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	About kekojones12 So I'm pretty much new to this. I've been on here, mostly browsing, but now I'm truly ready to find and serve my Dom. Here's some of the scenarios of me serving my Dom that I've thought about: 1. My Dom takes me out to dinner. He picked out the dress and surprised me with some new lingerie, which he tells me to put on. At dinner, he leans into me and orders me to go to the bathroom and take off my panties. A little while after returning from the bathroom, he orders me to spread my legs and he plays with my clit. Just enough to arouse further and keep me wet. After we leave, I beg to suck his cock. 2. My Dom comes home after a long day of work. It wasn't a good day. When he walks in, I'm naked except for a pair of sexy stiletto pumps. I go to him, and take off his jacket. I loosen his tie. I unbutton his shirt a little. He goes and washes his hands and comes to the dinner table, where the meal I cooked for him is waiting. We eat. Afterwards, he tells me he has some work to finish. After an hour or so, he calls me into his office and orders me to kneel next to him. I kneel and I wait for him to finish work and when he's done, I attend to his sexual needs. 3. It's a lazy Sunday late morning. I'm sitting on the sofa reading a book (most likely a romance novel). My Dom has his head resting in my lap and is also reading a book. I'm naked of course. Every so often he turns towards my pussy and blows, knowing that it turns me on. He can smell my arousal, which continues to grow. But I patiently wait for him to give me permission to play with my pussy in front of him and cum. ------ I really just want someone that I can take care of. Cook for them. Keep a clean house for them. Serve them. In return, I want to be taken care of. Not necessarily monetarily. I have a decent job and I'm really self-sufficient. But I want to feel loved, protected and secure. Jennifer

You just came home from a long day at the office. I am in the bedroom waiting. I am wearing your favorite nightie with nothing underneath.

I'm already so wet. My nipples are so hard now, and I want to touch them. I want to pinch one nipple with one hand and the other hand is playing with my pussy. Waiting and not being able to touch myself, is torture. And you know it. I can hear your smooth measured steps on the wooden floors. You stop in the kitchen, open the fridge and look through the shelves, making me wait.

The rules are simple. I am never allowed to wear bras or panties while in the house. I am never allowed to touch myself without your permission, and you rarely gives me permission. And when you comes home, I am to wait for you in our bedroom. I try to be a good girl, but sometimes forgiveness is easier to obtain than permission.

I can hear you now walking to the living room. The TV comes on. It's Sportscenter. I could from the theme song.

You're making me wait longer than usual. You never sit and watch TV. Tonight you are punishing me. I just couldn't wait until you came home. home. Yesterday, I just couldn't wait! It was after you called me, and told me about all of the things you were gonna do to me. I was too revved up. So now you are punishing me. You didn't do anything to me. Just watched TV, while my hands were tied behind my back.

To Be Continued

I'm not saying that I'm perfect, but... I'm really silly and goofy. I was dating this guy and walked into my bedroom. I pretended to be asleep and then jumped up and yelled boo to scare him. I do silly stuff like that.

So I ended things with my Dom. I wasn't feeling a spark. And now I wonder did I not give it enough time? Did I not try hard enough? Was I too scared of what happens next that I ended things too soon? So many questions. But no answers. I started this journey in July and its had some great moments. Some bad ones. I'm still hopeful that I will find that dom that I really connect with.

So here's what I don't understand... men you say they need sex 7 or 8 or more times a day. How is that possible? I mean I guess it's fine on the weekend. But honey I work. And u take public transportation so I'm gone for 11 or 12 hours a day. So if I get up an hour earlier have sex. Then go to work come home, fuck, eat, relax, fuck, do some housework/finish up work, fuck, fuck, sleep. So I can fuck a max of 6 times a day. It's almost logistically impossible, right? Am I missing something?

