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Respectful greetings to all authentic dominants and sadists who read this.

I happen to be a woman with particularly intensive masochistic needs. The fact of the matter just happens to be that pain in connection with strictness and dominance is like an aphrodisiac to me. I came to know it within the relationship to my previous master, in which it gradually grew, and became more and more intense. This relationship has been a long while ago. It was durging my university degree. He was to me like a fatherly friend with a profound dark side, and I loved him for that. After graduation I accepted a job which keeps me travelling through the world. My position requires that I ferquently change my place of residence, which is deadly to any relationship. But another dominant who is extreme in his sadism and at the same time truly loving and caring is not that easy to find. Such opportunities are rare and precious. They don't just manifest where ever I drop out of a plane. So the current situation is that I just happen to have contacts to different men at different places, who give me the pain my body needs, but cannot give me the emotional bond I would need for a deep love relationship. This situation is really very bad.

I am looking for a dominant who can again give me what I truly need. It can be a gentleman or a lady. The important thing would be that it needs to be an experienced sadist who is familiar with ways of inflicting intensive pain without doing too much harm to the body. It needs to be a person who derives pleasure from doing that. And, very importantly, it would need to be somebody who will love me for giving him or her that pleasure. It needs to be a cultured and well educated person with a sense for romanticism, who enjoys to take me out for evenings in the opera or in the theatre before or after using me.

For such a precious dominant I would be prepared to entirely give up my life to serve on a 24/7 basis, and to become a true slave. In how far it would be realistic to go for such an option would need to be seen after contact has been established. The emotional bond needs to be very deep for that. And it is also an economic question. In my present job I earn rather good money. If a dominant being very dear to me should ask me to give it up for him, I would be prepared to do that, in case if he would then be prepared to provide for me on the basis of a matrimonial agreement, which would also give me security.

An alternative option would be that I keep pursuing my career, and that a dominant would be prepared to accompany me. In such a situation there would however be no option for 24/7. BDSM would need to be practiced very decently, and, as my partner, the dominant would need to be prepared to participate in representative events.