Liesle

I am so unsure about this... I have spoken to my husband about my desires to be utterly dominated. I want to be spanked, flogged, caned, ect... He is to afraid that he might hurt me. I think he is a sub at heart also. I want to be dominated, but I want a mind of my own. I could never be a slave, the way slaves were explained to me is that they give up their total existance to their master. I can follow orders, but if it is something I am against I wont do it, period. I am just frightened of alot of things. I don't know, I do know how much I have dreamt of being dominated by someone. I can remember as a preteen, my first fantasies of bondage. Wow, Memories!