So I come to the realization of what a good dom should be or rather what I like in a dom. And it's really small and really simple. I like when they check up on me. Saying good morning. Ask me how I'm doing. Even if it's not the dom I choose. It makes me feel special and cared for. And when it's my dom that does things like this, I want to work harder to please him.

Ok. So yesterday I vented. And today I'm over it. I can understand when a guys says he's busy. I get it. But I expect him to try to find time. And I think he would if he was truly interested interested me. I mean I'm assuming that's how it works. I'm that way. I want something I go hard for it until I get it. But I guess people are different.

I don't get it. You say you like me. You say you want to spend time getting to know me. You say you want to hang out. You initiate making the plan. And then you cancel, almost always at the last minute. You say let's meet after work and then you say you're stuck in a meeting and you can't meet. If you were truly interested you would have asked me to meet later because you wanted to see me. You would have at least called and apologized. You would have at least asked about my day. But no. No text. No calls. You're not a dom, you're just a scared asshole. And I'm so over this. I'm so over you. I'm just done.

I must be doing something wrong, or I have the worst because every man that I have been interested in ends up having family issues and can't spend time with me. On another note, one of these guys says he has to move away but he is willing to come back to visit ND see me. I don't know. Part of me feels like I need a break. But I'm the type of person that doesn't like to give up. I set out with a goal to find a love with a dom. But I'm starting to feel like that won't happen. Should I date a vanilla guy who will never understand my need to be a sub?

Ugh I have the worst luck. Not 1, not 2, not 3 but 4 doms I have gone thru and you would think I would have gained some experience as a sub, but nope! Nothing has happened. I just realized I'm gonna have to kiss you lot of fucking frogs. Ugh.

Guess what!!! I'm single again. I was hoping I wouldn't find myself here again but here I am. I really liked my dom, but he just didn't have the time and I didn't have that kind of patience to wait. I feel guilty. I feel sad. I feel relieved. And then I feel shitty for feeling relived. I really didn't want to let go. I wanted to serve him in all ways. I was so excited. I can be with several guys not in the lifestyle but that's not what I want. But I don't want to go through what I went through before. I have never opened myself up to other people. It takes me time. I think that's what I probably love best about the lifestyle. I'm forced to jump in and open up. I'm forced to do things that terrify me. Being vulnerable when I've spent my life behind a wall. I'm scared to jump in, but I've got to give this a try.

Day, I don't know how long I have been in this relationship. I get the guy is busy. And I have tried being patient. Maybe patience isn't my strong suit. Maybe I'm too high maintenance. Maybe I'm just too needy. Or maybe I just should have dated a bunch and become super jaded like my friends. Whatever it is, it makes me sad, angry, and frustrated.

I'm starting to realize that being a sub is kinda hard. Don't get me wrong I love being a sub. But I'm so used to taking charge of things. I go after what I want and it's hard just waiting on waiting on someone to take charge. For example, my dom is taking things too slow for me. And it makes me wonder if there's a reason for it. Like is he married? Is really that busy? Will things ever change? It's driving me crazy! I want to ask him what's up with us? But is that even my place to ask?

I've come to the conclusion that emotionally, I'm a lot of work. I truly can't handle and/or just plain don't like this feeling of being abandoned when I don't hear from my Dom in like 3 hours. It's literally driving me crazy! And now I know why I have stayed away from relationships for so long. I'm feel crazy. I am all over the place. I'm angry. I'm hurt. I wanna cry. I wanna yell. I wanna throw my phone. But I know I won't do any of those things. I will keep my feelings to myself. Because he could simply be busy with work. At this point, I'm wondering if I'm with him because I've set this goal to be involved in this lifestyle or if there is some sort of connection to him. I fucking hate this. I think life was simpler when it was only about the sex.

