I must admit, I'm looking forward to the move in December, it will be a whole new chapter in my life.  If I'm honest, there is 80 percent excitement, 10 percent nervousness, and 10 percent, OMG what are you thinking, starting over at your age.  Of course, these numbers change, depending on the day...lol.

Yet another boring night of homework, since finals are next week.   I must be a masocist...lol.  10 weeks until graduation, then BS program starts in January...then (wait for it)  ......  more homework.

After a discussion with some people today about America being at War, I have to wonder where backing our troops went.  It was there in WWII, my grandfather was proud of his small contribution for his whole life.  I remember sitting and listening to him talk for hours about the good times and the bad. 

What type of person does it take to put their life on the line in order to protect us at home, they certainly don't do it for the money. 

All I can say, is thank you all for all you have given us, the amount of dedication and honor shown in protecting your country and those that are in need of protecting around the world is truly appreciated.

Finals yet again, hope I graduate before I retire..blehh.

Relocating to Florida!!! Woot!...need..ermmm..nothing, although I was looking at some of the entries here and felt that I should NEED something.  Let me think, money, nope, got my own.  Home, Nope will have my own.  Car, well, couldn't relocate unless I had my own, so what's left?  Chocolate and Mountain Dew for the drive..okay..maybe, sooooo see I do NEED something.  *snorts laughing*

Alright, I admit it..they have me..i am hopelessly addicted...to Hawaii Five-0.

 Was at the store and a guy was asking for money..skiny, with that hopeless look in his eyes. Went in and bought a milk and doughnut for him, folks there were saying that he just wanted money for his next fix. Makes one wonder if others have ever been in that totally hopeless mode ever in their lives, maybe they would... have more empathy.
All we can do is offer our hand, you never know when someone will take it.

Life is busy.  School is going well, work is wonderful, even if there is a little more overtime than I would like, lol.  It's getting harder and harder finding some me time, but family and work come first. 

As a child, you look to your future and see nothing but possibilities of happiness.  An endless ocean of of hope and dreams.  Time magically slows.  An hour at the park, running through the long grasses, seems like days.  The sun seems to kiss your cheeks, blanketing you in it's warmth and light.  The moon looks over you, watching down on you as you sleep.  The feeling of power that the earth gives you, make everything seem possible.

At what point do those feelings disapear.  The sun and moon, turning into nothing but a way to tell the time.  The endless spinning of the earth marking the weeks, the years.  The magic becomming a myth.

Is it when as teenagers the nights and days are only an endless countdown to the weekends.  The light and dark only marking the next time we get away from the grindstones of our lives.  After all, once we get a job, and get out on our own, life only gets better, right?

The jobs come, then the family.  We conform, being the responsible adult.  Working for our children.  Needing that new car, that wii, to be looked on by others as a upstanding member of society.  But, who's looking on us?  Others that have the same outlook on life.  Others that have stopped looking up at the old friends we have forgotten.  Their eyes turning instead to the person in front of them.  An endless line of people, following along like sheep, with their eyes trained straight ahead to the one in front of them, instead of on themself.  Conforming to the ideal that has been ingrained in us, of the norm.

When does it stop?  Should it stop?  At what point do you step out of the long line of conformity.  Stop braying with the endless oceans of the normal ones. 

For me, it stops now!  It's time to jump out of that group.  To look in the mirror and see me.  Not the others around me or care that they are looking at me.

How do you find your inner self?  Can it be done?

I think it can.  From this point forward, I am going to be true to myself.  Does this have to be a major life changing event?

I think not.  It starts small.  Listening to friends when they tell you, you're special, unique.  Be the one that doesn't join in the squawking about others that are different.  Embrace the differences of all Natures creatures and learn from them.  Find the music in your heart..be you.  Be different, be unique...and look up, find the sun, and let it warm you again, be blanketed by the moon.....soon the magic will return, bit by bit, piece by piece, and you will find you again.

Let me start by saying i'm sorry to all those that complained about women wanting money on this site, How bad could it be?  i got bored and changed my search to include subs...i saw them wanting to get their electric bills paid, rent..etc. *snorts laughing*  How are they paying for the iternet?  Who falls for this crap?  A little advise..1.  get a job.  2.  pay your bills   3. if you can't pay your bills...get another job. 4. repeat..repeat repeat.  Yes...i am submissive.  A single mother.  I don't have alot of material things.  I have something even more precious..friends, family, and self respect.  i'm searching for the "independent subbie label" lol. 

Being a people watcher i tend to read alot of the profiles.  i truly enjoy seeing little bits of how different minds work.  i've seen alot of references to fakes.. if the definition of fake is using someone elses picture..then nope i'm not...however, it seems that alot of people consider you a fake if you're honest about just looking for friendship and maybe some conversation with like minded people...if honesty makes me a fake i'm a twenty four carrat sugar crystal..lol...life is short...eat it with a spoon and go back for seconds.