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Hardone4u101
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Mixedcouple101
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I THINK I AM READY TO BACK ON THE Market now.........Still looking for women only......... I looking for Her
No men please!
Have you seen her? "Who" Ms. Right.
That first encounter, as my eyes glaze a pond her eyes as they lock on, i look down because I was to shy or was it out of respect, hum......is that you that makes my heart beats fast and slow at the sametime..... The one yet opposite but yet simliar at the sametime. That kind of sensaul Domme, playful, loving, understanding, firm but yet not over bearing...... That one i want to talk too......Want to serve..........That one she just knows I really don't have to say a word other than what's in my heart.... That one spanks my butt when need be but never out of anger.........And the most important part that you have time for me.....That's a plus....And part about being my lover will fall into place......Is she out there? Can I find her? This AD for her you ask me what i am looking for.... That's her, the one that understands me and my need to serve and please. Have you seen her?
now that's poetic justice!
These are some things about me...I am a very loving, outgoing, complex, Libra. So you know that I am very up and down. There somethings I can live with and things I live without. I am also into S&M. That means "when i need to be punished, I need it". I am a pain slut. So if I need to be beat every week then i need that. I am looking for someone that is that understands to those needs and feelings..... I also wear my heart on my sleeve... which sucks very much BAD.......Thats how I was taught......that sucks too... I have my bad habits too........Like when I go though somethings, it shows on my face......." So, my life becomes a wreck....So pay attention to that part of me........And so forth, My number one pet pevi no race play....i will punch you in your eye........ I feel very strongly about these things....... I was taught you charise your submission/sub itself/themself not put it/them down..... So if you into that miss me with that homie don't play that" I am not your doormat don't hang your shit on me..... Now we can play around ...... but don't take it out me.........miss me with that b/s.......... I am a very open minded person that is looking for Mistress, a Couple or Poly family. I would like that both party be Dom but if not that's fine with me. I am looking for someone that is in D/s and loves it and that is looking for a slave/sub. Because i am going to need someone that can calm this mouth of mine and believe me i really do have one. But it's a good one. I speak my mind so if you don't like that then don't send me a message. So if you are that, one, step up to the plate and talk to me i don't bite.
My Ideal Person: Must have experience! Because my highest peaks is the kiss of whip so this a must. I don't trust my body to anyone. So I am Look for a Loving understanding outgoing and playful Domme and a lover all in one. I believe in SS&C that was safe, sane and consensual. I live by those rule so hope you do too. i am going to put a age cap on who i am looking for now. But You must be to between the ages 30- 45. I can't do the older people anymore. too much of a stress and plus i am too young for it. If you don't know how to laugh at yourself and have fun.......please don't send me a message. I am to much of a free sprit to be messing around with someone who just want to keep me cooped up and not let me out the house. Still have much love for those people. I need someone that i can talk too. And want to come home too. Not want to run every five seconds saying what have i got myself into.
What type of things that i am into and exploring?
Blindfolds, Candles, Nipples Clamps, Collar/Leash, Electric toys, Floggers, Gags, Harness, Knife Play, Leather Cuffs, vibrators, dildos, St. Andrews Cross, Whips (cat-o-nine, etc.), Biting, Bondage, Chastity Devices, Confinement, Shaving, Electrotorture, Genital Torture, Hair Pulling, Wax, Knife Play, Physical Humiliation, Piercing, Sensory Deprivation, Spanking, Suspension, Role play and list goes on.
