple causes a shuddering of sensation all the way down to my clit. You move on to my left breast, blessing it with the same treatment. I lay in my world of darkness, wondering what is to come next. I feel the speed of the vibrator being turned up a notch. My hips react by instinctively moving to it's rhythm. Your hand reaches out and stills my movement. I shudder and become still, torn in the desire to move with the vibration and in the need to be still as your hand has commanded. You leave me for a time, forcing me to focus again on the sensations I am finding in my own little world. I strain to hear movement, wondering where you are and what you are doing. All I can hear is the recorded sound of your voice, whispering about the pleasures you take from my submission to you. You tell me how you will use me and my spirit rejoices at the thoughts.
Bound, helpless, I lay here, lost somewhere inside myself. I feel a slight prick on my belly. What are you doing to me now? Another prick again, this time a bit higher. It is a sharp sensation. I become tense, trying to identify your action. By the time the sensation reaches my nipples, I understand that you have lit a candle. I shudder as the hot wax is dripped onto the tormented and clamped nipples. I moan, a wordless sound that tells you how lost I am in the sensations you are bestowing on me. The trail of hot wax is moving downward. As I feel the wax drip onto my belly my breath is taken away with a new sensation. It is another intense burning on my nipple. This time the sensation is deeper, more prolonged, and I realize that you are holding an ice cube against my nipple. I never before realized that the sensation of an ice cube can burn more than hot wax. You turn the vibrator on high and I feel my senses go into overload. The burning has disappeard from my nipple and the trail of hot wax starts it's downward journey again, settling onto the sensitive throbbing of my clit. I scream as I feel the wax drip onto the most sensitive part of my body. I feel myself floating, falling deeper into the world inside myself. From far away I realize that you have replaced the hot wax with an ice cube against my clit. I twist in my bonds straining, needing, wanting, aching and yearning. I feel your tongue against the ice cube, and as it melts under the heat, I cum, again and again, melting along with the ice cube, until it is just your tongue against my clit. Bound, helpless, I lay here, freer than ever before

Kneeling before You, resting on my heels, hands behind my back right hand placed above the left, thumbs interlocking with each other, head held high in pride, eyes lowered in a very flirtatious way Yours to enjoy, take me make me please fill in the rest of the story for me what would You have me do, Once You have received the gift of my submission the very essence that is the ~~l'ilone~~

The sweet sound of the words "good girl"

ah so nice so tantilizing. allow me to kneel at Your feet, knowing i am all that you want need

tell what a good girl i am.
wrap Your hands in my hair, feel my locks grasp it up in your hands pull genlty, no harder.

oh my as You desire Sir.

indeed as You desire.
let me be Your Good girl daddie. Please

this entry brings me to date, MasterinNature, i smile at You were not looking i was not looking but you tell me often "Get out of my mind young lady" but Sir it is You that thinks of me only you can stop.... for me well i think of You often i look at the time and think You are on the way back to Houston, i think what a wonderful meeting W/we could have had... oh well it was not ment to be for all things happen in the right time. there is always a reason, a season, and if we are lucky then there is the lifetime.

As i said on July 3, Lord Raistlin / Bear and i are friends, we will always remain connected it was the one word that has become a Hard Limit for Him that has kept us apart, but You know life goes on. Life continues and the search ended. i am here only for friends.

Why are there so many wanna Be's here? if it is NOT what you are why be here ... Life is to short, feelings are hurt. Feelings in the LifeStyle are felt ten times more than in the vanilla world. Please think about what your are doing when you do it.

to all that have invited me to chat i am so sorry the feature does not work here on my computer, i am not being rude in my not accepting. lilone / karamel

life brings U/s to many forks in the road, i made a decision and so that all will know. Lord Raistlain and i will remain friends. He is indeed a wonderful Master who is responsible for helping me to understand the many differences between being a slave and a submissive. it was with His guidance that i have the innermost understanding that i am a submissive woman. i may have the heart of a slave but i am not one. who knows what time will bring. Sir i am grateful for Your understanding, mutual respect and the time W/we have shared. RSVP is indeed grateful to have Your wonderful whip demo and i am sure looks forward to Your return. i know we would enjoy time together again lilone / karamel

How irronic, when no one whats you no one wants you YET when one is under consideration many messages come out. ah well such as life please know that i am underconsideration by Lord Raistlin, i was not asked to make this notice but i felt i should do so out of respect. i do not want any misunderstandings. Smiles His sweet karamel

SADIST / An interesting conersation came about that has provided me with much clarity in regard to the defination of what is a Sadist. When i was asked how i felt about being with a sadist, the only thing i could think of was a scene which i was afforded the opportunity to view. The Dom has sub strung up on the St. Andrew's cross, he grasp her nipples pulling them forward and smashing them on the reverse side of the cross, while at the same time stepping on her bare feet with His Motor Cycle boots. Excruciating pain was experienced. In my mind's eye the mear mention of the word Sadist brought forth the image. So my immediate reply was oh thats not for me.... it is not what i want in my life.