So I'm on my way to visit family and friends for the weekend. I'm so excited to see them but at the same time I'm a little sad that I won't get to see Daddy's. Right now I'm in lust. We haven't even met. A few calls here or there and a lot of text messages. One of his messages told me to not wear any panties but to keep my legs closed because he doesnt want me to show my pussy to anyone besides him. And I swear in a crowded bar, I moaned so loud! I was so scared and nervous to submit to anyone. I was scared mostly because I thought that I would end up feeling bad about myself but instead I feel so fucking sexy and so confident and empowered. Is this what I'm supposed to feel like?

So my dom, whom I shall Daddy from now on, asks me to panty-less while I'm away visiting family out of state. I've gone panty-less before. You know when you have no clean underwear or any time left to find a clean pair. Normally I throw on a pair of jeans or slacks. Today I'm wearing a short dress, that if I don't pull it down enough, then it's my naked ass touching the seat, which right now is a CTA train seat. I feel so naughty. Like can the guy across from me see Daddy's pussy, which is now pretty wet. Did the dude walking up the escalator behind me see Daddy's naked ass? I honestly thought that I wouldn't be as obedient as I am being now. But this is easy. I'm scared about the other things he will request of me later. But being owned makes me feel so sexy. I feel much more comfortable in my skin. Like right now, normally I would be looking at the skinnier girls on the train and know they are more beautiful than me. But now I feel like I'm so much more sexier than them. Is it possible to feel better about ur self when ur owned by a dom?

So I ended it. In the end, I would never be able to give him want he needs. I would never be enough. And I would feel like I failed him, and I'd rather him be happy.

So I have chosen my dom only to be faced with the reality that I won't be able to please him in the way that he wants. It's not that I don't want to. It's just that I physically can't be there all day Monday thru Friday to serve him. A girl has to work. A girl has to eat. A girl has to have her nails and toes done. I suppose we could get a sub to serve him when I'm at work. But I feel like I've failed before I've even begun. It's upsetting that it won't be me serving him and that my time with him would be regulated to the weekends. So my question to the Internet.... In the words of The Cure, Should I Stay or Should I go?

I feel like the BDSM version of the Bachelorette. I have given my roses away and said goodbye to some doms. I feel really guilty because aren't I essentially just stringing the rest of these men along? But it's in my best interest to take the time to know all of these doms. I don't want to hurt or upset anyone. But I don't want to put all of my eggs in one basket. This is very very confusing. To be pulled in so many directions. I feel special and sexy because of the attention, but at night I feel really guilty. I didn't think it would get this complicated. Or am I just complicating things?

Soooo.... Dom#1 must have read my journal and sent me a message. I don't know if I should talk to him. He really hurt me. But then I did hurt him, inadvertently. Does two wrongs make a right in this case? And can we really start over?

I'm starting to wonder if I'll ever meet my dom. I sound like an overdramatic teenager.

So I've started my foray into this lifestyle. I am so scared, nervous, and excited! So far there have been a few missteps. I met a Dom. He asked if I would be loyal to him. I said yes thinking he meant in the future and continued to talk to other doms. Apparently he meant that I should have been loyal to only him. Whoops? When I met Dom#2 I was so excited. We were going to meet. We were going to spend the day together. I was so happy and excited that I went and bought panties for this man. I got a pedicure and manicure. I searched for his favorite ice cream. He texted me the day of and said he wasn't coming. And called me a liar. Blocked my cellphone. I have no idea what I lied about. But I would have liked to know what I lied about. Like what if it was a misunderstanding? He just lost out on knowing me.

So I'm slowly coming to realize that I am desperately wanting a man to service. I want to take care of his every need. Bad day at work? I want to rub his shoulders and back and tell him it's gonna be okay. I didn't do what he told me or I was being a brat? He pulls me over his lap pulls down my panties and spanks me. We are driving in the country, and he tells me to go down on him or he tells me to spread my legs and he plays with my clit. I want quiet Sunday mornings, where he lays his head in my lap and he's reading a book and I'm reading a book but I'm also playing in his hair. He is sitting at the table trying to work and I crawl over to him, naked, kneeling waiting patiently for him to finish so that I can attend him

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