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The problem with creating new memory's is that you have let go of the old ones....... And that where I am at right now........... Do they think about me as much I did them...... we they ever say they was sorry......... being Domain doesn't mean you are right all the time........ that's why it's role play.......there come a time when role play is not going to help when it come to things you just don't understand...... She sends me to talk to somebody else and it's my fought when I don't want to say a word to her at all but go to he!!.......... You wasn't listening to me before why you want to listen to me now........ Sound like my mother and how she use to cover up everything........ go talk to somebody else or doctor............ Or better yet talk to your brother............. the shit is sounding so much the same as when I go up and I am wondering is you my Mistress or my mother............... Just now I am not looking back no more......... what to the point in being a realis ship that you can't talk to your mate it time to go.......... I love to talk and talk alot......... sometimes about nothing but most of the time it's about or how I am feeling good or what just going on with me and family............. why me.............a that's why we haven't been together in years.........I am tired trying to make something work that just want work........... |
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It been a long time since my last time i wrote in my journal................. And i always have a lot of things on my brain........... Cause i think about everything all the time and how i can do better and make things better.......... That might just be my problem there....... Somethings might not be broke so why i am trying to fix something that not.......... Other than that i wouldn't feel this way.......... Emptiness............ It's a lonely feeling but i know it so while and it's seem to my best way to truly understand myself...............I had to let it all out to finally get to see how i got to this place............Just because i don't remember half my life doesn't mean i have to be a ass hole.......... And just maybe that's my main problem trying to get something back that i can't feel for anymore because i don't know how to feel for it because it's gone.............. And just maybe i need to move on and make new ones.......... That i will remember in stead racking my brain for old one's..........It really gives me a head ache every time i do.......... So i don't need to push something that hasn't came back in three years, so i need to let it go and start my new life......... With new ones...........So starting for this day and so forth there will be new ones and no old ones for me look back on...... that's past i can't remember and let it go.......... 2017 will be the year for me and how much i change and how i right my wrongs......... tee tee has a new favor and nobody is going to stop that......... As i grow to love myself more the more can express it......... I know i am going to love it......... No looking back.......... . |
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This week has been the most that I can take for one week.........it started with been in sick to all of this mess...........two weeks ago.......... |
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Things I have learned......People say they want to get to know but what to know just the little things about you.......... Its becoming more and more a surprise to me every day....... that people fall in love with me and you don't know me......... you couldn't tell me what I love to save your life........... So if people really want to know should really take the time to know a person........ I understand take the time out to watch the daily habits of ones person and not know what they thinking........... Thats clear to see but people are not all what you see sometimes......... sometimes its there thought on simple things and people don't even get that........... it makes me sad sometimes to even think about that at.......... I was born to be who I am...... I love to see a smile on a face and know that I put it there......I am a people pleasure but in different ways..............for an explainable I love to make people car's sound good and I am not happy unless they are happy....... I am not saying that play writter, does my happiness depends on them being happy, Yes but, it just pleases me to know that they do love it...........And it similar to this lifestyle, also but different........My happiness does depend on the happiness of others weather it, my Mistress, Daddy or Mommie it does.......... There are no second guess to something like that........ I know that..........So keep in mind when you really want to get to know a person ask those important question........... whos your favorite playw, whos your favorite writer, what your favorite book of all time.........Who you think you could be if you had another chance..............Whos was love in music? Stuff like that go's a very long way............keep that in mind...... |
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What to when no means no?........ I have been taken advantage of for the last time and I have a fear that the next person try to take advantage of me I will snap and hurt them really bad........... why is it that people can't read? ....... No Men means No men............ thats saying no means no and respect that decision that I made............that's why I am so mad........... so if male no need to talk to me at all............... you want to keep your body part..........stay away........those words are so easily to obey........... |
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Why is that people don't know how read these days.... I could understand not seeing and miss it but by pass it is just worst.......I am so happy I am back with mommy and daddy so don't have to worry about anything. Anymore...Happy now.... looks at butt really needs a good kicking.... lol I might like that... |
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Today's journal post for today. Off work two days in a row. Because I wanted to play knowing my back wasn't completely healed. So I am in the house for couple of days until I can walk. Sir technique reminded me so much of vin`s I spent most of yesterday thinking about it.. while I was wondering something, like did train under similar people or what... I am still in shock today from just thinking about it. Now if I could find a Ma`am the same technique and style I will be so good. Sits and thinks is vin really guiding me to the right person so I could be happy again. There's some hope there, I kinda think so. One day when I not looking she will appear. And they say when the student is ready the teach will appear. I think I and going to wait for my teacher and I am still going to be the will student ready to learn. Until then, I fill my life with staying busy so I want have to talk about that need that I miss, sighs. |
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I have one of the weeks when you really don't know what to do but. Most of time I go with my first thought but lately I have be second guesting myself. What an idea? And when I do th
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I really sick and tired of the bullshit if you send refence or past simple testes that are give please do contact me. I am not looking for male so don't not write me. I am not looking of some that new to the lifestyle. |
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| Age: 30 |
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