kittenlickin

Being a bit of a Masochist, pain and humiliation are woven into my being.  However, i am also head strong.  That being said, the two sides clash at times which causes discontent with my Master.  There was no humiliation for failure this time.  There was pain.  Though i have been fisted before, never anal fisting.  my punishment was to endure being fisted both vaginally and anally  together.  i should hope I am wise enough to not cause my Master to punish me in such away again.  But if He does i will not cry or try to pull away.  i have a great adoration and respect for my Master and will strive to learn from my punishments.  Your slave is so very sorry for her bad attitude my Master.  Thank you for Your patience with me.

Your slut, k

Oh what a supremely good night this is.  Today, I was able (FINALLY)  to complete a task.  i was faced with certain abandonment.  I cannot fathom being without my Master.  I was rewarded, though I must say...as great as the reward was, the pleasing of my Master far outweighed!  i am a messy slave, too chaotic and headstrong.  my Master has been very effective at breaking me down so that I can learn my proper place.  i lay my head on the pillow tonight a content slave.

I am so very fortunate to have a Master that cares for me.  I know that my punishments can and will be far more harsh if I do not learn to complete tasks in the time that my Master has designated.  That being said, I have been punished by being made to lick toilets.  I have had to submerge my face fully in the bowl.  As much as I disliked that, humiliation was to follow.  I was pissed on.  I cried, which made matters worse.  I was to become a toilet bowl.  Head back, face up and mouth wide open.  I am so very disappointed with myself.  I know my Master did not want to have to use this as a way to get me to obey, but it certainly worked.  Though it may happen again, I am working extra hard to ensure it doesn't.  I adore my Master and want so much to please him.  I need to work so much harder.  I keep saying this....but really I am trying.

Tonight I have been given permission to find new playmates.  So off to the club I go.  Wish my Master was going to be there.  But if I am a good little slut, I will be bringing a new toy home for him!!

Today I was punished by means of humiliation.  I did not complete a task.  I was to become a toilet slut.  I licked the rim and and licked the water from the bowl.  I also washed my face in the bowl.  As harsh as this may seem, my Master let me use my own bathroom.  The next time I will not be so fortunate.  

Today, I have made a new friend.  She is not of the same lifestyle, but lesbian and so very non judgemental.  I would love to be able to share her with my Master.  She seems as though she  may be open to it, but she has trust  issues.  I will continue to be open and honest with her.  

I Have displeased my Master greatly this weekend.  He took me out to dance this weekend and all I had to do was be nice and friendly to other females. But I was having so much fun I thought of nobody but me.  Bad, bad, bad sub slave!  And even though I disappointed and misbehaved, the punishment that was expected ( i am to be pissed on) was not to come.  Instead, my Master fisted me, over and over.  The pain was excruciating..undescribable.  And forced deep throat gagging.  I think I almost would have been pissed on.  But it seemed to have pleased him to know i was in anguish.  I will try so much harder for him!