Clarity came forth when the lessons of life showed that 99.99% of all Dom's provide pain to the the submissive and no matter what the degree is in fact a Sadist.

Sadist, One who enjoys the inflections of pain on another person. Degree of pain is never discussed. It is the Sadistic Dom that is able to build the levels of pain for the submissive that is truly worth the titles.

Just an observation, no declarations of absolute truth are being presented. Yet in my perceptions, i will indeed be more willing to go a step above the playing field, growing with each administarations of pain and pleasure that the Sadistic One desires to provide me.

Some one came into my life and i am grateful ever so grateful. i throughly enjoyed the exchanges of conversation and laughter. it is indeed hopeful that someday i will find the one. was it a dream or was it reality. THANK YOU>>>>

M/many have stopped in to ask are you really real? Yes, i am for real. Yes, most certainly i enjoy being all that i am which includes being a real woman, a slut who know when and how to also be a lady, a business executive, a submissive, a pain puppy. i have a brain, am intelligent and i know when to shut up, giggles, yes You will receive my opinion if sought but i will not argue for i know it is Masters? place to make final decisions. i am no O/one?s doormat. i enjoy this lifestyle, i relish learning and stretching limits, i enjoy role play, i am a very sensual, sexual, seductive woman.

i am indeed real and know how to mesh all the parts of me together.

The submissive essence of all that i am encompasses the lilone fully

Oh so many looking in smiles i thank You one and all, i am beginning to percieve life through new eyes, so much to learn so much to do, my oh my whats a girl to do?

This life style W/we live is so irronic, when no O/one wants Y/you then no O/one wants Y/you and then wow so many want Y/you. i am free no One's property i desire it want it need it but no One has claimed, it there are many i have been chatting with. learning about people from all over and it is wonderful Thank You all....

one thing i always rememer is that this life style is a two way steet, TOTAL Power Exchange, Communication is the most important exchange anyone can ever have

The magic of the fire.
i lay helpless bound by mind control only for there were no bounds to tied me down,
eye contact was restricted, i must keep my eyes closed.? not knowing what is going to happen or when it will happen can be almost as exciting as what is about to happen.
the smell of alchol the cold tingle then the heated rush as the fire rushes accross the body, aching to arch daring not to move, joyous release in the magic of the fire.

Life goes on, happiness is setting in, the want need and desire to play is prevelant bu i shall not allow these wants to get in my way of enjoying life to the fullest, a cruise was taken recently and it was a wonderful magnificet experience. ? It was taken with friends in the life style and this made it all the better. ? If you are in my area of time stop on in.? smiles?

oh Sir it is irronic that when You had me in Your clutches yet You never played me ... never did any life style things with me. i should have known YOU were not the One. Yet i held on to hope as You planned to continue visiting me while playing with others. indeed the smoking hot body. The fact that You played with others wihile seeing me while allowing me to know Your family and Your life is not the issue for had i know YOU had no intentions.. had You been upfront with me i could understand Your posting of I have found the ONE while still planning to spend time with me next week end. Hope is diminished, now all i can do is wonder about HONESTY does it even exist in this world of BD/SM i wonder.

i undressed, stretched across the bed,
i purchased those curtain draw backs yesterday at the Salvation Army place here in town. Pretty darn fancy, gold braided and velvet. i hooked the four around the base of the bed upstairs then stretched, securing my own ankles, then twining the other two around my wrists i laid back. i tugged at them, holding me secure. i struggled knowing that at any time i could free myself then i put the thought away.

i lay there, skin prickling as the fan blew across me, making my nipples draw up to hard tight points, lifting my hips i was spread so that the fan blew across the top of my mound, then onto it, the lips swollen, slippery. then the fan would go on its way oscilating.. then returning.

i closed my eyes, focusing on the heat of my mound, the pulse that just beat in my nipples. Biting at my lips craving the gag, eyes shut yearning for the leather blindfold.
And i was smiling.

