I don't remember the last time I went into Sub space.  It's been a very long time and that is unfortunate   Hell, I haven't had an encounter with a real Dom in a long time.  It's stressful, I feel lost, unbalanced.  I have to so many pent up emotions without the proper released and I feel like a fish trying to swim on land.

I have to admit that I'm a little amused and surprised by myself recently.  At the same time, I shouldn't feel either emotion-I haven't had any sort of connection with a Dom since June nor have I had sex.  It's no wonder I feel so empty mentally and emotionally as I feel physically.  As I type this out I'm wet and I can't help but think of how easy it would be for a thick cock to be pushed inside of me, distracting me while I type but giving me what I really want. 

It's a bit hard to find a guy here to fuck.  That just comes with the circumstances, I suppose.  Yet, as much as I want to be thrown onto a bed, held down with one strong, large hard wrapped around my neck (not choking me but holding) and the other pressing a wrist down into the sheets, I want a connection too.  Which is also amusing since I've realized that I don't find dating an attractive prospect.  I'd much rather have a convenient relationship to include sex and "domestic" activities like shopping, cuddling, and all that.  I like the title of having someone with me but I don't like the weight that comes with it. Funny thing is, I want a Dom..possibly a Master, to belong to, to respond to, to need.  I just don't want a boyfriend with the attachments. 

It's a shame the boys I'm surrounded by aren't a little more mature and can't see what I offer.  I'm not a skinny little white thing and many can't look past that.  If only they knew how good it feels to be inside of me or how well I take care of those I feel for.  That would surely change their minds.  Alas, that's not what I want.  I need a man to fuck me and a Daddy to want me.

Not even ten minutes ago I was told that I need to be trained into a slave and that I couldn't handle a certain "Master" on here because he would train me and make me listen and obey. How many times do I need to state that I am not a slave? How many more abusive emails will I get? I'm tired of being told to go back to the "plantation and let the real women serve." My having an attitude is not a problem. The problem is men on this site thinking they need to break me when I don't need to be broken. Leave me alone if you have a damn problem with me!

I have no interest in taking a slave.  Please stop contacting me.

Since I'm tired of being asked what interests me every five minutes, I've gone and found a general list of different interests and rated from 0 (I have no interest or this is a limit) to 5 (I rather enjoy doing this already or it is something I would really like to do.)  Anything marked as 0 will be in bold font and in red, anything with a rating of 1 will be in bold and kept black, and anything with the exponential rating of 5 will be in bold and green font.  If anything that interest you hasn't been covered, feel free to ask.

SEX:

Anal Sex (get): 5
Ass Cheek Sex (get): 3
Butt Plugs (get): 4
Dildo - Anal (get): 5
Dildo - Oral (get): 2
Finger Sex (get): 5
Genital Intercourse: 5
Hand Job (give): 3
Including others: 4
Licking (get): 2
Licking (give): 2
Massage (give): 3
Oral Sex (give): 1
Phone

 Sex: 1
Sex in Public: 3
Sex Outdoors: 2
Swinging: 2
Teasing (get): 3
Vibrators (get): 5

BONDAGE:

Blindfolds (get): 5
Body Bags (get): 0
Bondage - full body (get): 2
Bondage - Intricate Rope (get): 3
Bondage - Mental (get): 1
Bondage - Outdoors (get): 1
Bondage - Private (get): 3
Bondage - Public (get): 2
Boxing / Closeting (get): 0
Caging (get): 0
Crucifixion (get): 0
Cuffs Leather (get): 5
Cuffs Metal (get): 5
Duct Tape (get): 0
Full Head Hoods (get): 0
Gags - ball type (get): 3
Gags - bits (get): 2
Gags - cloth (get): 2
Gags - inflatable (get):2
Gags - phallic (get): 2
Gags - tape (get): 0
Gas Masks (get): 0
Gates of Hell (get): 0
Harnessing – leather(get): 0
Harnessing – rope(get): 0
Headphone/Earplugs (get): 2
Masks (wear): 0
Mummification (get): 0
Padlocks (get): 2
Plastic Wrap (get): 0
Restraint Duration: 1-3hrs (get): 2
Restraint Duration: 3+ hrs (get): 0
Restraint Duration: multiple days (get): 0
Restraint Duration: overnight or full day (get): 0
Restraint in public - under clothes (get): 3
Restraints - Ankle (get): 2
Restraints - Arm leg sleeves (get): 1
Restraints - Hand Cuffs (get): 4
Restraints - Leather (get): 3
Restraints - Metal (get): 3
Restraints - Rope (get): 3
Restraints - Thumb Cuffs (get): 1
Restraints - Wrist (get): 5
Restraints - Wrist to ankle/neck/waist (get): 0
Silk Scarves (get): 2
Sleepsacks (get): 0
Slings/Swings (get): 0
Spreader bars (get): 3
Stethescope (get): 1
Stocks

 (get): 0
St. Andrews Cross: 0
Straight Jackets (get): 0
Suspension (get): 0
Suspension - Horizontal (get): 0
Suspension - Inverted (get): 0

S&M:

Abrasion (get): 0
Anal Dilation (get): 1
Anal Fisting (get): 2
Asphyxiation (get): 1
Bastinado (get): 0
Beating - hard (get): 0
Beating - soft (get):0
Belt/Strap (get): 1
Biting (get): 2
Caning (get): 1
Choking (get): 1
Clothespins (get): 0
Cupping/Suction (get): 0
Cutting (get): 0
Electricity - Tens Unit (get): 3
Electricity - Violet Wand (get): 3
Face Slapping (get):0
Fireplay (get): 0
Flogging (get): 1
Hair pulling (get): 4
Hairbrushes (get): 1
Hot Oils (get): 2
Ice Cubes (get): 3
Injections (get): 0
Nipple Clamps (get): 3
Nipple Torture (get): 0
Nipple Weights (get): 0
Paddling (get): 2
Piercing - temp (get): 0
Pinching (get):1
Punching (get):
Riding Crops (get): 2
Scratching (get): 1
Spanking - on all fours (get): 3
Spanking - over knee (get): 4
Spanking hard (get):0
Spanking soft (get): 3
Strapping - Full Body (get): 0
 

FETISH:

Abandonment (get): 0
Acrophilia: 0
Acrotomophilia: 0
Agalmatophilia: 0
Barosmia: 0
Being Recorded: 0
Bestiality (others): 2
Bestiality (you): 4
Body Worship (give): 2
Boot Worship (get): 0
Branding (sub): 0
Brown Showers (get): 0
Brown Showers (give): 0
Castration Fantasy: 0
Catheterization (get): 0
Chamber Pots (use): 0
Cock Rings (others): 3
Corsets (others): 1
Corsets (you): 1
Cross-Dressing (others): 1
Cross-Dressing (you): 1
Diapers (you): 0
Dirty Sex: 1
Douching (get): 1
Enemas (get): 4
Erotic Dancing (sub): 3
Exhibitionism: 3
Fear: 1
Feathers/Fur (others): 1
Feathers/Fur (you): 1
Foot Worship (get): 0
Golden Showers (get): 0
Gun Play: 0
High Heel Worship (get): 0
Humiliation (get): 2
Infantilism (others): 0
Latex (others): 0
Latex (you): 0
Leather (others): 1
Leather (you): 1
Lingerie (others): 1
Lingerie (you): 1
Medical Instruments: 2
Needles: 0
Oral/Anal Play (get): 3
Pain: 0
Piercing (Permanent) (get): 0
Posing for Erotic Photos: 0
Prostitution (real): 0
Public Exposure: 2
PVC (others): 0
PVC (you): 0
Recording Scenes: 0

Rituals:

Shaving (get): 0
Skinny-Dipping: 0
Sensory Deprivation(get): 3
Spandex (others): 0
Spandex (you): 0
Speculums (anal): 2
Spitting: 0
Supplying victims: 0
Swallowing Semen: 1
Taking Erotic Photos: 0
Tasting Yourself: 5
Tattoo (others): 5
Tattoos (you): 5
Tickling (get): 2
Uniforms (others): 5
Uniforms (you): 5
Voyeurism: 3
Wearing Fluids: 2
Wrestling: 0
 

POWER PLAY:

Bathroom use control (sub): 1
Begging (sub): 2
Behavior Restrictive Rules (sub): 1
Butt Plugs - public (sub): 4
Chastity Belts (sub): 1
Clothing choice (sub): 2
Cock Worship (sub): 1
Collar and Leash (sub): 3
Collars (sub): 5
Competition (sub): 1
Crawling (sub): 2
Eye Contact Restriction (sub): 1
Following Orders: 5
Food Choice/Directed Eating (sub): 1
Forced Dressing (sub): 2
Forced Exercise (sub): 1
Forced Homosexuality (sub): 1
Forced Masturbation (sub): 2
Forced Nudity (sub): 3
Forced Servitude (sub): 3
Given Away: 1
Hot or Sensual Waxing (sub): 4
Housework (sub): 0
Humiliation - Private (sub): 1
Humiliation - Public (sub): 1
Humiliation - Verbal (sub): 1
Kneeling (sub): 2
Lecturing (sub): 2
Manicures (get): 3
Manicures (give): 1
Name Change (sub): 0
Orgasm Control (sub): 3
Orgasm Denial (sub): 2
Personality Modification (sub): 0
Pussy Worship (sub): 3
Serving Orally (sub): 1
Sexual Deprivation (sub): 1
Sleep Deprivation (sub): 1
Speech Restrictions (sub): 3
Standing in Corner (sub): 1
Struggling (sub): 3
Symbolic Jewelry (sub): 4
Weight Gain/Loss (sub): 1

ROLE PLAY:

Chauffeuring (sub): 1
Fantasy Gang Rape (get): 0
Fantasy Rape (get): 0
Initiation Rites (sub): 1
Interrogations (sub): 1
Kidnapping (sub): 1
Medical Scenes (sub): 2
Other Animal Play (sub): 1
Physical Examinations (sub): 2
Pony Play (sub): 1
Prison Scenes: 2
Prostitution (pretend): 2
Punishment Scene (sub): 2
Puppy Play (sub): 1
Religious Scenes (sub): 0
Schoolroom Scenes (sub): 3
Serving as Art (sub): 2
Serving as Ashtray (sub): 0
Serving as Furniture (sub): 1
Serving as Maid (sub): 3
Strap on Dildos (sub): 2

I'm starting to wonder if anyone on here really reads what my profile says.  I'm getting tired of people not seeing the huge "FRIENDS ONLY" section of my profile.  It says that for a damn reason.  Either read properly or don't waste my time.