Smiling imagining You coming in the door, finding me restrained just so for You.
An open invitation.
A lewd, wanton, yearning, begging, stretched and straining body that aches for You alone.

i could see You standing in the doorway, watching me on that bed, eyes moving over breasts.. admiring them,
Your girls flesh... admiring them.
You would stroke me there, making me flinch then cry out as just the palm of Your hand slid from the base of my throat, tugging at my collar, fingertips brushing at the tattoo gracing the curve of my neck, then moving over my breasts... my belly...lower still... but missing me as i arch upwards, begging mutely for the touch, whimpering...nails raking the inside of my thighs, pinching just at the juncture of thigh and groin then retreating, scraping along my leg to tighten the ropes at my ankles... then stepping up and tightening my wrists.
i wonder now.... is there a shining lock there for You to release... and i sigh

i am moaning because no longer can i free myself,
i am secure... safe... as i wish to be.
Completely helpless and restrained.
Free to let go.

my head tossing on the pillows, undulating on the mattress
begging for everything, open to anything You desire. Aroused, enflamed... i cry out begging You... begging You.

On the edge i know that if You touch me with hand or whip i will be pleading for release... it is that sharp, that close. Shimmering just out of reach...
And i wait... suspended... restrained. Yours.

i came back to myself from all of this that i desire.. alone in my room.. able to release myself, on the very edge... from nothing more than these thoughts.

And i am smiling because this is not a fantasy. Or a wish.

Smiles the lilone hello to my friend in houston

     Bound, helpless, I lay here, lost somewhere inside myself. I feel a slight prick on my belly. What are you doing to me now? Another prick again, this time a bit higher. It is a sharp sensation. I become tense, trying to identify your action. By the time the sensation reaches my nipples, I understand that you have lit a candle. I shudder as the hot wax is dripped onto the tormented and clamped nipples. I moan, a wordless sound that tells you how lost I am in the sensations you are bestowing on me.
     The trail of hot wax is moving downward. As I feel the wax drip onto my belly my breath is taken away with a new sensation. It is another intense burning on my nipple. This time the sensation is deeper, more prolonged, and I realize that you are holding an ice cube against my nipple. I never before realized that the sensation of an ice cube can burn more than hot wax.
     You turn the vibrator on high and I feel my senses go into overload. The burning has disappeard from my nipple and the trail of hot wax starts it's downward journey again, settling onto the sensitive throbbing of my clit. I scream as I feel the wax drip onto the most sensitive part of my body. I feel myself floating, falling deeper into the world inside myself.
     From far away I realize that you have replaced the hot wax with an ice cube against my clit. I twist in my bonds straining, needing, wanting, aching and yearning. I feel your tongue against the ice cube, and as it melts under the heat, I cum, again and again, melting along with the ice cube, until it is just your tongue against my clit.
     Bound, helpless, I lay here, freer than ever before

AHH The world goes on. Katrina and Rita have left much devistation in our area the joys of the agencies that declare their help. one works all her life and then when help is need ask and well it just does not come. oh well just one more of the pot holes in the road they call life. completion someday things will all come to completion and there will no longer be any pot holes it will all be nice and smooth. sighs and awaits patiently

thanks thanks thanks to the many who have come and will continue to come to help here in the south with dameages from Katrina and Rita -- Stan go home some place else -- smiles lil humor is often needed....... the other day i smiled at one of the workers and simply said "Thank You" His reply was "You welcome" He was so grateful for those two lil words he said that so many people just dont know how to say them and it makes all the difference in the world. so again is say THANK YOU!!!

The lilone smiles, she has met many interesting and wonderful people on this site.
i see so many that say where are the "REAL" people well i have met many people that are real people
Are You the one? who know till You take a chance and venture out to see.

LilGirlLuvBug Female Submissive, 28	Lilsub1 Female Submissive, 36, Springfield, Massachusetts	liltoy4u Male Submissive, 29, LaHarpe, Kansas	lilbethany Female Submissive, 18, gainesville, Georgia
lillucy Female Submissive, 38, Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania	lilwindy982002 Female Submissive, 28	lilboy Male Dominant, 39, dover, Delaware	lillyof64 Female Submissive, 39, ontario
lilangeleyes24 Female Submissive, 24, Cedar Rapids, Iowa	lila Female Submissive, 41, Las Vegas, Nevada	lillone Female Submissive, 28	Lily Female Switch, 27, NW England

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